Journal Entries for Bobbie Jo Justice
QUOTE OF THE DAY
May 3rd, 2012 7:05 am MDT
QUOTE OF THE DAY: I do not understand why some people think that having a gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgendered child means they failed as a parent.
You want to know what REALLY means you failed as a parent? - Disowning your child means you failed as a parent.
5 and 1/2 months until surgery
March 2nd, 2012 8:30 am MST
Birthday today, and. 5 and 1/2 months left until gender reassignment surgery. I've been on a wonderful journey of discovery of my true self which started in the spring of 2007. I remember when I told my sister, my friends, my coworkers, my mom. I remember the day I created my website to post my transition pics and tell my story.
I remember the day I got my ears pierced, I remember showing Linda at work the next day. I remember the day I went full time, I remember my initial make up woes which Linda helped to correct. Each and every day since the spring of 2007 has brought me more happiness than I could have ever imagined. I am very blessed to know many wonderful people. I have done things that many people only dream about and that some never even think about.
Closets are for clothes, not people.
I live each and every day to the fullest and enjoy my life. I've had a challenging moment or two here and there, but my determination, my strength, my stubbornness, and my "absolute unwillingness to tolerate b.s." has gotten me through the tough times. One of my favorite quotes, "I WILL MAKE ME HAPPY AND ANYONE WHO DOESN'T LIKE THAT CAN GO F*** THEMSELVES IN NO UNCERTAIN TERMS". YOUR APPROVAL IS NOT NEEDED.
I lived 49 years trying to be good to everyone but the one person that truly matters - myself. It was time that I support HER, even if no-one else does. After all, I'm the ONLY one I know for a fact will be with me until my final day.
Moving to Ohio on February 24th
February 20th, 2012 5:25 pm MST
I will be moving to Ohio on February 24th.
My job in Milwaukee, Wisconsin at Kohl's corporate office is going to allow me to work from home. (Columbus, Ohio).
I will still need to be in Milwaukee once in awhile, but most of my work will be done from Ohio.
They are also going to allow me 4 weeks off for my surgery, with another 4 weeks after that working from home.
2012
January 2nd, 2012 8:08 am MST
Well, after being there for six months as a consultant, I was offered a full time job at Kohl's department store.
I started as a full time employee on December 19th. I discussed with them my need for 4 weeks off during my surgery and initial recovery time from August 17th - September 16th, which they were fine with. I also said that I would like to be able to telecommute from Ohio a fair amount which they were also fine with, so that pretty much sealed the deal.
I will be in Milwaukee through the first week or so of February, then I will move to Columbus, Ohio. I will still be in Milwaukee from time to time, (I know for sure the last couple weeks of June, first 2 weeks of July, and then possibly late October to mid December) to support changes at work, etc. So other than cloning myself, it's really the best of both worlds, I will get to see my friends in both Ohio and Milwaukee.
Surgery date is 8 and 1/2 months away - August 20th.
Bobbie Jo
Warren, Ohio 09/17
September 14th, 2011 8:06 pm MDT
I am heading to Warren, Ohio this weekend for the Girls Night Out party. I will be in Columbus thursday evening, and then headng to Warren on Friday.
14 months
July 1st, 2011 12:23 pm MDT
Due to my new job, I moved my surgery date out. I am now scheduled for surgery on August 20th, 2012.
In 14 months, I will be a virgin.
I have a lot of men that "want to be first" after I am all healed.
Maybe I should sell raffle tickets, lol.
still looking for room
June 5th, 2011 8:33 am MDT
Okay, I am not having a huge amount of luck trying to find a room around here. Hopefully something comes along soon.
Untitled Post
May 27th, 2011 1:51 pm MDT
Well, it looks like I am now heading off to Wisconsin to work on a contract job for awhile. I start on June 1st.
Surgery status update
February 27th, 2011 7:25 am MST
So far, I have paid $8,000 of the $18,500 for my sugery. $10,500 left to go.
If the background check comes back as acceptable, then I start my new job in Marysville, Ohio on my birthday, March 2nd. That will certainly enable me to get the rest of the money for my surgery.
URNA party - 2/26/2011
February 27th, 2011 7:21 am MST
I had fun last night, I saw some current friends, and met a couple new ones too.
Nothing else to say, except one of my favorite quotes.
"I lived 49 years trying to be good to everyone but the one person that truly matters - myself. It was time that I support HER, even if no-one else does. After all, I'm the ONLY one I know for a fact will be with me until my final day"
I have my passport now
January 16th, 2011 12:48 pm MST
I received my passport yesterday so that I can go to Canada in August and have my surgery.
I needed both the letter from my therapist and the letter from my doctor to get the F in gender on the passport since my license and birth certificate have not been updated yet.
August 23rd, 2011 - I will finally and completely be the woman I should have been born as from day one.
Gender Reassignment Surgery date now set
December 28th, 2010 7:26 am MST
I now have my surgery date set. The surgeon has received my paperwork, my downpayment, etc. All that remains is for me to get the rest of my finances together, get my passport, and make travel arrangments to Montreal.
August 23rd, 2011 is the day that I will lose the "feminine boy part" that has been with me for most of my life, and I will finally have a body that matches my true gender.
I look forward to next year with great anticipation and joy.
Bobbie Jo
Strength / Courage
July 28th, 2010 4:45 pm MDT
I often receive emails, comments etc from other girls and they usually say the same thing to me.
I admire your strength and courage".
Well thank you very much, but I don't know that I really have this huge amount of strength and courage that I am being credited with.
I have read the stories and heard the comments from so many girls, whose family has disowned them, their friends have left them, etc. This saddens me a great deal, that even here, in the year 2010, hatred, intolerance, lack of respect, and discrimination is (in some cases) still rampant.
I have said this many times before and will repeat it yet again. WE HAVE A RIGHT TO BE HAPPY TOO.
If you consider the previous statement "selfish", then I have one thing to say to you-- F*** OFF !
Anyone who doesn't like how I live was obviously never that important to me to begin with, AND THAT GOES FOR ANYONE, immediate family member, distant cousin, long lost "friend", co-workers, etc..
I am not sure that I have all this strength and courage that I have been credited with by so many girls, but I do know that I have an extremely low (i.e., zero) tolerance for bullsh**.
I LIVE MY LIFE TO MAKE ME HAPPY, and anyone who doesn't like that can GO TO HE**.
I want to live in a world where everyone has the right to be themselves, free from discrimination and hatred.
Bobbie Jo
Saturday, May 15th
May 18th, 2010 3:46 pm MDT
I had an incredible saturday. First I went to torture treatment (electrolysis), then I went to the beauty parlor and got my hair and makeup done.
After getting my hair and makeup done, then I drove down to Warren, Ohio for the Girls Night out Prom.
I had on my beautiful pink formal gown that I had bought at JCPenny a few weeks ealier. I met many of my wonderful friends, and even met a few new girls too.
I danced, partied, chatted with people, and just had a wonderful time.
Towards the end of the evening they came to the moment to crown the prom queen. They said, c'mon girls, don't be shy, get up here. My boyfriend pushed me up on stage.
They had the audience applause for each girl, and by the time they got to the end they said, "Okay, our winner is contestant #4". Hmmmm, Wait a minute, 1, 2, 3, 4. Oh my goodness, that's ME !
I started crying, I was so happy. To be crowned Prom Queen at prom, every girls dream
I have my 2 letters for GRS
May 3rd, 2010 6:08 am MDT
I met with my gender therapist again this weekend, followed by a meeting with the psychiatrist and after those meetings, I have now received my two letters approving me for gender reassignment surgery.
There is a very good doctor in montreal that I am impressed with, and I am probably going to him next August (2011) for my operation.
Now I just have to save my money for it.
very happy girl today
March 27th, 2010 2:14 pm MDT
TODAY IS MY TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF BEING OUT FULL TIME.
I AM A VERY HAPPY GIRL TODAY.
I got up at 6, went to the beauty parlor at 7, got my hair and makeup done, then I went off to my therapist at 11.
At my appointment with my therapist this morning, she did the one letter I need for SRS. She also gave me a congratulations on your "graduation" card with a nice note inside and a couple of beautiful keepsakes as well.
On May 1st, I should get the second letter approving me for SRS.
YEA, SRS in 2011 here I come.
Bobbie Jo
An amazing 3 years
March 8th, 2010 8:52 pm MST
It has been an amazing 3 years. It was about 3 years ago at this time that I started cross dressing on a casual basis. Little did I know then I would be at the point I am now.
I was dressed in a bridal gown when I was 9 years old (for halloween). I loved it then (didn't really understand why), but of course I had to pretend like I didn't like it. After all, boys aren't supposed to like those things. That's my issue, I WASN'T A BOY.
When I was in my 20s, I wore my wifes bra and panties some, but didn't get into anything serious.
It wasn't until age 49 when a great lady that I know wondered aloud "I wonder what you would look like as a girl".
I didn't fully understand then, but that started me down the path to truly becoming a girl.
I didn't have any girl clothes at all, I bought my first pairs of panties and my first dress online from Victoris'a secret . Amazingly enough, when they arrived, they actually fit, talk about lucky. I still have those panties from 3 years ago, which I wear on occassion, I no longer wear the dress because it was just a generic red, cheap dress, and my outfits are so much better now.
After buying my first dress, I wore it out a couple of times, then decided to buy another outfit to wear out. I put on one of my new outfits, did my makeup (oh god, what a nightmare I was back then with makeup), and went to a club.
There I met a man who said he found me attractive, and we played some later that night. I know he was just being kind because my makeup skills were atrocious back then, but it was still nice to be wanted.
That evening encouraged me to go farther. I went back to that club several more times after that, becoming a little more sure of myself each time.
I bought more panties, and stuff, and started filling out my wardrobe.
It was about this point, late summer / early fall of 2007, that I knew I had finally figured out what had been wrong with my life for the previous 49 years.
I had been living my life as a man and I WAS A WOMAN !!!!
I decided I was going to change my outer appearance to match my inner self.
I contacted a doctor that did laser hair removal and told them I wanted to get rid of the hair on my face. They asked me why, I said because I am going to become a woman. Those words made me so happy, but also anxious at the same time because I knew I had a lot of work to do to make that dream come true. I made my first appointment for the next week.
Next I contacted a lady who did electrolysis to first fix my eyebrows because they were an absolute disaster, and later to get rid of the gray hair off my face. She asked me why, and I once again said those oh so beautiful words --> BECAUSE I AM GOING TO BECOME A WOMAN. We made an appointment for the next week.
It was also in the fall of 2007, that I created my website: www.tgirlbobbiejo.com
In the fall of 2007, I also started letting my natural hair grow and haven't cut it to this day
I remember my very first GNO in Warren, Ohio in the fall of 2007. I met two wonderful people, Glenda and Michelle. Michelle and I have grown especially close over the last 2 and 1/2 years. I also remember the very first time I ever saw Chloe Prince at a GNO, I thought she was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen in my life. I couldn't believe it when someone told me she was a TS (this was still her pre-op days). She is absolutely amazing, and she is one of my inspirations. Donna Renee Richards is the other.
On March 27th, 2008 I went full time. Almost two years have gone by since that day, and they have been the happiest two years of my life.
In January 2009, I changed my legal name.
In the last 3 years, I have gone from just starting cross dressing to now in the final stages of my transition, choosing my surgeon and preparing to have my SRS surgery.
It has been an amazing journey the last 3 years, one that I wouldn't trade for the world.
I have met so many wonderful people, I have many close friends, I have a wonderful family, I have a wonderful boyfriend who bought me a diamond ring for christmas in 2009. My sister has been far and away my biggest supporter and I love her lots. I have a video on youtube where I did a striptease for a birthday celebration in 2009. Also at 51, I danced topless at a straight strip club. None of the girls there knew I was a TS, they all thought I was a GG until my friend told them. That made my month.
I have livd a truly wonderful and miraculous life over the last 3 years, and I see nothing but good times ahead as I plan my SRS. I thank my many wonderful friends, my family, and my boyfriend for all of the support that they have provided to me.
My only real down moment came when I had my daughter taken away from me simply because I am a transgendered female. She turns 18 in 2018, and I am very hopeful to re-connect with her then. I do miss her and hope she is doing well. I want her to know that I never stop thinking about her. I can only imagine the lies her mother is telling my daughter about me.
I am finally living my life as the woman I should have been all along, and I much better off emotionally, mentally and physically.
Bobbie Jo
off to New Hampshire
February 18th, 2010 12:55 pm MST
I am off to new hampshire to work there for awhile. I plan on being back in columbus on March 27th, for the URNA party, and also for my appointment with my therapist.
March 27th is also a very important day for me. That is my 2 year anniversary of being out full time.
