URNotAlone

Discovering sex

August 26th, 2009 10:32 am MDT

When I was about 10, I discovered a detective magazine at one of our friend's house. The kind that has pictures of damsels in distress with the underwear showing. I took it home and hid it in my room.

They were fascinating to me, but a little confusing. It was like something was missing, but I was to young and inexperienced to realize it. Despite the provocative pictures and stories, they had nothing about actual sex in them.

My parents were out of town and I got caught looking at it by our babysitter, a neighbor girl. I was about 10, she was about 15. She started having me come over to her place. She'd dress up in her mother's clothes and I would (try) to tie her up. We only did it a few times before her mom got suspicious about the messed up clothes and we had to stop.

Then when I learned about sex (on the streets, as all boys should),That filled in the missing link. It didn't make things any better, in fact it kind of made things worse. But at least I finally understood the big picture.