Journal Entries for Tiffany M Z
My life
October 29th, 2008 3:14 pm MDT
Hello everyone. It's been some time since I've been here so I thought I would give an update on my life so far. I'm sure not that many people will read this but it helps me to write about it. I am still in the early stages of transition. I am getting laser hair removal and so far it's worked great. I hopefully have only a couple of treatments left and i will be hair free. I'm on a low dose of estrogen for now. It is not enough to physically change me but it's just meant as a base for now. I am having a hard time taking the next step. I really do not know how my life will be. If I'll lose family and friends, or who will stay by my side. I still do not have enough money and I will not be able to transition at my current job. So, I guess what i really saying is this is going to take a while. I would love to just take the next step and I know i will in time, but for now this will just have to do.
My Journey
November 2nd, 2007 4:10 pm MDT
Oct 31 2007 is the date that I begin the journey of what will be my new life. That was my first appointment with a therapist. I have been struggling with my feelings for some time about becoming a woman and I have gotten to the point where I can't live like this anymore. I know it will be a long trip but the destination will be worth it. I am in the very early stages and I hope to share my story with anyone who would like to hear about it. My first appointment was great. Just getting to talk with someone and be so open was wonderfully exciting. I was not judged for the way I felt and this person was very helpful. Of corse the one down side is that it was a one time visit and I will be seeing a new therapist in a month. I knew this going in but the therapist is well renowned in this field and her cost is a little high. She did recomend me to a colleague who is also a specialist in the field of gender. I have also been reading some books and of corse going on-line. Yesturday I checked in on getting laser hair removal and found it is not as bad as I thought. I can't wait to start that this winter. My next set of goals will be to continue to lose weight (don't we all seem to have that goal :-) Get a new wig, maybe blonde this time, i'll let you know if I am having more fun with it. work on my female apperence, ie makeup. I can't wait to meet some other t-girls and cd's who want to hang together or chat. The next phase for me will be to rid my place of most male stuff. I have pretty much stoped using products for men and only use stuff for woman but there are a few other things I need to get rid of. After that it's just taking everything step by step. I am not looking forward to telling my family and friends but it will have to happen and if I lose any of them it will hurt and i just hope they understand that it's something I need to do. I plan to write in my journal often and I hope you enjoy reading them. Bye for now. Tiffany :-)
