URNotAlone

Cloud 999

May 15th, 2006 2:32 pm MDT

Posting this, I guess, because they are the kind of entries I most respond to, and comment on.  I'm "out" at last!  More out than Michael Bolton's mullet.  And it's in-effing-credible!! <RETURN>  I've been expecting this moment for a long time (sometimes eagerly, sometimes fearfully).  Just not the kinda thing to slip into a conversation--"Lovely weather we're having, and BTW . . ."  But last month I FINALLY left enough clues for a friend to connect the dots.  So she asked, and I answered  (I've refused to lie about myself for years, but usually happy to avoid the issue).  And it wasn't the question I expected (like about crossdressing) but the $64K question--"have you thought about transitioning?"! <RETURN>  So . . . in for a penny, in for a pound.  In recent years I've isolated myself so much that really I have meaningful contact with only three couples.  Now that one of them knew, only two to go!  Took care of couple #2 last night.  Couple #3 was my parents.  Did the "confession" ;) to them this morning--in person and unscripted.  <RETURN>  Nothing but love, baby!!  I'm ashamed how much I could have underestimated the people that love me.  My parents in fact told me I have to transition.  For real!  And I didn't even mention that possibility, or that I had ever considered it.  I just described my personal dilemma and mental state, and immediately they said transitioning was the solution!  They said I can't continue "this" existence.  My father, on leaving, said "today is the first day of the rest of your life"!  He did add "son" but that's a minor quibble :) <RETURN>  I can't tell you how blessed I am.  I wish all of you one day as beautiful as today has been for me!