8pm - Midnight (yes, YOU CAN get there earlier....plus after - parties....) FemmeFever HOLIDAY PARTY (read below)Welcomes YOU! The ONLY TG party closed to the public & Open Exclusively for all CD's, TG's, TS's, Friends of the TG Community, Significant Others & Approved Admirers (email me). NOT open to the general public - very DISCREET and safe ..and.. SO MUCH FUN!! In addition to Great People, DJ, Hot Food , Dancing, Contests/Prizes, Karaoke, New DJ, New Very Private, Very Friendly , lovely location, Always a GREAT turnout, Full Bar Service w Drink Specials for the Night! Pre-party reduced professional makeovers at the nearby hotel room. Party drab/dressed or share a get ready or stay over room at the nearby motel (email me for info on that OR post a message to share at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/femmefever ).
Holiday Party: Please wear something Green, Red, Blue or White! Optional but appreciated! Also optional but VERY appreciated: Bring an UNWRAPPED TOY which I will be collecting and donating to John Theissen Children's Foundation (Help Sick And Underprivileged Children; http://www.jtcf.org/).
PARTY @ Kelli's Bar (alternative Lifestyle Bar) : 2955 Merrick Road - Bellmore, NY 11554. (516-765-3892) See http://www.kellisbar.net/ for directions! Private parking lot in FRONT and Plenty of Street Parking. Kelli’s
is the ONLY place open at that hour– so very discreet! Park any side street or ON Sunrise Hwy. DO NOT PARK in Lot on SIDE OF BAR (obey parking signs!) (For more Party Information or to RSVP: EMAIL Karen@femmefever.com or Call: 516-520-0380. Join Us; We always have a GREAT time! $20 At The Door. SEE WHO We Are at www.FemmeFever .com
RSVP is not required to show up but PLEASE RSVP if you can attend, it helps to know how much food to get!!!!!
Share a room, Book a room or stay over nearby?
2 hotels are expecting us: Closest and least expensive (where I will be doing makeup - yes you can change in my room) Gateway Inn www.gatewayinnlongisland.com (1780 Sunrise Hwy, Merrick, NY 11566) 516-378-7100 $99 per room or $89 per room with AARP or AAA). You can ask the desk what room Karen FemmeFever is in - they have my permission to tell you.
Or use Best Western Bar Harbour Inn (5080 Sunrise HighwaySunrise Hwy, Massapequa Park 516 541-2000 $112 IF YOU MENTION you are there every month and or less with AARP or AAA. Let them know if you prefer a "drive up to" room rather than a lobby room...
Professional MakeUp Applications $50 by Karen FemmeFever BY Appointment being done at Gateway Inn Hotel. Contact me to book one! Or, ask them for my room (Karen FemmeFever)
FemmeFever Parties RESUME - New Location, Lower Cover Charge, New DJ - Guaranteed Discretion and FUN! Always PRIVATE TOTALLY SECURE; ALWAYS A GREAT ATTENDANCE!
11/11
8pm - Midnight (plus after - parties....) FemmeFever Welcomes YOU! The ONLY TG party closed to the public & Open Exclusively for all CD's, TG's, TS's, Friends of the TG Community, Significant Others & Approved Admirers (email me). NOT open to the general public - very DISCREET and safe ..and.. SO MUCH FUN!! In addition to Great People, DJ, Hot Food , Dancing, Contests/Prizes, Karaoke, New DJ, New Very Private, Very Friendly , lovely location, Always a GREAT turnout, Full Bar Service! Pre-party reduced professional makeovers at the nearby hotel room. Come drab/dressed or share a get ready or stay over room at the nearby motel (email me for info on that). @ Kelli's Bar (alternative Lifestyle Bar) : 2955 Merrick Road - Bellmore, NY 11554. (516-765-3892) See http://www.kellisbar.net/ for directions! Private parking lot in FRONT and SIDE OF BAR (BEFORE BAR) (go For more Party Information or to RSVP: EMAIL Karen@femmefever.com or Call: 516-520-0380. Join us, we always have a great time! $20 at the door. SEE us at www.FemmeFever .com PICTURES
RSVP is not required to show up but PLEASE RSVP if you can attend, it helps to know how much food to get!!!!!
Share a room, Book a room or stay over nearby?
2 hotels are expecting us: Closest and least expensive (where I will be doing makeup - yes you can change in my room) Gateway Inn (Sunrise Hwy, Merrick 516-378-7100 $99 or less with AARP or AAA). Or use Best Western Bar Harbour Inn (Sunrise Hwy, Massapequa 516 541-2000 $112 IF YOU MENTION you are there every month and or less with AARP or AAA.
FemmeFever Parties RESUME - New Location, Lower Cover Charge, New DJ - Guaranteed Discretion and FUN! Always PRIVATE TOTALLY SECURE; ALWAYS A GREAT ATTENDANCE!
11/11
8pm - Midnight (plus after - parties....) FemmeFever Welcomes YOU! The ONLY TG party closed to the public & Open Exclusively for all CD's, TG's, TS's, Friends of the TG Community, Significant Others & Approved Admirers (email me). NOT open to the general public - very DISCREET and safe ..and.. SO MUCH FUN!! In addition to Great People, DJ, Hot Food , Dancing, Contests/Prizes, Karaoke, New DJ, New Very Private, Very Friendly , lovely location, Always a GREAT turnout, Full Bar Service! Pre-party reduced professional makeovers at the nearby hotel room. Come drab/dressed or share a get ready or stay over room at the nearby motel (email me for info on that). @ Kelli's Bar (alternative Lifestyle Bar) : 2955 Merrick Road - Bellmore, NY 11554. (516-765-3892) See http://www.kellisbar.net/ for directions! Private parking lot in FRONT and SIDE OF BAR (BEFORE BAR) (go For more Party Information or to RSVP: EMAIL Karen@femmefever.com or Call: 516-520-0380. Join us, we always have a great time! $20 at the door. SEE us at www.FemmeFever .com PICTURES
RSVP is not required to show up but PLEASE RSVP if you can attend, it helps to know how much food to get!!!!!
Share a room, Book a room or stay over nearby?
2 hotels are expecting us: Closest and least expensive (where I will be doing makeup - yes you can change in my room) Gateway Inn (Sunrise Hwy, Merrick 516-378-7100 $99 or less with AARP or AAA). Or use Best Western Bar Harbour Inn (Sunrise Hwy, Massapequa 516 541-2000 $112 IF YOU MENTION you are there every month and or less with AARP or AAA.
From the critically acclaimed blog writer Ana Cristina Garcia and after a very long hiatus, here her new blog entry that will make you fall asleep in boredom.Here are some of the media’s reactions to this literary accident:
“Same old, same old”The Cross-dresser Times
“Not the same story again” Drag Magazine
“If I read one more story like this from her I will commit suicide”The TG Herald
But why take their word for it when you can verify yourself?Take the plunge…
An Unscheduled Visit to the Therapist
The last time I had been out to the therapist was on December of 2008 and since then I had only been out one more time, last week, with my sister-in-law.That outing was cut short and did not get to do all we had planned.Therefore, I was left a bit anxious to be out again and luckily I got to go out, on my own, just a few days later (Monday, October 19).Following are the accounts of this unexpected but satisfying time out and about as Cristy.
On Sundays temperature dropped down dramatically (for tropical standards) and I decided that if it continued on Monday I would dress and try to go out.The reason I would prefer a cold day is that I can wear clothes that cover up my legs and chest without having to shave.I had dreamed about going out in one of the warm mini-dresses that I had worn, with tights and high heels, for a photo session last January.I was undecided between the gray and the brown sweater-mini-dresses seen on the links below (from January):
My wife was out of town so I could not ask for her opinion so I emailed a couple of photos in each outfit to my sister-in-law and she recommended the brown.I was all made up and ready to put on the dress when I got her response and took her advice.I wore it exactly as I did in January except that I wore a brown top underneath to cover the white corset since the dress has a see-through knit in the middle, as you can see in the photo above.I also wore a different watch and styled my hair a bit different, without the bangs.One thing that made a big difference in my appearance was a piece of advice I got from my s-i-l regarding how to put on makeup base by pressing the sponge against the face rather than rubbing it.I totally recommend that, as the coverage is more even and the pores are less evident.I could not help to think that the first time we went out with her it was me giving makeup advice to her and now, after paying more attention to her appearance (which she says was motivated by seeing how her brother-in-law could make himself into a convincing woman).I guess that there is always something to learn, even for a veteran.
This is how I looked after returning from my long-awaited little adventure into the real world:
Notice the different hairstyle and wristwatch.Other than that it is all the same as in January.
Once all was in place I put plenty of Ralph perfume on me and I was ready to head out at around 5 p.m.My plans were to drive to the mall and wonder about for a while but then it occurred to me that I could stop by the therapist’s office and say hello to the secretary with the excuse that I had lost my cell phone and their number with it.Remember that to her, I do not live in town and come every so often to visit family and when that happens I try to schedule and appointment.
As is usually the case when I go out, I always have someone on call in case I run into trouble.That person is usually my wife but since she was out of town, I called my sister-in-law and she was up to it.
I got there and took a final check on my makeup and hair before getting off the car.Once I was ready I got off the car, walked to the doctors office and rang the bell.It was about 5:10 and I knew the doctor would be seeing his last patient of the day.To my surprise, the door was opened not by the secretary but by a female psychologist that works there too.I said hello and noticed that the secretary was on the phone as we smiled at each other.She seemed pleased to see me and after hanging the phone up we greeted with the traditional kiss on the cheek.
I sat down and she said that it had been a long time.I replied that I had lost their telephone number and therefore had not been able to set appointments on previous visits to town.She then gave me a card with the numbers and I put it in my purse as I commented that maybe I would call before I returned home (in Miami) to set an appointment.She said that the last patient of the day had canceled and that the doctor could see me right then.I replied that it would be fantastic but I did not have any cash on me to pay for the session.She said that she would go upstairs and ask the doctor if I could pay later and he said that he would see me in five minutes.As you can imagine, this is not what I had planned but I thought it would give me the chance to interact a bit more as Cristy only this time with someone who knew who I really was.The secretary offered me something to drink and I declined her offer arguing that I had just met for coffee with some girlfriends.She then asked if I had cut my hair and I replied that I had only styled it differently.As a matter of fact, since it is a wig, I guess that I have always had it the exact same length up to a micron.We chatted about this and that and then the doctor called for me so I got up and went up the stairs.He came out to greet me and said that it was a pleasant an unexpected surprise.
Conversation with the doctor was very casual an informal, this time.We talked about what I was wearing and I told him that I was a bit self-conscious given that I was wearing a mini-dress but he said that I looked very good in it and that my legs looked ok in tights and a little thin if anything.He also mentioned that the only thing that looked a bit suspicious were my hands but that for a tall woman that would border on the big side.Keep in mind that for our culture, at 5’ 6” without heels, I am a tall girl.If you add, at least 4” heels then I am much taller than the average female here and even those who are as tall or taller then I, are a lot thinner, most of the time.All in all, I am lucky to still able to pass for a taller than usual woman.
We talked about many topics including his family, specially his grandchildren.I felt right in character all the time and the only odd thing was a call that my male side had to made to the secretary to cancel the appointment “he” had for Wednesday.I could not afford two appointments so close to each other and since the issues of my male side are under control there was not much need for that.For those who are not aware from previous postings, Cristy does not go to therapy to be treated on cross-dressing or anything else.It is just a mere excuse that her male side cooked up along with the doctor so that she could have a safe environment in which to interact and where everybody else thinks of her as a genetic female (or so it seems so far after 13 visits over a 3 year period).
When discussing how would we handle payment for the session he said that my male side could bring it or that Cristy could send payment with someone else but that would be difficult.It occurred to me that if I had a chance to dress the following Thursday (my dressing window would end on Friday) Cristy would drop by to pay herself.I am hoping for this last option, as you can imagine.
Before the session came to an end, I told the doctor that I had plans to go to the mall and that I needed him to check if there was anything suspicious.Again, all of the times I have been to the mall on my own I have worn pants and not dresses and this dress was short.He did not see anything out of order, I greeted him goodbye and came down the stairs.As I came down the secretary was still there but was on the phone again.I just waved her goodbye and as she put the phone aside to say bye I told her that I might stop by on Thursday to pay for the session.There was a guy in the waiting room and I just smiled, greeted him and went out the door.
I walked to my car and started driving to the mall. I arrived at the mall at around 6:30 and it was already dark. The mall was more crowded than I expected, and I had trouble finding a parking place.I finally found one and walked towards the escalators.My first stop was at a drugstore to get me some throat pills.A guy who treated me like any other customer tended me.He always used the female form and did not give any unusual or strange looks.After paying I put the pills and change in my bag and went on my usual shoe store “pilgrimage”.It is amazing how once you have attained self-confidence; the stomach butterflies are a thing of the past.I do miss them but enjoy my outings more now that it is second nature.
I went in almost all the shoe stores in the mall and in all of them interacted with the clerks, who were usually female.Again, there were no signs of anyone noticing I was not a woman.Even though it was cold outside it was warm inside the mall and I got thirsty.I walked to the food court to get me something to drink at a Burger King.This time it was a man who tended me and all went smoothly.While I was at the cashier a lady stood next to me and we smiled at each other.She then said “Wow, you really look elegant”I thanked her and told her that I had dressed like that because it was cold but it was too hot inside and that why I was getting something to drink.Once I got my soda I said goodbye to the lady and looked for a table to sit.I sat for about 5 minutes while I finished my soda and then got up, dropped the cup in the trash and walked towards the lady’s room.
When I got in the lady’s room there were two other women grooming themselves up.I stood next to the long mirror and placed my bag on the vanity top to get my makeup out.You have no idea how I felt when I saw my reflection and I was these two other ladies and I was one of them.I was just another girl touching her makeup up before heading back home.The reflection in the mirror was that of a confident woman and one that was at ease with her appearance.I thought to myself, I look every bit as feminine as any of those other ladies.I touched up my lips, as I did not need powder or eyeliner and headed out feeling more confident and womanly than never before.
Before leaving I went to a couple more shoe stores and then went to a kiosk to pay for parking.Again I was kindly tended by a guy and walked to my car.I then drove back home with my confidence all charged up.I so needed this because it had been too long since I had been out in the wild at my own pace.One more confidence booster was that I was wearing more flashy clothes and even then I did not receive any suspicious looks from anyone that I noticed.
Being out in the real world is the ultimate experience for a cross-dresser and once you taste the sweet nectar you just can’t live without it.Dressing for staying in the confines of four walls is no longer as thrilling as it used to be.I’d rather wait for a long period to dress and go out than dress often and remain caged.
I am really looking forward to this Thursday and the idea of going to the therapist office to pay for my session last Monday.If you were able to get this far, I commend you for your perseverance and promise not to torture you with something like this again :-)
This journal enty is the first since all my computer problems, and the problems URNA had with the old format for their site. It seems that everything is working as it should be.
The neighbors who moved in the apartment below mine have come and gone in the past year. They were almost as bad as the two guys living there before. I had to put up with hearing two dogs barking at everything as well as their owners yelling at them. I actually had more peace and quiet when I was at work than I did at home. I now have another set of new neighbors who moved in downstairs. These seem to be a little better than the last, so I'll wait and see if they become loud and obnoxious like the last.
My computer seems to be running as it did before. I have upgraded it's RAM memory to 2.4Gigs. I was never able to recover the pictures I lost, but luckily I have most of them posted on my websites and in my Flickr account. I have been dressing more lately and even bought some new clothes from Victoria's Secret. I also have an even bigger "E" cup version of my Cleavage Croptop. Check out my Newest Pics gallery to view pics of them. My profile pic shows my "E" cup "girls". The Yellow dress pics are of my "D" cup "girls".
I did attend my first convention in nearly 9 years back in June this year. It was wonderful seeing my friends from years past, as well as meeting new girls who have only seen me via the Net. I also was reinstated as a member of Vanity Club, and I thank all those ladies who helped me back into the group. I love you girls!
I hope the next several months ahead will be enjoyable with the holidays soon upon us. Take care and I hope to be around more often. *Hugs*
Yesterday, my gf thought it would be fun to paint my toe nails, and I just said ok. She used a purple color thats a little shiny. I feel so pretty now ^_^
After 6 long years of being single, I have finally found a GG woman who has not only taken my heart.. But is my other half!
This woman means the world to me!! And after such a long haul of dealing with my own issues of my loss.. I have come to the point where I can love again!!
And this feeling is one of the best feelings in the world!!! I can not stress this enough. And just feel I must share this with everyone I know.. And those who don't know me!!
Love is such an important part of this life!! Love is something that can make a bad day just go away!! Love is something that is rare in this life.. And its something you must cherish with every fiber of your being when you do find it!!
This is what I wrote for her.. And want to share it here with everyone here..
Every time I look into your eyes. I see a reflection of my life days past. When I look into the mirror. I see your heart shinning through.
When I think of the days that have already past. I know in my heart that those days where some of the days that where the best of my life! When I think of the days that are to come, I am overjoyed with the knowledge that the universe has sent you into my path.
When we walk upon the beach the moon smiles upon us.. When we walk within the park.. The trees sway with compassion.
Nature knows that we have no bounds. The wind the earth, is part of our playground.
There is no place we can not go. There is no person that would not know.. The love we share is true!
The truths to this world is ever so hard to find. While one person locked with the matrix will try to tell lies.. the truth to you and I are clear to see!
There is no mystry.. The clues are there to see.. The love the passion the energy is running free! Like a waterfall that flows forever more..
There is the door, and we are the key.. We pass through time, and we pass through space. Nothing shall stand in our way..
We are like mountains.. We are like trees.. We are the wind, water, air and fire!
My love meets you half way.. There is nothing else I could say.. But you are free to do what you wish.. But you will always desire my kiss!
For where ever the universe takes us.. Where ever life leads us..
I will always be close to your heart..
My love I love you with all my being.. And that holds no bounds..
And what loves is always true.. As love is the only truth in this world!
With that said.. Im going to work on turning that into a song.. I just need a cool chorus to go with it!
IM inspired to do anything now!! And soon both Isis and I will be doing what we want to do!!
Not only did I find love... Im back in school!! I got my GED.. and things are looking up!
I have to give a specail shout out to my friend Tia TV!! It is wasnt for her I would not have been able to get the power to go back to school and focus on a career in this life!
Tia! Your one good friend!! And there is a specail place in my heart for you my friend!
And I want you to meet my new girlfriend! You will find her to be as specail as I am!
And anyone else out there.. Please tell Tia what a wonderful person she is!!
Not only is she kind, but highly intelligent, and has done more for me than most people have ever cared to do!
There is only one other person out in this life who helped me like that.. and his name Is Joe.. But I have not gotten to hang out with him in ages..
He was my boyfriend at one time.. But now that I have a GG woman.. She is all I have ever wanted or needed in my life!
Isis is my Goddess.. She is my heart.. She is my reflection!! We are one!
Thanks for listening to me today!!
xoxoxox
Jenna
Here is my Goddess Isis! I whorship the very ground she walks! I am hers, and will forever be in her heart.. For the energy we share is deep!! And its like nothing I have ever exp in my life!!!
I am now officially Daniel Aloicious Saint James. I still have to get a new Social Security Card, Drivers License, etc. But it's been recognized by the court!
I'm really digging the new name.
Once I get around to getting my new ID, who wants to meet for drinks? I was thinking the "St James Tavern" on 4th? ehh ehh?
I may not get it until Monday. It depends on my schedule and such.
My friend Jackie and I went on summer holiday to northern New York State, Ohio, Indiana, Pennsylvania, and Illinois. We got out of New England just before the floods in Connecticut (7 inches of rain fell in just 4 hours!). I got water in the basement of my house for the first time since I have owned it. Thank God I had friends in the area to check up on the home (they had to wet vac the basement however). It was not much rainwater inside but even an inch can cause a huge problem when it sits around for a few weeks. My neighbors down the hill were not so lucky and had huge problems. There was massive flooding in the town where I live!
We went to Fort Stanwix in Rome, NY and then on to Seneca Falls. There was a lovely canal which Jackie and I spent some time sitting along and having a drink (2nd photo #1). It is ironic that we had picture perfect weather the whole time we were gone. There were sunny, cool days and cool nights.
We made it to Buffalo and Teddy Roosevelt Inaugural Nat. Historic Site (2nd photo #2). This is where Teddy became President after President McKinley was assassinated. President Karen Reeves (what a scary thought!!!) had her picture taken behind the President's desk (2nd photo #3). Notice how I take charge!
The two of us then headed into Ohio to Cuyahoga Valley National Park. A National Park in Northern Ohio? It's not exactly Yellowstone or Yosemite for sure! Jackie took a pic of me (2nd photo #4) on the boardwalk by Brandywine Falls. It was very nice there.
We then headed west to the town of Put-In-Bay, which sits on an island in the middle of Lake Erie reachable only by ferry boat. It was a spectacular day. The boat trip out was nice and the views from the tower in Perry's Victory and International Peace Memorial were breath taking (2nd photo #5). There were too many tourists and I almost took some out with my car. I'm not sure if it was accidental or not!
Nest stop was the Indiana Dunes National Lakeshore. Jackie and I waded into the waters of Lake Michigan (2nd photo #6). The Great Lakes are like the Atlantic Ocean but without the salty smell or feel of saltwater on your bod. We wish we had more time to spend here but we had to make some miles on this day.
We then made it to our hotel in Glenview, Illinois. My friend Jackie T. got ready to have her FFS performed on her by Dr. Mark Zukowski. She was, of course, quite nervous, but she faced the situation with great calm and determination. That's Jackie! You go girl J !!!
On Sunday, June 28th , a couple of days before her surgery, Jackie and I participated in the Chicago GLBT Pride Parade (See the Main Photo). We were on a float sponsored by Dr. Z along with a live rock band. I thought the crowds would be a few thousand. They estimated that the crowds along the route might have reached a million people! As we waved and danced we saw people lined up 20, 30, even 40 deep along the route. There were even people hanging out of apartment windows and on balconies. It was a little overwhelming for a girl from the coast of Maine but it was great fun. What an adrenaline rush! Thanks Dr. Z for the invite and for dinner!
In the next photo (2nd photo #7) I am admiring some interesting sculpture.
The nicest part of this parade was that these huge throngs of diverse people, from every background that you can imagine, were all smiles, respectful, and having a fantastic time. Smiles were the order of the day.
Jackie came through the surgery with flying colors. The next few days did not allow for much sleep for her and for me.I was her care giver and I set a new record of staying awake in hours playing nurse & maid. (I hope she does not sue me for malpractice!!! YIKES!!!). I figure I was awake for two days straight.
Jackie was doing well enough after just four days that we went out to see the fireworks on July 4th in Glenview at the golf course. It was kind of weird to be allowed to sit on the greens with chairs and blankets when normally you would be chased away. The show was great.
The next day I went back to the golf course to take some day time photos of the gold course. Two guys offered to be "male models" for my pics. I didn't know that golfing made guys soooooo HORNY!!!!
We also were lucky enough to be able to visit Brenda Sue in her new condo on the north shore. Jackie was not up for doing much but a few hours out was good for her. Brenda's pad was beautiful. She lives in a nice area along Lake Michigan It is very rural. Hey Annette! This area that you are from is NICE!!!
My only complaint is that Brenda cooked us hamburgers that must have been two pounds each. They were delicious but after all this time I AM STILL FULL! Thanks Brenda, Anne, and Colin!
It was finally time to head back east. We spent an extra day in the Pocono Mountains of Pennsylvania coming back since this return trip was hard on Jackie who was still recuperating from her surgery. By the way she is looking even more beautiful with every passing day! Drop her a line!
The last new pic of me on my page (2nd photo #8) was taken by Jackie at Pocono Downs NASCAR Raceway. This place is massive! We love NASCAR!
We arrived home safe and sound. It was time to crash!
I-S, Singapore's lifestyle magazine, wanted to find out if Singapore was a boring place to live in. They sent their reporter to checkout the local SM scene. We did promise I-S that their reporter will be tied up with his job. I think the I-S editor had no idea that we meant it literally. Master Alex (our Moderator from Sg) and Master Max (our Moderator from Jakarta) did most of the major bondage work. Nic did her impression of a local series called Red Thread using red ropes to tie three models together. In the end we're not quite certain what the I-S write and his photographer friend thought about the SM scene but I am sure we made their evening interesting.
To find more about the BDSM scene in Asia, please go to the following links.
Hi there URNA friends. As I stated on my "Status/Banner" message on my main page here, I just recently sent the message below, to all on my Yahoo mail contact list, and also to some others on my Yahoo Messenger friend's list. Thank you for taking the time to read it, and if you can help, I would be very greatful and appreciative. I will help a fellow sister, or sisters, as soon as I can. Be well everyone.
W/Love,
Kelli
Hello Everyone,
About 3 weeks ago, I sent, to many of you, the e-mail below, asking for some help, and I explained why, etc. Well, "things" are not getting much better since then, so I'm sending this to everyone one on my contacts list, even to those with whom I don't have much contact with. And also, I wanted to add here, that I now have a PayPal account, so if you are still interested in helping out, that option is now available. Of course, as I said in this letter, if you can help--Wonderful, thank you SO much! (And, if you already have helped out--Thank You!!) And if you can't, I totally understand, believe me, I do. Oh, and since this was sent, I did go to Be-All, and I DID have a FABulous time!! And, somehow I did it all with less than $100 to spend, with MANY thanks to Dr. Ousterhout and Dr. Zukowski, who funded the scholarship I won, and to my friends Bobbie Jane, Zoey and Robbi, for allowing me to stay with them at the hotels. So, yes, despite my current troubles, I am definitely a VERY blessed young lady!! Thank you so much for reading this, again, and thank you all for being my friend. It's never easy being a woman, especially "starting out" this late in life...but, I'll get there, and become whole, of this I have no doubt at all. Best wishes to all of you in your respective journeys! And please, I am here for you also. Take care everyone. (HUGS)
~Kelli
Hello Everyone,
How are you all? As I am sending this e-mail to everyone using "BCC", that's why I say "all". And, although of course, this e-mail is going to each of you, individually, the reason I'm sending it to all of you at one time, is that I am needing some help. Financial help that is. I've been debating, in my mind, for months now, as to whether to send this e-mail...going back and forth, over and over again... is it wrong(even, "audacious"?) to ask for money from people, especially these days?....will I lose friends, because of this?....and, how could I prove, if I did get funds, where it goes/how I spend it?.... And, believe me when I say this--I REALLY don't like asking for help, especially financial help, as I feel like, I don't know, like a "failure"...and, maybe I am in some ways, as I have a job/career that doesn't pay all that much(around $10 an hour)(I'm a Digitizer--computer software embroidery, we manf. marching band uniforms)...and, I have, and am looking for additional work, but around here, there isn't much, but I'll keep trying. So, yes, I have thought about doing this for months now, and actually I did do this, via Yahoo 360, last September, as some of you may recall--and, I thank again, those who were able to help us!....and, even then, I felt very embarrassed to ask for anything(not to mention the timing, what with the economy going downhill fast back then....and, of course, it's not much better, if not worse, nowadays), At that time, I was still married, and my wife was going through her chemotherapy, after having surgery in May(2008), and almost concurrently we went into a bankruptcy, which of course, both being almost overwhelming for us. We persevered and made it through "Okay" though. A positive thing, during her illness(and, she's doing fine now, the cancer has not returned--one year now!), we both did become closer again (we'd decided the summer before to end our marriage, although I did hold out a sliver of hope that maybe we could stay together....)but, despite our spending more time together last year, we still came to the same conclusion: We needed to live our own lives, separately. This past February, Betty moved out, to live with her daughter and family, while I've been living here at home. Our divorce became final on March 13th...and, I must admit, that first month after she moved out was terrible, painful, not fun at all. But anyway, I'm doing better nowadays, at least emotionally, and I do hope that she is also. We still see each other often, mostly to deal with bills we still share in paying, and we get along well, that's not really been much of an issue. And I will always care for her, and love her, in some way. Anyway, my, and our main problem, is money, and it's becoming more and more difficult as the days go by. We are splitting up the 2 mortgage payments, evenly of course, plus a car payment, and I'm taking care of the other home "monthlies"(electric, water, etc.) while she has her own bills to take care of(chemo/hospital/doctor bills, plus her school loans)(and, she doesn't make much more than I do--she's a medical biller/coder)...but, now, it's come just about to the point where I, and we, can't keep up with it all. And recently I've been cut back to 4 day weeks. (She's still working full time, thankfully.) I've also cancelled the land line phone, and now the television costs(satellite), and a few other things(no, not food, I'm still eating, but not as much--can't you tell? ) So, we've decided to sell this house....despite how the market is, and despite the fact we probably won't get too much out of the sale, with those mortgages...plus, we couldn't pay our property taxes last year(still can't), and now this year's taxes are coming up soon....I think this is the point where I start sighing, and crying. I'm just so tired of this "craziness"....we almost lost her car to repossession a couple of months ago, and also one of the mortgages was a few months behind---thankfully, some family members helped out with those problems...and just last week I was 10 days not paying the electric bill on time...and, now I have to live on around $50 for the next 2 weeks, and dem cupboards are gettin' bare. Yeah, I know, that's not funny(but I still have my "wits" about me )...and, thankfully, just this past weekend, a good friend gave me a "care package" of foods. We, my ex and I, are having a garage/moving sale this weekend...hopefully that will help some. And, coming up soon, next week matter of fact, is Be-All, the transgender convention in Chicago, where I won a scholarship(thank goodness!), and of course that will help out a LOT, not to mention some special girlfriends who are helping me with hotel expenses--sounds very much like my SCC experience last year! But I'll still need gas and some meal monies...I really want to go, but of course, it's not a priority. One more thing--my gender therapy. I had 2 sessions, last August, and September, but since then, I've been unable to afford to go again(my deductable is $1000--employee based health ins., and I can't change that amt.), and at $150 per session, I just haven't been able to afford to go anymore since then(still paying on that bill matter of fact)....and, as you all no doubt know, therapy is a very important part of transitioning, and it's been very frustrating that I haven't been able to continue with it, and then begin hormone therapy eventually, and so on.... So, anyway....I am very sorry this is rambling on like this, and that I'm "whining" about all my troubles---I am sure that many of you are probably going through similar trials now, if not worse. I just thought that maybe if a few of you could help out, if only a little--and, believe me, any amount would be helpful.
Let me show you a very special letter, written to me last year, after I posted my "Yahoo 360 "Help" message", by a very very special friend, of whom without her help with another "task"(getting down to Atlanta and back), I'd never been able to have gone to SCC last fall.(she's SO much better at communicating what I am asking, than I am, as you will see. She would like to remain anonymous btw.) This letter has been edited some, since a few things have changed since she sent it to me last September:
Community Support – Please read and pass along.
Each day I am amazed at how large this community is, yet what a loose affiliation we are. Different in many ways, but yet a common theme that brings us together…as a group, imagine what we could accomplish together.
I’ve seen so much compassion and giving by many on an emotional level, that I’m wondering if we could do a little of the same on the financial side? Bear with me just a little longer please.
A few extra dollars individually may not mean much, but if we could harness the numbers, it could mean so much to members of this community.
Proposal - I would like for each of us to sacrifice a little. Maybe the dollars spent on coffee and bagel one day, a meal out, or a new skirt (ouch)…put it in an envelope and mail it to the following sister; either anonymous or with a note of encouragement and support.
Kelli Elam
P.O. Box 32
Greenville, IL 62246
PayPal: kellinicole127@yahoo.com
The Story: Kelli, and more importantly her wife have had a really rough year. Kelli’s wife has been fighting cancer these last few months, which has left them with without her income and an incredible amount of medical and personal expenses to cover. During this time Kelli has cared for her spouse, which prevents her from seeking a second job to address the shortfall in income. The prognosis is good, but they continue to fall further in debt.
I feel this couple could use some help, and ask that you consider helping if you can. I am not here to save the world, but I would like to help where I can. Am I naïve? No, I just want to be.
The Responsibility : This lies with Kelli. Here are a few things she must do.
1. Use our help only for things that allow her and her wife to get back on their feet again. 2. Pay it forward. She would need to solicit the next person in our community for support, and begin the process by telling her story. Kelli would be current recipient, and she would then help the next person. 3. This is a grass roots start, and Kelli would need to find a better way to get the message out. Maybe a flickr group, or a web page that she could administer, along with future people yet to be named. 4. Maybe a name for this group, or community support fund. 5. If Kelli receives more than she needs (can you imagine that) she will use this as seed money to support the next in line…just paying it forward.
The Community: The community must have faith and help with a few things.
1. Do not assume that $5, $10, or $20 is too little to make the difference. This thought often prevents people from giving at all. This amount or even $2 is quite a lot, considering the numbers we have. A little from many, can be quite powerful. Reference Alex’s Lemonade Stand. 2. Get the word out. You all have friends, and friends of friends that could help. Please forward this to others in our community. 3. If you know of someone who needs our help, please message Kelli, as she has the awesome responsibility of choosing the next person who could use some help.
Notes: Safety first. This message would potentially be viewed by those outside our community, who may not share our kindness. I recommend the candidates selected set-up a post office box for mail, and that we send either cash or a check made payable to cash to prevent names and addresses from being published. Maybe there are other ways to transfer a gift without names on either end?
This Is Not A Hand-Out…It’s Our Community Helping…Our Community. What’s in it for you? You mean beyond a smile and warmth in your heart? Send something to Kelli today and let’s see what we can do together.
Isn't she wonderful? A few addendum's to her proposal: Under The Responsibility: Of course, since we are now divorced, these potential funds wouldn't be directed towards "us", as it's just "me" now, though we do share in the mortgage expenses. And, I haven't set up any special web site, or a name for this support fund, but I'm sure I can do those things if need be. And, under Notes, as of right now, I've just set up the PO Box address, included within her proposal above(I'll type it again at the end), and now I have a PayPal account. And, since my legal name is still my male name, Kirby Elam, I wasn't sure, if I do receive checks, if it should be made out to "Kirby" or "Kelli"? Or, "Cash", as she suggested? And, I wouldn't recommend sending actual cash, but I guess small amounts wouldn't be a problem.
So, I have finally decided to go through with this, and as they say, "let the chips fall where they may", though, I'm still a bit hesitant. And, please believe me when I tell you that I will still care, and always will care for each and every one of you, no matter if you can help, or not, because I know you love me, as I love you all too. Someday, I hope the(pardon the pun) "coin" will turn, and I will be able to help others in need. I'm not desperate here, I'm just in a rough patch. So anyway, thank you all for reading this, and of course, thank you to those who can help. I will pay it forward as soon as I can. Thank you so very much.
Vicky and I finally closed on a Townhome in Hollywood, FL on Tuesday, 6/16. For those of you who don't know where Hollywood, FL is, it's about 30 minutes north of Miami and 15 minutes south of Ft. Lauderdale, a nice central location.
We are going to have some work done on the place over then next few weeks and plan on being there permanently when the work is finished... hopefully the 1st or 2nd week of July.
We'll be walking distance from our favorite bar, Trixie's, the only full time TBar in Southern Florida. It just re-opened after being closed for almost 3 months following the death of the previous owner, Stanley. You can expect to find us there most Saturday nights.
Finally, we'll have plenty of space in our own place and can settle in and make Southern Florida our new home.
After having been extremely active in the online transgender community for a couple of years as the hostess and facilitator of http://www.genderevolve.com/ and genderevolve.blogspot.com , I decided to go offline for awhile to pursue my career. Words cannot express how much I missed you during this time, yet I had to stay very focused to accomplish some of my life goals.
Now that I have achieved a new level of balance in my daily life, I have decided to venture back online and see how you beautiful transladies have been making out this past while. I sense there have been changes in the t-community, there are a lot of new faces, and some very cool new websites too. Yet it seems not everything has changed and there is stability in our online community, as most of my friends are still online and all our favorite sites are still online. It it a welcome relief to find that there is always a place to come home to, no matter how far on different paths our journies take us, we can always return to the source of our sisterhood.
One of the things that encouraged me to come back online was an email from my dear sister Jenna Elizabeth Taylor to the GenderEvolve contributors, entitled "Is Gender Still Evolving?". Her email sparked a flurry of activity and responses in our private Yahoo group forum, which made me delighted to realize there is still so much mutual interest and collaborative spirit among us. As such, I want to take this discussion public and pose the same question to all of our friends in the transgender community at large.
So I would like to ask all of you reading this post... Is Gender Still Evolving?
By this I mean, take your pick of any or all of the following questions:
1) In the past few years, have you personally changed or evolved in your own transgender journey?
2) Has there been any changes in people around you in your family or friends regarding your gender identity?
3) Have there been any events or news that show gender evolution is still happening in society?
4) Do you recommend any new websites, people or groups that have been influential to the trans community over the past few years?
5) Or simply, how the heck have you been Girlfriend?? What's new?
Anyone reading this post is encouraged to respond and share any thoughts, stories, perspectives on this topic. Please don't be shy, we would love to hear from you.
Sorry it's been so long since my last post but I'm busy this time of year. If you would like to keep up to date with what I'm doing you can visit my official website http://www.meghanchavalier.com which has links to my Facebook, Twitter, You Tube and My Space pages which are updated daily.
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It was another sweltering night with 37 degrees heat index (30.5 degrees + 90% humidity). The gurls met up for what I thought was going to be a night of relaxation. The chairwoman, Destynee, was a task mistress. She bulldozed two tough topics on the agenda. In attendance were our dearest friends and founders of SGB (www.sgbutterfly.org) who had guided and supported us, our wisdom meister Bobby, Ada, Trish, Kayla, Destynee, Joy, Elisa, Linda, Rayne, Hendrika, Zermine and Fifi.
The thorniest topic was tabled first. Does SGGURLS needs its own website? SGGURLS had reached the limit offered by Yahoo's free group service months ago. Elisa asked a very innocent question: "what's the purpose of the website?" A debate ensued as to its purpose and contents. It was no doubt a tough and complex issue half of which had to do with SGGURLS identity. After the group is only 1.5 years old and like any teething baby, it has to find its own footing. Bobby suggested that we delay the decision on the website but keep the topic alive with ongoing discussions. Linda recommended that make this a two step decision: decide 'yes' or 'no' for the website, then form a project team collect the requirements from its members. Daniel offered his experience from running SGB. He suggested that we not focus at the number of members but rather look at actual participants. He said though there maybe 1000-2000 members, participation is less than 2%. Additionally, he proffered the mission of SGB was an education portal. Should SGGURLS embark on having its own website, the mission for the website must be clear.
The second topic was the 2010 calendar project. This was another hairy topic. I had to explain the three reasons for doing the project. The first being team work. SGGURLS has pulled off many events. They were tough but relatively straightforward projects. The calendar project would force the gurls really to look within its members and identify their best talents and use these talents to create an out-of-the-box calendar that will wow its buyers. Secondly, this calendar project challenges the notion that tgurls prefer to go stealth because they don't want to be marginalize by society. Trish and Rose brought up these valid points. In today's context, society still treats us badly. So it's better to just keep quiet, earn a living and not create any trouble. This calendar project is meant to show that trans are people who like any group if given an opportunity will accomplish incredible things. Thirdly, this calendar project is to showcase people with talent. I proffered several examples of trans glam in Asia. The photo studio for gurls in KL, Suzhou and Shenzhen do such wonderful work that it had that made many of its viewers say: "I can't believe these people are really guys". Like the transgender tiffany show, it is another milestone for the transgender to own the day.
FemmeFever Holiday PARTY:TGals & Admirers
Karen Leigh November 15th, 2009 5:18 pm MST12/9
8pm - Midnight (yes, YOU CAN get there earlier....plus after - parties....) FemmeFever HOLIDAY PARTY (read below)Welcomes YOU! The ONLY TG party closed to the public & Open Exclusively for all CD's, TG's, TS's, Friends of the TG Community, Significant Others & Approved Admirers (email me). NOT open to the general public - very DISCREET and safe ..and.. SO MUCH FUN!! In addition to Great People, DJ, Hot Food , Dancing, Contests/Prizes, Karaoke, New DJ, New Very Private, Very Friendly , lovely location, Always a GREAT turnout, Full Bar Service w Drink Specials for the Night! Pre-party reduced professional makeovers at the nearby hotel room. Party drab/dressed or share a get ready or stay over room at the nearby motel (email me for info on that OR post a message to share at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/femmefever ).
Holiday Party: Please wear something Green, Red, Blue or White! Optional but appreciated! Also optional but VERY appreciated: Bring an UNWRAPPED TOY which I will be collecting and donating to John Theissen Children's Foundation (Help Sick And Underprivileged Children; http://www.jtcf.org/).
PARTY @ Kelli's Bar (alternative Lifestyle Bar) : 2955 Merrick Road - Bellmore, NY 11554. (516-765-3892) See http://www.kellisbar.net/ for directions! Private parking lot in FRONT and Plenty of Street Parking. Kelli’s
is the ONLY place open at that hour– so very discreet! Park any side street or ON Sunrise Hwy. DO NOT PARK in Lot on SIDE OF BAR (obey parking signs!) (For more Party Information or to RSVP: EMAIL Karen@femmefever.com or Call: 516-520-0380. Join Us; We always have a GREAT time! $20 At The Door. SEE WHO We Are at www.FemmeFever .com
RSVP is not required to show up but PLEASE RSVP if you can attend, it helps to know how much food to get!!!!!
Share a room, Book a room or stay over nearby?
2 hotels are expecting us: Closest and least expensive (where I will be doing makeup - yes you can change in my room) Gateway Inn www.gatewayinnlongisland.com (1780 Sunrise Hwy, Merrick, NY 11566)
516-378-7100 $99 per room or $89 per room with AARP or AAA). You can ask the desk what room Karen FemmeFever is in - they have my permission to tell you.
Or use Best Western Bar Harbour Inn (5080 Sunrise HighwaySunrise Hwy, Massapequa Park 516 541-2000 $112 IF YOU MENTION you are there every month and or less with AARP or AAA. Let them know if you prefer a "drive up to" room rather than a lobby room...
More Info: Call me 516 520 0380 or email me at Karen@FemmeFever.com
Professional MakeUp Applications $50 by Karen FemmeFever BY Appointment being done at Gateway Inn Hotel. Contact me to book one! Or, ask them for my room (Karen FemmeFever)
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An Unscheduled Visit to the Therapist
Ana Cristina García October 20th, 2009 8:42 pm MDTFrom the critically acclaimed blog writer Ana Cristina Garcia and after a very long hiatus, here her new blog entry that will make you fall asleep in boredom. Here are some of the media’s reactions to this literary accident:
“Same old, same old” The Cross-dresser Times
“Not the same story again” Drag Magazine
“If I read one more story like this from her I will commit suicide” The TG Herald
But why take their word for it when you can verify yourself? Take the plunge…
An Unscheduled Visit to the Therapist
The last time I had been out to the therapist was on December of 2008 and since then I had only been out one more time, last week, with my sister-in-law. That outing was cut short and did not get to do all we had planned. Therefore, I was left a bit anxious to be out again and luckily I got to go out, on my own, just a few days later (Monday, October 19). Following are the accounts of this unexpected but satisfying time out and about as Cristy.
On Sundays temperature dropped down dramatically (for tropical standards) and I decided that if it continued on Monday I would dress and try to go out. The reason I would prefer a cold day is that I can wear clothes that cover up my legs and chest without having to shave. I had dreamed about going out in one of the warm mini-dresses that I had worn, with tights and high heels, for a photo session last January. I was undecided between the gray and the brown sweater-mini-dresses seen on the links below (from January):
Brown:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cristy98girl/3292401559/
Gray:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cristy98girl/3270000780/
My wife was out of town so I could not ask for her opinion so I emailed a couple of photos in each outfit to my sister-in-law and she recommended the brown. I was all made up and ready to put on the dress when I got her response and took her advice. I wore it exactly as I did in January except that I wore a brown top underneath to cover the white corset since the dress has a see-through knit in the middle, as you can see in the photo above. I also wore a different watch and styled my hair a bit different, without the bangs. One thing that made a big difference in my appearance was a piece of advice I got from my s-i-l regarding how to put on makeup base by pressing the sponge against the face rather than rubbing it. I totally recommend that, as the coverage is more even and the pores are less evident. I could not help to think that the first time we went out with her it was me giving makeup advice to her and now, after paying more attention to her appearance (which she says was motivated by seeing how her brother-in-law could make himself into a convincing woman). I guess that there is always something to learn, even for a veteran.
This is how I looked after returning from my long-awaited little adventure into the real world:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cristy98girl/4030933986/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cristy98girl/4030177723/
Notice the different hairstyle and wristwatch. Other than that it is all the same as in January.
Once all was in place I put plenty of Ralph perfume on me and I was ready to head out at around 5 p.m. My plans were to drive to the mall and wonder about for a while but then it occurred to me that I could stop by the therapist’s office and say hello to the secretary with the excuse that I had lost my cell phone and their number with it. Remember that to her, I do not live in town and come every so often to visit family and when that happens I try to schedule and appointment.
As is usually the case when I go out, I always have someone on call in case I run into trouble. That person is usually my wife but since she was out of town, I called my sister-in-law and she was up to it.
I got there and took a final check on my makeup and hair before getting off the car. Once I was ready I got off the car, walked to the doctors office and rang the bell. It was about 5:10 and I knew the doctor would be seeing his last patient of the day. To my surprise, the door was opened not by the secretary but by a female psychologist that works there too. I said hello and noticed that the secretary was on the phone as we smiled at each other. She seemed pleased to see me and after hanging the phone up we greeted with the traditional kiss on the cheek.
I sat down and she said that it had been a long time. I replied that I had lost their telephone number and therefore had not been able to set appointments on previous visits to town. She then gave me a card with the numbers and I put it in my purse as I commented that maybe I would call before I returned home (in Miami) to set an appointment. She said that the last patient of the day had canceled and that the doctor could see me right then. I replied that it would be fantastic but I did not have any cash on me to pay for the session. She said that she would go upstairs and ask the doctor if I could pay later and he said that he would see me in five minutes. As you can imagine, this is not what I had planned but I thought it would give me the chance to interact a bit more as Cristy only this time with someone who knew who I really was. The secretary offered me something to drink and I declined her offer arguing that I had just met for coffee with some girlfriends. She then asked if I had cut my hair and I replied that I had only styled it differently. As a matter of fact, since it is a wig, I guess that I have always had it the exact same length up to a micron. We chatted about this and that and then the doctor called for me so I got up and went up the stairs. He came out to greet me and said that it was a pleasant an unexpected surprise.
Conversation with the doctor was very casual an informal, this time. We talked about what I was wearing and I told him that I was a bit self-conscious given that I was wearing a mini-dress but he said that I looked very good in it and that my legs looked ok in tights and a little thin if anything. He also mentioned that the only thing that looked a bit suspicious were my hands but that for a tall woman that would border on the big side. Keep in mind that for our culture, at 5’ 6” without heels, I am a tall girl. If you add, at least 4” heels then I am much taller than the average female here and even those who are as tall or taller then I, are a lot thinner, most of the time. All in all, I am lucky to still able to pass for a taller than usual woman.
We talked about many topics including his family, specially his grandchildren. I felt right in character all the time and the only odd thing was a call that my male side had to made to the secretary to cancel the appointment “he” had for Wednesday. I could not afford two appointments so close to each other and since the issues of my male side are under control there was not much need for that. For those who are not aware from previous postings, Cristy does not go to therapy to be treated on cross-dressing or anything else. It is just a mere excuse that her male side cooked up along with the doctor so that she could have a safe environment in which to interact and where everybody else thinks of her as a genetic female (or so it seems so far after 13 visits over a 3 year period).
When discussing how would we handle payment for the session he said that my male side could bring it or that Cristy could send payment with someone else but that would be difficult. It occurred to me that if I had a chance to dress the following Thursday (my dressing window would end on Friday) Cristy would drop by to pay herself. I am hoping for this last option, as you can imagine.
Before the session came to an end, I told the doctor that I had plans to go to the mall and that I needed him to check if there was anything suspicious. Again, all of the times I have been to the mall on my own I have worn pants and not dresses and this dress was short. He did not see anything out of order, I greeted him goodbye and came down the stairs. As I came down the secretary was still there but was on the phone again. I just waved her goodbye and as she put the phone aside to say bye I told her that I might stop by on Thursday to pay for the session. There was a guy in the waiting room and I just smiled, greeted him and went out the door.
I walked to my car and started driving to the mall. I arrived at the mall at around 6:30 and it was already dark. The mall was more crowded than I expected, and I had trouble finding a parking place. I finally found one and walked towards the escalators. My first stop was at a drugstore to get me some throat pills. A guy who treated me like any other customer tended me. He always used the female form and did not give any unusual or strange looks. After paying I put the pills and change in my bag and went on my usual shoe store “pilgrimage”. It is amazing how once you have attained self-confidence; the stomach butterflies are a thing of the past. I do miss them but enjoy my outings more now that it is second nature.
I went in almost all the shoe stores in the mall and in all of them interacted with the clerks, who were usually female. Again, there were no signs of anyone noticing I was not a woman. Even though it was cold outside it was warm inside the mall and I got thirsty. I walked to the food court to get me something to drink at a Burger King. This time it was a man who tended me and all went smoothly. While I was at the cashier a lady stood next to me and we smiled at each other. She then said “Wow, you really look elegant” I thanked her and told her that I had dressed like that because it was cold but it was too hot inside and that why I was getting something to drink. Once I got my soda I said goodbye to the lady and looked for a table to sit. I sat for about 5 minutes while I finished my soda and then got up, dropped the cup in the trash and walked towards the lady’s room.
When I got in the lady’s room there were two other women grooming themselves up. I stood next to the long mirror and placed my bag on the vanity top to get my makeup out. You have no idea how I felt when I saw my reflection and I was these two other ladies and I was one of them. I was just another girl touching her makeup up before heading back home. The reflection in the mirror was that of a confident woman and one that was at ease with her appearance. I thought to myself, I look every bit as feminine as any of those other ladies. I touched up my lips, as I did not need powder or eyeliner and headed out feeling more confident and womanly than never before.
Before leaving I went to a couple more shoe stores and then went to a kiosk to pay for parking. Again I was kindly tended by a guy and walked to my car. I then drove back home with my confidence all charged up. I so needed this because it had been too long since I had been out in the wild at my own pace. One more confidence booster was that I was wearing more flashy clothes and even then I did not receive any suspicious looks from anyone that I noticed.
Being out in the real world is the ultimate experience for a cross-dresser and once you taste the sweet nectar you just can’t live without it. Dressing for staying in the confines of four walls is no longer as thrilling as it used to be. I’d rather wait for a long period to dress and go out than dress often and remain caged.
I am really looking forward to this Thursday and the idea of going to the therapist office to pay for my session last Monday. If you were able to get this far, I commend you for your perseverance and promise not to torture you with something like this again :-)
With my deepest respect and gratitude,
Cristy
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Since my last entry....
Linda Lewis October 19th, 2009 4:23 pm MDTThis journal enty is the first since all my computer problems, and the problems URNA had with the old format for their site. It seems that everything is working as it should be.
The neighbors who moved in the apartment below mine have come and gone in the past year. They were almost as bad as the two guys living there before. I had to put up with hearing two dogs barking at everything as well as their owners yelling at them. I actually had more peace and quiet when I was at work than I did at home. I now have another set of new neighbors who moved in downstairs. These seem to be a little better than the last, so I'll wait and see if they become loud and obnoxious like the last.
My computer seems to be running as it did before. I have upgraded it's RAM memory to 2.4Gigs. I was never able to recover the pictures I lost, but luckily I have most of them posted on my websites and in my Flickr account. I have been dressing more lately and even bought some new clothes from Victoria's Secret. I also have an even bigger "E" cup version of my Cleavage Croptop. Check out my Newest Pics gallery to view pics of them. My profile pic shows my "E" cup "girls". The Yellow dress pics are of my "D" cup "girls".
I did attend my first convention in nearly 9 years back in June this year. It was wonderful seeing my friends from years past, as well as meeting new girls who have only seen me via the Net. I also was reinstated as a member of Vanity Club, and I thank all those ladies who helped me back into the group. I love you girls!
I hope the next several months ahead will be enjoyable with the holidays soon upon us. Take care and I hope to be around more often. *Hugs*
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Toe Nails
Sakura The Cutie October 4th, 2009 8:42 pm MDTYesterday, my gf thought it would be fun to paint my toe nails, and I just said ok. She used a purple color thats a little shiny. I feel so pretty now ^_^
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Im in LOVE!!!!
Jenna Rae September 4th, 2009 11:57 am MDTHello friends and Fans!!!
After 6 long years of being single, I have finally found a GG woman who has not only taken my heart.. But is my other half!
This woman means the world to me!! And after such a long haul of dealing with my own issues of my loss.. I have come to the point where I can love again!!
And this feeling is one of the best feelings in the world!!! I can not stress this enough. And just feel I must share this with everyone I know.. And those who don't know me!!
Love is such an important part of this life!! Love is something that can make a bad day just go away!! Love is something that is rare in this life.. And its something you must cherish with every fiber of your being when you do find it!!
This is what I wrote for her.. And want to share it here with everyone here..
Every time I look into your eyes.
I see a reflection of my life days past.
When I look into the mirror.
I see your heart shinning through.
When I think of the days that have already past.
I know in my heart that those days where some of the days that where the best of my life!
When I think of the days that are to come,
I am overjoyed with the knowledge that the universe has sent you into my path.
When we walk upon the beach the moon smiles upon us..
When we walk within the park.. The trees sway with compassion.
Nature knows that we have no bounds.
The wind the earth, is part of our playground.
There is no place we can not go.
There is no person that would not know.. The love we share is true!
The truths to this world is ever so hard to find. While one person locked with the matrix will try to tell lies..
the truth to you and I are clear to see!
There is no mystry.. The clues are there to see.. The love the passion the energy is running free!
Like a waterfall that flows forever more..
There is the door, and we are the key..
We pass through time, and we pass through space.
Nothing shall stand in our way..
We are like mountains.. We are like trees..
We are the wind, water, air and fire!
My love meets you half way.. There is nothing else I could say..
But you are free to do what you wish..
But you will always desire my kiss!
For where ever the universe takes us..
Where ever life leads us..
I will always be close to your heart..
My love I love you with all my being..
And that holds no bounds..
And what loves is always true..
As love is the only truth in this world!
With that said.. Im going to work on turning that into a song.. I just need a cool chorus to go with it!
IM inspired to do anything now!! And soon both Isis and I will be doing what we want to do!!
Not only did I find love... Im back in school!! I got my GED.. and things are looking up!
I have to give a specail shout out to my friend Tia TV!! It is wasnt for her I would not have been able to get the power to go back to school and focus on a career in this life!
Tia! Your one good friend!! And there is a specail place in my heart for you my friend!
And I want you to meet my new girlfriend! You will find her to be as specail as I am!
And anyone else out there.. Please tell Tia what a wonderful person she is!!
Not only is she kind, but highly intelligent, and has done more for me than most people have ever cared to do!
There is only one other person out in this life who helped me like that.. and his name Is Joe.. But I have not gotten to hang out with him in ages..
He was my boyfriend at one time.. But now that I have a GG woman.. She is all I have ever wanted or needed in my life!
Isis is my Goddess.. She is my heart.. She is my reflection!! We are one!
Thanks for listening to me today!!
xoxoxox
Jenna
Here is my Goddess Isis! I whorship the very ground she walks! I am hers, and will forever be in her heart.. For the energy we share is deep!! And its like nothing I have ever exp in my life!!!
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Daniel Aloicious Saint James
Dan™ A Saint James August 6th, 2009 3:52 pm MDTI am now officially Daniel Aloicious Saint James. I still have to get a new Social Security Card, Drivers License, etc. But it's been recognized by the court!
I'm really digging the new name.
Once I get around to getting my new ID, who wants to meet for drinks? I was thinking the "St James Tavern" on 4th? ehh ehh?
I may not get it until Monday. It depends on my schedule and such.
Anyway, that is all. :)
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July 09: Chicago GLBT, Vacation & Jackie's FFS
Karen Reeves July 26th, 2009 3:55 pm MDTMy friend Jackie and I went on summer holiday to northern New York State, Ohio, Indiana, Pennsylvania, and Illinois. We got out of New England just before the floods in Connecticut (7 inches of rain fell in just 4 hours!). I got water in the basement of my house for the first time since I have owned it. Thank God I had friends in the area to check up on the home (they had to wet vac the basement however). It was not much rainwater inside but even an inch can cause a huge problem when it sits around for a few weeks. My neighbors down the hill were not so lucky and had huge problems. There was massive flooding in the town where I live!
We went to Fort Stanwix in Rome, NY and then on to Seneca Falls. There was a lovely canal which Jackie and I spent some time sitting along and having a drink (2nd photo #1). It is ironic that we had picture perfect weather the whole time we were gone. There were sunny, cool days and cool nights.
We made it to Buffalo and Teddy Roosevelt Inaugural Nat. Historic Site (2nd photo #2). This is where Teddy became President after President McKinley was assassinated. President Karen Reeves (what a scary thought!!!) had her picture taken behind the President's desk (2nd photo #3). Notice how I take charge!
The two of us then headed into Ohio to Cuyahoga Valley National Park. A National Park in Northern Ohio? It's not exactly Yellowstone or Yosemite for sure! Jackie took a pic of me (2nd photo #4) on the boardwalk by Brandywine Falls. It was very nice there.
We then headed west to the town of Put-In-Bay, which sits on an island in the middle of Lake Erie reachable only by ferry boat. It was a spectacular day. The boat trip out was nice and the views from the tower in Perry's Victory and International Peace Memorial were breath taking (2nd photo #5). There were too many tourists and I almost took some out with my car. I'm not sure if it was accidental or not!
Nest stop was the Indiana Dunes National Lakeshore. Jackie and I waded into the waters of Lake Michigan (2nd photo #6). The Great Lakes are like the Atlantic Ocean but without the salty smell or feel of saltwater on your bod. We wish we had more time to spend here but we had to make some miles on this day.
We then made it to our hotel in Glenview, Illinois. My friend Jackie T. got ready to have her FFS performed on her by Dr. Mark Zukowski. She was, of course, quite nervous, but she faced the situation with great calm and determination. That's Jackie! You go girl J !!!
On Sunday, June 28th , a couple of days before her surgery, Jackie and I participated in the Chicago GLBT Pride Parade (See the Main Photo). We were on a float sponsored by Dr. Z along with a live rock band. I thought the crowds would be a few thousand. They estimated that the crowds along the route might have reached a million people! As we waved and danced we saw people lined up 20, 30, even 40 deep along the route. There were even people hanging out of apartment windows and on balconies. It was a little overwhelming for a girl from the coast of Maine but it was great fun. What an adrenaline rush! Thanks Dr. Z for the invite and for dinner!
In the next photo (2nd photo #7) I am admiring some interesting sculpture.
The nicest part of this parade was that these huge throngs of diverse people, from every background that you can imagine, were all smiles, respectful, and having a fantastic time. Smiles were the order of the day.
Jackie came through the surgery with flying colors. The next few days did not allow for much sleep for her and for me.I was her care giver and I set a new record of staying awake in hours playing nurse & maid. (I hope she does not sue me for malpractice!!! YIKES!!!). I figure I was awake for two days straight.
Jackie was doing well enough after just four days that we went out to see the fireworks on July 4th in Glenview at the golf course. It was kind of weird to be allowed to sit on the greens with chairs and blankets when normally you would be chased away. The show was great.
The next day I went back to the golf course to take some day time photos of the gold course. Two guys offered to be "male models" for my pics. I didn't know that golfing made guys soooooo HORNY!!!!
We also were lucky enough to be able to visit Brenda Sue in her new condo on the north shore. Jackie was not up for doing much but a few hours out was good for her. Brenda's pad was beautiful. She lives in a nice area along Lake Michigan It is very rural. Hey Annette! This area that you are from is NICE!!!
My only complaint is that Brenda cooked us hamburgers that must have been two pounds each. They were delicious but after all this time I AM STILL FULL! Thanks Brenda, Anne, and Colin!
It was finally time to head back east. We spent an extra day in the Pocono Mountains of Pennsylvania coming back since this return trip was hard on Jackie who was still recuperating from her surgery. By the way she is looking even more beautiful with every passing day! Drop her a line!
The last new pic of me on my page (2nd photo #8) was taken by Jackie at Pocono Downs NASCAR Raceway. This place is massive! We love NASCAR!
We arrived home safe and sound. It was time to crash!
*Kisses*
~Karen~
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Celebrate "Christmas In July" @ Trixies
Diamond Dunhill July 13th, 2009 4:52 am MDTCelebrate "Christmas In July" @ Trixies All Month Long!
Trixies Now Re-OPEN 7 Nights A Week!
5-8pm HAPPY HOUR
8-2am Continuous Shows Feat. URNA transtress Diamond Dunhill
EVERY MONDAY, WEDNESDAY Thru SATURDAY!
Plus Announcing The KITCHEN Is Now OPEN!
Feed ME!
YUM!
C U ALL SOON!
Diamond Dunhill Now In Florida!
AND MERRY CHRISTMAS ... In July!
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I-S Magazine Interview
Nicole Singslave July 11th, 2009 6:12 pm MDTI-S Magazine Interview
11th July 2009
Singapore
I-S, Singapore's lifestyle magazine, wanted to find out if Singapore was a boring place to live in. They sent their reporter to checkout the local SM scene. We did promise I-S that their reporter will be tied up with his job. I think the I-S editor had no idea that we meant it literally. Master Alex (our Moderator from Sg) and Master Max (our Moderator from Jakarta) did most of the major bondage work. Nic did her impression of a local series called Red Thread using red ropes to tie three models together. In the end we're not quite certain what the I-S write and his photographer friend thought about the SM scene but I am sure we made their evening interesting.
To find more about the BDSM scene in Asia, please go to the following links.
SE Asia: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/bdsmASIAnetwork
Singapore: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/sgdomsubs
China: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/bdsmCHINAnetwork
SDAM: http://www.sdam.sg
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RuPaul VOTE ME DDaily Please! Diamond Dunhill
Diamond Dunhill June 19th, 2009 1:25 pm MDTThank You In ADVANCE For Voting URNA Transtress
Diamond Dunhill NOW!!
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A Sister in Need
Kelli Nicole Elam June 19th, 2009 12:58 pm MDTHi there URNA friends. As I stated on my "Status/Banner" message on my main page here, I just recently sent the message below, to all on my Yahoo mail contact list, and also to some others on my Yahoo Messenger friend's list. Thank you for taking the time to read it, and if you can help, I would be very greatful and appreciative. I will help a fellow sister, or sisters, as soon as I can. Be well everyone.
W/Love,
Kelli
Hello Everyone,
About 3 weeks ago, I sent, to many of you, the e-mail below, asking for some help, and I explained why, etc. Well, "things" are not getting much better since then, so I'm sending this to everyone one on my contacts list, even to those with whom I don't have much contact with. And also, I wanted to add here, that I now have a PayPal account, so if you are still interested in helping out, that option is now available. Of course, as I said in this letter, if you can help--Wonderful, thank you SO much! (And, if you already have helped out--Thank You!!) And if you can't, I totally understand, believe me, I do. Oh, and since this was sent, I did go to Be-All, and I DID have a FABulous time!! And, somehow I did it all with less than $100 to spend, with MANY thanks to Dr. Ousterhout and Dr. Zukowski, who funded the scholarship I won, and to my friends Bobbie Jane, Zoey and Robbi, for allowing me to stay with them at the hotels. So, yes, despite my current troubles, I am definitely a VERY blessed young lady!! Thank you so much for reading this, again, and thank you all for being my friend. It's never easy being a woman, especially "starting out" this late in life...but, I'll get there, and become whole, of this I have no doubt at all. Best wishes to all of you in your respective journeys! And please, I am here for you also. Take care everyone. (HUGS)
~Kelli
Hello Everyone,
How are you all? As I am sending this e-mail to everyone using "BCC", that's why I say "all". And, although of course, this e-mail is going to each of you, individually, the reason I'm sending it to all of you at one time, is that I am needing some help. Financial help that is. I've been debating, in my mind, for months now, as to whether to send this e-mail...going back and forth, over and over again... is it wrong(even, "audacious"?) to ask for money from people, especially these days?....will I lose friends, because of this?....and, how could I prove, if I did get funds, where it goes/how I spend it?.... And, believe me when I say this--I REALLY don't like asking for help, especially financial help, as I feel like, I don't know, like a "failure"...and, maybe I am in some ways, as I have a job/career that doesn't pay all that much(around $10 an hour)(I'm a Digitizer--computer software embroidery, we manf. marching band uniforms)...and, I have, and am looking for additional work, but around here, there isn't much, but I'll keep trying. So, yes, I have thought about doing this for months now, and actually I did do this, via Yahoo 360, last September, as some of you may recall--and, I thank again, those who were able to help us!....and, even then, I felt very embarrassed to ask for anything(not to mention the timing, what with the economy going downhill fast back then....and, of course, it's not much better, if not worse, nowadays), At that time, I was still married, and my wife was going through her chemotherapy, after having surgery in May(2008), and almost concurrently we went into a bankruptcy, which of course, both being almost overwhelming for us. We persevered and made it through "Okay" though. A positive thing, during her illness(and, she's doing fine now, the cancer has not returned--one year now!), we both did become closer again (we'd decided the summer before to end our marriage, although I did hold out a sliver of hope that maybe we could stay together....)but, despite our spending more time together last year, we still came to the same conclusion: We needed to live our own lives, separately. This past February, Betty moved out, to live with her daughter and family, while I've been living here at home. Our divorce became final on March 13th...and, I must admit, that first month after she moved out was terrible, painful, not fun at all. But anyway, I'm doing better nowadays, at least emotionally, and I do hope that she is also. We still see each other often, mostly to deal with bills we still share in paying, and we get along well, that's not really been much of an issue. And I will always care for her, and love her, in some way. Anyway, my, and our main problem, is money, and it's becoming more and more difficult as the days go by. We are splitting up the 2 mortgage payments, evenly of course, plus a car payment, and I'm taking care of the other home "monthlies"(electric, water, etc.) while she has her own bills to take care of(chemo/hospital/doctor bills, plus her school loans)(and, she doesn't make much more than I do--she's a medical biller/coder)...but, now, it's come just about to the point where I, and we, can't keep up with it all. And recently I've been cut back to 4 day weeks. (She's still working full time, thankfully.) I've also cancelled the land line phone, and now the television costs(satellite), and a few other things(no, not food, I'm still eating, but not as much--can't you tell? ) So, we've decided to sell this house....despite how the market is, and despite the fact we probably won't get too much out of the sale, with those mortgages...plus, we couldn't pay our property taxes last year(still can't), and now this year's taxes are coming up soon....I think this is the point where I start sighing, and crying. I'm just so tired of this "craziness"....we almost lost her car to repossession a couple of months ago, and also one of the mortgages was a few months behind---thankfully, some family members helped out with those problems...and just last week I was 10 days not paying the electric bill on time...and, now I have to live on around $50 for the next 2 weeks, and dem cupboards are gettin' bare. Yeah, I know, that's not funny(but I still have my "wits" about me )...and, thankfully, just this past weekend, a good friend gave me a "care package" of foods. We, my ex and I, are having a garage/moving sale this weekend...hopefully that will help some. And, coming up soon, next week matter of fact, is Be-All, the transgender convention in Chicago, where I won a scholarship(thank goodness!), and of course that will help out a LOT, not to mention some special girlfriends who are helping me with hotel expenses--sounds very much like my SCC experience last year! But I'll still need gas and some meal monies...I really want to go, but of course, it's not a priority. One more thing--my gender therapy. I had 2 sessions, last August, and September, but since then, I've been unable to afford to go again(my deductable is $1000--employee based health ins., and I can't change that amt.), and at $150 per session, I just haven't been able to afford to go anymore since then(still paying on that bill matter of fact)....and, as you all no doubt know, therapy is a very important part of transitioning, and it's been very frustrating that I haven't been able to continue with it, and then begin hormone therapy eventually, and so on.... So, anyway....I am very sorry this is rambling on like this, and that I'm "whining" about all my troubles---I am sure that many of you are probably going through similar trials now, if not worse. I just thought that maybe if a few of you could help out, if only a little--and, believe me, any amount would be helpful.
Let me show you a very special letter, written to me last year, after I posted my "Yahoo 360 "Help" message", by a very very special friend, of whom without her help with another "task"(getting down to Atlanta and back), I'd never been able to have gone to SCC last fall.(she's SO much better at communicating what I am asking, than I am, as you will see. She would like to remain anonymous btw.) This letter has been edited some, since a few things have changed since she sent it to me last September:
Community Support – Please read and pass along.
Each day I am amazed at how large this community is, yet what a loose affiliation we are. Different in many ways, but yet a common theme that brings us together…as a group, imagine what we could accomplish together.
I’ve seen so much compassion and giving by many on an emotional level, that I’m wondering if we could do a little of the same on the financial side? Bear with me just a little longer please.
A few extra dollars individually may not mean much, but if we could harness the numbers, it could mean so much to members of this community.
Proposal - I would like for each of us to sacrifice a little. Maybe the dollars spent on coffee and bagel one day, a meal out, or a new skirt (ouch)…put it in an envelope and mail it to the following sister; either anonymous or with a note of encouragement and support.
Kelli Elam
P.O. Box 32
Greenville, IL 62246
PayPal: kellinicole127@yahoo.com
The Story: Kelli, and more importantly her wife have had a really rough year. Kelli’s wife has been fighting cancer these last few months, which has left them with without her income and an incredible amount of medical and personal expenses to cover. During this time Kelli has cared for her spouse, which prevents her from seeking a second job to address the shortfall in income. The prognosis is good, but they continue to fall further in debt.
I feel this couple could use some help, and ask that you consider helping if you can. I am not here to save the world, but I would like to help where I can. Am I naïve? No, I just want to be.
The Responsibility : This lies with Kelli. Here are a few things she must do.
1. Use our help only for things that allow her and her wife to get back on their feet again.
2. Pay it forward. She would need to solicit the next person in our community for support, and begin the process by telling her story. Kelli would be current recipient, and she would then help the next person.
3. This is a grass roots start, and Kelli would need to find a better way to get the message out. Maybe a flickr group, or a web page that she could administer, along with future people yet to be named.
4. Maybe a name for this group, or community support fund.
5. If Kelli receives more than she needs (can you imagine that) she will use this as seed money to support the next in line…just paying it forward.
The Community: The community must have faith and help with a few things.
1. Do not assume that $5, $10, or $20 is too little to make the difference. This thought often prevents people from giving at all. This amount or even $2 is quite a lot, considering the numbers we have. A little from many, can be quite powerful. Reference Alex’s Lemonade Stand.
2. Get the word out. You all have friends, and friends of friends that could help. Please forward this to others in our community.
3. If you know of someone who needs our help, please message Kelli, as she has the awesome responsibility of choosing the next person who could use some help.
Notes: Safety first. This message would potentially be viewed by those outside our community, who may not share our kindness. I recommend the candidates selected set-up a post office box for mail, and that we send either cash or a check made payable to cash to prevent names and addresses from being published. Maybe there are other ways to transfer a gift without names on either end?
This Is Not A Hand-Out…It’s Our Community Helping…Our Community. What’s in it for you? You mean beyond a smile and warmth in your heart? Send something to Kelli today and let’s see what we can do together.
Isn't she wonderful? A few addendum's to her proposal: Under The Responsibility: Of course, since we are now divorced, these potential funds wouldn't be directed towards "us", as it's just "me" now, though we do share in the mortgage expenses. And, I haven't set up any special web site, or a name for this support fund, but I'm sure I can do those things if need be. And, under Notes, as of right now, I've just set up the PO Box address, included within her proposal above(I'll type it again at the end), and now I have a PayPal account. And, since my legal name is still my male name, Kirby Elam, I wasn't sure, if I do receive checks, if it should be made out to "Kirby" or "Kelli"? Or, "Cash", as she suggested? And, I wouldn't recommend sending actual cash, but I guess small amounts wouldn't be a problem.
So, I have finally decided to go through with this, and as they say, "let the chips fall where they may", though, I'm still a bit hesitant. And, please believe me when I tell you that I will still care, and always will care for each and every one of you, no matter if you can help, or not, because I know you love me, as I love you all too. Someday, I hope the(pardon the pun) "coin" will turn, and I will be able to help others in need. I'm not desperate here, I'm just in a rough patch. So anyway, thank you all for reading this, and of course, thank you to those who can help. I will pay it forward as soon as I can. Thank you so very much.
Address:
Kelli Elam
P.O. Box 32
Greenville, IL 62246
PayPal: Please use kellinicole127@yahoo.com
With Love,
Kelli Nicole
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Hollywood, FL is our new home
Jon June 19th, 2009 9:58 am MDTVicky and I finally closed on a Townhome in Hollywood, FL on Tuesday, 6/16. For those of you who don't know where Hollywood, FL is, it's about 30 minutes north of Miami and 15 minutes south of Ft. Lauderdale, a nice central location.
We are going to have some work done on the place over then next few weeks and plan on being there permanently when the work is finished... hopefully the 1st or 2nd week of July.
We'll be walking distance from our favorite bar, Trixie's, the only full time TBar in Southern Florida. It just re-opened after being closed for almost 3 months following the death of the previous owner, Stanley. You can expect to find us there most Saturday nights.
Finally, we'll have plenty of space in our own place and can settle in and make Southern Florida our new home.
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My Newest Video Blog June 16, 2009
Meghan Chavalier June 19th, 2009 3:09 am MDThttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yJBo04c2q6s
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Is Gender Still Evolving?
Michele Angelique June 7th, 2009 7:01 pm MDTIs Gender Still Evolving?
After having been extremely active in the online transgender community for a couple of years as the hostess and facilitator of http://www.genderevolve.com/ and genderevolve.blogspot.com , I decided to go offline for awhile to pursue my career. Words cannot express how much I missed you during this time, yet I had to stay very focused to accomplish some of my life goals.
Now that I have achieved a new level of balance in my daily life, I have decided to venture back online and see how you beautiful transladies have been making out this past while. I sense there have been changes in the t-community, there are a lot of new faces, and some very cool new websites too. Yet it seems not everything has changed and there is stability in our online community, as most of my friends are still online and all our favorite sites are still online. It it a welcome relief to find that there is always a place to come home to, no matter how far on different paths our journies take us, we can always return to the source of our sisterhood.
One of the things that encouraged me to come back online was an email from my dear sister Jenna Elizabeth Taylor to the GenderEvolve contributors, entitled "Is Gender Still Evolving?". Her email sparked a flurry of activity and responses in our private Yahoo group forum, which made me delighted to realize there is still so much mutual interest and collaborative spirit among us. As such, I want to take this discussion public and pose the same question to all of our friends in the transgender community at large.
So I would like to ask all of you reading this post... Is Gender Still Evolving?
By this I mean, take your pick of any or all of the following questions:
1) In the past few years, have you personally changed or evolved in your own transgender journey?
2) Has there been any changes in people around you in your family or friends regarding your gender identity?
3) Have there been any events or news that show gender evolution is still happening in society?
4) Do you recommend any new websites, people or groups that have been influential to the trans community over the past few years?
5) Or simply, how the heck have you been Girlfriend?? What's new?
Anyone reading this post is encouraged to respond and share any thoughts, stories, perspectives on this topic. Please don't be shy, we would love to hear from you.
Love & Light
Michèle Angélique
http://www.genderevolve.com/
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It's Been Awhile
Meghan Chavalier June 2nd, 2009 2:53 pm MDTSorry it's been so long since my last post but I'm busy this time of year. If you would like to keep up to date with what I'm doing you can visit my official website http://www.meghanchavalier.com which has links to my Facebook, Twitter, You Tube and My Space pages which are updated daily.
Hope you're enjoying the warm weather.
Huggs
xoxoxo
Meghan
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Sabrinas Shoe Fetish
Sabrina Blaze ^*^ May 28th, 2009 7:49 pm MDT^,,^
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Singapore: SGGURLS 11th Moderator Meeting
Nicole Singslave May 23rd, 2009 10:33 pm MDTSingapore: SGGURLS 11th Moderator Meeting
Singapore, 23rd May 2009
It was another sweltering night with 37 degrees heat index (30.5 degrees + 90% humidity). The gurls met up for what I thought was going to be a night of relaxation. The chairwoman, Destynee, was a task mistress. She bulldozed two tough topics on the agenda. In attendance were our dearest friends and founders of SGB (www.sgbutterfly.org) who had guided and supported us, our wisdom meister Bobby, Ada, Trish, Kayla, Destynee, Joy, Elisa, Linda, Rayne, Hendrika, Zermine and Fifi.
The thorniest topic was tabled first. Does SGGURLS needs its own website? SGGURLS had reached the limit offered by Yahoo's free group service months ago. Elisa asked a very innocent question: "what's the purpose of the website?" A debate ensued as to its purpose and contents. It was no doubt a tough and complex issue half of which had to do with SGGURLS identity. After the group is only 1.5 years old and like any teething baby, it has to find its own footing. Bobby suggested that we delay the decision on the website but keep the topic alive with ongoing discussions. Linda recommended that make this a two step decision: decide 'yes' or 'no' for the website, then form a project team collect the requirements from its members. Daniel offered his experience from running SGB. He suggested that we not focus at the number of members but rather look at actual participants. He said though there maybe 1000-2000 members, participation is less than 2%. Additionally, he proffered the mission of SGB was an education portal. Should SGGURLS embark on having its own website, the mission for the website must be clear.
The second topic was the 2010 calendar project. This was another hairy topic. I had to explain the three reasons for doing the project. The first being team work. SGGURLS has pulled off many events. They were tough but relatively straightforward projects. The calendar project would force the gurls really to look within its members and identify their best talents and use these talents to create an out-of-the-box calendar that will wow its buyers. Secondly, this calendar project challenges the notion that tgurls prefer to go stealth because they don't want to be marginalize by society. Trish and Rose brought up these valid points. In today's context, society still treats us badly. So it's better to just keep quiet, earn a living and not create any trouble. This calendar project is meant to show that trans are people who like any group if given an opportunity will accomplish incredible things. Thirdly, this calendar project is to showcase people with talent. I proffered several examples of trans glam in Asia. The photo studio for gurls in KL, Suzhou and Shenzhen do such wonderful work that it had that made many of its viewers say: "I can't believe these people are really guys". Like the transgender tiffany show, it is another milestone for the transgender to own the day.
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