Journal Entries for Virginia (Ginny) Nightengale
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November 10th, 2008 7:12 pm MST
Well, here it is November and I have yet to venture out en femme :( . I haven't even gone to the Meetup group yet.
It's like a battle inside my head, one says go out en femme girl and be free and another says no, be safe, don't take chances, give up this crazy life.
I just wish I could make a choice to either jump in or jump out! Oh well, on with the struggle.
Struggles
November 10th, 2008 7:07 pm MST
Well, here it is November 10th and I still have yet to venture out even to the Meetup group I joined :( . Sometimes I feel like such coward and then other times I feel I am on the wrong path and that it would be a mistake to venture out. It's like I am fighting myself everyday for control of my destiny and it never ends. I just wish I could make a choice. Oh well, the struggle continues.
Possible first time out
August 5th, 2008 11:41 pm MDT
I recently joined an online group that meets near by. They are having a meeting and if all goes well and I can work up the nerve I am going to go. This is a HUGE step for me as I have never been out and nobody but my dog knows my secret. I am so very nervous. I just hope I don't chicken out. I still get the old pangs of guilt and I am hoping that after this they will fade, even if just a little. Wish me luck! I'm gonna need it I think, lol.
