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Lana Poulson | The Thing About Becoming A Woman, & Not Staying In The Middle
July 24th, 2008 3:26 pm MST
So i'm on msn just now and this guy messages me out of no where and starts talking just nasty about doing it with a tgirl. And then asks me a question about doing it with him. Now out of no wher ei have not spoken with this person in a long time. And i ask him how does he know i have a compleatly different mind set what if i have changed.The question is .... When do you know you have Changed and have set in stone your main goal.I had told him that thats not what im about. I no longer use my penis, I don't have sex i don't let anyone touch me down there and that im going to toronto in October for my assessment to get my SRS. Not that im getting the operation when im there but its in the works basicly.His reply back was well wile you wait do you think we could get together and mess around. Hes like you were so nice to me before and your so pretty. Just cause im nice and im pretty does not mean im going to throw away all my goals and put everything aside for what a night of a pointless frolk with some dude. And be so unhappy after that im discusted with my self.I once again told him its never going to happen i don't want that i don't use anything and basicly said to him that he should do me and him a favour by removing me off his msn. Then he went on to asking if i knew any other tgirls in Ottawa. I said no i then blocked him and that was that.What i don't understand is how can you call me pretty but then say lets do that. What a pretty girl can't have bigger goals for her self. This transition has been hard on me as for any other girl we have our struggles, melt downs tuff times and what not. But since being on the higher t blockers and just where i am in my life. I want more for my self my goals are becoming closer and reachible. I have no intrest in men who suck D*&K nore have an intrest in men who want A^%L sex. And above all that I HATE Reciving A$%L SEX. I have no intrest in sex and till i get my final operation and i meet the right guy. Im done with men and till im done with this transition.I have my dog and right now shes the best companion out there. And she loves me no matter what. if im sick shes there if i look under the wether she does not care. My friends are great and my family is well funny but there my family. I'm not looking for a relationship i don't need one right now im doing my own thing and thats whats most inportent i take my time for me serously. I'm not missing anything right now and i have everything i need.Men just complicate things. Make you over think crap and waste your time. So why bother i'll talk to men. But make it clean coversation i don't care about your pecker. and i don't care how high your sex drive is because nobody is going there with me. Also men that are into transsexuals pre-op i mean honestly i think there gay. Call me whatever but im more of a woman now then i think i ever have been before i know whats right for me and whats become so clear. No Men Means Less stress. And besides how many relationships really last.Maybe in my mid 30's to 40's but right now i have everything i need.TTYL Song The Way I Are - Timberland
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Michelle Hart | Re: The Thing About Becoming A Woman, & Not Staying In The Middle
July 25th, 2008 5:52 pm MST
Good for you!!
It never ceases to amaze me how often I, we, or us, are veiwed only as some sexual plaything and not a living breathing person. As difficult as it is now trust me it will get easier and better as you move forward. Sadly there will always be inconsiderate creatons who crawl out from under their rock on occasion.
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