Journal Entries for Chryssa
Updates on this thing call life...
October 17th, 2009 7:59 pm MDT
So sometimes I feel like the only crossdresser in my country...
Of course I know that isn't true, but it feels like that. In college there are so many openly gay and lesbian people these days... I don't know how it is elsewhere, but where I go to study it's almost a perfectly normal thing now. So normal in fact that if you saw two guys on the street who were clearly gay and YOU raised an eyebrow at them, you would be the one people would stare at!
Yet crossdressing...where do I begin? Harmlessly trying on the guise of feminity is just so foreign to people...so alien. Sometimes I think it would be easier to be gay. You see a pretty boy in a dress with his boyfriend, he's just a homosexual expressing himself. You see a heterosexual boy in a dress and suddenly there's shock and horror!
Of course I could bang on about social trends and how they're slowly advancing (yady, yady yada...), and how people catagorise the world and its inhabitants and therefore when a boy in a dress comes along, it screws up their nice neat organised lines...I know all this! But still...I like to vent sometimes...
I also feel like one of the youngest crossdressers in the world because so few people my age have come to terms with it (not that I fully have, but I've made leaps and bounds in the last year). I don't really know what I'd do if I met a fellow crossdresser. I don't know if I would feel comfortable sharing this hobbie with another boy. I think it's because I relate so much to girls...that I like to reserve 'boys' for pissing about, having a laugh and playing some video games.
Having said that my roomate knows about me and one of my best friends does too. Both straight, football-watchin dudes... Dunno if I feel comfortable dressed up around them though. I have done it and they didn't seem to mind. Personally I was more curious about how I'd take it. When I was less comfortable with my crossdressing, I always thought if only the world accepted males wearing what they want like females do. Then I would dress up all the time, right?
That's today's question for me. Now that I've found people who seem comfortable around me dressed as a girl...can I take it? Is it because I am too uncomfortable with myself or is it because it is too personal and private a thing?
It requires some more thought, I think...
