I would like to send a Heart Felt Thank You to all the People I've met here.Even thou it is only via E-mail(Kellie,Janice Marie,Bobbie)and those I forgot to mention.
I will reach out to everyone even if is only to say "Hi".I'm shy by nature so it is somewhat of a challenge to approach people I don't know.
But I have to ask a question(rofl)I was just wondering,Do any of you Ladies ever answer those guys I see on comment sections leaving their phone numbers?I am just wondering,WTF is up with that?
Anyway,
Have a Wonderfull upcoming week(even if you are a yankees fan)
Hi everyone! first off all I love the website :) A big thank you goes to the admins for doing such a great site for all of us girls! :)
I want to announce that "The Secret Dolls" an all original TS rock band is searching for hot talented musicians for recording, touring and lots more! If you think you have what it takes please contact me directly and please send a head shot photo and a resume with your musical background and experience. Currently we are searching for a Drummer and Bass player.. YOU MUST HAVE GREAT STAGE PRESENCE and ROCK STAR SKILLS! We are very serious about this project and are demanding the best. We are currently holding auditions in San Diego, Cleveland, NYC, and Los Angeles. If you have experience, talent, and have good sex appeal please contact us ASAP as we are planning to start rehearsing in the next couple months. We currently have shows booked and would like to start touring as soon as possible.
You can view the bands website at http://thesecretdolls.com and email us at: contact@thesecretdolls.com
Thank you for taking the time to read my Journal posting and if you know of any others HOT TS talented musicians please forward this information to them.
Thank you,
Tawni Summer "The Secret Dolls" www.thesecretdolls.com
After 6 long years of being single, I have finally found a GG woman who has not only taken my heart.. But is my other half!
This woman means the world to me!! And after such a long haul of dealing with my own issues of my loss.. I have come to the point where I can love again!!
And this feeling is one of the best feelings in the world!!! I can not stress this enough. And just feel I must share this with everyone I know.. And those who don't know me!!
Love is such an important part of this life!! Love is something that can make a bad day just go away!! Love is something that is rare in this life.. And its something you must cherish with every fiber of your being when you do find it!!
This is what I wrote for her.. And want to share it here with everyone here..
Every time I look into your eyes. I see a reflection of my life days past. When I look into the mirror. I see your heart shinning through.
When I think of the days that have already past. I know in my heart that those days where some of the days that where the best of my life! When I think of the days that are to come, I am overjoyed with the knowledge that the universe has sent you into my path.
When we walk upon the beach the moon smiles upon us.. When we walk within the park.. The trees sway with compassion.
Nature knows that we have no bounds. The wind the earth, is part of our playground.
There is no place we can not go. There is no person that would not know.. The love we share is true!
The truths to this world is ever so hard to find. While one person locked with the matrix will try to tell lies.. the truth to you and I are clear to see!
There is no mystry.. The clues are there to see.. The love the passion the energy is running free! Like a waterfall that flows forever more..
There is the door, and we are the key.. We pass through time, and we pass through space. Nothing shall stand in our way..
We are like mountains.. We are like trees.. We are the wind, water, air and fire!
My love meets you half way.. There is nothing else I could say.. But you are free to do what you wish.. But you will always desire my kiss!
For where ever the universe takes us.. Where ever life leads us..
I will always be close to your heart..
My love I love you with all my being.. And that holds no bounds..
And what loves is always true.. As love is the only truth in this world!
With that said.. Im going to work on turning that into a song.. I just need a cool chorus to go with it!
IM inspired to do anything now!! And soon both Isis and I will be doing what we want to do!!
Not only did I find love... Im back in school!! I got my GED.. and things are looking up!
I have to give a specail shout out to my friend Tia TV!! It is wasnt for her I would not have been able to get the power to go back to school and focus on a career in this life!
Tia! Your one good friend!! And there is a specail place in my heart for you my friend!
And I want you to meet my new girlfriend! You will find her to be as specail as I am!
And anyone else out there.. Please tell Tia what a wonderful person she is!!
Not only is she kind, but highly intelligent, and has done more for me than most people have ever cared to do!
There is only one other person out in this life who helped me like that.. and his name Is Joe.. But I have not gotten to hang out with him in ages..
He was my boyfriend at one time.. But now that I have a GG woman.. She is all I have ever wanted or needed in my life!
Isis is my Goddess.. She is my heart.. She is my reflection!! We are one!
Thanks for listening to me today!!
xoxoxox
Jenna
Here is my Goddess Isis! I whorship the very ground she walks! I am hers, and will forever be in her heart.. For the energy we share is deep!! And its like nothing I have ever exp in my life!!!
I am now officially Daniel Aloicious Saint James. I still have to get a new Social Security Card, Drivers License, etc. But it's been recognized by the court!
I'm really digging the new name.
Once I get around to getting my new ID, who wants to meet for drinks? I was thinking the "St James Tavern" on 4th? ehh ehh?
I may not get it until Monday. It depends on my schedule and such.
Vicky and I finally closed on a Townhome in Hollywood, FL on Tuesday, 6/16. For those of you who don't know where Hollywood, FL is, it's about 30 minutes north of Miami and 15 minutes south of Ft. Lauderdale, a nice central location.
We are going to have some work done on the place over then next few weeks and plan on being there permanently when the work is finished... hopefully the 1st or 2nd week of July.
We'll be walking distance from our favorite bar, Trixie's, the only full time TBar in Southern Florida. It just re-opened after being closed for almost 3 months following the death of the previous owner, Stanley. You can expect to find us there most Saturday nights.
Finally, we'll have plenty of space in our own place and can settle in and make Southern Florida our new home.
Sorry it's been so long since my last post but I'm busy this time of year. If you would like to keep up to date with what I'm doing you can visit my official website http://www.meghanchavalier.com which has links to my Facebook, Twitter, You Tube and My Space pages which are updated daily.
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You Girls are some of most honest people i've met.Let me explain:
And excuse some of my words as they are NOT part of my view merely making a point!
I grew up in a time when it was ok to Hate no matter who it was e.g. gay,black,jew,tg,ts you get the picture.
a friend of mine(who i didn't know was gay,i was only 12 and didnt figure it out until i was 30 or so) no kidding.anyway
Then a chance meeting not in person mind you,online.I was surfing the web and and came across a woman(pre-op)about 8 yrs ago,I wont use her name,But we chatted for hours and got to know each other pretty well.Then about 6months later she told me about her upcomming SRS and WOW i was floored,But the way we got along was .........Better than anybody i ever talked with she really undersstood and listened and didnt care about stereotypes.To this day I am thankful to have come in contact with your community and cherish some of the friendships i have come across,anyway
Rock 'n Roll High Wednesdays @ Skinny Bar NYC w/hostess Tiffany Leigh!
This is a NEW party that's committed to being TG-friendly and TG-positive! If we have good turnouts it may lead to NEW parties in NYC! Help me by supporting it and showing that we will bring them loyal and brisk business!
Even stopping by for one drink to say hello will make a WORLD of difference! Thanks!
10PM – 4AM @ The Skinny Bar & Lounge 174 Orchard St New York, NY 10002 (212) 228-3668 theskinnybarlounge.com F, V to Lower East Side - Second Avenue Stop
NO COVER 10PM = "Pre-school" with Tiffany Leigh! 11-11:30PM = free open vodka bar 12 Midnight = Michael T spins 50's, 60's, 70's, 80's Rock & Roll!
The Skinny Bar and Lounge has a casual and comfortable vibe. A neighborhood bar with personality and no pretensions. There's loft and lounge seating in front and back, a pool table, and a long seated bar.
For the last several years I have been heavily involved in supporting Majestic Hearts of All Colorado. thsi is a pageant that exists for the rasing of money for various charities both inside and outside the GLBT community. My good friend Phyllis si the owner of the pageant and I have performed in many oftheir shows from the beginning of the pageants existance.In fact it is actualy due to the existence of the pageant that I first began performing.
For many years Phyllis had wanted me to have formal title but due to the rules and regulations of the pageant I did nto fall neatly into the guidlines. This past Saturday she bestowed upon me the titleof Honorary Ms.for life. I was very honored to be crowned and sashed as I have always enjoyed supporting the pageant and its work.
Vicky's modest so I'll go ahead and post this. The History Project http://www.historyproject.org tracks important events in LGBT History. They also have a section for important events in LGBT Latino/a History and Vicky gets several mentions...
1980: The Paradise gay bar in Cambridge initiates Boston's first Latino Night with popular disc jockey, Conrado Cardenas. The event soon moves to Chaps (*Note from Jon: it moved to Chaps in 1990) and is greatly amplified by empresario Alvaro Ortiz, discover and promoter of Vicky. Latino night becomes a significant AIDS education vehicle for latino gay men.
1994: World’s First Lesbian and Gay Latino Theater series, Spic Out: Latino Lesbian and Gay Theater, produced by Abe Rybeck and the Theater Offensive, brings a new queer Latino performance scene to Boston. Plays and performances written by Beto Araiza, Carmelita Tropicana, Enrique Oliver, Senel Paz, Marga Gomez, Paul Bonin-Rodriguez are featured. *Note from Jon: Enrique Oliver's Play was Castro's Child, in which Vicky played the Alter Ego of a Cuban Exile living in Boston.
1996: WGBH's La Plaza presents Boston, Wednesday night… The Night That I Met Vicky. Wednesday nights are when Boston’s Latino gay and lesbian community comes together at a disco known as Chaps. This show interviews Vicky and others about Latino night at Chaps.
1998: Vicky, Boston’s most recognized Latino drag performer produces the first Miss Gay Latina Bombshell contest. It is held at the Jorgé Hernandez Community Center at Villa Victoria in the South End, making it the first Latino gay sponsored event at the Center. Contestants include Boston's Avian Waters, Coco Lopez, and Amanda.
1998: Vicky sponsors a party at Buddies that coincides with the 100th anniversary of the invasion of Puerto Rico by the US on August 25, 1898.
I was chattign on line with a friend last night and discussing where I am in my journey and the reasons for such.
In the way of a little background I am now 52 soon to be 53(May 5 too close whew!!) but then again age is only one more label we use to define ourselves. Around the age of 9 I had my first experience related to wht I at the ti me saw as cross dressing. I always saw it as that in my formative years but somehow the sinning of female attire was never about sexual gratifacation there was always something more it seemed to transport me to a more calm and serene feeling. Being raised a wasp this conflicted with not only my socialization but what I was taughta s a protestant. Of course by the time I reached puberty I was invovled in scouting and so many other male oriented activities that I was able to ignore or at least sublimate the other desires.
Through high school I would have been considered to be shy around girls. As I have matured and come to understand myself bettter I now realize what I at the time thought were crushes on several girls were not that at all. I now believe that I was atracted to their feminine beauty and strength because though physically I apeared to be male psychologically and spiritually I was struggling to gain my female awareness. What I was really desiring was that my shysical attributes would have allowed me to share true gender with other females and to experience and share those pubescent rituals with the girls. Through college I once again was able to sublimate my true self because my focus was on graduating andd starting a life.
Many times through my 20's and even into my early 40's I would return secrectly to the dressing to satisfythe innerneeds. Always it woudl be fine for a short period of timethen my religious and social upbringing would surface and I would feel deep guilt why am I this way boys don't have those desires besides its a sin just look in the bible. my major confusion was based on the misinformation that I was exposed to growing up the idea that boys that wanted to dress as girls were gay. Yet I k newin my own heart and mind that my sexual orientation was not gay so what was wrong with me if I wa snot gay why did I harbor this desire to dress female and even more why did I expereince such an overwhelming sense of calm and joy when I was dreswed female?
As I reeached my mid 40's the conflict reached a point where I could no longer ignore the needs. The major event in my life at this time that put on more a road of self discovery was my first pc and my first encounter with the internet. The first search parameters I ever typed into an engine were the terms cross dresser, transvestite and transsexual.this was such an ephipany for me becasue though logically I probably always comprehended that I was not the only one to see thousands uppon thousands of sites dealing withthe whole tg spectrum was proof positive that I was not alone. At this point in my journey I immediately accepted that I was a cross dresser and felt such a relief of burden becasue if I there were so manyothers aroudn the world not only was I not alone but maybe I wasn't so strange.
Through another girl I meant in a chat room I was guided to Trie Ess ( The Society for The Second Self):a national and international organzation that is a support group for cds an d their families> Upon reading the theory of the second self I came to the revalation that this made sense about who I was and where I fit. This was 8years ago and in the beginning of my self realization this was a comfortable place for me I could express myself in a group of like minded people. I was able to get out once a month as my inner female self. Somewhere in the middle of the second year of my tri ess association I realized that accepting myself as a cross dresser was just a step ina much larger journey. What led me tothis realization is one saturday night after returning home from the monthly meeting I had such a heavy sense of dread that Ihad to remove al the clothing and make up and go back to the male appearance. It was at this point that Iunderstood that identifying as a cd had been a comfortable place to start but it wasn't really me. It was that nightthat I began identifying myself as transsexual.
Though due to circumstances in my life at this time I still live the majority of my life as a male I now identify as a non op ts female. Many people I have spoken with feel that its wrong for me to identify this way because niether am I yet living even 50% of the time as female or on hrt (hormone replacement therapy). My answer to that is that I know in my inner beign that I am female and that point can not be argued. I also am told that becasue I have not revealed this to my immediate family I am not being true to myself. My answer to that is especially with my parents becasue of their age and the time they were brought up in its better not to ask them to deal with it. Also as htey are in their 80s and my mother isstricken with ms and my father is her care giver I think it would be quite selfish of me to make this an issue for them. As I gro tounderstand myself more I also have come to the conclusion that as much as we want others to accept that this is whowe truly are that it is hard to lay that expectation on them when it takes us so long to understand and accept ourselves.
I have found ways to cope. I have several very close ts girlfriends that constantly express thier love and support and provide encouragement. Theyhave helped me to understand that while many of us take this journey each of us is unique in that we each find the paththat owrks best for us.
My friend told me last night that she thought I was being strong and valiant by considering my parents needs over mine. Iam not sure if that is the case I just know that as my inner female traits grow and develope that in an indirect way while they still seee me as their son they are getting to nowtheir daughter.
Well, it's definitely been an interesting year. A lot has happened. I ended a relationship with the best girlfriend I've ever had (though she still wasn't right), I've watched my prosperity complete dry up, I've almost completely stopped smoking and my drinking is almost not even noticeable at this point. I've fallen in love with the most incredible woman and I'm slowly figuring things out.
When the year began, I was worried about money. My company stopped producing and selling adult content which resulted in a massive drop of revenue. Around the same time, I broke my primary revenue producing website preventing people with IE 6 from accessing it, so I spent most of the year working on a new design which finally went online in August.
I really thought most of my financial problems were my fault. The result of changes in my companies business model and my own failing's running the web sites. In fact, I was so busy trying to figure out what I was doing wrong that I didn't notice the world collapsing slowly outside my window.
I had to cash in my kids college funds to pay bills. I had to cancel my life insurance to pay bills. When my car died, I decided to sell it for scrap rather than repair it. Fewer bills again. My house is usually a bit chilly and dark to save on utilities. I've reduced my monthly budget by around 2,000. I've been selling furniture to buy groceries.
For everything that had gone wrong, I'm optimistic. Not because I see an end in sight, but because I feel like I'm getting a handle on things. I have the best friends of my life. I'm in love for the first time in my life. I'm relatively healthy and my kids are healthy and seem well adjusted.
I think things are going to get worse. A lot worse, but I'm confident that we'll all get through this. As a planet, we need to step back and assess what's important. We need to focus on the things that need to be done, and we need to start working towards a better future.
From time to time, Perpetual Change will take a slight deviation from the regular playlist. This month is just such a time. The first transgender blugrass musician to be featured in the column is this month’s artist, Julie Olivia Buse. Over the years, it seems like every conceivable style of music has been discussed, even dissected, here. Bluegrass is a welcome addition, and in coming months, there will be more surprises.
On a sombre note, this month’s installment features the first obituary of a transgender musician we’ve ever posted, I believe. In actuality, it’s more of a rememberance of Stacey Fair Tessler, who passed away September 3, 2007. Mention was made of the anniversary of her passing on the TG Music Society’s discussion group. This is an opportunity to honor one of our own.
Julie Olivia Buse
One style of music that has yet to be featured in this column is bluegrass. That’s kind of unfortunate, really, because no other genre’ can be considered as seminal as bluegrass. It wouldn’t be much of a stretch to call bluegrass the original “roots” music. It’s from bluegrass that country sprang, as well as folk, and even the foundations of rock and blues.
As with most genre’s, bluegrass has had spikes and lows in its popularity. The older generation of Opry stars such as Ralph Stanley and Bill Monroe kept the style active when the fickle mainstream public moved on to whatever happened to be the musical flavor du jour. Younger artists such as Bela Fleck, Ricky Skaggs, and Allison Krouse took it to newer audiences, injected the music with their own styles, and have kept it viable well into a new century.
Bluegrass has settled into a niche where it’s often comfortably lumped into a sub-catagory known as Americana Music. Its audience is diverse-from fans of some of the above mentioned artists, to the folks who attend bluegrass festivals across the country.
As with practically every other style of music, there are transgender muscians who love and play bluegrass. Julie Olivia Buse of Yakima, Washington, is proficient at 5 string banjo, guitar, and harmonica.
“I’ve been playing the 5 string banjo…for, oh 20 years now,” she said. “I think, so I pick. I started playing, in of all places, Enid, Oklahoma. I’ve always lovd the banjo, and at the time there were not many banjo recordings to listen to. I said to myself, if I learn to play, I can listen to all the banjo music I want.”
Julie doesn’t claim any formal music training, and is largely self-taught. The only thing close to training were some pointers from the music store owner who sold her her first banjo.
As with most musicians, Julie continued to seek out the music that challenged and influenced her the most. She counts among her favorites artists such as Earl Scruggs, Bela Fleck, Roy Clark, and Dick Weissman. Going outside the box, Julie also regards John McEuen, B.B. King, and Louis Armstrong as important sources of inspiration.
As a transperson, Julie took the path that is familiar to most of us. “Like everyone else dealing with my transgender issues since being a kid, I was sneaking in and wearing my sister’s and mother’s clothes,” she said. “My parents had me see a counselor at one point. After high school, I joined the Air Force and was married around the same time. I thought I was cured…but everything came back and it came to a point where just cross dressing was not working.”
What was working was finally making the decision to take control of the gender issue, and start making the music she always wanted to make.
One outlet besides the occasional gig is providing some of the music for a local cable access show in her home town. Her music is also available online, and she says she’ll be adding more soon.
In closing, Julie had this to say to fellow musicians: “Just keep picking, blowing or whatever to your heart’s content. You find it will keep you company and it’s a great ice-breaker. The music in your heart will always be there.”
Stacey Fail Tessler
From The Denver Post:
“Tessler, Stacey Fair, a native Denverite, passed away unexpectedly Septber 3rd, 2007, while on vacation in Florida. She was an exceptional and unusual person. She will be remembered as a loving caregiver; a talented writer, musician, and composer…her radio listeners and numerous friends from around the world knew her by many names, including Momma, J.J. Jefferies, and ‘George’.”
Jami Bantry, a member of the TG Music Society, said this about her:
“My femail exchanges with Stacey were wonderful. I shared a couple of my songs with her, and she offered some very good advice relative to trying to just be myself and let my own style come through…she was a wonderful human being.”
Stacey also was friends with New York musician/producer/guitar whiz Robert Urban. There was talk of a musical collaboration, and who knows what would have come together had things been different.
Stacey wrote and recorded over 50 songs, and her tune The Weird Turn Pro, can be found on the TGMS 2005 release of the organization’s Compilation 1. It’s one of those tunes that’s stylistically hard to catagorize. Almost techno, almost new age, almost prog rock, The Weird Turn Pro is a tribute to her own transsexuality.
Stacey had family friends…and fans. She will not be forgotten.
I still looking for that special gal, lady, or woman, Somelady to spend time with and do things for. SomeLady to play or and even play with my instruments. I read in a profile the concern if the lady is GG, TG, or TS, which to me does matter that the lady is a lady totally femme.
God bless ya all "I am so I pick" or is it "I Pick so I am"?? Keep on Pickin' Leibe Julie It ain't over till the Fat Lady plays "Rocky Top" julies-music.com
God bless ya all \"I am so I pick\" or is it \"I Pick so I am\"?? Keep on Pickin\' Leibe Julie athena60_98@yahoo.com It ain\'t over till the Fat Lady plays \"Rocky Top\" julies-music.com myspace.com/juliesmusic60
Keeping in touch
Frank October 26th, 2009 8:48 am MDTGood Morning,
I would like to send a Heart Felt Thank You to all the People I've met here.Even thou it is only via E-mail(Kellie,Janice Marie,Bobbie)and those I forgot to mention.
I will reach out to everyone even if is only to say "Hi".I'm shy by nature so it is somewhat of a challenge to approach people I don't know.
But I have to ask a question(rofl)I was just wondering,Do any of you Ladies ever answer those guys I see on comment sections leaving their phone numbers?I am just wondering,WTF is up with that?
Anyway,
Have a Wonderfull upcoming week(even if you are a yankees fan)
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The Secret Dolls seeking Drummer and Bass Player!
Tawni Summer September 5th, 2009 11:17 am MDTHi everyone! first off all I love the website :) A big thank you goes to the admins for doing such a great site for all of us girls! :)
I want to announce that "The Secret Dolls" an all original TS rock band is searching for hot talented musicians for recording, touring and lots more! If you think you have what it takes please contact me directly and please send a head shot photo and a resume with your musical background and experience. Currently we are searching for a Drummer and Bass player.. YOU MUST HAVE GREAT STAGE PRESENCE and ROCK STAR SKILLS! We are very serious about this project and are demanding the best. We are currently holding auditions in San Diego, Cleveland, NYC, and Los Angeles. If you have experience, talent, and have good sex appeal please contact us ASAP as we are planning to start rehearsing in the next couple months. We currently have shows booked and would like to start touring as soon as possible.
You can view the bands website at http://thesecretdolls.com and email us at: contact@thesecretdolls.com
Thank you for taking the time to read my Journal posting and if you know of any others HOT TS talented musicians please forward this information to them.
Thank you,
Tawni Summer
"The Secret Dolls"
www.thesecretdolls.com
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Im in LOVE!!!!
Jenna Rae September 4th, 2009 11:57 am MDTHello friends and Fans!!!
After 6 long years of being single, I have finally found a GG woman who has not only taken my heart.. But is my other half!
This woman means the world to me!! And after such a long haul of dealing with my own issues of my loss.. I have come to the point where I can love again!!
And this feeling is one of the best feelings in the world!!! I can not stress this enough. And just feel I must share this with everyone I know.. And those who don't know me!!
Love is such an important part of this life!! Love is something that can make a bad day just go away!! Love is something that is rare in this life.. And its something you must cherish with every fiber of your being when you do find it!!
This is what I wrote for her.. And want to share it here with everyone here..
Every time I look into your eyes.
I see a reflection of my life days past.
When I look into the mirror.
I see your heart shinning through.
When I think of the days that have already past.
I know in my heart that those days where some of the days that where the best of my life!
When I think of the days that are to come,
I am overjoyed with the knowledge that the universe has sent you into my path.
When we walk upon the beach the moon smiles upon us..
When we walk within the park.. The trees sway with compassion.
Nature knows that we have no bounds.
The wind the earth, is part of our playground.
There is no place we can not go.
There is no person that would not know.. The love we share is true!
The truths to this world is ever so hard to find. While one person locked with the matrix will try to tell lies..
the truth to you and I are clear to see!
There is no mystry.. The clues are there to see.. The love the passion the energy is running free!
Like a waterfall that flows forever more..
There is the door, and we are the key..
We pass through time, and we pass through space.
Nothing shall stand in our way..
We are like mountains.. We are like trees..
We are the wind, water, air and fire!
My love meets you half way.. There is nothing else I could say..
But you are free to do what you wish..
But you will always desire my kiss!
For where ever the universe takes us..
Where ever life leads us..
I will always be close to your heart..
My love I love you with all my being..
And that holds no bounds..
And what loves is always true..
As love is the only truth in this world!
With that said.. Im going to work on turning that into a song.. I just need a cool chorus to go with it!
IM inspired to do anything now!! And soon both Isis and I will be doing what we want to do!!
Not only did I find love... Im back in school!! I got my GED.. and things are looking up!
I have to give a specail shout out to my friend Tia TV!! It is wasnt for her I would not have been able to get the power to go back to school and focus on a career in this life!
Tia! Your one good friend!! And there is a specail place in my heart for you my friend!
And I want you to meet my new girlfriend! You will find her to be as specail as I am!
And anyone else out there.. Please tell Tia what a wonderful person she is!!
Not only is she kind, but highly intelligent, and has done more for me than most people have ever cared to do!
There is only one other person out in this life who helped me like that.. and his name Is Joe.. But I have not gotten to hang out with him in ages..
He was my boyfriend at one time.. But now that I have a GG woman.. She is all I have ever wanted or needed in my life!
Isis is my Goddess.. She is my heart.. She is my reflection!! We are one!
Thanks for listening to me today!!
xoxoxox
Jenna
Here is my Goddess Isis! I whorship the very ground she walks! I am hers, and will forever be in her heart.. For the energy we share is deep!! And its like nothing I have ever exp in my life!!!
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Daniel Aloicious Saint James
Danâ„¢ A Saint James August 6th, 2009 3:52 pm MDTI am now officially Daniel Aloicious Saint James. I still have to get a new Social Security Card, Drivers License, etc. But it's been recognized by the court!
I'm really digging the new name.
Once I get around to getting my new ID, who wants to meet for drinks? I was thinking the "St James Tavern" on 4th? ehh ehh?
I may not get it until Monday. It depends on my schedule and such.
Anyway, that is all. :)
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Hollywood, FL is our new home
Jon June 19th, 2009 9:58 am MDTVicky and I finally closed on a Townhome in Hollywood, FL on Tuesday, 6/16. For those of you who don't know where Hollywood, FL is, it's about 30 minutes north of Miami and 15 minutes south of Ft. Lauderdale, a nice central location.
We are going to have some work done on the place over then next few weeks and plan on being there permanently when the work is finished... hopefully the 1st or 2nd week of July.
We'll be walking distance from our favorite bar, Trixie's, the only full time TBar in Southern Florida. It just re-opened after being closed for almost 3 months following the death of the previous owner, Stanley. You can expect to find us there most Saturday nights.
Finally, we'll have plenty of space in our own place and can settle in and make Southern Florida our new home.
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My Newest Video Blog June 16, 2009
Meghan Chavalier June 19th, 2009 3:09 am MDThttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yJBo04c2q6s
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It's Been Awhile
Meghan Chavalier June 2nd, 2009 2:53 pm MDTSorry it's been so long since my last post but I'm busy this time of year. If you would like to keep up to date with what I'm doing you can visit my official website http://www.meghanchavalier.com which has links to my Facebook, Twitter, You Tube and My Space pages which are updated daily.
Hope you're enjoying the warm weather.
Huggs
xoxoxo
Meghan
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Sabrinas Shoe Fetish
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Admirers thoughts
Frank April 7th, 2009 7:56 am MDTHey All,
You Girls are some of most honest people i've met.Let me explain:
And excuse some of my words as they are NOT part of my view merely making a point!
I grew up in a time when it was ok to Hate no matter who it was e.g. gay,black,jew,tg,ts you get the picture.
a friend of mine(who i didn't know was gay,i was only 12 and didnt figure it out until i was 30 or so) no kidding.anyway
Then a chance meeting not in person mind you,online.I was surfing the web and and came across a woman(pre-op)about 8 yrs ago,I wont use her name,But we chatted for hours and got to know each other pretty well.Then about 6months later she told me about her upcomming SRS and WOW i was floored,But the way we got along was .........Better than anybody i ever talked with she really undersstood and listened and didnt care about stereotypes.To this day I am thankful to have come in contact with your community and cherish some of the friendships i have come across,anyway
I guess what i'm trying to say is hate is taught
Love Is Love between two human beings
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Time to help out others
Frank April 4th, 2009 7:59 am MDTHi Everyone,
Do or can we support causes on this communinty?if not im sorry for posting this
But Please take a look.
www.foodforfurryfriends.com
www.anyloosechange.com
Thank you for your consideration
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Rock 'n Roll High Wednesdays @ Skinny Bar NYC w/hostess Tiffany Leigh!
Tiffany Leigh March 12th, 2009 7:47 pm MDTRock 'n Roll High Wednesdays @ Skinny Bar NYC w/hostess Tiffany Leigh!
This is a NEW party that's committed to being TG-friendly and TG-positive! If we have good turnouts it may lead to NEW parties in NYC! Help me by supporting it and showing that we will bring them loyal and brisk business!
Even stopping by for one drink to say hello will make a WORLD of difference! Thanks!
10PM – 4AM
@ The Skinny Bar & Lounge
174 Orchard St
New York, NY 10002
(212) 228-3668
theskinnybarlounge.com
F, V to Lower East Side - Second Avenue Stop
NO COVER
10PM = "Pre-school" with Tiffany Leigh!
11-11:30PM = free open vodka bar
12 Midnight = Michael T spins 50's, 60's, 70's, 80's Rock & Roll!
The Skinny Bar and Lounge has a casual and comfortable vibe. A neighborhood bar with personality and no pretensions. There's loft and lounge seating in front and back, a pool table, and a long seated bar.
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Heh
Danâ„¢ A Saint James February 5th, 2009 2:35 pm MST[2 comments]
My Title
Georgieanna Gwendolyn Gorgeous January 19th, 2009 11:25 am MSTFor the last several years I have been heavily involved in supporting Majestic Hearts of All Colorado. thsi is a pageant that exists for the rasing of money for various charities both inside and outside the GLBT community. My good friend Phyllis si the owner of the pageant and I have performed in many oftheir shows from the beginning of the pageants existance.In fact it is actualy due to the existence of the pageant that I first began performing.
For many years Phyllis had wanted me to have formal title but due to the rules and regulations of the pageant I did nto fall neatly into the guidlines. This past Saturday she bestowed upon me the titleof Honorary Ms.for life. I was very honored to be crowned and sashed as I have always enjoyed supporting the pageant and its work.
I think my crown loks damn good lol!!
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Boston LGBT Latina History: Vicky
Jon January 15th, 2009 2:53 pm MSTVicky's modest so I'll go ahead and post this. The History Project http://www.historyproject.org tracks important events in LGBT History. They also have a section for important events in LGBT Latino/a History and Vicky gets several mentions...
1980: The Paradise gay bar in Cambridge initiates Boston's first Latino Night with popular disc jockey, Conrado Cardenas. The event soon moves to Chaps (*Note from Jon: it moved to Chaps in 1990) and is greatly amplified by empresario Alvaro Ortiz, discover and promoter of Vicky. Latino night becomes a significant AIDS education vehicle for latino gay men.
1994: World’s First Lesbian and Gay Latino Theater series, Spic Out: Latino Lesbian and Gay Theater, produced by Abe Rybeck and the Theater Offensive, brings a new queer Latino performance scene to Boston. Plays and performances written by Beto Araiza, Carmelita Tropicana, Enrique Oliver, Senel Paz, Marga Gomez, Paul Bonin-Rodriguez are featured. *Note from Jon: Enrique Oliver's Play was Castro's Child, in which Vicky played the Alter Ego of a Cuban Exile living in Boston.
1996: WGBH's La Plaza presents Boston, Wednesday night… The Night That I Met Vicky. Wednesday nights are when Boston’s Latino gay and lesbian community comes together at a disco known as Chaps. This show interviews Vicky and others about Latino night at Chaps.
1998: Vicky, Boston’s most recognized Latino drag performer produces the first Miss Gay Latina Bombshell contest. It is held at the Jorgé Hernandez Community Center at Villa Victoria in the South End, making it the first Latino gay sponsored event at the Center. Contestants include Boston's Avian Waters, Coco Lopez, and Amanda.
1998: Vicky sponsors a party at Buddies that coincides with the 100th anniversary of the invasion of Puerto Rico by the US on August 25, 1898.
For the full Latino/a History Timeline: http://historyproject.org/resources/latino_timeline.php
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This Transgender Existance: Where I Am
Georgieanna Gwendolyn Gorgeous January 3rd, 2009 11:30 am MSTI was chattign on line with a friend last night and discussing where I am in my journey and the reasons for such.
In the way of a little background I am now 52 soon to be 53(May 5 too close whew!!) but then again age is only one more label we use to define ourselves. Around the age of 9 I had my first experience related to wht I at the ti me saw as cross dressing. I always saw it as that in my formative years but somehow the sinning of female attire was never about sexual gratifacation there was always something more it seemed to transport me to a more calm and serene feeling. Being raised a wasp this conflicted with not only my socialization but what I was taughta s a protestant. Of course by the time I reached puberty I was invovled in scouting and so many other male oriented activities that I was able to ignore or at least sublimate the other desires.
Through high school I would have been considered to be shy around girls. As I have matured and come to understand myself bettter I now realize what I at the time thought were crushes on several girls were not that at all. I now believe that I was atracted to their feminine beauty and strength because though physically I apeared to be male psychologically and spiritually I was struggling to gain my female awareness. What I was really desiring was that my shysical attributes would have allowed me to share true gender with other females and to experience and share those pubescent rituals with the girls. Through college I once again was able to sublimate my true self because my focus was on graduating andd starting a life.
Many times through my 20's and even into my early 40's I would return secrectly to the dressing to satisfythe innerneeds. Always it woudl be fine for a short period of timethen my religious and social upbringing would surface and I would feel deep guilt why am I this way boys don't have those desires besides its a sin just look in the bible. my major confusion was based on the misinformation that I was exposed to growing up the idea that boys that wanted to dress as girls were gay. Yet I k newin my own heart and mind that my sexual orientation was not gay so what was wrong with me if I wa snot gay why did I harbor this desire to dress female and even more why did I expereince such an overwhelming sense of calm and joy when I was dreswed female?
As I reeached my mid 40's the conflict reached a point where I could no longer ignore the needs. The major event in my life at this time that put on more a road of self discovery was my first pc and my first encounter with the internet. The first search parameters I ever typed into an engine were the terms cross dresser, transvestite and transsexual.this was such an ephipany for me becasue though logically I probably always comprehended that I was not the only one to see thousands uppon thousands of sites dealing withthe whole tg spectrum was proof positive that I was not alone. At this point in my journey I immediately accepted that I was a cross dresser and felt such a relief of burden becasue if I there were so manyothers aroudn the world not only was I not alone but maybe I wasn't so strange.
Through another girl I meant in a chat room I was guided to Trie Ess ( The Society for The Second Self):a national and international organzation that is a support group for cds an d their families> Upon reading the theory of the second self I came to the revalation that this made sense about who I was and where I fit. This was 8years ago and in the beginning of my self realization this was a comfortable place for me I could express myself in a group of like minded people. I was able to get out once a month as my inner female self. Somewhere in the middle of the second year of my tri ess association I realized that accepting myself as a cross dresser was just a step ina much larger journey. What led me tothis realization is one saturday night after returning home from the monthly meeting I had such a heavy sense of dread that Ihad to remove al the clothing and make up and go back to the male appearance. It was at this point that Iunderstood that identifying as a cd had been a comfortable place to start but it wasn't really me. It was that nightthat I began identifying myself as transsexual.
Though due to circumstances in my life at this time I still live the majority of my life as a male I now identify as a non op ts female. Many people I have spoken with feel that its wrong for me to identify this way because niether am I yet living even 50% of the time as female or on hrt (hormone replacement therapy). My answer to that is that I know in my inner beign that I am female and that point can not be argued. I also am told that becasue I have not revealed this to my immediate family I am not being true to myself. My answer to that is especially with my parents becasue of their age and the time they were brought up in its better not to ask them to deal with it. Also as htey are in their 80s and my mother isstricken with ms and my father is her care giver I think it would be quite selfish of me to make this an issue for them. As I gro tounderstand myself more I also have come to the conclusion that as much as we want others to accept that this is whowe truly are that it is hard to lay that expectation on them when it takes us so long to understand and accept ourselves.
I have found ways to cope. I have several very close ts girlfriends that constantly express thier love and support and provide encouragement. Theyhave helped me to understand that while many of us take this journey each of us is unique in that we each find the paththat owrks best for us.
My friend told me last night that she thought I was being strong and valiant by considering my parents needs over mine. Iam not sure if that is the case I just know that as my inner female traits grow and develope that in an indirect way while they still seee me as their son they are getting to nowtheir daughter.
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2008 in Review
Danâ„¢ A Saint James December 31st, 2008 2:28 pm MSTWell, it's definitely been an interesting year. A lot has happened. I ended a relationship with the best girlfriend I've ever had (though she still wasn't right), I've watched my prosperity complete dry up, I've almost completely stopped smoking and my drinking is almost not even noticeable at this point. I've fallen in love with the most incredible woman and I'm slowly figuring things out.
When the year began, I was worried about money. My company stopped producing and selling adult content which resulted in a massive drop of revenue. Around the same time, I broke my primary revenue producing website preventing people with IE 6 from accessing it, so I spent most of the year working on a new design which finally went online in August.
I really thought most of my financial problems were my fault. The result of changes in my companies business model and my own failing's running the web sites. In fact, I was so busy trying to figure out what I was doing wrong that I didn't notice the world collapsing slowly outside my window.
I had to cash in my kids college funds to pay bills. I had to cancel my life insurance to pay bills. When my car died, I decided to sell it for scrap rather than repair it. Fewer bills again. My house is usually a bit chilly and dark to save on utilities. I've reduced my monthly budget by around 2,000. I've been selling furniture to buy groceries.
For everything that had gone wrong, I'm optimistic. Not because I see an end in sight, but because I feel like I'm getting a handle on things. I have the best friends of my life. I'm in love for the first time in my life. I'm relatively healthy and my kids are healthy and seem well adjusted.
I think things are going to get worse. A lot worse, but I'm confident that we'll all get through this. As a planet, we need to step back and assess what's important. We need to focus on the things that need to be done, and we need to start working towards a better future.
I think we'll do it.
I hope.
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Perpetual Change — by Pamela DeGroff
Julie Olivia Buse December 30th, 2008 2:30 am MSTSeptember 22, 2008
Perpetual Change — by Pamela DeGroff
From time to time, Perpetual Change will take a slight deviation from the regular playlist. This month is just such a time. The first transgender blugrass musician to be featured in the column is this month’s artist, Julie Olivia Buse. Over the years, it seems like every conceivable style of music has been discussed, even dissected, here. Bluegrass is a welcome addition, and in coming months, there will be more surprises.
On a sombre note, this month’s installment features the first obituary of a transgender musician we’ve ever posted, I believe. In actuality, it’s more of a rememberance of Stacey Fair Tessler, who passed away September 3, 2007. Mention was made of the anniversary of her passing on the TG Music Society’s discussion group. This is an opportunity to honor one of our own.
Julie Olivia Buse
As with most genre’s, bluegrass has had spikes and lows in its popularity. The older generation of Opry stars such as Ralph Stanley and Bill Monroe kept the style active when the fickle mainstream public moved on to whatever happened to be the musical flavor du jour. Younger artists such as Bela Fleck, Ricky Skaggs, and Allison Krouse took it to newer audiences, injected the music with their own styles, and have kept it viable well into a new century.
Bluegrass has settled into a niche where it’s often comfortably lumped into a sub-catagory known as Americana Music. Its audience is diverse-from fans of some of the above mentioned artists, to the folks who attend bluegrass festivals across the country.
As with practically every other style of music, there are transgender muscians who love and play bluegrass. Julie Olivia Buse of Yakima, Washington, is proficient at 5 string banjo, guitar, and harmonica.
“I’ve been playing the 5 string banjo…for, oh 20 years now,” she said. “I think, so I pick. I started playing, in of all places, Enid, Oklahoma. I’ve always lovd the banjo, and at the time there were not many banjo recordings to listen to. I said to myself, if I learn to play, I can listen to all the banjo music I want.”
Julie doesn’t claim any formal music training, and is largely self-taught. The only thing close to training were some pointers from the music store owner who sold her her first banjo.
As with most musicians, Julie continued to seek out the music that challenged and influenced her the most. She counts among her favorites artists such as Earl Scruggs, Bela Fleck, Roy Clark, and Dick Weissman. Going outside the box, Julie also regards John McEuen, B.B. King, and Louis Armstrong as important sources of inspiration.
What was working was finally making the decision to take control of the gender issue, and start making the music she always wanted to make.
One outlet besides the occasional gig is providing some of the music for a local cable access show in her home town. Her music is also available online, and she says she’ll be adding more soon.
In closing, Julie had this to say to fellow musicians: “Just keep picking, blowing or whatever to your heart’s content. You find it will keep you company and it’s a great ice-breaker. The music in your heart will always be there.”
Stacey Fail Tessler
From The Denver Post:
Jami Bantry, a member of the TG Music Society, said this about her:
Stacey also was friends with New York musician/producer/guitar whiz Robert Urban. There was talk of a musical collaboration, and who knows what would have come together had things been different.
Stacey wrote and recorded over 50 songs, and her tune The Weird Turn Pro, can be found on the TGMS 2005 release of the organization’s Compilation 1. It’s one of those tunes that’s stylistically hard to catagorize. Almost techno, almost new age, almost prog rock, The Weird Turn Pro is a tribute to her own transsexuality.
Stacey had family friends…and fans. She will not be forgotten.
To hear Julie’s music, check out www.julies-music.com; www.myspace.com/juliesmusic; www.banjohangout.org/myhangout/home.asp?id=18286 Julie can be emailed at: athena60_98@yahoo.com
The TG Music Society Compilation 1 is available through
tg_music_society@yahoogroups.com and also through
amazon.com)
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Merry xMas!
Danâ„¢ A Saint James December 25th, 2008 7:35 am MST[2 comments]
Still looking for the that special lady
Julie Olivia Buse December 21st, 2008 11:54 pm MSTI still looking for that special gal, lady, or woman, Somelady to spend time with and do things for. SomeLady to play or and even play with my instruments. I read in a profile the concern if the lady is GG, TG, or TS, which to me does matter that the lady is a lady totally femme.
God bless ya all
"I am so I pick" or is it "I Pick so I am"??
Keep on Pickin'
Leibe
Julie
It ain't over till the Fat Lady plays "Rocky Top"
julies-music.com
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Creek
Julie Olivia Buse December 8th, 2008 3:30 am MSTPlaying Cripple Creek on Old Betsy!
God bless ya all
\"I am so I pick\" or is it \"I Pick so I am\"??
Keep on Pickin\'
Leibe
Julie
athena60_98@yahoo.com
It ain\'t over till the Fat Lady plays \"Rocky Top\"
julies-music.com
myspace.com/juliesmusic60
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