URNotAlone

Beauty

June 15th, 2008 5:56 pm MDT

I was a member, briefly months and months ago and due to some trauma in my own life, had a difficult time with certain aspects of being here . . . .nothing to do with the community, just some of the overtones of the sexuality displayed and talked about.  As I have come to know more about my best friend and others from the transgendered community, I have come to understand so much more about true beauty, conquering fears, and living life.  I have struggled with these areas in my own life but found that if I was willing to keep moving forward, to understand more about myself, AND to know that sometimes we will never have all the answers, that I could find peace to live without all the fears.  To grab life and live with passion.  Last night, I spoke with a couple who was 90 and 88 years old.  He told me that everynight, his wife prays that when they fall asleep, that they will wake up together in the morning.  It touched my heart to know that two people found such love for each other and still at this age can't wait to see each other in the morning.  I'm a sucker for love I guess.  But more because I know that it can bring out the best in someone else and make life so much more meaningful.  I have no issues with being with someone who is tg.  I look at people as people and what lies within their heart . . . . that is where true beauty lies.  I wish as a society, we didn't get to hung up on outward beauty, craving for the attention to our sexuality -- but perhaps it is because, that is what we do see first, and it is what we compliment in others first.  And yes, I love to be told I'm beautiful, or I look nice . . . . but what means more to me, is that someone knows my heart and compliments that part of who I am.  Thank you for those of you who have emailed me and sent beautiful notes and I truly wish the best to all of you!!  Life is a journey that is one day at a time and together, we will all make it happen the way we dream for it to be.