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Suni Johnson September 29th, 2008 12:46 pm MDTI am starting to wake up a lil from the cross country drive, with my niece. she thought we were just heading to Ohio for Debi an Tami committment but lil did she know how devious I really am. I kept the secret (as long as I could tell people along the way the truth) but when we pulled into OK I had to tell her we were not going to Ohio we are heading to GRACELAND, an her reaction was something else. It was so much fun seeing her so dang happy an carried away with her lil camera. Then we got on the road to Ohio. We arrived at Debi an Tami's in time to transfer cars an onto a dinner with many of their friends of crossport. Had a enjoyable time met with some remarkable people. Now for the most remarkable day the day of the committment, WOW, now I have been to weddings an others but never to one that was so moving, emotional, an honest in each an every word. YES, I cried but it was the happy type of crying. (So if you see the pic's yep that is me in the background with the tissues.) I also had to be held together an I thank you Sean (hope I got that right) You two sure made a wonderful day the greatest.. huggs an kisses The two fo them were so beautiful an honest to each other an all who listened, as I did. Loved the part even when Tami threw her hat. I think she wanted us all to relax with a laugh. I love you two so dang much you will never know. Now, this morning I got to talk with Deb as they were in IN on there way to there new home in WA. I just have to check in each day to make sure all is A OK with them on there long road trip. Yep I am there MOM so I do have that right...!!Right? Thanks[1 comment]
Chicago Be All 2008
Candice O Minky September 13th, 2008 10:15 am MDTChicago Be All 2008I walked into the hotel lobby and the sun was very blinding. I then heard a voice say look what just flew in from Boston. I had no idea who said it as I couldn't see but I continued to walk in when I heard, Candy a man should not be born with legs that good looking. Only then did I realize it was Jamie Austin. I laughed and said to him, "Do I look like a f'ing man to you?" Some highlights: I loved meeting a trans-woman named Kay Gould. Kay was a writer and journalist and is now in her 70's. Kay is very, very ill with Parkinson's Disease was confined to a wheel chair. I loved hearing from Kay and her gal pal about how Kay was one of the original founders of the Be All. They shared with us photos of Kay in younger days and in better health. I teased her about some of the more provocative photos which drew a smile and a laugh. I also thanked her very, very much for being a pioneer and laying the groundwork for tgirls like myself to be more widely accepted in this world. She was very touched and she started to choke back a tear, as did I. It was a genuine moment and I thank you again Kay, you are a blessing. OK, the purple wig, I tried it on in the vendor area and everyone rushed me and said buy it. I didn't. I went shopping at the mall with my BFF Bridgett and we later returned to the vendor area. Everyone came up to me and said I saw you in that wig earlier and it looked so cute on you...so I bought it. I needed something sexy to wear to Dr. Z's Party that night. It was the perfect wig for the party and many of you told me that. Thank you all for the nice compliments...you are all too kind. A special shout out to Bridgett Sommers....anyone who puts up with me in a bra and panties while putting my face on is OK in my book. Also special shouts to Tiffany Starr, Nikki LaVey & Karyn, Taylor, and of course the Island Girls. Hope to see you all again sooner rather than later, Sweetest Candy[Comment on this post]
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Ralene Danielle March 15th, 2008 6:08 am MDT2007-03-03
Well, I took anther one of those major life steps today. I came out to a friend at work. It must have been the eclipse or something. She was the one who’s wonderful ear rings inspired me to get mine. Dear Jane I can never even begin to tell you what you mean to me and that you are totally the only first one I could tell about Ralene. For 48 years I have lied to everyone mostly myself. You have made me feel so wonderful with your acceptance.
2006-11-28Something wonderful happened this weekend. I finally told my first family member (after my wife and son). It was my favorite sister. She is older by 12 years. We were all at her house for Thanksgiving. My sister and I left to go to the post office and we had my coming out conversation. She was surprised and said she had no idea I felt this way. She said this was the best time I could have told as she had just watched a tv show on Transitioning. I love her more now and she loves me for who I really am.
2006-08-13
If you have never chatted which someone you want to know for the rest of your life you are just not doing something right. I have people in here I want to know and met and will have in my heart forever. Thanks URNotAlone for the happiness I could never find anywhere else. Carol I wished I would have met you sooner. Carmen you are the prettiest one I have gotten to meet. Mal you are the finest friend I could ever have met. Diane you are the strongest I have ever met. And Skye I dream every night of the first time we get to meet.
2006-06-26
Well my friend from my tg group took me back to that same bar. It was so different. Really just like the first time. I danced and made some wonderful new friends. I even walked in a used the Ladies Room. It was defiantly getting back up on the horse. There were far fewer people there this time also. I am sure it was some kind of work party I had wandered into and that was why I got the reaction I did. The fun nest person my met was an 87-year-old gentleman who used to be a dance instructor and roller-skating pro. He could out dance Michal Jackson. He taught me to slow dance. This was 2 weeks ago, and this last weekend I brought my wife down there to meet him and some of the others. I was in guy mode but I told them all I was really Ralene and that was fun too. I want to thank all of you who read my profile and I want you to know I read yours. I just can’t say enough wonderful things about this chat room and all of you wonderful people. Having you all in my life makes all of this so much easier. Oh and if you didn’t know I got both my ears pierced and I just love that.
2006-06-04I got an education Saturday night. After the TG meeting we went to Chile's like normal, it is aways fun to go there. Then everyone was just calling it a night and not doing anything after that. I had shaved my legs that day for the first time in months (was growing it back for wearing shorts this summer). I had planned to shave them on that day for a couple of weeks, so there has been some pretty great anticipation. After the last meeting we went to a TG friend bar and I looked like crap, so this time I tried extra hard. I had my clean oiled up bare legs in my wonderful short denim skirt and new pink/purple tight top with my favorite bouncy bra. I picked a place I had been to before (a bar in a nice hotel that seamed friendly that time I went before). I should had read that it was way to crowded and not gone in to the bar. But I was just to interested in going in no mater what. Well the music did not stop but everyone in the place stopped what they were doing and watched me walk in. I was not familiar with the new layout. The place had no empty tables as I walked all the way to one corner of the place. First drunk guy who stepped in front of me said his friend, who was also very drunk also, wanted to dance with me. I just smiled and said not just now I wanted to find a place to sit and kept going. When I got to the end of where I could go there was one last table that was empty but it still had glasses on it and it was so far in the back I really did not want to sit there. I stood there for only a moment and decided it was not the right place to be. I started to take the very same steps back out when halfway out a guy ran straight up to me, looked me eye to eye and then freaked. He said out loud "No WAY" held his hands up in front of him like he had run into a glass window or force field. I kept on going for the door and was sure everyone who wasn't looking at me was now. I made it out just fine but the lesson was learned. 2006-05-07Most times you are to say something about yourself in this profile, but for now I want to say some things about a friend I have in hear. Her name is Skye. We met while chatting on a favorite subject if you know me you know what it is). Since then we have traded mail, email and many pictures (she is very good at Paint Shop Pro). She has put Ralene in some of the most wonderful places that I am not able to go (YET). The gifts we have shared come striate from the heart. I feel we are sisters who have just never met in person yet. Someday I truly hope we meet and get to share that big hug we always get each other in chat. I so hope everyone finds friends in here that you never stop thinking about. My list is too long to tell all of you how much I love you and think of you and keep you in my prayers. Skye sent us (my wife and I) and silver watch and pendent set. We keep the watch set to London time so I feel like I am closer to her. It is so fun to tell people why my watch is so far off (to feel like I am not so far away from her). I hope you all don’t start chatting with her now that I have told you what a wonderful person she is. Not really, Skye is the best thing to share with the world and I am so glad we get to chat. 2005-12-17We had the most wonderful time this Saturday night. My TG group meeting was a party at one of the members’ home. It was the first time my wife and Ralene were ever seen in together in public.
I got up early on Saturday, like I always do, showered and was getting ready to have a day of being Ralene when I got a phone call. It was a couple of sister friends who knew I always got up early on the week ends and went out for a car ride and they wanted to join me. We met and took my car and went to a coffee shop for some fuel for the day. Then I took them to my favorite place up at Lucky Peak Reservoir. It was cold and windy so we just sat and talked for a while.
After I dropped them off back at their car I called my wife to see if she wanted breakfast. She was surprised that I would stop at our favorite breakfast burrito fast food place (Bad Boy Drive In). She was so happy with breakfast, which was a plan I had for the whole day. I got back into guy mode and we went shopping for a new outfit for her to wear that night. We went to Macey’s and got her a lovely sequence top and new black dressy slacks (size 6 much to her delight). We found ourselves up on the 3rd floor (larger lady sizes) and bought me a killer jean jacket with a fun fur collar. Then it was off to the shoe store for some new boots. She hadn’t had a new pair of boots in we didn’t know how long. The black ones we got were just perfect and she really loved the way they fit and looked.
The party was still on, I had been so afraid she would back out, but she did not. We both took showers and took turns in front of the mirror. That was so fun. It was the first time we got ready to go out together at the same time.
Renee’s party started at 7:30 and we got there a little after than. We were the second ones to arrive. Everyone was so wonderfully nice and my wife had a great time and because she did so did I. She was 1 of 3 GG’s who came. It was fun for her to finally meet other’s who were cd, tg and ts and whatever. There were about 20 people there all together and it was a great time for everyone. A lot more people showed up than there are in our group but everyone knew someone that was there.
I hope and think she is going to be a lot more open to going out with me as my female self. At least I sure hope so. 2005-12-09What a WONDERFUL day today was! I took a day of vacation, got and dolled up and went all day shopping. It really is the first time I as Ralene, have ever done this. I have been out in public lots of times but this was different. I talked to everyone in every store I went in. The first thing I did when I got up this morning was hopped on line to chat for a quick little while. I am a real chatter mouth and spent way to long on line cause I love to chat especially when I have something else I need to do. Anyhow after a wonderful long shower and great shave I got all dolled up and my first stop was the coffee shop for double cinnamon latte’s. They were so busy at 8 am; there was no place to sit so I got them to go. I took one home to my wife and she was so surprised to hear about my plans. My next stop was Pay Less Shoes. They did not open till 10 am and I had to sit and wait in the car for a while. When they did open I was the only one there for the first half hour. It was a woman who opened the store and I was glad for that. She was wonderful and kept checking on me to see if I needed any help. I wanted some women’s running shoes, as all I have are heels and boots. I found the perfect pair; they were mostly pink and white with killer silver lines all over. The other pair I picked were some black flats with very little heels. I was there for over an hour and it was so fun just getting to try on so many different shoes and sizes. The running shoes were 10 ½ wide and the flats were 8 ½, why so different I do not know. Next I stopped at the Pleasure Time shop. That was an experience for sure. I wanted a new toy if you know what I mean. I got one, a purple one if you are interested Larry. They sure had some big ones if you know what I mean. Next stop was home cause the latte was working and I had to go pee. From where I went to a thrift store to see what they had and shopped thru the whole store but did not buy anything. Next I went to Rite Aid, a large drug and all kinds of stuff store. I spent about an hour there walking up and down all the ails of makeup and shopping with all the other ladies. That I will never forget. Everyone was so nice and I am not sure if they knew. I got a couple of big Reeses peanut butter cups there and they were the best I have ever had. Next stop was Sally’s Beauty Supplies for what ever I could find. I got some of the longest nails I have ever seen. My typing will be impossible when I have them on. Next I went to ShopKo, another big store like Fred Meyers only no food. I spent about an hour in the bra department looking for just the right one. I got a 38 double D, hopping I could have a little more bounce (if you know what I mean). I love it but I think maybe a 40 D would do more of what I want. Oh well I guess I will have to go shopping again. I picked out another purple top, lots more makeup, and a box of Hershey’s Pot of Gold Almond Caramel Clusters. I also bought my first fashion magazine People Stylewatch Holiday 2005. Next stop was this fun little condom store we have call the Rubber Rainbow; some for my new toy. The gal in there was so fun. Finally the last stop to get the first and finest hamburger I have ever had. We have this owner run hamburger stand called Chow Now that has the best bacon burger you could ever find. This was one of the best days I have ever had and I just wanted to share it with you. 2005-12-05Things are better. But I am not sure what the future holds. I don't know what or how to make things right. I have always been happy being both sexes. Stay tuned. 2005-12-01I want to thank everyone who replied. I am not sure what to do next. I am still and always will be Ralene as much of the time as I can be. If and when I talk to my sister is still to be figured out. My son and I have spoken many times about what the situation is. He tells me it is not really anything to do with Ralene. He does worry about me getting hurt by non-tg friendly people and wants me to be very careful about who I meet when out, but does not want me to stop going out. He says his problems are more with the kind of person he is and doesn't like the way he takes things out on me. Now I am sad about that. We will work it out for sure. My wife have finally seen that this is not just a crazy little fad I have had all my life and that I am just a cd. I am not sure what i am, but these last 2 years have been the best of my whole life. She is very afraid of me coming out and going full time. We have talked about it alot lately and I am sure she knows it ain't going away. Thanks again for letting me the part of this family. rr 2005-11-23Ya I really need to talk to someone. Last night we (my son, my wife and I) had it out. Or at least they did. I have wanted to tell my sister about my being TS for quite sometime (all my life in fact). When I told them I wanted to do that this weekend they both got very upset. They started in with feelings I never knew they had. Apparently we are not on the same page about Ralene and my future. Neither one of them wants to be exposed as being related to me if I am outted. My son said he would have to sale everything, quit his job and move away. They both were yelling at me and were very unhappy both together. They fueled each other. I finally just went to bed and said I would take care of every thing tomorrow. Now it is tomorrow and I don't know what I am going to do. I love been Ralene, it is the real me. They see it as something else and I don't know what to do.
These last 2 years have been the best of my life. It all started with the online chat room and all the wonderful friends I now have. I want so badly to be myself and be accepted as the person I really, really am. The last thing I want to do is hurt the 2 people I love the most. The next last thing I don't want to do is put Ralene back in the closet. Have I said I don't know what to do?I pulled all my pics down and see what the hell good that does.I love my sister and I know she loves me and would love to be on my side of all this but they (my family) do not want another person to know. I thought they knew more about why I am Ralene and not that it is something bad. To them it really is something to be a shamed of. 2005-10-14 I can only hope you get all get the opportunities I do. Last night my wife and I are talking about jeans and stuff and she says I want you to try on my pants.Poof she undoes her'z and tosses them to me. So I am pulling them up and I go well you should try my killer jeans on. Poof... pull... pull...and then we are standing there in each other's "killer" jeans. I am just happy the hook and zipper worked. She grabs the belt loops and pulls her's (MINE) down past her knees. Do you have any idea what I am talking about here? When we bought my killer jeans she could not have put them on. 4 short months later and little miss "29 fucking inches waste" (sorry for the spelling... it is all attitude) peel's them down to her ankles and with this shit-eating grin. I am thinking, "Why did I ever come out to her." "I don't need this." We are 28 years married today". Am I the only one here that adds a year every time I talk about my wife? (If that was really true I am sure I would be over 10,000 years old!) AS ALWAYS "DON'T F......G TRY TO HAVE SEX CHAT'S WITH ME" "I AM NOT INTERESTED""OK" 3/26/05Today would have been my mother's 84th birthday she is not hear to some but is here to me happy birthday mom My son just took these pictures of me if you would like to see more please check my yahoo site So far in 2005 this is the very best thing that has happen to me. I hope all is well with youRR1/3/05This is the beginning of my second year here. I don't know how it can get any better. I have met some of the most wonderful Darlings (and you all know who you are). Thanks for making 2004 my best year yet. And I hope we have an even better 2005. As always I am >>>>>NOT IN TO SEX CHATS 12/30/04Sometimes you have to fight with a friend to know that they are a friend. I am rewriting my 12/28/04 entry. 12/28/04Monday 12/27/04 was good day. It was my last vacation day of the year and started very well with me all dolled up and going out for a cinnamon latte at 7am. It was great and my second time out in greater down town Boise. It is a coffee shop called the "Flying W" and it is tg friendly. RR and ps I am still NOT in to trolls!!! 12/28/04Monday 12/27/04 was good of day. It was my last vacation day of the year and started very well with me all dolled up and going out for a cinnamon latte at 7am. It was great and my second time out in greater down town Boise. It is a coffee shop called the "Flying W" and it is tg friendly. When I got home I was still pretty excited and got right on here to spend the rest of the day chatting and having fun. I got challenged to turn the rating on on my profile (I have not wanted to do this since they started it - not that there is anything wrong with doing it - it just isn't for me). I have been pretty happy with my own self-rating but thought what the heck. I went out and picked what I thought were my prettiest sexiest pics to put up (stacking the deck for competition). I had a few pictures that I have only shared with friends and had open the public a few times. They are my black bustier pics that I am very proud of. I thought long and hard before making them. I wanted some very sexy pics that would show just how feminine I could be. When I got the chance to go over to my son's house for a first time photo shoot, he took them. Well when I put a couple of them up for the rating thing; the email I got from the person who talked me into doing the whole thing really took me back. I was told: "Put some clothes on! You don't need to use that picture to get a good rating. :-(". At first I didn't think anything of it but then after chatting with this person some more I began to feel they were dirty and nasty. What really hurt was that I gave this person the permission to make me feel this way. I was very proud and loved those pics and to have someone from in here, who I trust, make me feel this way was unbearable. I know they were just trying to help but it was more like being backed over by the ambulance. I will never say anything bad about anyone's pics. They are too personal. They are the proof we exists. For the 100's who have told me "Those are great" I let one tell me they weren't and I WAY let that get to me. For the last 2 days I have wondered if I even wanted to share any of my pics. I made them for me and maybe I will just keep them for me. Well as you can see I have decided to just go back to being me and sharing with all who want. The only thing is if you don't like my pics don't look at them. RR and ps I am still NOT in to trolls!!! 12/20/04Saturday 12/18/04 was another one of days I will remember for the rest of my life. I got to take and large suitcase of Ralene's stuff over to our son's house along with my camera. It was the closest thing to a real photo shoot I have ever had. It was wonderful. My son took over 300 pictures and they all fit on one of those memory stick things. After about 3 hours I had only gotten threw about half the clothes I had brought. We were both tried and so I guess I'll have to pack them for next time. After the photo shoot we played pool and he fixed dinner. It was so great to be out the house as Ralene and to be totally accepted as her. He was having other company at 6 o'clock so around 4:30 I packed up and left for home. But I didn't want to go home (after having a couple of Zimas during the day) I was ready to go see what the local gay bar looked like. I had called there earlier last week to ask if they had a TG or CD night and the guy said sure - EVERY night so come on down. So at about 5 pm I, as Ralene, went out to a bar for the first time in Boise Idaho. It is called the Emerald Club (formally the Whiskey River Saloon). The people there were nice and I only had one drink cause I was just there to check the place out for next time. I sat at the bar and played a video game and just had a ball. For those you who have never gotten to go out my heart goes out to you. For all my life I have just been happy staying in the house, with a few late night and early morning car rides and going out for a drive on a couple of Halloweens. But this year from having gotten to know so many wonderful people from here, I just had to make a move. Which is the biggest and toughest question my son asks me: "Why do you want to go out in public?" I don't really know. But I can tell you I love it. Before I went out I talked to several others who go out a lot and they all said it was very addicting and they sure were right. For 43 years I was happy to stay inside but now I have had I taste of out doors and just won't ever be the same. Tuesday 12/21/04 is my one year anniversary of having a profile here at URNotAlone and I can't tell you all how much you all mean to me. Thank you all for everything you do. What a great bunch of people I know here. 12/14/04Yesterday, no this whole last weekend, was another one of those best days of my life days. On Monday I got all dolled up (in my new old navy purple sweater and black mini with matching purple eye shadow and killer purple lip stick) and went shopping at my favorite wig shop (my only wig shop). I had made this appointment last week and have been anticipating it ever since. It is the only shop I have ever been to as Ralene. They are so nice there and make me feel great. I spent over 2 hours trying on wigs and having them take a few pictures. My wife really liked the first wig I got there and wanted one the same color only very short hair. For all the things she has bought me over the years I so wanted to pay her back and this was the best place I could do that. Out of all the ones I tried on - 2 spoke to me. I couldn't make up my mind so I bought them both. At this shop they named all their wigs; Pammy my first, is a nicely long bronze brown one, these next 2 were called Sandie, a short marble brown (which was exactly what she SAID she wanted) and Sky, a short nutmeg blonde (to die for). When I got done and was leaving I called her on the phone to tell her I was on my way home. She said she was just getting ready to leave and go return some things we bought for me that didn't fit (from my first shopping trip the day before where we bought only stuff for Ralene). I told her "No wait for me to come home and I'll drive you to those stores." She said ok. This was the first time she and Ralene would be seen out in public. I was so excited. When I got home I was wearing Sky and she immediately fell it love with it. I did look hot (please see pic). "That is just the one I wanted", she said. We hoped back in the car and we were off. I drove all over town and smiled and looked right at everyone. I didn't get to go in to any of the stores but it was still a lot of fun sitting in the car putting makeup on in the mirror and watching people walk by and not "making" me. This is all pretty small potatoes to most of you but to me it very big. I owe my wife a lot and for 43 years I have just stayed in the house but for this last year I have been getting to know so many wonderful people from this chat room. You all have given me something I can only try to pass on to others; the friendship and love of caring about someone and acceptance. I HAVE TO GET OUT. And I am more now than ever. Thank you all for giving me the courage and drive to do this. And a very special thanks to LarryVA for getting me on my purple kick. Thanks hon you are the best!!! 11/27/04Best news ever the owner had put another table together for the ten of us, WE WERE GOING TO THE SHOW!!!. Saturday night was totally different. My friend Opal and 8 of her GG belly dancers friends showed up. I had about a million times more fun that night. And there were more TG gals there that night. We watched the same show again (a few things were different and it was great). A few us went out and sat in the truck and talked and stuff. It was so wonderful to meet these kids. I will never forget them. Then we danced till 2am. I made so many new friends I just can't begin to tell you how it feels to finally be out and alive to a few others. I will remember both nights for as long as I live. Rae (my new nice name) 11/26/04This last weekend I traveled 250 miles to the other side of the state (Idaho) to meet a friend I have chatted with for several months now. We met first in guy mode and went shopping at a little store there in town. I walked around and looked at all the stuff they had, but nothing spoke to me. Next time I go there I am sure it will be different. Next we went out to a hamburger bar and ate dinner. It was the first time I have ever sat in public and spoke about Ralene. We talked about Opal and her life and it was just wonderful to finally have a face-to-face eye-to-eye living friend.I had come to Pocatello to go out as Ralene to a little gay bar there called Charley's to a drag show. We then went there to get tickets for the show. Worst thing happened next - they were sold out for Saturday's show - the reason I drove 500 miles and stayed 2 nights in a hotel. One of the owners said to call him back at noon on Saturday and see if he could do anything to get Opal, 8 of her GG belly dancing friends and I a table. Opal said in case we didn't get to go Saturday I should go Friday and at least get to go out once. Opal lived 60 miles away and could not go that night. So Friday I had to go all by myself. It was fun. I was the only one dressed in the audience and was over dressed for the occasion, but that was OK. They were friendly and I felt OK being there. I will remember that forever. This was truly my first time out to go to a bar, to see and be seen by everyone. 11/14/04Well today topped yesterday. As Ralene I got my first visitor. My son (26) came over and we watched the Nascar race together. He has known about Ralene for quit sometime and seen all my pictures. He knows how happy I am getting to be Ralene whenever I can. When I totally came out to him and told him about having my pictures on this site and being a member of transgender chat group I said he was ok with that. I told him I would never do anything to hurt him or his mother (my wife of 27 years). I love them both more than life itself and I also love Ralene. We have talked about Ralene some and he really is ok with her and the plan always has been that when he wanted to meet Ralene all he had to do was ask. That day came today. I was in an urnotalone chat session getting some last minute support (I was still shaking from going out Saturday), when he arrived. I told everyone "HE IS HERE". The first thing he saw was my back sitting at the pc chatting with people. As soon as I could I said good-bye to everyone and they all wished me good luck. I am so lucky I just can't believe I would ever be telling anyone this in my life. I stood up and he smiled and said "Well hi there". I could have melted. It was the happiest moment of my "Ralene" life. We sat and talked about everything, my trip to the wigs store, chatting with all my little girlfriends here and lots more stuff. When the race was over we were all going over to the in laws for dinner so when he left to go home he gave me the best hug I have ever had. To be accepted by him has truly been the best thing. I wished the whole world knew how happy we all are to get to be our feminine selves. And not try to hurt or stop us. I know I have only been out once and only had 1 visitor but it is the big and best step of Ralene's 44 years of being around. 6/04I have had one of the best days of my life and wanted to tell you about it. Wednesday we went out parting (my son-26 and I, wife was sick and stayed home) like we do almost every Wednesday. We played pool and had fun. When we got back to my place we all talked and eat some dinner. While he was talking to his mom I wrote him a note and took it out and put it in his truck. He did not see me do this. The note said: "Would you like to see the site I like to go to." I also put a box with Yes and a box with No. When he left he came right back in and said what is this and then sure. I had told him a little about urnotalone before. And the fact is he has seen Ralene twice before by accident and we have talked about it some. He knows how happy I am getting to be Ralene and he is ok with it. He would never stop loving me because of Ralene. Well the first thing I showed him was my yahoo profile picture. He thought it was lovely and could not believe it was me. He said you could never tell that it was me unless you had seen the background in the picture before. Next we went in to the urnotalone site and I showed him my pics there. He thought they were very good too. I sign on and chatted for awhile and showed him some of the other kids that I like to chat with. Then I showed him all of my pictures. He was very ok with all of this. I have so wanted to be honest with him and show him pictures of Ralene so he would know what I looked like and not have some wrong impressions. I told him how much I loved him and would never do anything to hurt him or our family. He was wonderful and very happy to finally see me in my other mode. I love him more now than ever before (if that is possible). I think it will be awhile before he actually meets Ralene, he may have to ask to see her.I am so happy and just wanted to tell you about this. Thanks for being my friend, 11/13/04Today was the best day of Ralene's life. Yesterday my wife went shopping for me and blew almost 300 bucks. Wow what a wife. It was all to go with my new hair. Today (Saturday) I got all dolled up and went to that wig store again to get a few more things. This was the first time Ralene has ever been out in the middle of the day or ever really. I drove to the wig store and it was great. I didn't look around to see if I was being watched (I didn't want to know). When I got to the store (again at 10:30 a.m.) I was the only one there again. The gals did not know until I spoke, whom they were working with. They were so kind and I had such a wonderful time. They styled my hair in different ways and I had my camera and they took lots of pictures. My first time out I will remember forever. As I was leaving they told me not to worry about what I looked like and no one would know by just looking at me. Is that the best thing you could ever hear? I stayed there for about an hour and then left but I didn't want to go home. When I walked out of that store I can't begin to tell you how I felt. When I walked to my car and stood there looking for my keys in my purse it was a different person, I wanted everyone to look at me. I drove all over Boise and then out to Lucky Peak (a reservoir boating and fish spot just out side of town). There weren't many people there and I was able to park in an empty parking lot and get out and walk around. The wind was blowing a little and the sun shining on me was wonderful. It is because of chatting with all of you that have made this all possible. I have been dressing for over 44 years but I have never been happier since finding you all here and getting to know you and having friends. 11/9/04I went out to a wig store today, tried on several, and picked one. I was in guy mode but loved all the attention they gave me. I had looked on the Internet for friendly places here in Boise to find a new wig. This one looked pretty good so I went at 10:30 a.m. hoping to miss any crowd. I had the place to myself and it was great. I picked out a half dozen or so wigs to try. The ladies were great and let me see all the ways the wigs would look and which colors were better for me. After making my purchase I had to go back to work for a going away lunch for 2 of the people I work with. It was at Chilies and all I could do was sit and look at everyone's hair and think about how it would look on me. 8/14/04Hi ya, The birthday was great. I am a big nascar fan and everyone at work decorated my office with checkered flags and 50th birthday stuff. It was so fun. All my life I have thought about 8/13/2004; the day I would turn 50. Anyway it seamed so far away. And then poof there it was. I always wondered where I would be and now here I am. I think the neatest thing that has happened was finding URNA on 12/21/03 and posting my first pic on 04/01/2004. I have been Ralene for 43 + years now but until then I was always alone (my wife knows and likes Ralene.) I have never had any one I could talk to or call my friend let alone be someone's girl friend. That has been the most wonderful thing in a very long time. Now I am thinking about 8/13/2054 : )your girl friend from Idaho, Ralene 7/14/04Where do I begin? I have always been Ralene for as long as I can remember with only my wife knowing about that and that was fine. On 12/21/03 I ventured on into the on-line world of chatting on URNOTALONE. I had no idea have a wonderful change in my life this would be. I have gotten to meet so many wonderful people. You all (well almost all) mean so much to me. I feel like I am real now. I am alive and have friends and loved ones all over the world now. (Note to Jon: I hope you have made arrangements for URNA to continue on if something should ever happen to you. You have made it possible for all of us to have a wonderful meeting place.) I have always known there was a community of us out there but I had never known how to get in it. Well I sure feel like I am now. And it is great to be here. If you see me on-line pvt and say hi I would love to hear from you. Please remember I am only looking for nice chats. If you don't see me please feel free to drop me an email and we will try to find a time we can chat. Before URNA I was only a cross dresser (not that there is anything bad with that) and now I have truly let the woman inside me out. I do love getting to be Ralene chatting and I have never felt so alive. And I so do look forward to what the future will bring. Thanks for letting me in. 4/1/04From one who loves you all and thank you for just letting me be part of your world.I am 27 years married to the same wonderful wife and I am only looking for friends to chat with and enjoy our female sides. Please no 900 stuff or cyber sex (I am just not interested).
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Friendship
Tammie Lynn Huber March 9th, 2008 7:43 am MDTThere has been some disagreement about online friendship. Some people say you can not have true online friends, I for one completely disagree, what is a friend anyway? Someone who likes you for you are? But it goes deeper of course, you might share some common interests, dreams or possibly other friends. There is a degree of openness and trust and you feel deeply about your friend, love possibly.
Yes I know some people say you really do not know the people you meet online, and that is true, but how much do you know your friends that you meet in person, or even long time friends. Take a look at yourself, do your friends know you? Do they know you are on hormones? Do they know you need GRS? Or maybe even that you just perhaps like exploring your feminine side. Or do they know you have fantasies or date trans people? Or are those friends not true friends?
Yes there are for me quite a few people that I consider "true" friends, we share each others sadness, happiness we hurt when they hurt and yes, I would do anything for them, anything that I am able to do, just as I would friends that I have grown up with.
I have the pleasure of meeting some, but not all, and I feel the need to be in contact with them. Friends that you look forward in chatting with everyday and some that seem to drift away, but you still love them and worry about them and of course miss them very much!
Who knows what that hidden connection that you share with them, and why some you do not feel that connection. But that is the same for people I have met in person.
I love my friends!
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What other argument do we need!
Tammie Lynn Huber March 8th, 2008 4:37 pm MSTI found something that I have been thinking about for sometime, something that I remember being taught in school, way too many years ago, when I was a good little Catholic conservative.
Basically we enact certain laws to protect us from the majority, because we need those protections, that is why we ask, and that should be enough reason to pass such laws.
Whether you agree with us or not, we hurt no one, and we do not ask for special protections, just the same that the majority of Americans are given. We do not kid ourselves, laws will not stop us from being hated; or fired, because employers can always find other ways if they need. And we will still be considered sinners by a FEW!
And yes, I believe everyone deserves protections that they might not have, as long as they are not breaking laws or hurting someone else.
I have seen in some of the conservative Blogs, that if we are given protection, that we should protect the homeless. OMG! What an assinine thing to say, of course the homeless needs protections, and why shouldn't they, because they do not vote? Pay Taxes?
Yeah! I wish they would go away too, but not the same way as some people say, Die? Move on? Have the police harass them? No! by being helped, in anyway that we can, because it is the decent thing to do!
So yeah, we, the homeless and any other group that is unjustly singled out in any way needs protections from the masses if needed.
Read below from our government
Tammie
BE Nice to All The lives You Touch!
From US Department of State
Democracy Papers
Protecting minority rights: If by "democracy" we mean rule by the majority, then one of the great problems in a democracy is how minorities are treated. By "minorities" we do not mean people who voted against the winning party, but rather those who are indelibly different from the majority by reasons of race, religion, or ethnicity. In the United States, the great problem has been that of race; it took a bloody civil war to free black slaves, and then another century before people of color could count on free exercise of their constitutional rights. The problem of racial equality is one that the United States is still wrestling with today. But this is part of the evolutionary nature of democracy, the drive to become more inclusive and to grant to those who are different from the majority not only protection against persecution but the opportunity to participate as full and equal citizens. Examples of nations treating their minorities in a bloody and horrible manner are numerous, and the Nazi Holocaust against the Jews is only the most vivid illustration. But no society can aspire to call itself democratic if it systematically excludes specific groups from the full protection of the laws.
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A note of my feelings
Suni Johnson March 3rd, 2008 4:50 am MSTWell here I go again I am the Proudest Mom ever My two girls are having a commencement ceramony this month an I get to be there to see it. Have been juggling monies around (or should say bills) so I can drive on to Ohio an then say goodbye to that state an see both my girls in Washington. Beleive it or not the drive to WA will be so much closer to visit. In my heart an soul each day I become so proud an excited to hear from my daughter an see how she has grown an become more independent each day, not saying she has more to go.. (don't want a big head on her) but if any of you could have seen or known her before she thought she was strong but kept so much inside. She now it seems to talk it out with Tami an they come to respect each otheres opinions an the answers are I beleive clearer for them both. This move I pray each day that will be the best for Tami, she has wanted to leave OH for she was soo excited when she was here in CA. Ofcourse, Debi's daughter wants them to come an stay in CA but has decided that WA is A ok for she says her husband will go there an it is closer for them an he's a big fan of the teams. I got to speek w/my nephew re: Debi an he is so happy for both of them, in so many ways it is neat to say I may have lost a son BUT I have gained the GREATEST daughter in fact, I gained (2) two great daughters. So to all, do not stay in that shell of yours be proud each an every day of who you are because you will be suprised on how much more you will gain knowing yourself better. I must close now because this is now a buzy time gotta get my packing done for the bestest trip picking up Elfgirl my neice so we can head on up to OHIO for the big day.. ALSO I want to thank all the girls that know Debi an Tami, thank's you are great people hope to see you on the 20th, Suni[4 comments]
Lawrence King
Tammie Lynn Huber February 16th, 2008 8:31 am MSTSorry, I just had a few thoughts on the young person needless shot and killed in Oxnard, Ca. He was shot in the head by a school mate and declared brain dead, taken off life support on Friday he soon passed. Some of his organs were donated to "help others".
Some less understanding people might say she asked for it because she sometimes wore feminine attire at school, make-up and painted nails. But I choose to think she died because she stood up and said I am different and there is nothing wrong with being different, what a brave young person she was. I believe our world is worse off with the passing of this beautiful child.
There are some people in our circle claiming the media is ignoring this shooting, its sad but I guess it is getting overshadowed by the shooting in Illinois.
Selfishly, I hope there will be some good from this for our community, but I don't have much hope for that anymore, it seems the harder we push, the religious right pushes back even harder. I would like to know their thoughts on this senseless act.
Sometimes life just doesn't make sense, I keep asking this, "Why does everyone have to be right?"
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How i'm happy
Debra Anne Johnson January 5th, 2008 8:34 pm MSTJust would like to let everyone know that Tammie and I have like fallen even more on Love and have gotten even closer over the time we have lived together. This still seems as though it's a dream.
4 yrs ago I was so deeply depressed and had actually given up on life and even tried to end it to stop the hurting. I never though it was at all possible for me to ever find true happiness or evne Love, but it all has changed since I met Tammie.
We started out just as friends in here (yes URNA) trying to just give each other simple support that we could give each other since we lived so far apart, me in SoCal and her in Ohio and thats all it was... a true friendship nothing more and we also were not looking to meet anyone for any other reason. But it happened and it happened in such a manner where both of us were to damn afraid to say anything to the other about the feelings we were having for each other afraid we might ruin our friendship we have. But on one day Tammie actually came out with her feelings and then I did also after listening to her and a sof that day we have been a couple. Then I had a an idiot idea and moved to Texas in hopes of transitioning and getting all of the things ready for tammie to move there with me and as most of you know that was a wash and scary ordeal being there alone and NO job and wanting to transititon. But that isn't the worst thing about moving to Texas....the worst was trying to find this bar out in Austin called Bout time and stopped to get some gas around 9 pm and there I was almost raped and knocked out. I still say the attendant is my hero for scarying them off.
Tammie came out there and told me that I am moving you out of here and your coming home with me and she had gotten us an Apt and so we packed the stuff up and she moved me out to Ohio with her and guess what people it is true...it's not where yu live but who your with and I can honestly say there is NO PLACE I would rather be then right here by her side.
To everyone out there this can trully happen and it did to us.
For those of you who don't know us we are the 2 happy Love birds sittintg on cloud nine and will lend a helping hand to all.
Tammie you not only made me fall so deeply and madly in Love with you you also stole my heart and soul. I am forever yours and will always be right here next to you standing by yourside . I Love you Tammie
01/05/2007
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Turning 50 and a New Year
Tammie Lynn Huber January 1st, 2008 10:25 am MSTWish I could have noting but great news, but with our lifestyle, everyone knows that is not possible. This passed Christmas and leading up to New Years Eve. Deb's Mom came into town to spend Christmas with us she is so great, and a very beautiful person, inside and out. With her support we had a talk with my Mom, whom has had trouble dealing with me, mainly because of her religious background. The discussion did not go well, which in turn had repercussions with my younger sister, who sent me a couple of nasty emails.
New Years Eve, we were invited to my X's house for a party, and after My family found out that Tammie would be there, they all decided not to show up. So it was Deb, Deb's Mom (Suni) and my X and me. I feel really guilty but have decided to stop trying to seek my family's support. Its to hard to go through the ups, downs and the heartbreaks. If they want to make the effort so be it, I am finished with them.
I was hoping they would come around and eventually help me with my son, but instead I have alienated them also.
I have the support of Deb, Suni (Mom) and most of her family, of which I am so grateful. The warmth I feel when I think of them is so beautiful. :-D
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moved from Profile
Debra Anne Johnson November 25th, 2007 11:31 am MST7/09/07 Just an update for everyone. Tammie and I are getting even closer and wow I never thought this could ever be possible, to fall in Love with someone and have not just your Love and Feelings for them grow but also be in a place of total Happiness. I wish I could explain to everyone how this really feels but I just cannot put this into words so I will just use 1 word -- PERFECT-- it's the only one I can think of.
I know alot of you are saying to your selves that this just cannot be how can 2 people be so in Love, well guess what it has and this is for real. So until the update.
Wow it's been a Year for Tammie and I as of 5/01/07 boy how time flies.
I wish everyone could feel how I do and to be in a real Loving relationship. I am trully on cloud 9 and guess what this relationship has only began to bloom.
I am a pre op male to female.I am 45 yrs old and love to cook,music,watch movies and long conversations.
I also do not Cyber or do phone so don't ask Thank you.
I want to thank all of those for all of there support and love you all.
I have met the most Wonderfull,sweet,sincer and beautiful Woman and we have just started our relationship and I so Addore her. I am so very much commited to her and our new life journey together.I am so looking foward to us spending the rest of our lives togehter.And I know some of you know her and I bet those who do feel the same as I do on how sweet she is. TammieLynn I Love you.
Just an update for everyone...As of 8/31/06 TammieLynn and myself are starting our lives together as one and I am moving to Ohio to be with her. We are like so very Happy and in Love with each other and we know deep in our Hearts that this was meant to be.
Hugss to everyone.
TammieLynn I Love you....
** Update for everyone....as of 9/5/06 Tammielynn and I are now in our own apt. and starting our lives together forever. And yes she got me to move to Ohio (giggles).
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Untitled Post
Tammie Lynn Huber October 29th, 2007 5:20 pm MDTDeb and I recently celebrated a year together, all in all our life together has been like something magical. Sure we have our problems, loss of jobs and little spats, usually from misunderstanding each others feelings (two girls living together with hormones levels going nuts). We have grown so close, when I think about her, like now, I get such a warm feeling deep inside, I just can't imagine life without her.
I do not believe in god, reincarnation, ghosts, afterlife but somehow I do believe... We were meant to be together, like we have been searching for each other for centuries, "Life Is Beautiful".
We, have so much in common, not just the obvious, but other things like shopping, motorcycles, billiards, television programs, shopping and then, there are the subtle things, the intangibles. Like cuddling, food with the same spices and just simple touch.
For anyone who might have given up on love, like I once did, please keep your hope and if ever you think you might have found someone, don't be afraid to say something, to take that first step, for if you are lucky enough to find your "soul-mate", OMG, the feeling, the happiness.
You have to take that chance, you might get hurt and then again.... who knows
Deb, I Love You!
Always
Tammie
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Cali trip
Debra Anne Johnson January 27th, 2007 7:51 am MST Hi all just wanted to update all of you. Well Tammie and I went out to Cali on the 16th of January and to let all of you know that flying enfemm is not very hard to do at all even without your legal name change. We went out there so I could get my name change done and to also see my Doc. It all went very well and as of January 19 2007 my name on my DL says it and also has the big (F) on it. We also did some shopping ( of course ), sight seeing, visit Family members and took some cool pics. That week to be Honest was the best week of my life so far all because I got to spend it with the Love of my life Tammie Lynn who not only made it great for me but she also had a lot of First's for herself ( she will have to tell ya ). So all of you who a scared, unsure of airports and their policies, or just unsure it was easy (granted I am fulltime but it still was simple. With all that happened in Cali now I am even closer to getting to that Final stage ( SRS ) which will hopefully be in January or Febuary of next yr. Boy how things have changed since going fulltime 6 months ago. It's hard to explain how much alive I feel now, no depression at all ( got to love the hormones ) , and to have found the Love of my Life with out her I don't know where I would be. Hugss Debra Anne Johnson[1 comment]
Jessica new tatoo
Carmen Keys December 6th, 2006 9:25 am MSTHey all i finially got my new tatoo !!!! I am so happy with the way she turned out , just thought i would share this with you ! ...Hugssssss i will talk to you all later school and work is keeping me very busy... byeeeeeeeeee
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My Friends
Tammie Lynn Huber August 18th, 2006 7:26 am MDTI suppose the only way to get this off my chest is to write about it. When Deb and I first fell in love I never dreamed it would change my life the way it has. We are so much in love, like two parts of a whole person as if we have been searching for each other for centuries, being married, having numerous crushes, I can honestly say i have never felt this strongly about another person as I feel for Debra. The warmth of her voice in the middle of day at work makes all the cares, stress vanish and puts a smile on my face. I want to appologize to all my friends that I have neglected, Kim, Ness, Sky, Susan, Karen, Michelle, Martha, Steffanie, Kristine, Pam, Lisa, Jennifer, Jan and the rest of the girls whom I consider dear friends and I hope you consider me as much your friend. I am so sorry but everything that Deb and I have been going through lately, the terrible hardships that some of you know about, that has reinforced our love and dedication for one another. It just makes it hard to divide time up, I have the feeling that I have hurt some of you, maybe that is me being to narcisitic or vain, who knows. But until we are together always, I am finding it hard not spending most of my time with her in any way that I can. I love you girls trully, but I am in love with Debra Anne Johnson and our relationship means more to me than anything in this world at the moment and I do not see an end to it, ever, for every minute, every hour, and every day our love keeps on growing. I/we have never been happier, the sadness, loneliness and depression is gone finally, for good? Who knows? All I know this is real and I will keep it real as long as I can! I deeply love you all! And Deb :) I Love You!! Tammie[Comment on this post]
Tammie's & Debra's 1st Encounter of the 3rd Kind
Tammie Lynn Huber August 8th, 2006 9:43 am MDTAs previously stated in my other boring journal entries, Deb and I met about 6 months ago and our relationship blossomed into something quite special, well special for Deb and I at least! :) We fell deeply in love, had some doubts, went through some very trying times and through it all, we emerged even more in love.... 4 weeks ago we planned for our first encounter :-D So last Friday morning after a nice flight Deb picked me up at Austin Intl Airport and she was the first TS to see me in drab, yuck! But I got over it pretty fast Deb took me home where we sat on the couch and tried to relax. I slightly hinted around that I was hungry ...OMG I AM STARVING!!!!! In which she politely gave me a bowl of homemade chicken stew...have I ever told you Debra is perfect!!!
We lounged around for the afternoon, cuddling and nice little kisses, we were both in heaven! I could not believe that our love could grow anymore than it had, but it was like magic. I know if anyone reads this, they will undoubtedly think we are exaggerating but honestly it is like we are one person, like we having been searching for centuries for the other half. Later we went to the groceries and stocked up on some supplies for the weekend, a bottle of wine and fresh fruit to make Sangria, and ingredients for my not so famous enchilada pie. We arrived "home" to tired to cook so we went to bed, relaxed and tried to stay up and watch the X-Games...I fell asleep laying next to Deb, feeling her warmth and for the first time in 16 years I slept with another person. I never thought it would be possible to feel the joy that I felt that evening! :)
Saturday morning, again the closeness of waking in another person's arms, someone that you are you are so deeply in love with, and most important, someone who feels exactly the same way in return! Did I tell you how amazing Deb is? She has gone through so much in this past year, more than most people have gone through in a lifetime and she is still a very loving and caring person! After a hearty breakfast of breakfast shakes and "happy pills"
, I made Deb take me to Austin to be a tourist and to one of the famous Jack in a Box restaurants.
Back home for some R&R and more cuddling before our planned evening to Bout Time a TG friendly club and lucky for us, FREE billiards!!!!!! We played against each other and teamed up against some nice gentleman all the while stealing kisses and hugs from each other (making the straight Cd's in the club quite miffed)
When we shot pool against each other there was no competition what so ever, each of us wanting the other to make the shot, it was just the two of us having the night of our lives. But OMG the magic of that evening was just indescribable, minute by minute ever since Friday morning when I first landed, our love for each other kept growing, it is like we are one person incomplete without the other. After turning down numerous propositions from the gentlemen we closed the bar and wen to a nearby IHOP for coffee and and an early 3am breakfast. Unfortunately for Deb since the IHOP was quite busy, I made her control herself, so she had to refrain from kissing me. I just did not think it was appropriate for us to kiss in a public, where the "normal" peeps might think we are sick pervs. Maybe I am wrong about that but I just think there is a proper place and that is not it. Anyway, I would make up for it when we got back home!
4:30am Sunday morning, back home we both experienced something quite new to us and enchanting, we took things very slow, the tenderness, affection and a new and ever strengthening bond for each other that just kept building those wee hours that morning was so astonishing.
I know some people will think it is just sex and how can we really be sure, but is more than that, truthfully, it was more like wanting to please and cherish the other not merely wanting something for our self! Neither of us want it to be about the hollow gratification of just sex and I believe we both know it is and never will be. Trust me, from from both of us coming from failed marriages, and I know what lust is, I have had plenty of lust, this is so much different. We are not going through this blindly, know there are neigh Sayers but this is true love, "The Princess Bride" type true love!
Sunday, after taking our happy pills, just laid around the remainder of the morning, staying close and thinking about the next day when I would leave, we both unsuccessfully fought back the tears of the upcoming separation, comforting each other when we needed.
We made lunch (grilled chicken enchilada pie with green enchilada sauce) together stealing kisses when ever we could, sharing the warmth and touch of each other was the only thing that made the next day's parting bearable.
We shared a wonderful dinner, drank the fresh sangria, then had Haagen Dazs for desert! Deb had the mint chocolate chip and I had the coffee, of course we shared
Sunday evening we changed plans and decided to stay home and enjoy each other, trying to comfort one another the rest of the night, we did not get much sleep that night, waking up numerous times.
As well as the weekend went, having such a wonderful magical time, Monday was so hard the tears flowed and we tried to comfort each other...
After a few days, I made reservations for a return flight at the end of August,
I trully love Debra Anne Johnson and I can't wait to spend the rest of our lives together.
Yes, a little bit of news left out, Debra asked me to marry her!!!!.........of course....... I said, YES
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The Best Weekend of My Life
Debra Anne Johnson August 7th, 2006 8:06 pm MDTI have just had the most magical and amazing weekend with the Love of my life.It really all started on May 1st , 2006 when Tammie asked me to be her Girl friend and of course I said yes. Since that date we have gotten so very close and so in love but we had yet to meet in person. Yes we talked daily and even in some cases all night on the phone and also watched movies together while on the phone together. Last month we had some very bad things happen in our lives which yes brought us closer and that’s when she told me she was going to come out here and so we set a date ( Aug 4th 2006 ) for us to finally meet in person. Yes I know how can 2 people actually fall in love just from talking online or on the phone. It did happen and it can happen. Well we both where scared and had our concerns on how true our feelings really were and also how serious this is actually. Well we found out it is very serious and real.On Friday August 4th 2006 I went to the Airport to pick up Tammie. I got there early and sat down at the Baggage claim area to wait for her as we discussed on the phone. I sat there for an hour or so waiting when she called and said she had landed and was coming in so I told her where I was so we would not need to look around for each other. I got up and was waiting by the Escalators when all these people where coming down and she wasn’t with them so I sat back down in the chair and waited when I noticed someone walking towards me and realized it was her so I jumped up and went to her and all we did was kiss and hug each other for a few minutes. We than sat down to wait for her Luggage and yes just hugged and kissed some more. We got her luggage and then drove back to my place and yes more hugging and kissing. Well when we got back here all we wanted to do was be together with no interruptions or having to go out with all the noise ( I had all ready had dinner cooking ). We went to the store and bought some groceries so we could cook dinner together the next night. We got back and just stayed in and watched some of the X games and talked about what we had started 4 months ago and also how serious we really were about each other. Day 2 we woke up next to each other and talked some more. We than decided to go for a drive around Austin so she can see some of the sites which I still don’t know much about since I just moved here. We stopped at a Jack in the box for lunch since she has never been to one before and sat down inside and talked some more about us and what we will do tonight. We decided on going to a club called Bout time. So we got ourselves ready and drove over to the club and arrived around 9 pm. We shot pool and talked and met some very nice people there but while we were there we got so much closer and for me I was so very proud to be there with her as her Girl friend I mean we hugged and kissed there as well. Well we closed the place down and then went to get something to eat since it was very late and we were both kind of hungry so we ended up at an IHOP and sat down and of course talked more. Tammie drove us home and I sat there right next to her talking and kissing her. We got home about 3 am and went to bed where we didn’t go to sleep until around 6 am. Ok this is where the most amazing things happened, we talked about how everything in the past few hours and the day before felt so perfect and so true we both just gave each other everything we have to give, I mean I have never in my life ever wanted to give someone my complete self I mean all of me and I did as did she. This night we not only became more in love but now we are engaged. I am not kidding to any of you this is so real. Day 3 We woke up in each others arms again and just totally wanted to just sit in and be together. We did say we were going to go shopping and get some pictures of us but we just stayed in and wanted to not let any of our time be wasted. We watched yes more of the X games and just held each other and also watched the rain come down. We talked about how everything has totally changed in our relationship from where it was just a few days ago and how much we want this.I hope I am not making to many of you just sick and going yea right this don’t happen in real life but guess what it did and it is so very real. Hey I also had those same thoughts that nothing like this really happens, well boy was I so wrong.Well I hope I didn’t bore a lot of you with this. I know that the ones who know Tammie and me would want to know about it. Well here it is in a short story without all of the Details.Hugssss to everyone………Tammie I Love youDebbi[Comment on this post]
The most amazing Woman.
Debra Anne Johnson July 23rd, 2006 11:03 am MDT Well hi there everyone,I had the most wonderfull evening last night with the Love of my life (even though we were still apart but on the Phone). Tammie was planning on going out to meet up with some friends but first she asked me if she could go and of course I said yes,but then she was having trouble making up her mind to go for some reason. Together we came up with a plan to stay home and watch a movie together. So we came up with a movie to watch together (remember she is in another state) and talk. Well here is the cool part we did this while on the phone and talked,laughed and cried together. Last night in my opinion has brought us even closer together and more in love with each other. So to go on we are now so much more closer and just wanting to be with each other that if there is any I mean anyone having issues with a long distance relationship we both highly recomend at least trying this if you have unlimited mins. our free Long distance cause it really does help.As some of you know there has been some major Termoil that has happened for us and this did help. I am letting everyone in here know how Happy and in Love I am with her and how serious I am about our Relationship. Also I want to Thank everyone for there kindness,Love and support for her and I in this past week with all that has happend.Hugsss to all .Debbi(ps I Love you Tammielynn )[1 comment]
Do Not Read Unless You Have a Strong Stomach/A Night Home Alone with Deb
Tammie Lynn Huber July 23rd, 2006 4:27 am MDTDeb and I have grown so close together in these last couple of weeks. We are separated by exactly 1183 miles, 22hours 45 minutes according to Google.
But last night after thinking about going out to Talbot St with the Altgurls or a local club with some girls from Crossport, our local support group, which I NEVER miss a chance to go out!
After much deliberation, I sat down at my makeup mirror, put my contacts in as I was talking to Deb on the phone, then I hung my head down and I thought, I do not want to go out, I want to spend my evening with "My Love"! So we talked and decided to curl up on our beds, turn our televisions on and watch a movie together as we were connected by phone, we each made popcorn, and just so happened we had the same brand, to me that added to the ambiance.
So we lay there on our beds, sharing our laughs, thoughts and tears, feeling the warmth in our voices, watching the movie "Hitch", what an amazing experience. I am not sure if anyone else has done this or not, surely we did not invent this way of bonding and touch. I have never felt this close to anyone except my best friend who passed away 14 years ago. Debra is now my best friend, my lover and the person that makes my life complete.
But if you have not and you are in a long distance relationship and you have free minutes, we highly recommend it. We had such a beautiful time together hoping that nights like this will be enough until we meet in person on August 4th.
I love Debra Anne Johnson with all my being and I cannot wait to spend the rest of our lives together, we have already survived some soul searching and one nightmare and both have brought us closer together.
I would not trade last night's experience for anything in the world and I am sorry if it is to sappy for the weak of heart, but what a great evening!
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Tammie Lynn Huber June 23rd, 2006 3:43 pm MDTAfter 48 years of living as a male, I finally start my journey to be who I was meant to be, a female. Second trip back to my endocrinologist and I have my first shot of Depro and I know most girls do not like the idea of this but my first Primarin dose, 3mg.
I can't believe the joy I feel and the calmness, everything just feels right. Although I know it will be a long rough road, but at least I will have something to blame it all on :)
Wow, about a year ago I stepped out of the house for the first time as Tammie, and I have met so many friends, in person and online...also found love! Hugs Deb!
So in less than a year I have come out of my shell and realized a lifetime dream!
Thank you to everyone who has offered advice and support, without which I would not be at this moment or worse. I hope I can meet all of you someday!
Warm Hugs to All
Love
Tammie
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Triangles party
Carmen Keys June 14th, 2006 2:59 pm MDTLet me say first of all ty to all who welcomed me to your party , i was very touched in my heart , but did not show too much of that . I would hv broke down in tears if i had showed how moved i was . I had such a wonderful time ..in the short time i was there. I got to meet some awsome people, My Thanks go out to Tiff, for all she does, Tiff ur tops honey!!! I would like to thank the staff at Triangles for having such a wonderful place for us girls to go too and all they do... hugssss you too are awsome group of people. My thanks to CC and Rene for all you done hugsssssss and kisses you will hold a special place in my heart . Thanks to all the girls who made it to the party for without you there would be no party. Jenny many thanks to you big sis words cannot express how dear you are to me ...kisses . Jadey my dear and lovely one giggles you are great honey ..was so glad to finially meet you ! Brit i have waited for so long to see you and now i can say without a doubt you are just as adoreable in person..xoxoxoxox K8tie omg what can i say...giggles you are so beautiful i felt like the wicked witch of the west standing next to you and looked like it too!!! hugsssss. Omg i just cant remember all that i had met i am so sorry if i didnt put your name here, but i have memories of all the girls that i seen and talked to hugsssssss you all are the best.... xoxoxoxoxo love Carmen[3 comments]