Journal Entries for Priscilla Vogelbacher
How the fuck?
December 5th, 2009 12:16 am MST
I have a simple question that I ask every tgirl I meet, whether online or in person. How did you get the money to transition so early? I look at all the early to mid twenty something’s out there that have already done it or are well on their way and I get really depressed about it. Outside of porn and prostitution, what is there? My skin isn’t good enough to do porn (lots of scaring that didn’t show up in my photos; my camera isn’t that good), and I actually would rather not have to hook. I’m not domme, so I don’t think I would be a good dominatrix.
I’m an artist and have my art for sale on a prominent website. I get hundreds of views from all around the world each week, but not a single soul is willing to buy something. I tried listing my services as a personal art tutor on craigslist, but again not one person in the entire city who came across it has ever messaged me about it.
I am in school full time and I have a shit job that only gives me one or two days a week which barely lets me afford food. I know a lot of you will be telling me to get another job or a different one, but its easier said than done. It took me a year and a half to get the one I have now. That’s my luck when it comes to that sort of thing. And before you say this, yes I keep trying.
In two weeks I will be twenty seven. I feel old. I didn’t want to be one of those that transition later in life. We all know the longer you wait the worse the results will be and the more money you have to spend to achieve what you want. I don’t really feel like a woman at all when I’m dressed anymore; I don’t see that girl in the mirror like I used to, more and more I see a man who’s trying to kid himself. It all seems like a fading dream at this point and all the compliments in the world can’t make it better. I’m at a complete loss here. How do I get the money to finally start this? If it sounds desperate, it’s because I am.
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Re: How the fuck? Em February 14th, 2010 10:04 am MST As far as I know and the girls that I have talked to which are a few around early 20's is that their parents for everything and usually insurance covered the costs of therapist and hormones sometimes. I'm in college and looking at the costs of transitioning and right now just going to a therpist witht he drive and session fee is expensivae for me and I haven't even gone to a endocrimologist yet with his/her fees and hormones cost. I"m actuall trying to save up now for a sperm bank since it is about $450 for samples and then $500 a year and laser treatments at $200 a session. It's not easy but I feel the longerr I wait the worse it will get, I already don't like the face I see in the mirror and know FFS ineviable. My goal is to start while in college at least alittle abit and then get a job afterwards to pay for the costs of transitioning.
