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Journal Entries for Jenna Elizabeth TaylorBaltimore, Maryland (United States)
Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | My friend Brielle's as old as dirt...
January 2nd, 2008 10:06 pm MST
I wanted to let ALL of my URNA friends know, the Brielle Echo Whitney is offically an AARP card carrying member as we speak! She passed everso graceouslessly into geriatical care under the watchful eye of her wet nurse. Those wishing to "pay court" to her can do so at the Brooklyn Gardens for Senior Development. And remember, no loud noises during Jeopardy! 
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | TOP 10 Reasons I attended SCC
September 18th, 2007 4:15 pm MST
The top 10 reasons I attended SCC. 10. Five days en femme 9. Flying AirTRAN ( It's OUR airline baby!) 8. Seminar after seminar of helpful stuff 7. Formal dinners with 800+ of your closest friends 6. The local Atlanta club scene 5. The SCC marketplace 4. The first ever Transgender Job Expo 3. Making new friends 2. Catching up with old friends 1. They don't call it HOT-lanta for nothing! 360 days to go til SCC 2008
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | Where is the Love?
August 30th, 2007 10:26 pm MST
As I gear up for my 4th SCC, I have the opportunity to reflect on my personal journey of the last 4 years.
By 2003, I had come to terms with the fact I was transgendered. Even though I could not quantify the cause, I accepted it as part of my nature. It had been since the tender age of 6. Years of guilt and shame had taken its toll and I was ready for a change. Many things had transpired in the preceding year. My last relationship(HST i.e. hostage taking situation....) had ended in miserable failure. I was finally on my own, and, as I found to be later, on my way. New job, new income status, and new freedom allowed me to express this identity in a safer environment.
As these planets all came into alignment I found less than a harmonic convergance. The more exposed I was to the multivalent construal known as transgenderism, the less shielded I was to its stark divisions. I knew I was transgendered, however which subset did I belong to?
Communication and language are tools mankind has developed to express a point of view as to allow another person to understand it. For the purpose of my assessment I choose to define three subsets as following; transsexual (both op and non-op), androgynous ( including gender queers and crossdressers who dress for gender identity expression), and transvestites ( to include any fetish based or emotionally driven cross gendered expression through attire/clothing). At the core to each of these BROAD subsets is HOW gender and its expression relates to THEM.
[Please note: A crossdresser is ANYONE who wears clothing of their opposite phsical sex. Transgender is an umbrella term used to describe ANYONE with a gender identity or expression that is at odds with society's binary gender construct]
To the transsexual, its is an innate sense knowing they who they are gender wise, its the body which is incongruent to this defined sense of self.
To the androgynous, its a sense of two genders.Sometimes singularly expressed, and sometimes jointly expressed. Yet typically never just one gender identity as defined by society's binary constructs.
To the transvestite, its a sense of fulfillment to an aspect of their gender definitions through the wearing of garments typically associated to the opposite physical sex. The fullfillment can be sexual in nature and it can be emotional too.
And therein, as the Bard would tell us, lays the rub.
Some transsexuals feel detached or wish to detach themselves from other transgendered individuals because their sense of self is, at least at the point they affirmed their status as transsexual, innate, permanant and quite clear. They were born with the right mind, its just the body which lagged behind. Anyone with less than the same feeling or sense of self could possible cause society at large to demean their situation. (Like its stereotypical TG characters in such movies as Dressed to Kill or Silence of the Lambs) Not dressing within a binarily defined gender contruct ( gender queer/fuck, or androgynous) or dressing in a fetish way can be seen as destructive to them and they need to blend in and be accepted. For many the ultimate goal is to fit into mainstream society and allow themselves to finally just live.
Some androgynous people consider and classify themselves as transgendered because in society's collective vocabulary, they have no accurate word to define themselves. They feel more bi-gendered variant that transvestites and less inconguent in their gender -physicality relationship than transsexuals. They see fetish based crossdressing involving intimate appearal or the lack there of(exposed body parts) in online photo albums as a threat to their legitimacy.
And, some transvestites, content on living with their gender which is in sync with their physical sex, will think in terms of their sense of self and do not possess the capacity to reasonably empathize beyond that contrust. To no fault of their own. How can white Americans truly understand personal biasses afflected upon black Americans. They lack a certain perspective. They are no less ridiculed by society than any other transgendered person however.
I have found, at times, a deep and dark distain for each other by some of us within all of these three subsets. However it seems to be strongest between the two extremes, transsexuals and transvestites. Transgender has been called an umbrella term . Yet I see it more like a covered bus stop. We're all in it together, however none of us want to look at or communicate with each other.
So this beg's to ask the question.
Where is the Love?
At a national level, most of the activism is directed to provide acceptance for those actively living and expressing, on a full time basis, a gender expression inconguent to their natal physicality. This means transsexuals both op and non-op or those 24/7.
At the local level most of the support mechanisms are gears towards the transvestites and provide a social outlet in addition to any emotional support provided.
While both of those two extremes benefit in small part to the actions taken on behalf of the other, there seems to be no middle ground and I certainly fail to see all of us holding hands and singing KumBayah anytime soon.
Which leaves us with the androgynous. You know us, chameleons as we are, we partied with the jocks and the stoners......
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | New set of glasses to go with my English Composition classes
April 17th, 2007 3:48 pm MST
WOW!***** LOL******* I quess by my age I should have seen or read it all. I shake my head in laughingly utter disbelief! ;) ROTFLMAO. Are you serious? I mean SERIOUSLY? Can you take yourself anymore serious? Okay...... chuckle time over. Back to work...... UPDATE 04/18/2007********** Yet again! LOL I mean I'd be making a mess if I weren't wearing Depends........LOL
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | This site needed a good enema...
April 3rd, 2007 4:55 pm MST
Alright all you tight arsed nags with nothing better to do than sit around in your knitting cirlces and drink from the water cooler while hanging out your dirty laundry, its time you simmered down and not take yourself too seriously. OOPS, sorry, I thought this was the Congressional Blog page, NEVERMIND......
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | IMPORTANT NOTICE TO FRIENDS
April 1st, 2007 10:18 am MST
It's with a sad and heavy heart that I announce this, to all of my friends I've made over the years here. However. due to events in my life, I must be returning to my masculine self. I'm cutting the hair short again, keeping the nails short and letting my body hair grow out. I'm sorry that I will not be able to stay in contact with any of you , yet know you are in my prayers.Love Eternally, Jenna
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | In like a Lion, out like a...
March 20th, 2007 9:01 pm MST
March. It's always an interesing month. Much maligned, but overlooked. March forward! Well this March will remain very memorible for me. It will mark two VERY forward steps in my life to which I'm excited and nervous at the same time. On Wednesday, I will receive my first laser hair removal treatment. 5 more to go! On next Monday, I have a doctor's appointment to get my blood work done. Hmmm? Didn't see that one coming is what a friend told me! LOL Neither did I! Additionally I will be covering for a friend of mine as facilitator of a local TG support group meeting to which I am seeing to make that a permanant arrangement. I have a very good reason as to WHY these things are coming to pass in my life right now, and I am ever grateful for it! I'll keep coming back, thanks for letting me share! Jenna
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | What's old is new!
March 9th, 2007 7:21 pm MST
In an effort to support a friend and the great job she does, I decided to rock it old school. My profile photo is from the Awesome Makeover collection by Kalina. She's not the president, she's a member! Check her out at www.awesomemakeovers.com
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | ~URGENT~
March 5th, 2007 8:15 pm MST
Please read the articles on the home page here at URNA. Especially the one from Jacksonville.com "Activist: Fired city manager could be transsexual champion". This is personal with me because IT HAPPENED TO ME!! Susan should not have to pay the price for living her life as she NEEDS to, by being fired! I consider myself VERY Christian and VERY conservative, HOWEVER ignorance by the Pastor of Largo's Lighthouse Baptist Church IS NOT what Christ would have us to be. Remember his lesson with the adultress brought before him.? “He that is without sin among you, let him cast the first stone at her.” IF as the Pastor suggests, being transgendered is a sin, then Christ WOULD NOT be calling for her to be fired as he suggested! A TRUE Christian and a TRUE Conservative, ala Barry Goldwater, is ALL about COMPLETE tolerence! Anything less is a poser!
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | If I die tomorrow..
March 2nd, 2007 1:19 am MST
Wow, the total outpouring this month has been incredible. I have been in a funk for 6 or so weeks after quitting smoking and the extra weight I was putting on ( Do these jeans my ass look fat?) My job was flat and my transition seemed even more so on that slow Cadillac to Chinatown. People were sharpening their Ginsu knives , ready to plunge them deep in my backside, ( no those 4's don't count, A and S) and BAM out of the blue. The goodness of the human spirit triumped like spring's early buds poking through the snow. THANKS! Oh and if you two want to let the air out of my tires THIS month, too late, I've got run flats...... So, God Bless whatever it is you're looking for, yet you won't find it here or on the otherside of a vendictive act....... I truly hope you get whatever it IS ou are looking for. All of my love to both of you.
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | Ahh, the good ol' days...
February 24th, 2007 11:24 am MST
Once upon a time, you could be guaranteed a few things. Someone knocking on your door, selling vacuum cleaners, periodical subscriptions or aluminum siding, a phone call at dinner time asking for a donation to cure testicular engorgement or a Harikrishna assulting you at the airport wanting to show you a better way. Today however, its the unsolicited ASSULT on newcomers with the" Please add me to your friends list" request. There are girls here listed on several hundred friends lists with the minimum of 4 on their friends list. Hmmm? why is this? Because it has nothing to do with welcoming new members to the site. It had everything to do with their ego and being listed on the front page. 500 members list you as a friends, most of which haven't heard from you since and you have 4 friends on your list? shal-low lacking depth; superficial. Cinderella, its midnight, does the shoe fit?
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | Friends
February 4th, 2007 10:32 am MST
To all of my friends here, thank you for all of your support, I love you more than you know.To those shallow, spitful and bitter "friends", seek the professional help you need. I still love you very much, however I can no longer be there for you. Good Luck, Jenna
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | Finally, NEW PIC
January 30th, 2007 12:03 am MST
Well, after a wonderful shopping spree in NYC I posted a new photo. I spent the better part of a day in an upscale NY salon getting pampered. New purse, jeans, top, shoes... Let me know what you think.
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | SCC
September 10th, 2006 5:45 pm MST
I can't wait!! It's less than 9 days before I fly out to Atlanta for SCC. I'm very fortunate this year because they are allowing me to help at the registration desk so I'll get to meet many of you attending. I'll be at the desk on Wednesday afternoon and Friday morning. Plus they even let me check for registration badges Thursday morning!! Gosh I'm lucky!!!! I sincerely wish to meet as many of the attendeees as humanly possible!!
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | Uhm, HELLO!!?
July 6th, 2006 11:57 am MST
Are we all too vain and self absorbed to not vote for certain segments of the membership? Today is the 6th of the month and there are not enough votes(10) cast for any of the Bois on this site. What? Too busy fixing your tiaras? Maybe that corsets too tight and you're hyperventilating. Come on Girls, show a little respect and love for our BROTHERS!
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | That's not a woman, that's a Mahn Bah-by
June 30th, 2006 7:34 pm MST
It never ceases to amaze me how much emphasis we place on appearances. The ONE thing that unites all of us is a need for outward expression of an inner feeling.*****Some of us go to great lengths to "alter" our appearances. I have empathy with those who do certain permanant cosmetic procedures, which by their very definitions, are superficial. It's the deeper procedures that I am concerned with. Pretending to be someone or something they are not to gain the favor of another. When someone feels the need to "be popular" or "Prom Queen", I always wonder, where is the deep hurt and pain coming from? What can I do to assuage this suffering?**** I'm not pretentious. I enjoy quietly going about my life, in the real world on a consistant basis. However, I realize that I'm not identified as female 100% of the time. Nor do I every aspire to. Additionally if you see me online or meet me in person, you get the same girl. Fun loving and compassionate. True to her close friends and flawed! Yes flawed. Yet it my flaws that I love. I have a bit of a Bob Hope nose and a fivehead( that's one more than a forehead) Very British teeth and several scars! My shoulders are broad and hips are narrow. My knees knock more than 68 Dart with a slant 6. Do I love myself? Yes , I do, very much. ******* If you're reading this and you don't TRULY love yourself, go back and fall in love with your flaws. It worked for me, it might work for you.......
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | 140 days and counting....
May 1st, 2006 10:41 pm MST
Ladies, it's coming up sooner than we know it. SCC www.sccatl.org is rapidly approaching. Make plans to be there this year. I guarantee it will be the "Time of Your Life" well, at least that's the theme this year. I've been fortunately enough to attend twice in the last 3 years and plan on making it a regular event. I've already started padding the wardrope for the trip and need a couple more pairs of shoes to round it out. This is THE event of the year. I look forward to seeing many of you there!
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | Ziefeld's Farewell
April 1st, 2006 2:40 am MST
Thank you to the Admin Staff at URNA for reposting an article in The Washington Blade. The closing of Ziegfeld's and other clubs in the SE warehouse district of DC. It will indeed mark a sad occasion. As a frequent patron of Zig's( as we locals like to call it), it holds very special memories for me. It was the first public place I went to "en femme" . I met my very first TG friend there and have made many other TG friends there that I still have deep bonds with. It was a definate coming of age for me. It has had the best drag shows I have ever seen anywhere, including Atlanta's Backstreet, Charlie Brown's. The Ladies of Illusion were just that, illusionist, not pre-op barbie dolls with more plastic than DuPont. Artisans and true preformers. Such greats like the former Miss Gay America Sabrina White or the unforgetable Billie Ross. The true "Queen Mother" of the house, Miss Ella Fitzgerald is one amazing performer, MC and all around grand hostess. The bar staff of Wayne and Ron are the tops, bar none. I owe a huge debt of gratitude to Zig's and the other clubs for helping bring a sene of identiy to my life that until then, I was missing. I Love All of You and will miss the old venue. My prayers are for a speedy return in a new venue in which I can further enjoy friends and fine performances.
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Jenna Elizabeth Taylor | Narcissistic load of crap!!
March 21st, 2006 8:17 pm MST
I wonder if it would seem funny if it wasn't so sad. The following is an excerp from another member's prolife..... ODE TO TOSSERS I wrote this poem, one dark night, Alone and utterly pissed, Not on the dreaded liquor But on the bitches that exist. Time and again I try, my friends, To reach out and say Hi But all I get back are minus points Which begs me question why?I ’ll tell you why this happens It’s because Bigots do abound, If you happen to be different They shoot you to the ground This cowardly lot will leave no names As they score you down once more They really are an ugly bunch Rotten to the core. They busily connive to vote Like busy little Elves But please do us all a favour Just go and Fuck yourselves!!! The name's Taylor, Jenna Taylor hy·poc·ri·sy (h-pkr-s)n. pl. hy·poc·ri·sies The practice of professing beliefs, feelings, or virtues that one does not hold or possess; falseness.
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