Toni
"I thought I purchased a lifetime gold membership last year but I guess I was wrong. It's been fun. Bye."
Journal Entries for Toni
The Holy Grail
December 13th, 2009 3:29 am MST
Finaly after a long journey it looked like I was finaly gonna meet a girl in person to dress with. A very impressive girl at that. Many beauty titles and gorgeous. "there is a god" I said. I still say that but now realize he has a sense of humor. "What a BITCH." All the pretty in the world couldnt put down the ugly attitude in her. A short call and the Grail was gone. I had to hang up. To much negativity for me. The search goes on.
Untitled Post
November 23rd, 2009 5:58 pm MST
Well I'm finding friends quickly and learning alot. Mostly that I'm not as different as i once thought. It seems that there are many like me out there. Each day I learn a little more about people and thier level of acceptence. Trying to make up for lost time which I think is alot like water under the bridge. Once gone it is gone forever. My fear now is that I may seem a bit to aggressive but I have spent a life time not going after the things that most interested me and instead following the path most acceptable. I shall not do that any longer. So please excuse my forwardness attitude if you can.
Progress
November 9th, 2009 10:52 pm MST
I came here to try and meet some like minded girls and to lose the feeling that I am alone as well as to make some new friends and learn more about how and why I do what I do. Well it hasnt been long and I think I might have met a new friend here that just might get the ball rolling. I hope so and I hope the ball is a snow ball. I'll let you all know how it all goes, right here in my journal. Stay tuned!!!
First Outing
November 3rd, 2009 3:02 am MST
After 10yrs. of talking about it I finaly did it. The first week end of Oct. 09 I made the trip to Vegas and the glamour boutique where Stephanie did a full tilt makeover with instructions on me. The entire process was great fun and I purchased several outfits and several pictures were taken ( the ones you see here). I cant thank everybody at the boutique enough for the way they put me at ease and the great results of thier talents.
Afterwards I was picked up by my best friend and another friend in a limo and the adventure began. I had felt that the experience of going out in public would be a terrifying and also sexualy exciting event that would give me some feeling of being a woman but the resulting emotions were much different. It was terrifying but because of the fact that I now found myself in a packed In n out restraunt escorted by my two GG friends and having summoned the courage to do so I found myself feeling more of a man than ever before. I was 10' tall and bullit proof and 100% sober. There were no problems and if anyone noticed I wasnt female they hid it well. Being normaly submissive I found this feeling of manlyness strange.
Now it was back to the hotel, the Stratosphere, for more pics then off to dinner at Roxy's. This also went well and we had a great time. I noticed I was pegged a few times there but nothing that was demeaning or insulting. From there we played in the casino for a while till my companions decided it was time for me to take my submissive role back to our room.
A big success with surprising results. Not what I expected but much better. The ballsiest thing I've ever done lol.
