Journal Entries for kelli
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August 22nd, 2009 2:44 am MDT
As time goes on i find myself more and more attracted to the trans gurls.. wich leaves me spending alot of time soul searching and trying to figure out why and exactly how this happened. most of the time the more i try to make sence of it the more confused i get. my little girl fantasies about my future always included some big tough cowboy "or something like that" that would come along and sweep me off my feet.. lol.. ill thank waltdisney movies for that sad idea later.. anyway life being what life is "frequently strange, crazy, completely upside down" and perfectly fun and wonderfull , has brought me to now. so the big questions.. who am i? where am i going? and what the fuck happened... so the best answer ive come up with is that im bi... i had spent most of my life strait, but durring sex ive always closed my eye and fantasiesed about my partner being a woman.. ive tried to imagine spending the rest of my life with another woman and all i can think about is how much i would miss the strong supportive arms of a man holding me and keeping me safe. not to mention no toy really makes up for the real " snoopy" but then back to the breasts and short skirts and the long goergous legs, and the incredible soft sensuality of a woman... so i guess thats why i love cd's.. its the whole increddible package. And the dating pool just got so much smaller.. damit.
