Journal Entries for Gina Fiorella
Evolution
November 30th, 2011 5:39 pm MST
I recently reviewed my personal journal enties that date back to my earliest memories. It is amazing how I have evolved. I noticed some re-occurring themes. Mainly I sneak, hide it from my wife, have clothing restrictions to cover my hairy body, struggle with beard cover and avoid the hot months. I am also amazed at the lack of negative issues. I read an entry from 2001. It was the first time I went out enfemme as a mature adult after a long hiatus. I was so awkward, unskilled, scared, sloppy. I dressed not appropriate for the venues. Now I am much more confident. I get compliments all the time on my skin, my makeup, how "natural" I look. People mistake me for "a girl in transition" or "on hormones" They can't believe that under the makeup and clothes is a regular guy. Regular with muscles, body hair (I mean Italian body hair) and a dark beard shadow. A guy that only dresses a few times a year. Its no longer a big deal to be out in public. It is comfortable for me to be femme. I am more relaxed. I enjoy life more. All this positive re-enforcement has caused me to ponder. What if I took it a step further? What if my wife approved? It would free me of my body hair. Then I would not have the wardrobe risrtrictions. What if I got the beard removed? Would I feel even more comfortable and femme then? I guess I would. But that frightens me. Is it really what I want? Or would I be happy with the current arrangement? What if I went on hormones after that? Could I possibly become a woman????I have so much to think about.
Wife
November 21st, 2008 2:24 pm MST
My wife is going away on Dec 8 08. I can't wait. I am going nuts. She just had some surgury so she has been home all the time, I get no privacy.... I can't wait until the 8th. I am thinking about going to Mondaynight tgirls in Philly on the evening of the 8th, then I am thinking about meeting a gentleman in Wilkes Barre on the 9th... I am so excited...Any other suggestions let me know
Rachael
When will I ever get time to get away?
October 23rd, 2008 4:25 am MDT
Its near the end of October, The weather sure is cold enough, but I have not been able to get out. In the summer I thought I would have had at least 3 opportunities by now. I was recently tasked at work with a big project that is taking up much time, along with giving me little time for days off. I have not even dressed in private. My wife has not gone on any trips this fall as she usually does. I may have to settle for a day trip on day when my wife is at work. I did manage to get some quick shopping in at Target between appointments. Strangely, there were a limmited supply of size 11 shoes. Usually Target has a pretty good supply. I wanted to get a new outfit, I shopped online at JCPenny and Target. I usually find an outfit online, then go to the store and purchase it. In this recent case I could not find any of the outfits I was interested in at the store. Money is getting tight as well. Things are just not working out for me. I am starting to get depressed.
Stood UP!!!!
May 3rd, 2008 9:37 am MDT
Recently I planned an outing enfemme. I ended up altering my plans significantly only to meet someone that was interested in meeting me. I stressed that I was not out for sex, but I did want some male company, while I ventured out into the pubic spectrum. He agreed, and we met at the location of his choice. He started to get very pushy, and my little alarm started to ring in my head. I went ahead anyway although with a sence of hightened caution. I told him that I was checking into the hotel and I needed an hour or so to get ready. He insisted on seeing me prior to dressing. I went down to the parking lot to meet him and escort him in. He stated he was interested in seeing me transform. I met him in the lot and he was about 15 years older than the photo he supplied. I could read his face, and I was not what he expected as well.... Now let me stress that all my photos are current, and un-edited but to be fair, I do select the best photos, and I have learned how to take photos that make me look the best. My gut tells me that he was expecting some very femme little boyish/girlish man. WELL thats not me when I am in guy mode. I am 5'9" 165 lbs of mostly muscle. I have a military bearing that can be scary. Thats why I don't want people to see me in guy mode. Plus it adds to the protection of my secret identity. Seeing his uncomfort, I suggested he come back in an hour. This way he could dodge out if he wanted. Well he agreed as he was almost running back to his car. An hour later I was ready and he was no where to be found. He did not call or come by the room. He was not waiting by my car. I did have a funny feeling he was somewhere watching me from a distance. Anyway I tried to make the best of it and went out shopping by myself. I did not have a good time. The area was not condusive to our hobby. There were not many places to shop, no clubs, alot of rednecks, and generaly a real boring hole in the wall kind of place...........Lesson to myself and all you new girls out there........ From now on, I pick the place, and time. If he shows fine, if not... no loss. Have a back up plan. Being in the closet, it takes an awful lot of preparation, planning, time, effort and energy to do what we do. If you creeps out there think we go through all this, just to blow you in a motel room, your fucking nuts!!!!!!! If we have enough balls to go out in the public spectrum, the you should have enough balls to be seen in public with us.
