URNotAlone

What a week!

June 15th, 2008 11:58 am MDT

This weekend has been crazy and the rest of the week isn't looking to get any less nuts. Friday night, June 13th, I had planned with Darlena (she has a profile here as Heather's big sis and Mike's good friend) to tell her husband about my cross dressing.  I got home from work and was getting my makeup put on for the big unveiling when the doorbell rang.  I thought they were early but it turns out my parents had gone for a ride on thier motorcycle and stopped by my house on a whim while passing through.  My brother let them in just before he took off to see some freinds while I made my way back to the bathroom to wash off the makeup.  I got cleaned up and came down to talk with my mom and dad.  We talked for a bit and just before they left I came to a decision.  I decided that if this is who I am and who I want to be then I shouldn't be ashamed.  And if I'm not ashamed then why am I hiding?  At that point I decided to tell them and did so before I could have second thoughts.  They were both fine with it telling me that "whatever made me happy is ok with them" and I would always be thier son.  But, the way they said it and didn't ask questions or deal with it in any way made it obvious that while they weren't about to disown me they would rather not know about it.  They gave me the distinct impression that it's ok as long as they don't have to deal with it or really see it.  Today is Father's day, and I'm about to head to thier house and bring gifts and all that.  I'm not going to bring it up and we'll see if they do.  On the other hand Darlena's husband took the news rather well considering we surprised him by coming down the stairs at him together in matching schoolgirl uniforms.  He's always asking her to dress up as a schoolgirl so we thought this was a funny way to tell him and for her to finally give in to his request.  He was just as supportive as Darlena and I'm glad it's finally out in the open so I can talk more freely to Darlena when I'm spending time with them. Next weekend I'm going to be spending most of the weekend dressed for PrideFest Denver.  It's an outdoor festival in June though so I'm trying to find clothing that looks nice but isn't going to roast me in the Summer sun.  Maybe I'll see some of you there as well. -Heather.