Barbara
Journal Entries for Barbara
Update on my friend Kristina
May 5th, 2009 1:48 pm MDT
Well the Crazy Bitch is still up to no good....Kristina came over the other day to hang out with me for a bit....Boy did i get a ear full....It's bad enough that she is living with her boyfriend Raymond...who she can't stand anymore...But now she is also seeing another guy name Bobby...He's 39 yrs old....(5 yrs younger then Kristina)...behind Raymonds back...She said she wouldn't be screwing Bobby if Raymond would pay attention to her.....Well I'm not taking sides here...But kristina has been living in Raymonds house for a year now....And not once did she get a job....she does have a little pet grooming salon in the back yard of Raymonds House......
And yes she does groom dogs.....But....she only does a couple of dogs here and there just for spending money for cigs or Crack or beer at the bar....she needs to get off her lazy ass and go get a full time job....even if it's something she don't want to do...it's something till something better comes along....She was talking about moving to Colorado with this guy name Bobby who by the way has no upper teeth....I can understand about starting over and living somewhere new to make a new start in life.....But not with some dumb ass guy that she met just a few months ago......
Whats going to happen if she goes way the fuck out there and shit hits the fan?....it's not like she has money in the bank and credit cards that could help her get back here if it don't work out....She's fucking Crazy...43 yrs old and still acting like she is in college.....Thank God i keep a job and pay my bills...don't have to worry like she does or will have to....And if she thinks for one minute that i am going to send her money to bring her ass back here...she is dead wrong...cause if i do send her cash she will spend it on crack then tell me a sob story of why she can't get on the bus or plane to get back here.....Yes she is my friend and i do like her alot...cause i see what she can be in life and all the cool things that she can do well.....But of course she don't see it....
She always say over and over again how she needs to get a full time job save some money and move....Been a Year....Nothing has happend and i do mean nothing...Her car is in Raymonds Name cause she can't offerd the insurance on it....And I'm sorry i don't see Raymond throwing her the keys and saying have a good life....
Kristina says she would leave in a Heartbeat if Raymond Gives her 3 thousand dollars to leave....Once again i can't see Raymond writing her a check for 3 grand...I'll keep u posted on her
Update on Walt and My roomate Heather
May 1st, 2009 11:05 am MDT
The shit never ends here...Soon as u think the water is calm...shit hits the fan again...My friend Walt right now at this very moment is in our local Hospital getting his middle toe cut off....Why?.....cause it is infected...which is the result of not taking care of himself....See Walt is wierd....he let his toe nails grow and grow...to the point where his nails couldn't go anywhere but be pushed back into the skin ...what a fucking dumb ass....he could of gotton a pair of nail clippers for a couple of bucks at Walmart.......and advoided this whole situation....
While i was at work last night he texxed me from his Hospital Bed trying to convince me that he got a hand Job from a 27 yr old nurse.....LMAO.....Right.....sorry That never fucking happend...like his friend Bill said last night..if that was true....half of the men in this town would be in the Hospital.....He must be on some good drugs
Now an update on my Roomate Heather....She's still a Crazy fucken Bitch....But in all honesty i do like her....Why?....Don't know Yet....Last week...while her boyfriend Jason was at his place sleeping cause he had to be at work at 5 in the morning.....Heathers x boyfriend came by here and took her to a motel with a hot tub in the room....Did Crack...gave her x a blowjob....then came home 9 hrs later...trying to tell me that giving her x boyfriend a blow job was not cheating on Jason......Am i missing something here?.....I feel that means cheating....if I'm wrong then so be it....Her foodstamps were cut off cause they found out she was getting unemployment.....Did she get a job yet?......Nope.....I'll keep u posted...By the way....No Poor jason doesn't know what Heather did behind his back....
My Roomate Heather
April 19th, 2009 7:56 am MDT
My Roomate Heather is a fucking trip...she's 35 yrs old....very cute girl....stands about 4 foot 11...Red hair...and a non stop yacking machine...I love her to death..as a friend and roomate....But she needs to get her shit together...As far as help keeping this place clean...she's dam good at it....
Right now she's on unemployment....June is when her checks will stop coming...She needs a job...she knows this....cause she mentions it almost everyday...But she doesn't do anything about it...What she does do is....sleep all fucking day till 1 or 2pm.....then she watches her stupid soaps...(have no clue which ones )...she'll then take a shower....and then she pops open a beer...and thats the rest of her day
She's a fucking trip...I first met her a year ago....she was my nieghbor who lived out back in apt 14 with her boyfriend at the time name Joey....(the little Hippy)...together as a couple they seemed good for each other....but i guess it wasn't behind closed doors...To make a long story short...Joey met a girl at work named Amy....and 3 weeks later he moved in with her and her 2 young kids....Just left Heather...I felt bad for her...But then i found out she was fucking around with the maintance man name Dan that works on our property...Jesus Christ..no wonder why he left her...
But as the story goes....she moved in here..she loves it...She hasn't worked since oct of 08...she can work...she just doesn't want to....lazy Bitch...And she has a habbit of hanging with all the guys that live out back....But she does have a boyfriend named Jason....(in time i will write about him)...I like him....he's a bit goofy but he has a good heart and this man works...
I'll tell u what's going to happend....come june...when Heathers unemployment runs out...she is going to end up moving in with Jason....Now he only has a room that he is renting down the street from us...he has his own private bathroom...but there is no kitchen in his room....he does have a fridge and a microwave...All i want sweet Heather to do is put the fucking beer down and go get a job.....I myself smoke pot on a daily basis...But i also work and keep a job and pay my bills...I'd like to see her get it together a little bit more.....I'll keep u posted on this person as well
My Friend Kristina
April 17th, 2009 11:19 am MDT
About 2 yrs ago i met this girl named Kristina...she moved in here and rented the second biggest bedroom...when i first met her she had a job grooming dogs at a Pet store thats about 3 miles from the house...She was cool and yes i liked her...She's my age but a year younger...real pretty greek girl..(straight)..about 5 foot 7...a little on the chunky side...but it didn't matter cause her looks made up for it...
When we first met we hit it off right from the word start...While she was living here she had a crack probblem....i didn't know this at first...she was real hush hush about it...then one day she asked me if i smoked it....told her no....but i did in my late teens cause it was the thing to do in the early 1980's.....
Kristina was a trip....and still is today...she has a friend of her's name Rick that she has known for 15 yrs i guess...Rick is a Piece of shit in my book...he can get the best fucking crack in town...BUT...he makes kristina sleep with him for the stuff...and of course Kristina goes right along with it...cause number one...she knows Rick for many years...and number 2 the Bitch is addicted to it....
One time i said fuck it...I'll buy about 300 dollars of the shit through Rick..hook him up for getting it for me...then turn Kristinia on....Just to see what she is like when she is high off of Crack...OH MY GOD.....LMAO....I don't see how Rick fucks her while she is on it cause the Bitch does not sit still for one minute...she kept on walking around the room....peeping out the window blinds...looking under her bed..looking in her closet....going in the kitchen looking in there...she told me she thinks someone is watching her...or thats how she feels...As for me i just sat there at the kitchen table drinking a cold beer watching her do this over and over again
Well that was the first time i did that with her...and it was the last time....(just didn't buy anymore)...Now of course Kristina keeps on doing it...sometimes i would sit there with her while she is hitting the crack pipe...and i would smoke my weed from my lovely Bong that i call a Tokemaster....and just watch her while shaking my head...
The crack got to her...finally one day she lost her job at the grooming place...But of course Mommy and Daddy paid her bills till she got another job....while she was looking for work...she stopped at a local hole in the wall bar and met a fruit cake name Raymond
It was love and lust at first sight for the both of them...3 weeks later she moved out of here and moved into his place....which is a house about 2 miles from me....It was a fucked up situation to begin with...and it still is to this day...Raymond didn't work when i first met him...he was on unemployment...so instead of looking for work he would sit on his laptop all day at the eBay website....selling and trading anything and everything that had to do with Miami Dolpohnes football shit...and drink fucking Rumple mints liquir....
When kristina first met him she was in love...today she is lost but still living with him....and no Kristina doesn't work....why should she...she has it made....the house that Raymond has is in his fathers name so his daddy pays for the 500 a month morgage...plus daddy pays the electric....only thing Raymond has to pay is food and the gas bill...thats it.....Raymond finally got a job at Wendys...doing grill work...yes the bastard flips burgers 6 days a week....Now why would this 40 yr old man who has been in construction all his life turn to Wendys for a job?....Simple...
He went to jail for DUI...and while he was in he got the job at Wendys...work release i guess u call it...while he was behind bars....fucking Kristina took over the house and made it into a crack house...now that Raymond is out of jail and back living in the house...it's back to normal meaning no more crack..(at least at that location)...But plenty of drinking and Drama....What will happen next is anyones guess...I'll keep u posted
Walt is a fucking Pig
April 16th, 2009 11:35 am MDT
I can't beleave my friend and CoWorker Walt...that son of a bitch has a death wish..He's still fucking around with that 25 yr old girl from McDonalds...He asked me yesterday if i would switch shifts with him so he can go fuck this girl while her boyfriend was at work
What a Asshole...I don't get it....he has kids that age...He tells me..that he knows in his heart that he will never be married to this girl or even live with her cause of thee age difference....But he has no probblem fucking her till it's over...I can tell he pushes sex on her....cause when she asks him what would u like to do for the day...he responds by saying You know what i want....My God...what an ass...I do like this guy...he's good to work with cause he does his job pretty good at the plant...And yes we do work together a couple of times a week...And we do talk shit to each other....But what he really needs to do is find someone his own goddam age..and stop fucking around with these young kids who have no life...or is lost in life...Yes she is 25 and a woman...but i met her...she is cute...but she is dumb as a bag of rocks....and fucking Walt is taking that for his advantage
One day...either she will walk away....or her boyfriend is going to beat the living shit out of Walt and probably kick her ass out of the apartment..it's just a matter of time...He thinks he is all bad and cool cause of his little girlfriend...Personaly myself i don't have a probblem dating younger people...Nothing under 30 yrs old...Why?...Because thats my choice
My Adventure at the sports Bar
April 13th, 2009 6:05 pm MDT
So today was my day off from work....Didn't do to much of anything...Didn't eat anything all day long except for coffee and some bottle water...So while i was in chat today at about 4 pm...i started to get hungry...But of course since I'm a woman i can't decide on Pizza from Jerry and Sals...or a thick juicy steak at a Sports Bar....
But i made the right choice and decided on the steak.....Went to this cool sports bar thats about a 15 minute walk from my house....Went inside and sat at the bar...it wasn't really busy in there and of course the bar staff were all new people..(As Always)...I ordered a kalua and Cream...(I do like those also...I don't always drink Jack Daniels)...Sitting next to me to my right were 2 young guys....they were both drinking beer and taking shots of Jack...one of the guys that was sitting next to me was celebrating his 21st Birthday with his buddy...Birthday Boy decided to slide over to me while i was reading the menu...lol...I must admit he was a cute little young thing....While i was ordering my steak he decided to buy me a shot of Jack and join him and his little friend who was only 22 yrs old
So Guess what?......I did.....i slid over to where they were....they both shook my hand and told me there Names.....Mike is the Birthday boy....and David is the little 22 yr old....we chatted a little manely about my bike that was right there out the window.....Then the 3 of us took our shots....Then Birthday boy decides to order himself a long Island Ice tea....why not....he can...he's 21 today....lol....My food came out...man was it good i love the way they cook your steaks in the kitchen on a fire grill....Outter crust...inside soft and juicy....Yum Yum...
While i was eating...Birthday Boy decides to order all 3 of us another round of jack....so he did...we all took our shot.....soon as i slid to the empty seat next to me to grab a napkin where the salt and Pepper was......Birthday Boy blew his cookies all over the bar...his friend got sprayed...if i didn't move i would of gotten sprayed also......LMAO....This Poor kid probably won't remember anything in the morning....Even thow...i never met these 2 goof balls before in my life....I had a pretty good time with them
Same shit different day
April 11th, 2009 12:29 pm MDT
Don't You just hate days like that?...Right now my life is.....Same shit different day..My life is starting to remind me of that Movie...Groundhog day...I get up every fucking morning..go straight to to bathroom for my morning unloading of the bladder...then i make a pot of fucking coffee...that i know dam well half of it is going to be poured down the drain....then i open my fucking blinds..to see if the earth is still out there....then i turn on the weather channel to see if i can beleave any of it....then it's fox news..then it's the puter
While i look at my emails...i then pour me a cup 0f joe...a little bit of cream is all i take...go back to puter...finish reading emails.....then off to youtube....then Fucking MySpace...then freaken facebook....then last stop is here...in chat...After that i take a shower...talk shit to my dumb ass Roomate...dress...catch a buzz...go back on line...then off to the Harley Plant.....I need a car.....I have a car but the transmission is fucked up...I have a bike....but the weather has been pretty cold and wet outside...so i can't do that.....My bills get paid....i keep a roof over my head and i don't call off from work....last time i did call off was 15 months ago...just need wheels..thats my only probblem that i am having right now....just need to fix my own wheels thats parked outside my livingroom window....or fucking buy another set of used wheels from someone i don't know through the paper
My friend Walt that needs his ass kicked
April 10th, 2009 10:55 am MDT
I have a friend of mine who's 53 yrs old.....He works part time at the Harley plant where i work at...Walt also works at fucken McDonalds doing maintance and cleaning from like 4 in the morning till 1 pm...Walt is cool but he is headed for a ass whipping...Even thow he is also the President for Our fire dept...one of these days he's going to be Head line news in our news paper...See Walt has been seeing this girl name Christina who also works at McDonalds..
She is 25 yrs old.....2 kids...and living with her Boyfriend Brian...Why is Christina seeing Walt?....cause she needs an escape rout from her boyfriend cause they are not getting along...And Walt is in it for the sex...and he loves it...thats all he talks about...while at work or anytime when he is with me...Christina this and Christinia that....He's been banging her for 3 months now on a weekly basis....I'm happy for him that he is happy....But what Walt don't understand is....one of these days he is going to get busted..and Probably by Brian Himself....then what?....I tell him almost every day...enjoy it while u can....cause when it stops it's going to stop...Either she is going to work it out with her boyfriend Brian cause he is the father of both her kids.....Or Walt is going to end up getting his ass whipped....there is no in between here...Funny thing is....when the fire dept gets that call to Christinas house and they see Walt splattered all over the walls...there is going to be some heavy news traveling over the News Papers.....President of Penn Township Fire company was rushed to local Hospital for Getting his ass whipped by Boyfriend of 25 yr old that he is banging at McDonalds.......LMAO...Everytime he goes and see's her..he texes me....i always make sure my ATM card is on me just in case i need Bail money for his stupid ass
My Secret Self
April 9th, 2009 11:24 am MDT
Who am i and why am i here...That's the one question i get everytime I'm in chat..Well it's pretty simple to me...But maybe not You...Since the day i was born back in 1964...My body has been female....that's why my parents who adopted me named me Barbara...But growing up i did do some girly things now and again...But for some reason i always felt male inside...I didn't grow up with any brothers or sisters....so it was just me...I enjoyed....playing with Lincoln Logs...Those little plastic green army men..that come in a bag with like 100 inside...loved playing Basketball in High School....even thow i never reached over 5 foot 2 in hieght
I skate boarded...hung out with all the boys in my nieghborhood...went fishing...deer hunting...When i was doing all these things...i never knew that something might be wrong...like wait a minute...I'm male inside...but why isn't my body matching my inner soul of who i am????
I'm very very lucky that god allowed me to be a good looking woman...Cause he could of very well made me look like an ugly dog!!...No I'm not gay....that's another thing i don't understand about myself...if i feel male inside...then i must like women when it comes behind a bedroom door....Nope i don't...I like males...i also love Tg's and shemales...I just think they are the most sweetest looking people in the world...Just wish i could find just one that i can call my own...Not worried here...I beleave in my heart and well being that When i am ready to really meet her...God will bring her to me......Peace
