URNotAlone

Profile Backup

February 23rd, 2008 10:58 am MST

Repost (of a backup of a backup...) - because, as i just learned the "hard" way, user-generated content such as all Journal entries, article comments and guestbook entries on URNA expires after two years and simply vanishes into the ether. Sigh.

 

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Link node/hub to my online profiles (well, the relevant ones):

• Yahoo
  
• Yahoo360
  
• Myspace
  
• Flickr
  
• ...and of course URNA :p

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M2F transvestite - from latin "trans" = "across, beyond, so as to change" and "vestis" = "clothing, garment". There is no other meaning to this word, and at least in my case no other applicable implication (so please spare me your assumptions, thanks). This text shall be my "Hello World" bit on the net, since I really don't feel like maintaining a proper website just about me (me me me!). Other than that, I'm not looking for anything here.

I tend to receive a fair amount of feedback through various channels, and I thank everyone for their kind and thoughtful words and comments. Not sure how I deserve it, but it sure is greatly appreciated. :-) Update: Okay, no matter what I write here, it seems to have potential for being misunderstood. Oh well. So let's adress a couple of constantly reappearing things a bit more bluntly. (Ugh! Text! ... Yes, text - read it, I'll notice it when you haven't...)

-Yes, that's my own hair. All of it. Yes, it did take long to grow. Think in years and decades. And yes, those legs are mine too. They start at my hips and go all the way down to the floor, where they have a foot at each respective end. They're cool, I use them every day.

-No, I am not on hormones, and I neither plan nor intend to go that way either. Nor did I ever have any sort of plastic surgery or other permanent cosmetic alteration, and I sure don't want that either. I really like this body here in its current condition, and that attitude is unlikely to ever change.

-I'm not fulltime, and I don't necessarily want to be either. I'm fortunate enough that my living circumstances have made me quit caring about "dressing vs. not dressing", so I "dress" in one way or another "a lot of the time", but that's not the same by any stretch. Call it what you want, "gender queer" or whatever label there might be, I call it doing what I want and enjoying the best of both worlds, just as I see fit at a given time. What could possibly be better?

-Yes, I am in fact German, and I live in Germany. Not an expat. I just happen to speak English.

-I know quite well who I am and what I am, and fortunately I have never experienced periods of self-denial or doubts (never "purged" either). I am perfectly comfortable with myself, my condition and my situation. I'm not transitioning, because for me there is nothing to transition to. I've found myself at the end of a journey, if you want to put it that way; I know this is my status quo. And when I say "I'm not looking for anything", I mean just that. I'm not looking. Seriously. I prefer finding. Notice the subtle difference.

-Yes, I obviously do like leather fashion. It's a personal preference of mine, like everybody has one (or many). That's not to say it's a fetish for me in a sexual way, or by any other definition. If it is one for you, good for you, but don't assume that has to apply to everyone else as well. It certainly doesn't apply to me.

-I'm really not into the BDSM scene as such, the concepts there really don't work for me personally. (Again, if they work for you, that's great, enjoy!) That vinyl dress you might have seen me in is really nothing but a nice dress. Honestly. Also I'm not a "domme" and most definitely not a "sub". I meet people at eyelevel or not at all.

-On a related 'fetish' note, this whole TG thing is not a fetish for me. I don't "play" this. I don't do this for a sexual kick. It's one of many facets of my personality. This *is* me. It's fun for me because it's self-expression, not because it's playing dress-up doll or because it would turn me on. This is not dissing people who dress for a fetish, but again, don't assume it applies to others only because it applies to you.

-That said, the entire T-stuff is not the center of my life. I do in fact have other interests too, imagine that! (Far too many, in fact...) And I have the habit of doing things my way, whether that's the conventional way or not. I usually loath clichés.

-If you want an advice: stop worrying about labels and categories. The world isn't just black and white. Neither are people. Neither are you.

-If you want another advice: join URNA. :-) (Jon, where's my check?) You won't find a place quite like this elsewhere, trust me on that. This is largely due to the devotion and dedication that the folks who run this site invest into making it good, and the quality people their efforts thus tend to attract.

And that said, a heartfelt hug to all you wonderful people I've got to know here on URNA in the past - you know who you are. I count you by the dozens by now, but I cherish each and every one of you individually. You've enriched my life more than you can possibly imagine. I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to make up for that.

To those asking for more pictures, scroll up to the Flickr link. It's not much, but it does have pictures. ;-)

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Random rants, ramblings, bitchings, pet peeves:

-A "hun" is a member of an ancient nomadic central-asian tribe. The meaning is not unsimilar to "vandal". The name "Attila" might ring a bell. "Hun" has also been used as a propaganda term in both World Wars, to paint enemy (german) soldiers as brutal slaughterers. There is nothing flattering in calling each other "hun". If you mean "hon", use that instead.

-"Gurl" is the sound that pigeons make, particularly during mating season. "Grrrl" is at best an interesting way to spell "grill". If you mean "girl", use it. Anything else smacks of giggly stupidity.

-"Shemale" is a porn industry term, and widely perceived as derogatory in the TG-world at large outside of it. If you're comfortable with calling yourself that, fair enough. But at least be aware of its meaning, and of who you call what.

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