Jessica Thomas
Journal Entries for Jessica Thomas
I've come a long way baby!!
September 27th, 2008 12:24 pm MDT
Life has gotten fun since my first journal entry. Meeting more and more supportive people everyday and going out more places in more ways than I ever would have dreamed of. Just 7 months ago, dressing in the house and walking NEAR the front door was a rush. Now, I walk down the street in Hillcrest in broad daylight, go out dancing and have more fun as a girl than I ever would have thought. Paulina Kaye has been my mentor and pivot pont. Literally dragging me out and throwing me into the scene when I needed it most. San Diego is becoming a great city for cross-dressers and T-girls. On any given night (or day) you can go out and be safe, protected and totally accepted. If you are from Southern California and have never been out then this is your chance. If your from anywhere else, we would totally take pride in showing off our beautiful little community to you. Contact me.
New and Improved
May 4th, 2008 6:22 pm MDT
Well, if you read my last entery. You'll see that there has been a huge change in my mentality and my situation. First of all.I have my sanity back thanks to some wonderful girls in San Diego! Paulina, Nichole, Jamie, Kimberly and Dayna! Love you all! Nobody has helped me so much so un-reluctantly! Their only request was that I pay it forward someday to someone that I come across.. Which I will surely do. I went out a couple of times and realized that I am not alone except in my despair. And, I am learning to accept my femine side. And, IT'S FUN! I will continue to venture out into the world and be who I was meant to be. My feminity has helped shape my idenity and it will continue to throughout the rest of my life. Cheers girls..Here's to the future! Jessica
My predicament.
April 6th, 2008 3:17 pm MDT
This is my first posting to any such website such as this. I want to thank everybody for their warm welcomes. I am currently separating from my wife after being together for 10 years. She took my long buried crossdressing secret and outed me to my family and friends as well as her family and friends. I mean...I am talking Brothers, Sisters, Nieces, Nephews and 80 year old parents(hers and mine) as well as neighbors and step-sons. I am crushed! That is not how I wanted to come out of the closet. If at all. Even still, I really miss her and this is a tough time for me. I told my wife about my "Hobby" when I first met her. At the time I told her that I had a pantyhose fetish and enjoyed wearing them and having sex with them on. We both did and it was wonderful. At the time, I was happy with that. As I got older, I wanted more...Maybe I always wanted more...But before I was satisfied with just putting on hosiery. When I realized I wasn't getting any younger, I wanted to dress up into more detail, I wanted to pass. I wanted to be more of a lady and put on the whole 9 yards. Only about once a month. I was happy being a man most of the time. My Wife pretended to be supportive but wasn't. I think we could have worked around my crossdressing but there were many other factors. Mainly, alcohol and drug abuse. My wife came down with depression about 4 years ago. I tried to do everything to help. I couldn't. It only made things worse. When I tried to curb her drinking, I was called controlling and berating. Mixed with anti-depression drugs, her drinking got out of control and so did she. She has told the entire world that I have physically, mentally and verbally abused her. Now Friends and neighbors have threatened my life and limbs. I never abused her in any way. But I did enable her. That is why I left. (That, and the neighbors were either going to kick my ass or call the cops, none of which I wanted anything to do with) I ran scared. So here I am in my new efficiency apartment with no furniture but happy to have my sanity and freedom. Now is the time to explore my feminine side and be Jessica sometimes. My place is cool. It is a granny flat in the east county. But, there is a couple that live here that I don't want knowing about Jessica. They leave me alone but I would have to walk by the window to come and go so I will be in man mode 24/7 while I am here. I am confused and depressed now myself. I don't want to be a crossdresser. I want her back....without the addictions. I want to go back several months and wake up just one more time next to her. I want to be normal. I want to stop crying right now. John aka Jessica
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