Cheryl_Lynne
"Living female most of 4 years. Worked at laser salon last summer and no one clocked me even the owners parents. It helped to have my hair done each day by my boss. NOW I LIVE AS A MAN AGAIN"
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bout my life now
November 8th, 2009 12:25 pm MST
I have flopped from male to female and back a few times in the last 5 years. I found my female self at 55 yrs old and embraced her. Then started hormones, that was on May 5, 2005. It took untill Nov. 2005 to accept I was a transsexual. Yes, I know it was backwards to protocalls. When I started going out infem Feb. 05 it was scarry then just natural feeling. That is how I got to start HRT. Going almost full time holding back in front of my parents and a few family members for several months. Then the big letter was written and sent out. Only a few answered the rest turned away. I have a son that was one of them and he has a daughter. I have not been allowed to see her for 4 yrs now. My first time going back to male was to try and get my wife back. We were married 35+ yrs then. That did not work and only 3 months later Cheryl was back. Then I did the going back last yr in Aug for a joke and because I had to go off HRT for medical reasons. I tried to get my son and grand daughter in my life then and my son came back. It helped me to get a job too thou I told Wal mart I was a TS and would change on the job soon. I changed there in May this yr and my son left again. I still have not been allowed to see my grand daughter and she is 10. After many battles with myself trying to find a balance, I found it. I now have peace with my male self and live as a man! NEWS FLASH I live male. I do not think living female works for me or is needed. My body would need way too many changes and I still would not look how I invisioned. Don't get me wrong, I look pretty as a woman even with min make up. It is not how I want to look or need to be now. So this Sept. 2009 I changed to a new male self, happier and at peace with both identities of mine. I AM TWO SPIRITED both male and female and male is how I will live. This is not for anyone but me. I have a friend that is ok with both and is adjusting to Terry as she met me as Cheryl a woman. Our friendship is growing strong too. In public I am a man and in the bed, well I wear womans soft PJs my friend gave me. Balance is what I have now.
My trans sister Robyn left early this morning for Texas to live with her son and family. It is the first trans friend for me and my closest sis. I will miss her greatly and call her often! Safe travels for your family get to meet her and she her daughter i n law and grand kids. So wonderful! There is hope in our life after all. Terry a MTFTMTFTMTFTM (o:
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Cheryl Lynne,
While I am not two spirited, I too choose to keep living as a male character on the stage of life. As long as God gives me the strength and peace of mind and until my wife finally comes to understand and accept me I plan to keep up the act.
We are so fortunate. We can be women even though we must live as men. Oh, I truly miss being able to have female friends and be free to act naturally, and will always feel a bit cheated, But I hold my head high knowing that I am leading a life of integrity.
Many people would disagree with my last statement. They would say, how can you be leading a life of integrity when you are really living a lie? I say living with integrity is doing what is right and doing your best in whatever is set before you to do. One of my life verses from the Bible is Ecc. 9:10:
Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might.
Be who you are and do it with your might.