Journal Entries for Monica Kusanagi
Hormones, the real test
May 22nd, 2011 7:16 pm MDT
My doctor, therapist, and urologist have been talking to me about doing a hormone replacement therapy test to determine if I am truly a transsexual or not.
This would involve taking a drug that is currently used for cancer treatment to completely stop the production of testosterone. Then a low-level dosage of estrogen would be administered. The T-blocker works for 3 months, but takes effect in a few days. That would be enough time for the Estrogen to take effect and then for me to assess the change in emotions.
Of course, this is not a prolonged or permanent treatment, as the testosterone production would eventually start back up, and increase to levels to overcome the added estrogen. The only permanent way to stop the T is to have an orchiectomy (castration).
So using this drug would certainly help me to know if I am in fact a woman trapped in a man's body, but to do could destroy my life. My wife is not too thrilled with this idea at all, and we are taking a break from our life together to determine what we are both going to do next.
While this does give me an opportunity to try taking this next step, I am not certain if I really want to know what comes next.
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i can only tell you how i feel after a year of anti-androgens and oestrogen.wonderful!better than i have felt since puberty set in.it is not an easy life but i personally feel the rewards to be more than worth the challenges.although since i was not in a relationship when i started the problems you are facing on that front are outside my experiance.i can add that my sister refused to even acknowledge what i was talking about when i told here i was contemplating this move,now 1 year later she has began to accept my decision and we are actually becoming closer than we have been in years.good luck and be true to yourself,no one will win otherwise
It is hard when you love someone. They have a hard time believing that this is the same person that they married. You will still love them regardless of what path your life takes. I have found the hormones calming. That is what they are going to do to you. I am not a doctor, but they know what the effect if going to be already. Your therapist should be able to tell by your conversations whether on not they believe that you are indeed a woman trapped in a man's body. My opinion is why do three months.......I don't see it accomplishing anything, especially if you stop. I have to say that I am not seeing a therapist and have been and am doing my hormones myself.