Tara Lynn Rose
"Needs to Get Out More"
Journal Entries for Tara Lynn Rose
Yahoo Group For Middle TN Tgirls
March 9th, 2009 9:28 pm MDT
Had such a fantastic time hanging out with the ladies from East TN Tgirls the other weekend that I thought it would be great to put together a similar Yahoo Group for Middle TN Tgirls and the surrounding areas. I think a network of local girls for friendship, romance, advice and informal outings/gatherings can not help but be a major plus for the local T community. The national/international resources are invaluable but whether the time has come to log off and take your new life into the outside world, or you just want to get out this weekend and don't want to go clubbing alone, knowing that local Tgirl friends are just a post away for company or advice can mean a world of difference in the confidence level. I intend to advertise the group as aggressively as can be considered tactful. I would hate to see the idea of a network for the local girls fall into oblivion as so many Yahoo Groups do. Any local girls interested, drop by the home page and join up. http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Middle_TN_Tgirls All Tgirls are welcome regardless of location.
Huggs To All
Tara
Got my Evil PC back together finally
March 2nd, 2009 11:57 pm MST
After weeks of being without a PC, I finally got the parts and raised this beast from the dead. Couple weeks later and got all my links and passwords back in place and ready to start getting some updating done. Made a road trip to Knoxville, TN last weekend and got to hang out with some great Tgirls. The club was the site of my first time out last fall. The first trip, I only stayed a little while, quietly, and then slipped out. I had a load of fun this time and hung out till they closed. Part of the reason was the great girls I was hanging out with but I also realized that I have changed considerably since my first trip out. I have become much more comfortable being out and my confidence level has grown. The difference between a short uncomfortable night and a long night of great fun? Its all being as accepting of yourself as you are wanting others to be of you. FREEDOM - Is Just A State Of Mind.
Huggs
Tara
Feeling great to be healing and alive
December 2nd, 2008 11:29 pm MST
I am finally getting a chance to do some updating. I have only been back a little while from a nasty 2 story fall through a ceiling onto a concrete floor. Was left with multiple broken bones and spent months in an immobilizer. But mostly all healed and in true Tara fashion am still smiling. After all things could have been worse. Am now sporting a nifty dark tan that helps hide some of those annoying little scars the accident left me with. I have been making up for lost time now that I am back and finally, with the encouragement and support of a dear friend, have gotten up the courage to embrace the outside world. Exhilaration, that is the only way to explain the rush. I have never felt so alive or had so much fun. Of course now I regret all the lost time spent hiding in the house only peeking at the outside world through closed blinds. Thank you with all my heart Dar. Without your kind words and sometimes stern, love you girl 
, encouragement I would never have known just had great it feels to experience life the way I have. Have been shopping for new outfits, out to dinner and dancing and spending a good deal of every week being the fun loving lady that makes me happy. Got out on Halloween in a sexy nurse outfit that I never would have believed I had the courage to wear in public. Got a new blonde wig to try some new looks and have been getting a little carried away with the photos http://www.flickr.com/photos/taralynntv/ but enjoying every moment. Feeling like the world is there for the taking and there is no limit.
Huggs to All Tara Lynn
Feeling Alive and Ready for Anything
November 12th, 2008 11:38 am MST
I am finally getting a chance to do some updating. I have only been back a little while from a nasty 2 story fall through a ceiling onto a concrete floor. Was left with multiple broken bones and spent months in an immobilizer. But mostly all healed and in true Tara fashion am still smiling. After all things could have been worse. Am now sporting a nifty dark tan that helps hide some of those annoying little scars the accident left me with. I have been making up for lost time now that I am back and finally, with the encouragement and support of a dear friend, have gotten up the courage to embrace the outside world. Exhilaration, that is the only way to explain the rush. I have never felt so alive or had so much fun. Of course now I regret all the lost time spent hiding in the house only peeking at the outside world through closed blinds. Thank you with all my heart Dar. Without your kind words and sometimes stern, love you girl , encouragement I would never have known just had great it feels to experience life the way I have. Have been shopping for new outfits, out to dinner and dancing and spending a good deal of every week being the fun loving lady that makes me happy. Got out on Halloween in a sexy nurse outfit that I never would have believed I had the courage to wear in public. Got a new blonde wig to try some new looks and have been getting a little carried away with the photos http://www.flickr.com/photos/taralynntv/ but enjoying every moment. Feeling like the world is there for the taking and there is no limit.
Huggs to All Tara Lynn
Touched
February 15th, 2008 11:03 pm MST
It seems our lives become possessed by the daily doses of drama, comedy and desire that become so important to us. We get wrapped up in all the minor inconveniences, the simple highs and lows that we indulge into artificial importance. Then, from out of nowhere, something can touch you so deep that you realize that what is truly important, what really makes us who we are is the hearts that we touch and the hearts that touch us. I sat at my connection to the outside world, going through my daily routine of checking my e-mail, seeing who else was on-line etc., and read, in my e-mail, a post from one of the yahoo groups that I belong to. The post was from a lady I had never met and was posted for her friends in the group. She told of the recent loss of her soulmate. Even in writing I could feel the deep love and the heart breaking sorrow in her words. The words touched my heart so deeply that before I had read even a third of the post I was in tears, feeling the sadness of one of our sisters. I wanted to reach out to her, to hold her and console her. With the tears still running down my cheeks, I posted some words of support and encouragement to this stranger, with the hope that somewhere in them she would find a little bit of understanding and strength but knowing that nothing I wrote could really ease her pain no matter how much I wanted to. I want all my friends, both on-line and in person, to know how much I cherish the imprint they have left by touching my heart. To my wonderful, caring, beautiful wife, my best friend and guiding light, Thank you for loving me for who I am and for allowing me to share my love with you. Ladies, and gentlemen, If you have not told your loved ones, soulmate, family and friends just how important they are to your world, take a moment and do so. Even if you are sure they know you can still brighten their day by telling them. Spread Some Love Huggss Tara Lynn
Moveing On / Meeting Friends / Conservative Liberals?
February 10th, 2008 8:30 pm MST
Get over it and move on? I must half agree, as moving forward is where life is meant to be lived. You never really get over anything though, as all experience, good, bad or indifferent, stay with us and combine to make us the people that we are. I am truly ready to put my last entry behind me and move forward. To move any direction but forward will either leave me trapped in time living in the past or caught in a loop unable to experience all that life has to offer.
I have met some nice people on-line and really look forward to carrying these on-line meetings into some true friendships. I want to live, to learn, to experience the joys and share in the sorrows of others in the way that only true friends can. I know that I need to overcome a definite shyness before I can really reach out to others in the manner that I would like. While I realize that sitting quietly in a chat room is not an ideal way to make friends, and unfortunately does appear to attract "trolls", I have never been able to manage a forward personality. It has, however, allowed me to listen to the subjects of choice in the room and see which of the ladies and gentlemen involved in the chat share my opinions on many subjects.
One of the biggest surprises I have had in entering the on-line T community, is that I am not alone in what I refer to as my "Conservative Liberalism". I guess I have always believed that by definition, if you are T that you must be liberal. I was surprised but very pleased to see how many of the ladies on-line have also managed to maintain the love of country, the respect for the flag and the hard line stance on criminals that I have. All personal freedoms are important, whether it is the freedom to dress the way you feel inside or the freedom to own a handgun to protect yourself or your family. I will give up my gun when they pry my pretty painted nails apart and take it.
Huggss Tara
Don't Hate The Game
February 3rd, 2008 3:36 am MST
- I just spent a few weeks posted on one of the "rate me" sites. I thought it would be fun and I might get a chance to meet some nice people. While it was fun and I did get to meet some nice ladies, I have decided that this type of site also attracts some not so nice people who become obsessed with how high up the ladder they can climb. The kind of people who will do whatever it takes to get that next step and when they can't go any higher will try to knock down any one above them. I watched as I gave favorable votes to some of the ladies that had been sweet to me when I first signed up, only to have one of the ladies that saw them as competition, log in give them a bad vote to knock them back down and log back off again. Now don't get me wrong, the game is what it is, but it is definitely not for me. I guess if I must be honest with myself, and I always must, what bothered me the most was that it made me want to strike back against the handful that were playing so dirty. My philosophy has always been to treat everyone with kindness and ignore the people that will not treat you with kindness in return. This being said, I did not feel good about wanting to retaliate and decided that to maintain the pride that I feel about never having to feel that I have been untrue to myself, I have decided to remove myself from the problem and delete my profile. I would much prefer to meet nice people and make just make friends.
Huggss Tara
The Ratings Game
January 22nd, 2008 6:36 pm MST
I decided to post a couple pics on one of the rating sites because I thought it would be fun and I might get a chance to meet some new friends. A couple weeks of being judged can sure be cause for a lot of soul searching. I think I can understand how some of the ladies could get caught up in the cycle and become fixated on their rating. Not sure my self confidence is high enough to handle it, but after all the searching, I believe I would rather be judged Miss Congeniality than to compromise my personality in the search for the next rung of the ladder.I have decided, If I give a vote it will be a 10, whether I got or will get a 10 in return. While its great to feel appreciated, I could never appreciate it if I felt I hurt some other lady’s feelings. Just happy to hang out with all the pretty Ladies and hopefully make some new friends.Huggss Tara Lynn
Ready To Just Be Me
January 12th, 2008 11:57 am MST
It has been almost two weeks since I stepped out of the shadows and decided to fully embrace my life. I have learned more, felt more and thought harder about being me in the last two weeks than I did in years of dressing in private. I will no longer refer to myself in the third person because I am Tara regardless of how I am dressed. I feel a little saddened at what almost appears to be a popularity contest with traces of political elections going on in almost all realms of the trans community. I guess I was just a little disillusioned to discover that being T didn’t stop people from being human. But I am happy to have met some wonderful people and began the steps of some true friendships. I will continue to leave all my posts open, my e-mail available and will refuse to hide online. I would rather spend some time deleting rude comments, ignoring rude people and blocking idiots than to miss the chance to meet some great new friends. Please do not ask me to be your friend if all you seek is another pic in your friends list or your pic on another web page but if you have read my profile peeked at my blogs and looked at my pictures and still think we could become friends leave me a post, send me an e-mail or IM me and let me know why you want to be my friend. If I ask you to be my friend it will be because I have read your profile looked through your blogs or journals looked at your pics and decided that I appreciate the person you appear to be. I would rather have 5 real firends than to be listed on the pages or have listed on my page 500 people I do not even know.
