Journal Entries for toni,fine,being,ugly
Im fine with being ugly
May 1st, 2012 8:36 pm MDT
Im fine with being ugly
Growing up I never fit in wherever I went, I was told there wasnt something right
about me. I was anything that was negative stupid, worthless, weak, and ugly.
I used to get bothered and even sometimes believed it. People would tell me
how I failed, dressed oddly, wore glasses ,was a geek. I used to brush it off
say I didnt care. I dressed in only black tee shirts and pants for years so I didnt
have too worry if it clashed or not. People got the message soon enough
"stay away I dont need or want you" I went out with golddiggers that were happy
with the money i had to get them things so my looks didnt matter. At some point
I stopped hearing or listening to those that called me ugly, most were possibly
too scared to tell me with the man in black persona I had grown into.
When I first started going out dressed people would say I looked good, if they
were being nice to spare my feelings I dont know. I was happy to be a girl and
ditch the all black weardrobe. I look at my photos of my first times dressed and
going out and can honestly say my makeup and outfits needed practice.
I have been going out for about 4 years and I think I have a better handle on
makeup and outfits. I like the way I look. I feel comfortable wearing skirts, dresses,
and bikinis. I take photos too see my progress and if I need to make adjustments.
When I am out in public no one have come up to me and ask why am I dressed
as a woman because they think I dont pass, that I am ugly. If people are being
polite or dont care how I look I dont know. I can only judge by body movement
and no one has runaway or even flinched as I enter a room.
I like the outfits I go out in
I like how I look in them
I like trying new colors of makeup
If how I look when im all dressed up and go out people think im ugly
Im fine with being ugly
Pictures
January 17th, 2011 11:14 pm MST
Pictures, they say are worth a thousand words, some may not be what we want to hear ( maybe too honest ).
The best thing about honest criticising of the photos posted is that you can use comments to improve your look.
When I first came to various crossdressing sites one of the first things that I had to have was photos up to prove that I was transgendered and serious about being seen as a woman in puplic.
I enjoy posting pictures I get to be creative with my outfits, poses, and backdrops. I have left my older photos on so I can see improvement over the long run. My natural hair look better then my old wig and my makeup is better due to a steader, more practiced hand.
I encourage everyone to feel free when making pictures, go wild.
went out dressed to mall
September 2nd, 2009 6:54 pm MDT
i went out today dressed and went to the mall in manchester. I am getting more relaxed going out dressed. I also bought a few tops too
went out shopping dressed
August 27th, 2009 8:27 am MDT
wed aug 26 i went out dressed and went to kohls shopping. Iwas a little nervous but after a few stops for drive thur and fuel i decided to see how i would be received at a real store i walked into. No one did more then look at me , not much more then when i was dressed as a man looking through womens clothes. I wonder if my being dressed was better for them, now they knew what i was doing there. Before as a man shopping there i could have been doing any number of things but as a woman I was there for the clothes.
After season shopping
March 21st, 2009 8:53 pm MDT
The best thing about after season is the clearance racks. The prices are better so you can get more, or if you are shopping for both of you its easier on the wallet. The staff at most stores have been very helpful this year with wanting any sales they can get.
red&green snow
December 21st, 2008 8:38 pm MST
The second snow set this time I wore boots, warmer. It is better at night with flash the pics come out whiter. The red and green for christmas and the last pics are a wonder woman tribute of sorts
my purple christmas photos
December 20th, 2008 7:51 pm MST
Purple christmas took a lot of prepare time, clearing the patio, test photos the day before in "normal" clothes, and making sure the camera and outfit was ok in the elements. I have wanted to do an outside photo set for years. I finally got to do one it was fun to do but cold. I am not sure if I will do another with open toe shoes. I am very happy with the results.
