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My Shrink & Lazer / Entry for July 22, 2008

July 22nd, 2008 4:25 pm MST

My Shrink & Lazer / Entry for July 22, 2008 So today i went to go see my shrink as well for my lazer hair removel. My session went well with my Dr i had told him about how im feeling lately about sex and that i don't want any of it. And the fact that i have bad dreams as i call them. Really there sex dreams but not the kind that i want to have. I guess now being in this transition and my goals are be coming closer as well dreams are coming true. Im further from sex. I don't want a man that sucks cock. nor do i want a man who wants to touch me down there. I am so far along from where i used to be. Funny enough it does not scare me at all. It just makes everything so much clearer. Having a defect is just something that is anoying now. But knowing that i can do something about it makes me feel really good. Right now it gets in the way of things. But later down the road it wont be a problem anymore. The dreams i have are not what i want and not something i enjoy having if anything it freaks me out. I also talk to him about men. Though id like to date someone the sex i do not want. I don't like anal sex it's not comfortable and i never truely liked it to begin with. As far as oral goes on me i don't want that ether. I just don't want sex period. Maybe once i get down there done but for right now im very content just doing my own thing. I have the best companion a wonderful dog that has done wonders for me. I had also talked about how i feel since i have been on the lower anti-depression meds and though i have days where i feel down its nothing i can't handle and though i may not leave the house because its to hot out or raining or whatever. My puppy makes me laugh and smile and everything is ok. I had also talked about that i want to go higher on the T Blockers and that i will have to talk to my Homrone Doctor for that. But they are doing there job for sure. I got what i needed to get off my chest and after the session was over i went next door to my Lazer lady. Lazer went well it did not hurt as much this time around i guess its because less hair or lower setting who knows. But i do know this my upper lip was not as puffy and the redness went away quicker then normally. All i wear now for foundation is a good powder it covers redness and scars. I like it and so happy i can wear just powder. I told the Lazer lady that i'll come in in September to start on my neck Its not a huge area thankfully but ya im very happy with lazer hair removel it works for sure. And lucky me i did not get cought in the rain. Weather people said it would rain LOL.