Nina Martin
Journal Entries for Nina Martin
24 Hour Marathon
June 8th, 2008 6:21 am MDT
Hello everybody!!!First I'd like to start by thanking the Academy, my fans....oh yeah...Miss Tina, Seema and James.It was Miss Tina who is on alt...encouraged me with words of wisdom when I posed the question of being nervous going out my first time. It was Miss Tina who said: "honey, if you wait till you feel you're 100% passable...you may never make it out"...Words to live by.So after many contacts, I found a wonderful professional makeup artist named Seema.Seema has been doing bridals, actors and so on for 20 years. I contacted her with the delicate question of whether she could help me.Not only was Seema up to it...but she also offered herself as my personal shopper.I showed up at her studio where she first started doing an ancient technique called "threading". It is a way of removing facial hair. We only worked on my eyebrows...but WHAT a difference.Next she spent 2 hours walking me step by step and creating a "look" for me based on my skin and how I want to look.To think all this time I thought I knew what I was doing.She showed me so many different ways of applying makeup...learning that "little is better"...I'll never be a glam queen, but I want subtle touchups...and Seema was terrific.I highly recommend her to anyone in the Ottawa/Montreal area.After the makeup, I got dressed and did something I've never done before. After thanking Seema, off I went to my date's house.I drove to Cornwall...you can see the pic here I took while driving...Oh, the freedom...Nina driving, no cares in the world...I just loved it.This marks the very first time Nina has ventured out in public.I got to Cornwall, met my date whom I met off alt. James is a very nice guy...and every bit a gentlemen.Our plan was to drive to Montreal to visit a cd/tv/tg bar called Cleo's.He was every bit the gentlemen...opening doors for me, offering to drive to Montreal...So off we went to Montreal.After parking the car, he opened my door for me, helped stop traffic on St. Catherine's....so we could cross. Let me tell, you, I was nervous as hell, but I learned a valuable tip from somewhere....while trying to pass, don't look down, look everyone in the eye...show no fear. And I did not...It was exhilirating to walk past everyone....In Montreal...no one judges...everybody is there for fun...We got to Cleo's and what a DRAG!! Not literally, but the place was quite quiet.The show was great, had a couple drinks...but I just stared and stared...I always felt i'm like a 3 or 4 out of 10...but these girls at Cleo's....sheesh...they're like 12 out of 10.One freak was kind of hitting on me...which is kind of cool...flattering...but a freak...so we decided to leave at 2am.Driving back to Cornwall, got the shock I hadn't expected...the RIDE program was out in full force with 8 cops stopping every vehicle...Oh am I glad I wasn't driving...but the police looked at me...were courteous, and let us on our way.Yadda, yadda, yadda, it's 8:36am...and I'm just getting home.Tired, happy, thrilled, alive are just some of the words.What a day in the life of Nina...WOW
The journey has begun
June 6th, 2008 5:16 am MDT
Hello everyone,Well, today was finally my day...my day to sit with a respected gender therapist.We sat for 1 hour...mostly I talked about who I am, where I'm going and so on.The first session is understanding the process of the next 3-5 sessions and an assessment is made.We had a great talk, walked away with a couple great books.We talked everything from childhood, where I am now, hormones, srs, my ex, whether i sit on the toilet or stand (lol), but just about anything and everything was covered.My next session is June 16th, and cannot wait for the real process to begin.Oh, and other good news?I got a big package from Frederick's Of Hollywood...7 new dresses, 4 sets of new heels, jewellery...Oh what is a girl to do?Nina
Do you believe in horoscopes?
December 22nd, 2007 5:02 pm MST
1 week ago, my horoscope (Aquarius) said this:You will be asking a lot of deep questions this week, questions of the "why am I here?" and "what does it all mean?" variety. You are more likely to get answers after the sun changes signs on Saturday, so get mundane tasks out of the way before then so you have time for some serious thinking.They say things happen in threes, here's what's happened this week:First off, big step in the transformation of Nina is the booking of a meeting with a therapist who specializes in transgendersSecondly, bought a house which I'll move into in January.Finally, to cap of this week, guess what happened today?Remember, I'm staying in a hotel right now until I move into my new place.So, I got up this morning, took a long hot bubble bath, got my self all dolled up, took extra time with my makeup and got dressed.The day was progressing nicely for a few hours.Around 4:30, there was a knock at the door.Without even thinking, of course instinctively I opened the door.It was then, I realized Nina had come face to face with someone for the first time.And do I care?Nope, I'm smiling with a ear to ear grin.Ahhh, life is grand, isn't it?Merry Christmas to allNina
An early Christmas present
December 20th, 2007 6:44 am MST
Yesterday was a momentous day for Nina - nothing really big - not a gift, or spending money or rushing around malls to get that "perfect" gift for someone.No, this special gift is for me.January 17th of 2008 will be a big day for me as I will be having my first meeting with a therapist.She is highly recommended as being the top transgender specialist in the city.I cannot wait to sit down with her and talk about where Nina is today and where she wants to be.I also bought a new house yesterday - and this house is all mine.I cannot wait to make my bedroom as Nina sees it...to come home to every day and to sleep as Nina.Ahhhh, the pieces are all coming together.To everyone - have a safe and happy Holiday Season, and wish everyone good health in 2008.Nina
A day of shopping AND self-BDSM
December 20th, 2007 6:43 am MST
Knowing that today was going to be awful for weather, Saturday would be my best day for shopping.Walking through the malls I see the frantic shopping, the shear panic of getting this years "in thing" and just plain madness.As I roamed around the mall, I had two purposes for shopping, yet both of them were for yours truly - Nina.My first stop was a lingerie store.This was the first time - with no wedding band attached, actually buying lingerie for myself. None of this buy discretely over the internet and coming in a brown package.To browse the lingerie was exhilirating as I knew it was for ME. When the sales lady came over asking for help, I said i didn't think so. She asked if the purchase was for someone special, and of course I said yes. As she wheeled around, I said: for me. The look on her face kind of said it, but you think I care what she thinks? Nope.I bought 2 very sexy lace black teddies with matching thong and a very nice white one as well.I can't describe the feeling knowing these items for me.The second purchase I had or made was an epilator. For all the ladies out there, is there any other form of self-bdsm? Holy crap!!.For those who don't know, it's like an electric shave but it pulls hairs out by the roots. It's loud, it hurts, but a nice smoothe skin is felt afterwards.So the day ticked along as usual and now I write this email having slept yet another peaceful night as Nina. I woke up, though alone, very happy, content and so care-free.Life isn't just about how you make it, it's about taking what you've been given and doing it.One other thing: Gaff's suck!!!
My first night
December 7th, 2007 4:34 am MST
I lie here in bed thinking i'm the luckiest girl in the world. I know half of the girls out there will understand while the half will wish they were me. Why? After years of marriage, I'm now living on my own, yesterday was the first time ever that i did two things: stay dressed all day and night. When married, I always had to sneak an opportunity, but now that i'm alone (and happy as can be), i get to be Nina. My afternoon started when i got my MAC makeup package. I'm sure you girls know all too well, there is a HUGE difference between the good stuff and the average stuff. Well let me tell you, the feeling afterwords of seeing the finished nina in the mirror. Even I went WOW!!!! If you get a chance, visit MAC's website. You can "buy" an entire look, which I did. Not cheap, the "look" cost $500, but it should last awhile. I sat as nina, had dinner as nina, went on the computer as nina for nearly 8 hours. And then, when it was getting late, did I get back into my male personna? NO WAY. I slipped into my black nightie, stayups, kept the breast forms in all through the night. To sleep all night as nina was so special, AND i get to do this every night. Ahhhh, so this is living!!!! Happy, Happy, Happy. What can I say, NINA has arrived
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