Journal Entries for Cindy
Advantage and Disadvantage taping cleavage
November 15th, 2010 1:56 pm MST
OK, this post comes from something I learned this past week. I waxed so there was no hair on my chest to worry about. Since I was smooth chested, I thought I would try taping my breasts to create some cleavage.
The first night I did this my gurls looked great. I had cleavage and boobies ... It was so good that I found myself covering up the cleavage at a support group meeting. Now I know how women feel when they feel to exposed with the breasts. They are great when you want to feel sexy, but a pain when you want to tone it down. At the end of the night the tape came off no problem. I had my chest tapes for about 6 hours.
Then two nights later I try again, but this time I going out to a club, so I tape them a little tighter. Again I felt they looked great, and was out for like 10 hours. The problem here was my chest did get sore during the evening, and when I tried to take the medical tape off. I lost some skin in the process. It was pretty bad. I have some nasty scabs now under my nipples and it will take about a week for them to heel. So if you feel puliing on your chest when you tape, address it, cause your skin can only take so much.
In the future I will use a Nubra to create my cleavage since I do not think the adhesive is quite as strong, and you get the same effect.
At for taping down below, I was a little sore the second time, but did not lose much skin, again I think if you tighten the tape to much and stretch the skin ... over time that skin may tear, and taking the tape off will not help the tearing of the skin.
So there is a little info, or my 2 cents.
Hugs,
Cindy
Traveling Slowdown ... Yes ...
October 14th, 2010 1:25 pm MDT
Well ... I am finally slowing down on the travel a bit, which is helping me catch up on a lot of paperwork. What is a gurl to do? I cannot believe how much mail piles up. I am also getting active again with a lot of scholl activities.
I am looking at getting out a bit in November which will be great. I'm really excited about that. In Tampa though a few of my old haunts are now closed, so I will have to contact some of my gurl friends out there and see what are the hot spots now.
So we will see.
Huggs,
Cindy
Busy Traveling
August 13th, 2010 1:23 pm MDT
Hello All ... :)
I know I have not written in my journal for a while. Hmmm ... since I have time, I thought I should at least jot something down.
I'm planning on going out this November for a while. I want to get in better shape, skipped running for a few months to much traveling with my work team, and need to get back to running. Laser treatment has been going well, but it does take a long time. I started treatments last year, and I would say it has gotten about 80% of the hair, but I have a few treatments left.
I am using a numbing cream when I get laser, because it does hurt, but at least the redness goes away in a couple of days. I am doing the laser in sections, and waxing on those areas not getting lasered. I think to get all the hair off permanently would take a few years. But when I'm 3 weeks after laser and waxed ... my skin is super smooth all over and I do love that. Skin softener soaks into hairless skin like nothing else.
I'm thinking about taking some time off in November to try going full time for a while, but I'll see, it's a big step and might be too big for me. I will at least go out a bit to meet friends and do some dancing. Of course some shopping is nice :) ... I need some flats, all I have are the high high heels, and many hours in those and this gurl needs a foot massage.
I started listening to the Trans Mixer Show, on my Ipod, and these gurls live in Orlando. When I 'm back in town, I will try and get to one of their support meetings. I think there are more gurls out there then we realize.
Well I know I am talking a bit, but it is nice to brain dump. And I will get anther one out next week.
Huggs,
Cindy
Been away for a while
May 12th, 2010 7:12 am MDT
I know I have not posted for a while. I have been swamped with work, volunteer activities for my child, and helping my folks out with a few big projects at their house.
Once they figured out I am a good handy-woman look out.
I have not been out to much lately, but should have some more free time this summer. Work has had me go on a few work trips, so the time I'm travelling is the time I would use to go out. Looking forward to the break in travel, but it will stop once the project goes to it's next phase. Hence this summer to fall free time.
Started training again for a tri-atholon. Took a break over the winter, and now getting back into shape ... ugh ...
I miss hanging out with other gurls though ... you all are so kind and sensitive ... I miss the sense of community ... Looking forward to more free time..
Huggs,
Cindy
How to be a lady, but still be naughty
November 15th, 2009 9:43 am MST
This is just a thought for the day. Something I was thinking about. When I go out dressed I like to look sexy and alluring. I get good compliments, but it is strange still. Do any of you gurls go out and maybe don't realize you look sexy.
I think we gurls and all girls judge themselves to harshly. We all probably look better then we think. Then this comes to another probelm. If a gentleman is giving you attention, how to act? I have not been a woman as long as real women, so I am not so skilled at begin demure. Also since I"m not 24/7 I cannot go on a few dates in a week or two to build a relationship. Some girls wait a while before being intimate, others don't.
How are you suppose to know, this is a good person? Are they safe? Disease free? Drug Free? What have been some of your exerpiences. Also you admires, how have you felt we gurls acted. Do like it when they super slutty or do you then think they won't be faithful in a relationship, or do like to take is slow to build the relationship, so intimancy can be more meaningful.
I am going through a lot of new feelings, and I like to be naughty, but I still want to be a lady too. The balance is something I think I will learn over time.
Huggs all,
Cindy
The slow transition
November 3rd, 2009 8:36 am MST
OK, I have a post on what I would call the slow transition. How many of you gurls out there are doing that. It is when you feminize your body slowly over time, without hormones. Then you get a feel about being a gurl before the big plunge.
I am currently working on getting my body hair removed, and growing my hair long. The funny thing is women love the look, if only they knew that I actually working to look like them. I am having laser treatments done on areas the sun don't shine, and waxing the rest. I am saving my face for last since a good close shave and some foundation, can still allow me to look like the gurl I want to be.
Lets face is I can't use makeup to cover hair on any other part of my body. Yet by keeping me face hair, a little stubble and no one would guess I'm transgendered. Great for work. So I'm stubbly for work, since I have to be a guy to make the bucks, yet sexy smooth on weekends.
Eventually I will have laser done to all the hair on my body below the neck. I can further grow as a woman, and see if I build up my confidence enough to then transition. For my the problem with transition, is the fear of redicule and shame if or when I do. So I take it slow, so to prepare myself for which ever way I want to go with transition.
Huggs,
Cindy
Need to go out again
October 29th, 2009 12:23 pm MDT
I think I will be heading out in Tampa on 11/13. Going to Fetish2Fetish. They have this Tea Party that is fun. It is a good chance for me to meet others in the Tampa community. It has been almost 2 weeks since I've been able to dress, and it is bugging me. This gurl needs to get out soon and dance. I am finding the more I go out, the more I miss it. Do many of you gurls feel the same. I am waxing and growing my hair long. i think i can try and straddle both worlds as male and female for awhile. I am not sure about the future, but I do love being Cindy. Huggs, Cindy
My first journal entry
October 27th, 2009 4:01 pm MDT
This is a test journal entry for me. I guess one thing I've learned from this group or site is that many people are supportive us of gurls. I feel the more I explore my feeling the more support I find. I had a drag queen help me out in the spring of this year with my makeup, and now I have helpped another gurl out a few weeks ago.
For my helping other gurls is important for me to grow, just as those before me helped me come out more. For you gurls before me thank you so much. Alice in genderland was a book that helped me realize who I am. I will post more journals, but this is a good start I think.
Huggs,
Cindy
