Maddison
Journal Entries for Maddison
Living Life
August 9th, 2008 7:02 pm MDT
HI Friends! All of you are so awesome and though I am not able to stay in touch with you like I wish I could, I appreciate the warm welcome that you have expressed or emailed me. Life sure gets crazy and there are times when something happens or someone shares something with you that makes you stop. Stop to truly see the beauty around you, to see that life has so many things to offer even amongst the difficult times. We have so many things to offer to other people. Our life stories when we stop being victims have a powerful impact on other lives. We can become an inspiration, or the touch that someone needs, or the smile that they have been waiting for, or the hug that says I am there and you are loved for who you are. Life is so short and each day we have to live as though it truly is our last. Yesterday is done, it is gone. Today . . . . it is here. And no matter what our situation is this day, we have to choose to live as we are, because that gets us closer to being who we are meant to be, want to be tomorrow. But if we keep waiting for tomorrow to live because we are waiting to 'arrive' first, to be totally happy, . . . . then it is one more day that we have allowed the negative to rob us of being closer to our dreams. Tomorrow may never come -- we assume it will. The caterpiller, it goes through many transitions before it becomes a beautiful living butterfly. But it keeps moving forward from a fuzzy crawling woolie bear, to a place where the change happens, to finally emerging till she is ready to fly. And she is beautiful . . . . but she worked for that freedom. And she lives with grace because she knew, each stage of her life, brought her to this glory. It wasn't always easy, but she knew who she was becoming and she stayed faithful to moving forward one day at a time, living each day . . . . . living life, because none of us were created as a mistake, but with a purpose of becoming. And that includes the people in our lives -- we were never meant to do life alone. Hugs!
Beauty
June 15th, 2008 5:56 pm MDT
I was a member, briefly months and months ago and due to some trauma in my own life, had a difficult time with certain aspects of being here . . . .nothing to do with the community, just some of the overtones of the sexuality displayed and talked about. As I have come to know more about my best friend and others from the transgendered community, I have come to understand so much more about true beauty, conquering fears, and living life. I have struggled with these areas in my own life but found that if I was willing to keep moving forward, to understand more about myself, AND to know that sometimes we will never have all the answers, that I could find peace to live without all the fears. To grab life and live with passion. Last night, I spoke with a couple who was 90 and 88 years old. He told me that everynight, his wife prays that when they fall asleep, that they will wake up together in the morning. It touched my heart to know that two people found such love for each other and still at this age can't wait to see each other in the morning. I'm a sucker for love I guess. But more because I know that it can bring out the best in someone else and make life so much more meaningful. I have no issues with being with someone who is tg. I look at people as people and what lies within their heart . . . . that is where true beauty lies. I wish as a society, we didn't get to hung up on outward beauty, craving for the attention to our sexuality -- but perhaps it is because, that is what we do see first, and it is what we compliment in others first. And yes, I love to be told I'm beautiful, or I look nice . . . . but what means more to me, is that someone knows my heart and compliments that part of who I am. Thank you for those of you who have emailed me and sent beautiful notes and I truly wish the best to all of you!! Life is a journey that is one day at a time and together, we will all make it happen the way we dream for it to be.
