Journal Entries for Karen R White
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May 30th, 2010 10:05 pm MDT
Still down and lonely, spending most of my free time working in the garden and in the pool.
Untitled Post
August 28th, 2009 2:09 pm MDT
I am still sinking further into depression since the gang rape, tomorrow will be three weeks and trying to get through this alone is more than I can take
Survival
August 22nd, 2009 12:16 pm MDT
Well it has been 2 weeks today since they raped me. I wish that I could quit crying and feel clean again. God I need a hug.
Still Hanging In
July 5th, 2008 10:28 pm MDT
Life has been tough but I am still hanging in. I have increased my hormone dosages since I have not increased them in almost a year. Right now the hardest part is the loneliness. I am tired of being treated like a leper just because I am a preop mtf transexual.
Is It Worth It
April 11th, 2008 8:24 pm MDT
Sometimes I find myself wondering, is it really worth it. The loss of friends, employment and security. It is not enough that society takes it out on those attempting to transition but also on those who openly support us. I know that I can not go back but will I be strong enough to carry on with my transition. In the 5 months since going full time I have lost my wife, daughter, friends, job and home. I have made some new friends but they also feel the prejiduce once the public finds out. Is this fair to them, should I continue to put people in this position?
Job
March 26th, 2008 4:37 pm MDT
I finally found a job. It is part time but at least I now have my first job as Karen and maybe after a while it will be easier to find a full time job. I sure wish that the hormones would work a little faster but I guess I will just have to wait.
Full Time
December 12th, 2007 10:49 am MST
Now that my name and gender marker has been changed, I am finally full time. Even with all the stress of changing document names I feel like a giant weight has been lifted off of me. I now get to live as myself, Karen, and not the lie that I had to live as for 53 years. Now onward and upward with the rest of my transition.
Another Step
November 21st, 2007 9:58 am MST
Time for my next step in transition. Going to court Monday the 26th of November for name and gender marker change. I will be full time after that. Hopefully surgery is only 1 year after that.
New To Transition
August 17th, 2007 4:24 pm MDT
After jumping through all the "hoops" with my therapist, I finally got my hormones back in March. The doctor that is overlooking my transition knows my therapist and is also one of her personal doctors so I guess there will be good communication between them. All is progressing well, have had 4 laser treatments and 10 hours of electrolosis so far. I do wish that my hair would grow a little faster, I hate wigs. I know that this will take time and I have waited 52 years so I want to do it right.
