I came here to try and meet some like minded girls and to lose the feeling that I am alone as well as to make some new friends and learn more about how and why I do what I do. Well it hasnt been long and I think I might have met a new friend here that just might get the ball rolling. I hope so and I hope the ball is a snow ball. I'll let you all know how it all goes, right here in my journal. Stay tuned!!!
I have new roomates, but I am still not in a place where I can dress. Anyway, I have been putting my life back together, and in a few weeks, I might have some time to be Lacy! :-)
After 10yrs. of talking about it I finaly did it. The first week end of Oct. 09 I made the trip to Vegas and the glamour boutique where Stephanie did a full tilt makeover with instructions on me. The entire process was great fun and I purchased several outfits and several pictures were taken ( the ones you see here). I cant thank everybody at the boutique enough for the way they put me at ease and the great results of thier talents.
Afterwards I was picked up by my best friend and another friend in a limo and the adventure began. I had felt that the experience of going out in public would be a terrifying and also sexualy exciting event that would give me some feeling of being a woman but the resulting emotions were much different. It was terrifying but because of the fact that I now found myself in a packed In n out restraunt escorted by my two GG friends and having summoned the courage to do so I found myself feeling more of a man than ever before. I was 10' tall and bullit proof and 100% sober. There were no problems and if anyone noticed I wasnt female they hid it well. Being normaly submissive I found this feeling of manlyness strange.
Now it was back to the hotel, the Stratosphere, for more pics then off to dinner at Roxy's. This also went well and we had a great time. I noticed I was pegged a few times there but nothing that was demeaning or insulting. From there we played in the casino for a while till my companions decided it was time for me to take my submissive role back to our room.
A big success with surprising results. Not what I expected but much better. The ballsiest thing I've ever done lol.
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I just love the fall, with the seasonal changes going full tilt! Nothing like taking a walk on a sunny, blustery day, with my skirt swishing in the breeze and my heels clicking on the pavement!
So Mom comes in today talking about rumors of how I am so confused. Calls me her son and a boy....and how that's who I am, have and always will be no matter what fantasy she presumes I'm living......... The amount of stress this misplacement of soul and body is causing is getting uneccessary. Why does it have to be only the ones who are experiencing the unorthodox things in life the only ones to truly understand how real it is?
I don't normally write journal entries. I'm at a serious crossroads in my life. I'm seriously planning to transition much further. Breast augmentation, FFS, hormones, etc. I want to go to everything but SRS.
I spend all the time dreaming of transitioning further. A couple of major events in my life have changed allowing to me to do this now. I have had a very sucessful career as a man, but at a stage I am wanting to start over as a woman, even if it means giving up quite a bit.
Although I've dressed and wanted to be a girl since age 5 like the rest of us. I don't have this awful feeling as a woman trapped in a man's body. I want to become a "woman" to feel the sexual attraction of men wanting a girl. Yes, I know the term autogynophilia.
Is it wrong to want to transition because that is what drives me? Many seem to say Shemale is a derogatory word maybe because of the sex industry. For me, that is my desire (fetish?). I want to be one of those TS girls advertising her services.
Am I too old? I am concerned I won't look realistic / passable enough and should stayed in a mans body and dressed as a girl sometimes but not as seriously.
If I do breast augmentation, FFS, hormones, is it just the logical progression to SRS? Am I kidding myself I could/should go that far but not fully?
I realize I am being blunt and direct. I know a lot of girls have discussed these same things internally.
I would really advice from girls who have asked themselves these questions and have lived it.
It's labor day, and I rented a hotel room for tonight & Tuesday so I don't have to deal with my asshole roomate. I am looking for a new place to live. I should have never told him about Lacy because he has been making my life miserable since. It got so bad that I decided that it would be better if I rented a room for the next two nights. At least I will be able to dress and hopefully relax before my first classes begin on Thursday. These last few months have been very stressful period because I am also trying to study for my LSAT and apply to law school.
I am now officially Daniel Aloicious Saint James. I still have to get a new Social Security Card, Drivers License, etc. But it's been recognized by the court!
I'm really digging the new name.
Once I get around to getting my new ID, who wants to meet for drinks? I was thinking the "St James Tavern" on 4th? ehh ehh?
I may not get it until Monday. It depends on my schedule and such.
I just moved. My new apartment was available yesterday, and I spent the last two days moving. I am wiped out! I posted an ad on Craigslist to try to hook up with others, and I didn't even sit down to relax until Midnight.
Moving sucks. I am so sore right now that even if I got dressed up, I would probably pass out like a prom date! LOL
Progress
Toni November 9th, 2009 10:52 pm MSTI came here to try and meet some like minded girls and to lose the feeling that I am alone as well as to make some new friends and learn more about how and why I do what I do. Well it hasnt been long and I think I might have met a new friend here that just might get the ball rolling. I hope so and I hope the ball is a snow ball. I'll let you all know how it all goes, right here in my journal. Stay tuned!!!
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Lacy Inheels November 6th, 2009 5:44 pm MSTI have new roomates, but I am still not in a place where I can dress. Anyway, I have been putting my life back together, and in a few weeks, I might have some time to be Lacy! :-)
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First Outing
Toni November 3rd, 2009 3:02 am MSTAfter 10yrs. of talking about it I finaly did it. The first week end of Oct. 09 I made the trip to Vegas and the glamour boutique where Stephanie did a full tilt makeover with instructions on me. The entire process was great fun and I purchased several outfits and several pictures were taken ( the ones you see here). I cant thank everybody at the boutique enough for the way they put me at ease and the great results of thier talents.
Afterwards I was picked up by my best friend and another friend in a limo and the adventure began. I had felt that the experience of going out in public would be a terrifying and also sexualy exciting event that would give me some feeling of being a woman but the resulting emotions were much different. It was terrifying but because of the fact that I now found myself in a packed In n out restraunt escorted by my two GG friends and having summoned the courage to do so I found myself feeling more of a man than ever before. I was 10' tall and bullit proof and 100% sober. There were no problems and if anyone noticed I wasnt female they hid it well. Being normaly submissive I found this feeling of manlyness strange.
Now it was back to the hotel, the Stratosphere, for more pics then off to dinner at Roxy's. This also went well and we had a great time. I noticed I was pegged a few times there but nothing that was demeaning or insulting. From there we played in the casino for a while till my companions decided it was time for me to take my submissive role back to our room.
A big success with surprising results. Not what I expected but much better. The ballsiest thing I've ever done lol.
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Geena Beth White October 25th, 2009 11:10 am MDTI just love the fall, with the seasonal changes going full tilt! Nothing like taking a walk on a sunny, blustery day, with my skirt swishing in the breeze and my heels clicking on the pavement!
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Delilah September 24th, 2009 10:03 pm MDTSo Mom comes in today talking about rumors of how I am so confused. Calls me her son and a boy....and how that's who I am, have and always will be no matter what fantasy she presumes I'm living......... The amount of stress this misplacement of soul and body is causing is getting uneccessary. Why does it have to be only the ones who are experiencing the unorthodox things in life the only ones to truly understand how real it is?
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Jessica Linden September 13th, 2009 10:28 pm MDTFrom the world I must hide
What's the real me on the inside
For if they knew I'd look like a fool
And in the end it would only bring ridicule
There's the part that I let them see
Still, there's a much deeper part of me
A part that wonders what to do
Everytime that I think of you
It's the part that cries in the night
And longs for everything to turn out right
Remembering when you went away
And how I still love you to this very day
So I'm still here all alone
Just sitting here staring at the phone
Hoping it'll ring, you'll be on the other end
Just called to say "Hi, I miss you my friend"
I'll go to bed thinking of you
For tomorrow I shall start anew
A whole new world I shall find
And leave the old one far behind
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Jessica Linden September 13th, 2009 10:18 pm MDTThinking of you still today
About the time you went away
I wasn't enough to keep you around
You had a job in another town
You had to go to get on with your life
But for me, it cut like a knife
You didn't look back heading for the door
But if you had, it would have only hurt more
Said you had to go, and I understood why
At least you didn't say "Goodbye"
As much as I needed for you to stay
If you did, I'd just be in your way
I see that it wasn't all you
In all honesty, it was me too
Through it all, I need you to see
I'm eternally thankfull that you cared about me
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Lexy Alexis Mccloud September 12th, 2009 5:08 pm MDTI realized I spelled it wrong...Duh.
autogynephilia
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At Crossroads
Lexy Alexis Mccloud September 12th, 2009 2:59 pm MDTHi Girls,
I don't normally write journal entries. I'm at a serious crossroads in my life. I'm seriously planning to transition much further. Breast augmentation, FFS, hormones, etc. I want to go to everything but SRS.
I spend all the time dreaming of transitioning further. A couple of major events in my life have changed allowing to me to do this now. I have had a very sucessful career as a man, but at a stage I am wanting to start over as a woman, even if it means giving up quite a bit.
Although I've dressed and wanted to be a girl since age 5 like the rest of us. I don't have this awful feeling as a woman trapped in a man's body. I want to become a "woman" to feel the sexual attraction of men wanting a girl. Yes, I know the term autogynophilia.
Is it wrong to want to transition because that is what drives me? Many seem to say Shemale is a derogatory word maybe because of the sex industry. For me, that is my desire (fetish?). I want to be one of those TS girls advertising her services.
Am I too old? I am concerned I won't look realistic / passable enough and should stayed in a mans body and dressed as a girl sometimes but not as seriously.
If I do breast augmentation, FFS, hormones, is it just the logical progression to SRS? Am I kidding myself I could/should go that far but not fully?
I realize I am being blunt and direct. I know a lot of girls have discussed these same things internally.
I would really advice from girls who have asked themselves these questions and have lived it.
Thanks girls. Lexy
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Lacy Inheels September 11th, 2009 12:21 pm MDTThank you all for your sweet comments. Just today, I found a new place to live, and I couldn't be happier!
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Jessica Linden September 11th, 2009 12:40 am MDTI've heard it said so many times
That time heals all wounds
But nobody says anything
About the memories it leaves behind
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Labor Day 2009
Lacy Inheels September 7th, 2009 3:06 pm MDTIt's labor day, and I rented a hotel room for tonight & Tuesday so I don't have to deal with my asshole roomate. I am looking for a new place to live. I should have never told him about Lacy because he has been making my life miserable since. It got so bad that I decided that it would be better if I rented a room for the next two nights. At least I will be able to dress and hopefully relax before my first classes begin on Thursday. These last few months have been very stressful period because I am also trying to study for my LSAT and apply to law school.
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Kristi M Waters August 25th, 2009 6:47 am MDTThanks to all that have been so kind.......
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Allison Colline Pallitio August 21st, 2009 12:56 pm MDTWell here we go, I might as well start keeping a diary.
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Daniel Aloicious Saint James
Dan™ A Saint James August 6th, 2009 3:52 pm MDTI am now officially Daniel Aloicious Saint James. I still have to get a new Social Security Card, Drivers License, etc. But it's been recognized by the court!
I'm really digging the new name.
Once I get around to getting my new ID, who wants to meet for drinks? I was thinking the "St James Tavern" on 4th? ehh ehh?
I may not get it until Monday. It depends on my schedule and such.
Anyway, that is all. :)
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Moving Day
Lacy Inheels August 2nd, 2009 11:10 pm MDTI just moved. My new apartment was available yesterday, and I spent the last two days moving. I am wiped out! I posted an ad on Craigslist to try to hook up with others, and I didn't even sit down to relax until Midnight.
Moving sucks. I am so sore right now that even if I got dressed up, I would probably pass out like a prom date! LOL
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