URNotAlone

Waiting for a whie knight and getting nowhere

December 13th, 2008 6:15 am MST

 As a young trans girl of 23 i have noticed that i am sitting around and just waiting for some guy to come along and help me become the woman i want to be. I clutch to a false hope that someday a man will come along and say "i will buy all your clothes and pay for your transition, because i love you" and i am starting to see that this is never going to happen. As a trans girl i have to understand that no guy is ever going to give up thousands of dollars to make me into his trophy wife. I wonder how many other gurlz are seeking this easy way out and i feel bad for them because we are not only trans women but women and we need to respect ourselves enough to realize that we need to be independent. I even see GGs my age who want their man to provide everything for them and it makes me sad. Don't get me wrong if this magical chance at feminine bliss ever did reveal itself I would be the first one to sign up, but I cannot make it my ultimate goal. I need to suck it up and accept that if I want to be a woman and live my life as a happy individual I will most likely have to do it myself. Like I said I am 23 and that age is tough enough without having to pay for hormones and SRS all alone, but I do not have any other choice and i am certainly not going to live a life of Masculine lies. I need to become a woman and I will I just hope I can become her before I have wasted the majority of my life on the false person i am supposed to be in society's eyes.