URNotAlone

rehash 1.0.1

November 13th, 2006 3:41 pm MST

FIRST let me rehash the ratings issue.  The popularity contest continues, and I still find it odd, although it seems the system has changed a bit... perhaps I was not the only one who found it suspect?  I never turned mine off, not to see if I could land in the top ten spot again, but rather to see what happens if I don't rate ANYONE (even some of the very nice and rather good looking ones out there!).  Would my rating go down if it was rather well known I'm not rating anyone at all?  It did... at first.  But settled into it's normal groove, which tells me most people must be rating me a 9... with the occasional 10 and perhaps one or two screwballs rating me under a five (I may not be the best looking girl here, but I'm at least average compared to most GGs I think!).NEXT, onto 'transgender issues'.  First the issue of who's what and what does any of it mean?  Well, few if any here use correct clinical terms, so I've decided to keep the non-word 'transgendered' as my gender, and 'non-op' because it just seems like a perfectly silly thing to do.  Being pansexual is fantastic... no one seems to know what this means so I shall endeavor to explain at least, why I chose it.  Pan was a horny little goat deity, anyone who likes Bill Hicks knows what Pan is about!  In Star Trek, Appollo told Spock he reminded him of Pan, and as I remind some people of Spock, it works on yet another level!  Lastly there is the meaning of the word itself.  As a compound construct pan+sexual=all possible gender 'choices' can be found attractive by me.   To me it isn't about genitalia, it's about that ugly space just behind your face, and how it expresses who you are through your actions, words and deeds.  LASTLY, goth, photography and other uncatagorized subjects.  Goths may take note, I am the Princess of Hell, welcome me to your house and raise your glasses! That look was specifically for halloween.  I took my sheep costume off!  Photography?  I've got some more in the works.  The halloween pics were not self portraits, if you saw all of them you'd know that someone with an eye for photography was NOT behind the camera, even if you have no photographic sense about you!  I will be re-doing my costume and taking a full set, some I will take myself, some I will get a semi-quasi-psudo ama-pro to take.  Even with the outlandish getup, my MO of showing the subject at ease, even whilst posing will remain the same.  I may attempt to throw in a backdrop shot or two to illustrate the difference between the cookie cutter pros and the semi-quasi-psudo ama pro take that has some real feel of both the photographer and subject!  You can see it in most of jons pics, he should know I'm not referring to him! You can see it in most of my pics too, even though I rarely edit them as I should lol. I just wanted to rehash a few oldies, give you an 'updated' perspective and see if anyone actually reads these crazy things!