8pm - Midnight (yes, YOU CAN get there earlier....plus after - parties....) FemmeFever HOLIDAY PARTY (read below)Welcomes YOU! The ONLY TG party closed to the public & Open Exclusively for all CD's, TG's, TS's, Friends of the TG Community, Significant Others & Approved Admirers (email me). NOT open to the general public - very DISCREET and safe ..and.. SO MUCH FUN!! In addition to Great People, DJ, Hot Food , Dancing, Contests/Prizes, Karaoke, New DJ, New Very Private, Very Friendly , lovely location, Always a GREAT turnout, Full Bar Service w Drink Specials for the Night! Pre-party reduced professional makeovers at the nearby hotel room. Party drab/dressed or share a get ready or stay over room at the nearby motel (email me for info on that OR post a message to share at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/femmefever ).
Holiday Party: Please wear something Green, Red, Blue or White! Optional but appreciated! Also optional but VERY appreciated: Bring an UNWRAPPED TOY which I will be collecting and donating to John Theissen Children's Foundation (Help Sick And Underprivileged Children; http://www.jtcf.org/).
PARTY @ Kelli's Bar (alternative Lifestyle Bar) : 2955 Merrick Road - Bellmore, NY 11554. (516-765-3892) See http://www.kellisbar.net/ for directions! Private parking lot in FRONT and Plenty of Street Parking. Kelli’s
is the ONLY place open at that hour– so very discreet! Park any side street or ON Sunrise Hwy. DO NOT PARK in Lot on SIDE OF BAR (obey parking signs!) (For more Party Information or to RSVP: EMAIL Karen@femmefever.com or Call: 516-520-0380. Join Us; We always have a GREAT time! $20 At The Door. SEE WHO We Are at www.FemmeFever .com
RSVP is not required to show up but PLEASE RSVP if you can attend, it helps to know how much food to get!!!!!
Share a room, Book a room or stay over nearby?
2 hotels are expecting us: Closest and least expensive (where I will be doing makeup - yes you can change in my room) Gateway Inn www.gatewayinnlongisland.com (1780 Sunrise Hwy, Merrick, NY 11566) 516-378-7100 $99 per room or $89 per room with AARP or AAA). You can ask the desk what room Karen FemmeFever is in - they have my permission to tell you.
Or use Best Western Bar Harbour Inn (5080 Sunrise HighwaySunrise Hwy, Massapequa Park 516 541-2000 $112 IF YOU MENTION you are there every month and or less with AARP or AAA. Let them know if you prefer a "drive up to" room rather than a lobby room...
Professional MakeUp Applications $50 by Karen FemmeFever BY Appointment being done at Gateway Inn Hotel. Contact me to book one! Or, ask them for my room (Karen FemmeFever)
The Civilians, a troupe of theatrical performers based out of the New York City area (seehttp://www.thecivilians.org/) descended upon Colorado Springs in early 2007 to eventually create a workshop production play written and directed by Steven Cosson called"Save This City" - which was later refined into a compelling work entitled"This Beautiful City". Its focus was to portray the odd intersection of culture and beliefs which mix and often collide in what some have touted as being the virtual Mecca of Conservative Evangelical Christendom in America.
Several running stories form the piers of the dramatic bridge which carries the main theme of this docu-play right into the hearts of those who watch it; the most notable of which is the fallout from the lurid drug and gay sex scandal of Rev. Ted Haggard - the former pastor of the huge, mega-sized New Life Church of Colorado Springs (who incidentally has returned to town and on Thursday, Nov. 12th held his first local religious gathering at his home since his precipitous fall from grace, per this news story in The Gazette:http://www.gazette.com/articles/haggard-67094-set-life.html).
But one of the other personal stories portrayed in"This Beautiful City" is the short version of my life, as it pertains to coming "out" as a Trans-woman in this kind of town... And anyone who knows me will know of a certainty that what I say here is the plain truth. That monologue and associated song (created from my own words) was presented as an excerpt in this year's"The Arts at Dartmouth" College Event.
You will see a 10 minute segment where actress Emily Ackerman portrays a remarkably accurate incarnation of me. In fact, the first time I saw her performing as "Nancy-Jo", I thought I was in The Twilight Zone!
NEWS FLASH! The Civilians are set to return to Colorado Springs to perform the more refined and polished-up edition of "This Beautiful City" on December 4, 5, & 6. A promotional ad regarding that fact follows this message.
Been battling what has been a nasty cold (I hope) I've had for a few days now; my mom had had the flu and between doing for her I hope I didn't catch that. This has been a mostly lotta snuffling, sneezing, coughing, drippy nose kinda deal. Annoying, and certainly not attractive, but hopefully nothing more. What sucks is that I almost never get sick; this is the first anything I've had in I can't even remember how long, a few years at least (all my good, clean living... shure, Kel.) Missed a few runs and workouts, too :( The weather here has been really up-and-down the last several days, from blustery and cold a few days ago to sunny, mild almost 70 degrees yesterday and today ("You know, this is the cold and flu season!") I did get a nice offer of some TLC :) Feelin' a lil better; hoping one more early night will knock it out.
The change of weather also had/has me going thru my wardrobe a lil bit, putting away what won't be- too- practical for the next several months and pulling out what is. It's also put me in a serious shopping frame of mind again- I have a few items on my radar screen...
But I hope I can afford 'em- a good week ATS on the collegiate side was all-but wiped out by my worst week of the season on the professional side. My own fault; for the last two weeks I really haven't had as much time to do my homework as I usually do, I should have pulled back the throttle a bit. For any other degenerates reading this: college wins Va. Tech -11.5, Northwestern +17.5, Pitt -21, Miami -12.5 (went heavier on that one!), Clemson -8; losses Michigan -3.5, Penn St. -3.5. Pro wins Seattle -10, Tennessee +4; losses Jax -6.5, Baltimore -2.5, Indy -9, NE -10 (missed the push by a 1/2 pt) Green Bay -10, NYG -3 (fell in the last minute), Phila -2.5. Ugh. Still well up for the season, tho'...
But things are, on balance, going pretty well for this gal of late... but no one needs to know right now ;)
10 on shuffle... Wear Your Love Like Heaven, Donovan Unchained, Van Halen Sleep Warm, Stacey Kent Surf Boogie, Aqua Velvets Ordinary Average Guy, Joe Walsh Colorado Girl, Steve Earle Tusk, Fleetwood Mac Red Blooded Woman, Kylie Minogue Born On The Bayou, CCR Wild Rover, Dropkick Murphys
"And it's no, nay, never/No nay never no more/Will I play the wild rover/No never, no more..."
I have an all day meeting that let's out at 4PM and then I have a little time to be Jayne.
Anybody wanna play dress up or undress? I love being a woman and was over at a ggg friends house this weekend and she caught me smeling her used panties. She make me lick and suck her until she had cum three times and needed to rest. Then she had her boy friend stop by and had me suck him dry and then make him hard again and the he used my rear entry. That was my Saturday. I am looking for fun on Tuesday, but i can't spend the night as i need to be back home for an early meeting on Wednesday morning.
Anybody available Tuesday, November 10th late afternoon?
FemmeFever Parties RESUME - New Location, Lower Cover Charge, New DJ - Guaranteed Discretion and FUN! Always PRIVATE TOTALLY SECURE; ALWAYS A GREAT ATTENDANCE!
11/11
8pm - Midnight (plus after - parties....) FemmeFever Welcomes YOU! The ONLY TG party closed to the public & Open Exclusively for all CD's, TG's, TS's, Friends of the TG Community, Significant Others & Approved Admirers (email me). NOT open to the general public - very DISCREET and safe ..and.. SO MUCH FUN!! In addition to Great People, DJ, Hot Food , Dancing, Contests/Prizes, Karaoke, New DJ, New Very Private, Very Friendly , lovely location, Always a GREAT turnout, Full Bar Service! Pre-party reduced professional makeovers at the nearby hotel room. Come drab/dressed or share a get ready or stay over room at the nearby motel (email me for info on that). @ Kelli's Bar (alternative Lifestyle Bar) : 2955 Merrick Road - Bellmore, NY 11554. (516-765-3892) See http://www.kellisbar.net/ for directions! Private parking lot in FRONT and SIDE OF BAR (BEFORE BAR) (go For more Party Information or to RSVP: EMAIL Karen@femmefever.com or Call: 516-520-0380. Join us, we always have a great time! $20 at the door. SEE us at www.FemmeFever .com PICTURES
RSVP is not required to show up but PLEASE RSVP if you can attend, it helps to know how much food to get!!!!!
Share a room, Book a room or stay over nearby?
2 hotels are expecting us: Closest and least expensive (where I will be doing makeup - yes you can change in my room) Gateway Inn (Sunrise Hwy, Merrick 516-378-7100 $99 or less with AARP or AAA). Or use Best Western Bar Harbour Inn (Sunrise Hwy, Massapequa 516 541-2000 $112 IF YOU MENTION you are there every month and or less with AARP or AAA.
FemmeFever Parties RESUME - New Location, Lower Cover Charge, New DJ - Guaranteed Discretion and FUN! Always PRIVATE TOTALLY SECURE; ALWAYS A GREAT ATTENDANCE!
11/11
8pm - Midnight (plus after - parties....) FemmeFever Welcomes YOU! The ONLY TG party closed to the public & Open Exclusively for all CD's, TG's, TS's, Friends of the TG Community, Significant Others & Approved Admirers (email me). NOT open to the general public - very DISCREET and safe ..and.. SO MUCH FUN!! In addition to Great People, DJ, Hot Food , Dancing, Contests/Prizes, Karaoke, New DJ, New Very Private, Very Friendly , lovely location, Always a GREAT turnout, Full Bar Service! Pre-party reduced professional makeovers at the nearby hotel room. Come drab/dressed or share a get ready or stay over room at the nearby motel (email me for info on that). @ Kelli's Bar (alternative Lifestyle Bar) : 2955 Merrick Road - Bellmore, NY 11554. (516-765-3892) See http://www.kellisbar.net/ for directions! Private parking lot in FRONT and SIDE OF BAR (BEFORE BAR) (go For more Party Information or to RSVP: EMAIL Karen@femmefever.com or Call: 516-520-0380. Join us, we always have a great time! $20 at the door. SEE us at www.FemmeFever .com PICTURES
RSVP is not required to show up but PLEASE RSVP if you can attend, it helps to know how much food to get!!!!!
Share a room, Book a room or stay over nearby?
2 hotels are expecting us: Closest and least expensive (where I will be doing makeup - yes you can change in my room) Gateway Inn (Sunrise Hwy, Merrick 516-378-7100 $99 or less with AARP or AAA). Or use Best Western Bar Harbour Inn (Sunrise Hwy, Massapequa 516 541-2000 $112 IF YOU MENTION you are there every month and or less with AARP or AAA.
If I could turn the page In time then I'd rearrange just a day or two Close my, close my, close my eyes
But I couldn't find a way So I'll settle for one day to believe in you Tell me, tell me, tell me lies
Tell me lies Tell me sweet little lies Tell me lies, tell me, tell me lies Oh, no, no you can't disguise You can't disguise, no you can't disguise Tell me lies Tell me sweet little lies
Although I'm not making plans I hope that you understand there's a reason why Close your, close your, close your eyes
No more broken hearts We're better off apart let's give it a try Tell me, tell me, tell me lies
Tell me lies Tell me sweet little lies Tell me lies, tell me, tell me lies Oh, no, no you can't disguise You can't disguise, no you can't disguise Tell me lies Tell me sweet little lies
If I could turn the page In time then I'd rearrange just a day or two Close my, close my, close my eyes
But I couldn't find a way So I'll settle for one day to believe in you Tell me, tell me, tell me lies
Hoping everyone had a fun and enjoyable Halloween (I worked, ugh... or should I say boo?)
Slowly catching up on calls, email, messages, etc... still have a ways to go. Just been a superbusy week for me, time has been at an absolute premium... I saw these when I was at CVS earlier today; Christmas is coming! (Yes, I'm a geek... but they're less risque than this!)
Speaking of football, a decent week ATS; not my best, but a winning week, and I'll take it, given that I didn't have as much time to spend on it as I usually do. College picks: winners Cincinnati -15, BC -4, Wisconsin -6.5, Ga. Tech -11.5, Penn St. -13.5 (I went heavier on Wisconsin and Ga. Tech, yay!) losers West Va. -3, Miami -7, Michigan -7, Michigan St. -3.5. Pro picks: winners Chicago -13, Houston -3, Tenn -3, Oakland +17.5, Minnesota +3; losers Indy -11.5, NYJ -3. Still mulling if I want to get down on the NO-Atlanta game tomorrow night...
Some more news you can lose... Right-wing women rock: Come for the culture war ... stay for the chicks! Works for me! (Easy lefties, it's just satire... :)
And not necessarily news but an item I found thoughtful: What Works: BaggageLetting go of our burdens
I'm looking at a lil down time later this week... for some reason this one has been rattlin' 'round in my head a lil bit... No One Needs To Know, Shania Twain Am I dreamin' or stupid? I think I've been hit by Cupid But no one needs to know right now
I met a tall, dark and handsome man And I've been busy makin' big plans But no one needs to know right now
I got my heart set, my feet wet And he don't even know it yet But no one needs to know right now
I'll tell him someday some way somehow But I'm gonna keep it a secret for now
I want bells to ring, a choir to sing The white dress the guests the cake the car the whold darn thing But no one needs to know right now
I'll tell him someday some way somehow But I'm gonna keep it a secret for now
We'll have a little girl a little boy A little Benji we call Leroy But no one needs to know right now
And I'm not lonely anymore at night And he don't know only only he can make it right
I'm not dreamin' or stupid But boy have I been hit by Cupid But no one needs to know right now
Dateline Monday ( I think…lol) Report to the Surgeon General from the bat cave…;p :
WOO F***ing HOO!
Your Foo fighter (against the seriously mundane) is spent…and my legs actually feel weak today…lol
I seriously doubt that my fellow bat girl, (and team leader of the day (the inimitable Miss Crystal Frost) went to work…If she did, I’m pretty certain that the phone is in “we’ll get back to ya” mode…lol
What a truly heroic VIKING tale yesterday was, and you couldn’t have asked for a more beautiful day to be at your finest, looking like a movie star & REPRESENT! …to the general inmate population out there!
Let’s just say that the TWO of us were on a “take no prisoners” ransack of the Left Village…HA!
Here’s what you missed (you can kick yourselves later for being dumb ass lazy!...;p)
It was a beautiful start to the race with Crystal & her assembled entourage of contestants lounging on the red carpet outside of the Cowgirl Hall Of Fame…looking like the cast of Sex In the City being regaled by the Press Gang & paparazzi crushed behind the velvet ropes…;))… ;D The sky was bright & clear, and the sun shone brightly… this was brunch with the ladies who meal, and it’s one of the last days of Indian Summer in NYC…just perfect!
I made my way across the street as the crowd parted like the red sea to join the cast of what would prove to be a production of epic proportions…lol
After an appropriate amount of time for the staff to prepare a central feasting table for us inside the totally cute Cowgirl themed jalapeneo popper…lol we were regaled with a superfine protein & carb fuel up while being treated like stars with super sized smiles & service, with seemingly every satellite table giggling at the comedy coming from our banter… ;D
The Bloody Mary's were en eye opener, or closer, depending on your resistance to hot stuff...lol
The Echidna was seriously bruised…lol
…then…. With all jets a go we launched headfirst into the sun, heading due north. A pedal cabbie was seriously smitten & offered us a free ride wherever we wanted to go…which we declined, as a spectacle such as ours needed be circumcised with much more pomp & circumstance…lol (although I was seriously considering the ramifications of what would come of a modern Judah Ben Hur chariot ride through the streets of the Old West…lol ART! is what we are, and such Dandy Warhol’s need to be seen up close to be truly appreciated for our individuality & quality of execution…lol…best appreciated by the serious connoisseur, culture jammers or blatantly inappropriate lesbians…lol The pedal pusher gave us cards though with his cell number saying “anytime, anyplace”…lolol hmm…;p
Our first stop would be Planet Cubbyhole, for a circle jerk under the twinkling mélange of holidaze rotating overhead, taking in the heady vapors of females in heat…lol and being offered complimentary clam chowder…(how appropriate!)…lol The Cubby’s apparently are wanting to give us brunch-ability with them soon too! Excellent!
Next, it was back out for a stroll through the cobblestone streets heading due East to Johnny’s, where the totally friendly low key atmosphere found us in rare form…I haven’t laughed so hard in ages…did I mention the pie? There was pie…lol it came along with us for the laughs somewhere along the way…in a box. There were cruel jokes, but no one got hurt…lol Tess, resplendent behind the bar was beautiful, and her top was quite revealing. It was a cool night and the door was open…lol…I think it moved…;p Crystal’s friend Melissa was really sweet. I explored the inside of her oral cavity looking for answers, but only found more questions the deeper I probed…lolol
We picked up a hitchhiker who didn’t care for darts, golf or curling, I was to find out…lol He was called Robert, and Crystal & I decided he must have been Chinese, as he ping-ponged with serpentarian aplomb between us…lol men are such dogs, you know, not being able to decide which shit smells better, but wanting to take it all in the ass run…lol
THEN!...(got your score cards out?) we continued the flight out of Egypt with the rainbow warrior in tow & headed East & took a hard right straight into Babylon…lol Making the scene at Boots & Saddles was easy, where the serious grinding of the evening now started, as we danced around a plethora of urgently pressing issues…lol, got our freak on…and with a toss of our curls, schwing! we left…always leave ‘em begging for more I say, right…lol Now it was time to cross the street, past the crowd singing show tunes at street level & down into the bowels of the Monster, for some over exposure under the disco ball’s shimmer & the call of the dance floor. ;D Crystal shook it like a white girl, Trish fell hard for a Latino pixie with a 6 pack, and I went into a tail spin with a hungry wolf…lol We were all having lots of fun, when Trish asked me to sing her a song of desire. I decided that she would be able to hear it much more clearly if I sang it directly into her mouth…lol This particular song is tricky… I make it up on the fly of course, but it wound up having several verses, a repeated chorus…and an encore…lol
At this point we lost the hitchhiker, who, had become like peau de soie,… a medium to heavy, drapeable fabric with a soft satin weave and dull finish….lol
There had been, by this point a serious amount of mead drained out of various tanks, and into ours…lol, and we decided to come up for air…and away we went….
…straight back again into the deep house 4/4 at Greenhouse….I love that space, the raw tune-age is fine, the crowd is terribly sexy, and the toilets come with breath mints…lolol We slid across the waxed dance floor under a canopy of foliage back lit & throbbing with a seemingly full room spectrum of wall to wall sound...it comes from everywhere, but you can’t see how…very cool, kinda like being inside a fuzzy navel or ear canal…radical & tubular!…;)) we danced till breathless, and I got mad props for knowing HOW to move my junk flash dance style in 4+ inch heels…Get your bad self down beatch! lol I wanted the Redheaded Emma Peel Doll in a skin tight black body stocking & boots…yummy… ;)) but she kept disappearing … was it live or was it girls on film?… must have been Memorex, but I can never really be sure…lol
Trish is a real trooper, she’s only just above the level of my business, which means it was easy for her to play with my garters…I told her the pleasure was all mine, but I’m not so sure about that…lolol By now I have no fricking clue what time it was, I think it had been called on account of hedonism… too much fun is just enough ya know…;)) The upstairs was in overdrive, and I had serious fear for the safety of my toes, as the room was like a beehive with a fire lit from below… so we decided to fly before getting our wings clipped. ;D
To the surprise of both Crystal & myself, Trish then jumped into a cab with three beautiful strangers, and headed to Amanda Lepore’s party at the Hiro Ballroom. Crystal assured me that she’d be fine as she always lands on her feet. I was a bit concerned as the poor kitten’s frame seemed seriously bent by now…lol She called us later and I THINK anyway, was back in the game & on the prowl in another part of the jungle…lol
We weren’t done yet, as it turned out…ummm…did I mention the word VIKING…lol Now we were headed back north, passing Caliente Cab Company. Crystal suggested that we should get a dozen girls with temporary water weight gain to go in there & flash mob the bathroom…lol I said I’ll drink to that!...lol (if you don’t get it, do some homework…lol)
Flying a bit farther a field found your trusty heroine’s on a strafing run through Duplex & Stonewall when it occurred to us that the Pie had been having such a good time singing “ I will Survive” at Boots & Saddles, that it had fallen behind with the swaggering Cocks & Hens (and Chickens…lol). SO, we decided to go rescue it, as Pies aren’t especially known for carrying loose cab fare…lol Upon entering, the Pie, which by now had done a costume change and had come fully out of it’s shell joined us for a short rendition of Naughty Marietta, and with a stage left, and a deliberately liberal sprinkling of air kisses, we shuffled off into the gaping mouth of the night, giggling like schoolgirls…lol
Where to go where to go!...NEXT!
The not so obvious choice to me anyway, was the Hanger. Along the way I noted that practically every shop had in some form included the execution of tattoos in their business model… tattoos & heavy lifting, tattoos & French Polishing, tattoos & antique sushi bowling, tattoos & sea foam bubble tea for you & a matching mole, half off on Tuesdays! Tattoos AND body art…I suppose that’s like the Big Mac…. Double your signage & brand recognition with excessive fat…lol…comes with a fork with seating for 6 at the table of the elements, with no reservations required!…lol I thought we should get matching Gummi’s glued screwed or tattooed where the sun don’t shine…lol… so much virgin canvas & so little time! Tsk!...lol The Hanger was really loud, with big muscular tribal beats that make you want to throttle your knuffle bunny’s best assets or at least, the most open targets…lol…Let’s just say it was DEFINITELY NOT ladies nite…lol but who cares, we were out to shake things up & get our goddess worship on anyway…lol I’m ready for my scene now Mr. DeMille…lol Crystal knew a guy in there who begged for us to stay, meanwhile, she gave me a look that said “hockey puck”…lol later explaining that this one follows her around like a puppy…lol I didn’t think a jury could possibly convict…lol Crystal’s certainly got that Big Fish Story appeal…lol I did mention dogs earlier didn’t I?...lol Well, enough of the Locker Room so she, me, and the Pie Rushed out the door flaming…lol Paris isn’t the only thing burning…lol We left burnout patches in the street as we careened a hard right down Bedford…lol
Which way did they go which way did they go! Run rabbit’s run!
Well, I have been trying for months to find out what’s going on with Chumley’s, as the phone’s ringing, but no one’s home…Chumley’s is the Doyenne of NYC Speakeasy’s, having successfully been playing Hide & Seek now for almost a century. It’s like a pair of favorite slippers. The Restaurant at the End of the Universe…;D If you don’t know where it is, you probably won’t find it, there’s no sign, no lamp post & the door is forgettable…lol Once inside the door, you are transported into what is most certainly a Dickensian Era British pub. The dark wooded walls are covered with the manuscripts of Lost generation & Beat Generation writers & poets., men of letters, some chicks too…lol …people like EE Cummings , William Faulkner, John Steinbeck, Ring Lardner & Edna St. Vincent Millay… There is also a ghost in there as well, usually, apparently, over by the bar. The floor is covered in sawdust, and there is a huge working fireplace. There are a trio of Hounds of the Baskervilles, ancient beasts that I think came with the property…lol They usually lie in front to the fireplace like stuffed sacks of peanuts roasting slowly in the dry heat…lol The bar has hand pulled ales with curious names of Firemen who fell in the way back, dirty Vicars & other social anomalies & activists. The walls & benches are carved with the names of lovers & spirits past… There’s a juke box with a permanent collection of 78’s…songs from the distant haze, but you can’t expect to hear what you attempt to play. The ghost get’s to work, and the box has a mind on playing what you SHOULD hear…lol and it’s all good…;)) My favorite meal is a lobster tail, with corn on the cob, salad & a biscuit…all for 12 bucks! You just can’t beat that! Anyway, away we went, and looked with intent, but it’s disappeared, vanished! I could cry a river into my beer if I could just get one!...lol Things that old don’t die, or fade away. I asked a migrant beaner in the corner restaurant. He looked at me balefully, and said “It’s gone”. FAK! I’ve been going there for 30 years, and I have to hear it from someone who fell off the turnip truck yesterday morning… it’s just not fair! I’ve done a google search, and found out the truth, and there is hope alive! ;D
ANYWAY, that wasn’t gonna’ work, so us girls held hands with the Pie & skipped town, err, rather around the corner DOWN town…lol We had almost come full circle from where we started, but couldn’t see the finish line just yet…lol Henrietta Hudson’s looked promising. We were back in our element, with the girls…ok, I’m speaking for myself here…lol Our little mini marathon had at this point seen us girls in heels for at least 15 hours, and me the night before as well…I was smart enough to bring a bag big enough to keep a pair of flats in, but Crystal’s combat boots were now barking…lol and we both wanted to sit down somewhere that wasn’t all whistles & gongs…the belles in HH’s sounded like a good landing strip… and so we were let inside the halls of the sisterhood… ;D Unfortunately, there was no seating available, so now we decided to keep the marathon going…lol Crystal suggested that we entertain the sailors in the “straight” bar across the street, but warned that it could be a bad move… I looked at my shoes. I like may shoes. I looked at the Shamrocks in the window. I looked at Crystal. I looked at her throbbing boots. We had the Pie’s well being to think of, so we walked on by…lol Now, we were back at the Cowgirl where we started, but ya know, every good effort takes 110 percent, and the RL Lounge (nee Rubyfruit) was at the far end of the block…we can do this!!!...lol The RL is a place where a girl can get something good & stiff from another girl, at a fair price!...lol The upstairs has been beautifully renovated. It’s clean & cheerful with good lighting & it’s choc’ full of cute women… just my kind of place! Even the butch bunnies are hunni’s…lol There are stylish salon pedestal stools which make you just want a makeover!...lol We got comfy, and then we got engaged…lol no silly, I love Crystal, but I had my little eyes on Diana. She had a killer dancer’s bod, spike heeled boots & a wicked grin… I kept singing in my head “… but you can leave your hat on…lol” She wiggled over to us, and pulled up to the bumper… fun fun FUN! Well, let me tell you…back off she’s mine!...lol Well, maybe ours… but seeing as Crystal is waiting for Selma Hayak, I think I’ll be building a bridge between my island & her brick house starting this week! What a fine ass pect of the Midnight hour!...lol whew! We exchanged cards, and I needed to scratch an itch…it was on her, of course…lol and well, Bob’s your uncle, as the Bishop said to the Actress…lol Well, as happens when two fine T Gals walk into any room, shit happens…lol and Diana HAD to leave with her friend who pretty much dragged her down the stairs…lol Sympathy for the Devil, and all that…lol We will meet again soon , me thinx… ;D Anyway, with one girl down, and more to go, I found a comfy place at the bar next to yet another lovely La Femme Nikita… and decided to get busy…lol I can actually pin point the exact moment when the fire lit in her eyes, when I explained that my brain actually worked exactly like hers, and that I had no genuine interest in boys at all, and that I guess that would make me lesbian too! Granted, it’s possibly Vampyros Lesbos that we’re talking about here, but hey, I can’t help it, I was just born to really suck at some things in life…lolol Crystal as well was having her own petting party, and we were definitely a hit… so much so, that the girl that I was chatting with’s girlfriend dragged her off down the stairs & out as well!...lol Doh! She wanted to stay, and I could have caused the earth to move, but I thought better for her & said that she should leave with her friend… ;D Ok, time to add a bit of new lipstick before trying for the hat trick…lol SO! I va va voomed my way over to the powder room. Once inside, I marveled at the most excellent design of the large well planned space. There was a niche at the far end lit softly with ambient lighting with a vase of Bird’s Of Paradise, which perfumed the air. The walls & floor were of a hewn bluestone, giving the space the feel of a Zen Garden…The Queen Mary..(There just can’t be a John in there, was a sleek curvilinear design which would echo the anatomy of she who would be born from above…;)) The sink, with it’s pedestal of stone and ovular bowl-like stainless steel nest resting on top with a single pistil-like faucet were in harmony with the somewhat oblique trapezoidal shape of the room. It’s not a box…lol As I sat there with my panties between my ankles, the sound of my own fluidity echoed like a stream flowing through a temple in a hidden cave, somewhat like a womb, actually…. Quite reflective all this, for just taking a pee…lol I lifted myself up, and well, you know, tucked in my panties…lol then washed my hands…. Upon turning around, I saw no towels, and no basket… this, made perfect sense for such a Shinto space. The Fung Sui would be utterly ruined if you could possibly mess it up with random intrusions like misfired rimshots on the floor…lol I then spied the hand dryer, which again, made perfect sense… I glided over, ran my hands beneath it & was immediately blasted by hyper-sonics crashing off the walls, creating standing waves that made harmonic dead spots, as the super heated turbo forced air thundered out of the short, cone shaped expeller. Finally, after what seemed far too long after my hands were already dry, it stopped. I fell back, collected the pieces of my shattered psyche, adjusted my garters & combed my hair. THAT, I’m quite sure, was designed by a man…lol
There are 3 things I found interesting at the RL, besides the company, that is…
1) I decided to have a quick peek into the men’s head…lol It was nothing like the women’s, Firstly, it was about half as big…lol the walls didn’t have the same treatment as in the ladies, quite Spartan by comparison. The sink was the same, but the head was most definitely a John…and the place was brightly lit. This, I assume, was an un-verbalized sign saying look before you get your pee shooter out…lol and oh, it was a box, quite boringly predictably rectangular…
2) Of all the places that we went in that catered to the occasional sporting life, the RL was the only place that didn’t put the Tube De Boob behind or above the bar, but rather placed it in a discretionary position in the room which favored social interaction over mindless hypnosis…lol
3) Of all the bars we were in, every one which catered to the more hirsute patrons had their boxes switched on to football. The RL had on the final ALC championship baseball game. Being a Yankee town, and that night being the last crucial game of the series, combined with the fact that baseball is played as much in the head as on the field, it made again, a lot of sense…lol after all, as we know…Diamonds are a girls best friend…lol
By now it was really getting late, and Crystal needed to get home in time to call in sick…lol so, we gathered our things, said our goodbyes to all of the lovelies, and again, hit the pavement…. Tap tap tap, click click click…and now we’re hugging each other at 7th Avenue. I hail a cab, and she’s away to the train with the Pie, (pumpkin, that’s one well traveled vegetable!)…Goddess speed sister, I hope you got home in a jiff… ;D
SO, what can we gain from this run on stream of consciousness? Get a good night’s sleep Saturday night, empty your bank account, expect the unexpected and have a working medical plan in place …lol
My legs have felt like rubber and weak still some 24 hours later, and my ribs still hurt a little from laughing so hard… but these are pains that I’d welcome anytime… ;))
It’s that time of year again, and amateur night is just around the corner… trust me, If you talk the talk, you need to come out & walk the walk with C & B Music Factory when the risk Vs. reward factor is a toss up…lol… we make what you want to do right now…lol
Brunch with the ladies who DO lunch is now a part of the weekly social, so come out with us in NYC & have a gas yas yas… ;))
Love ya Crystal, let’s turn this pig over & roast the other side soon!
I have several calls, emails, messages, etc... to catch up on- just been flat out most of this week. Besides all of the usual my mom has come down with a touch of the flu, so between everything else and travelling to and from to see/get what she may need there time has been at an extreme premium this week. Not complainin', just explainin'...
Be patient with me- I'll catch up soon :)
"Sometimes I feel/Like I been tied to the whipping post/Good Lord, I feel like I'm dyin'..."
My newest good/bad snack: Ostrim sticks! I like the pepper ones best: 80 calories, 14g of protein, 2g of carbs. You can find 'em at your local GNC...
I found this one: HOW TO SNOOP INTO A PERSONALITY kinda interesting. I'm not sure what my "stuff" says about me- hopefully something good! I often wish I could read others' agendas, intentions, motivations, etc... better. Sometimes I don't know if I'm too jaded or too naive regarding others- I'm pretty much a WYSIWYG kinda gal...
Another good win by the Pats today, 35-7 over Tampa Bay, in London... A very good week ATS: on the collegiate side, winners Fla. St. +3, Rutgers -10, Syracuse -10, Ga. Tech -5, Penn St. -4, Pitt -6.5, Iowa +2 (hadda sweat that one out!); losers West Va. -7, Northwestern -4.5. On the professional side, winners Green Bay -7 and -9, Indy -13, San Diego -5, NYJ -6, NO -6.5; losers Chicago +1, Carolina -7, and SF on the push at +3, with NYG -7 and Phila. -7 yet to play. I had someone who was a lil surprised at the effort I put into this, as well as the fact that it's not simply a hobby but a part of my income stream- sometimes I feel like I spend time here like other spend following the stock ticker; not all that different when you think about it... College hoops will be starting up next month, too.
Whaddya gonna do...
"Well don't skip romance 'cause you're old enough to/Dance the night away..."
Well Here we are, late into 2009, its almost Halloween, planning on attending the Halloween party at Randolph Country Club, last year we only had about 35 girls there, down from 65 the previous Halloween. Hope there are more there this year. I've still been getting out to RCC and my usual group at Natick, MA, Crown Plaza Hotel Lounge. We have usually from 15 to 25 Girls there every Tuesday. I recently bough a nice new purple dress for semi formal nights out, low neckline, wore it Tuesday with a black lacey camisole showing below, black heels, it looked nice, bough both a new black camisole and also a white one recently for other outfits. Last couple weeks was out shopping a few times. Another Birthday has passed, was out with a few of the girls to at least enjoy myself, which i did. Hope to see a few of You soon. Love Lauren
From the critically acclaimed blog writer Ana Cristina Garcia and after a very long hiatus, here her new blog entry that will make you fall asleep in boredom.Here are some of the media’s reactions to this literary accident:
“Same old, same old”The Cross-dresser Times
“Not the same story again” Drag Magazine
“If I read one more story like this from her I will commit suicide”The TG Herald
But why take their word for it when you can verify yourself?Take the plunge…
An Unscheduled Visit to the Therapist
The last time I had been out to the therapist was on December of 2008 and since then I had only been out one more time, last week, with my sister-in-law.That outing was cut short and did not get to do all we had planned.Therefore, I was left a bit anxious to be out again and luckily I got to go out, on my own, just a few days later (Monday, October 19).Following are the accounts of this unexpected but satisfying time out and about as Cristy.
On Sundays temperature dropped down dramatically (for tropical standards) and I decided that if it continued on Monday I would dress and try to go out.The reason I would prefer a cold day is that I can wear clothes that cover up my legs and chest without having to shave.I had dreamed about going out in one of the warm mini-dresses that I had worn, with tights and high heels, for a photo session last January.I was undecided between the gray and the brown sweater-mini-dresses seen on the links below (from January):
My wife was out of town so I could not ask for her opinion so I emailed a couple of photos in each outfit to my sister-in-law and she recommended the brown.I was all made up and ready to put on the dress when I got her response and took her advice.I wore it exactly as I did in January except that I wore a brown top underneath to cover the white corset since the dress has a see-through knit in the middle, as you can see in the photo above.I also wore a different watch and styled my hair a bit different, without the bangs.One thing that made a big difference in my appearance was a piece of advice I got from my s-i-l regarding how to put on makeup base by pressing the sponge against the face rather than rubbing it.I totally recommend that, as the coverage is more even and the pores are less evident.I could not help to think that the first time we went out with her it was me giving makeup advice to her and now, after paying more attention to her appearance (which she says was motivated by seeing how her brother-in-law could make himself into a convincing woman).I guess that there is always something to learn, even for a veteran.
This is how I looked after returning from my long-awaited little adventure into the real world:
Notice the different hairstyle and wristwatch.Other than that it is all the same as in January.
Once all was in place I put plenty of Ralph perfume on me and I was ready to head out at around 5 p.m.My plans were to drive to the mall and wonder about for a while but then it occurred to me that I could stop by the therapist’s office and say hello to the secretary with the excuse that I had lost my cell phone and their number with it.Remember that to her, I do not live in town and come every so often to visit family and when that happens I try to schedule and appointment.
As is usually the case when I go out, I always have someone on call in case I run into trouble.That person is usually my wife but since she was out of town, I called my sister-in-law and she was up to it.
I got there and took a final check on my makeup and hair before getting off the car.Once I was ready I got off the car, walked to the doctors office and rang the bell.It was about 5:10 and I knew the doctor would be seeing his last patient of the day.To my surprise, the door was opened not by the secretary but by a female psychologist that works there too.I said hello and noticed that the secretary was on the phone as we smiled at each other.She seemed pleased to see me and after hanging the phone up we greeted with the traditional kiss on the cheek.
I sat down and she said that it had been a long time.I replied that I had lost their telephone number and therefore had not been able to set appointments on previous visits to town.She then gave me a card with the numbers and I put it in my purse as I commented that maybe I would call before I returned home (in Miami) to set an appointment.She said that the last patient of the day had canceled and that the doctor could see me right then.I replied that it would be fantastic but I did not have any cash on me to pay for the session.She said that she would go upstairs and ask the doctor if I could pay later and he said that he would see me in five minutes.As you can imagine, this is not what I had planned but I thought it would give me the chance to interact a bit more as Cristy only this time with someone who knew who I really was.The secretary offered me something to drink and I declined her offer arguing that I had just met for coffee with some girlfriends.She then asked if I had cut my hair and I replied that I had only styled it differently.As a matter of fact, since it is a wig, I guess that I have always had it the exact same length up to a micron.We chatted about this and that and then the doctor called for me so I got up and went up the stairs.He came out to greet me and said that it was a pleasant an unexpected surprise.
Conversation with the doctor was very casual an informal, this time.We talked about what I was wearing and I told him that I was a bit self-conscious given that I was wearing a mini-dress but he said that I looked very good in it and that my legs looked ok in tights and a little thin if anything.He also mentioned that the only thing that looked a bit suspicious were my hands but that for a tall woman that would border on the big side.Keep in mind that for our culture, at 5’ 6” without heels, I am a tall girl.If you add, at least 4” heels then I am much taller than the average female here and even those who are as tall or taller then I, are a lot thinner, most of the time.All in all, I am lucky to still able to pass for a taller than usual woman.
We talked about many topics including his family, specially his grandchildren.I felt right in character all the time and the only odd thing was a call that my male side had to made to the secretary to cancel the appointment “he” had for Wednesday.I could not afford two appointments so close to each other and since the issues of my male side are under control there was not much need for that.For those who are not aware from previous postings, Cristy does not go to therapy to be treated on cross-dressing or anything else.It is just a mere excuse that her male side cooked up along with the doctor so that she could have a safe environment in which to interact and where everybody else thinks of her as a genetic female (or so it seems so far after 13 visits over a 3 year period).
When discussing how would we handle payment for the session he said that my male side could bring it or that Cristy could send payment with someone else but that would be difficult.It occurred to me that if I had a chance to dress the following Thursday (my dressing window would end on Friday) Cristy would drop by to pay herself.I am hoping for this last option, as you can imagine.
Before the session came to an end, I told the doctor that I had plans to go to the mall and that I needed him to check if there was anything suspicious.Again, all of the times I have been to the mall on my own I have worn pants and not dresses and this dress was short.He did not see anything out of order, I greeted him goodbye and came down the stairs.As I came down the secretary was still there but was on the phone again.I just waved her goodbye and as she put the phone aside to say bye I told her that I might stop by on Thursday to pay for the session.There was a guy in the waiting room and I just smiled, greeted him and went out the door.
I walked to my car and started driving to the mall. I arrived at the mall at around 6:30 and it was already dark. The mall was more crowded than I expected, and I had trouble finding a parking place.I finally found one and walked towards the escalators.My first stop was at a drugstore to get me some throat pills.A guy who treated me like any other customer tended me.He always used the female form and did not give any unusual or strange looks.After paying I put the pills and change in my bag and went on my usual shoe store “pilgrimage”.It is amazing how once you have attained self-confidence; the stomach butterflies are a thing of the past.I do miss them but enjoy my outings more now that it is second nature.
I went in almost all the shoe stores in the mall and in all of them interacted with the clerks, who were usually female.Again, there were no signs of anyone noticing I was not a woman.Even though it was cold outside it was warm inside the mall and I got thirsty.I walked to the food court to get me something to drink at a Burger King.This time it was a man who tended me and all went smoothly.While I was at the cashier a lady stood next to me and we smiled at each other.She then said “Wow, you really look elegant”I thanked her and told her that I had dressed like that because it was cold but it was too hot inside and that why I was getting something to drink.Once I got my soda I said goodbye to the lady and looked for a table to sit.I sat for about 5 minutes while I finished my soda and then got up, dropped the cup in the trash and walked towards the lady’s room.
When I got in the lady’s room there were two other women grooming themselves up.I stood next to the long mirror and placed my bag on the vanity top to get my makeup out.You have no idea how I felt when I saw my reflection and I was these two other ladies and I was one of them.I was just another girl touching her makeup up before heading back home.The reflection in the mirror was that of a confident woman and one that was at ease with her appearance.I thought to myself, I look every bit as feminine as any of those other ladies.I touched up my lips, as I did not need powder or eyeliner and headed out feeling more confident and womanly than never before.
Before leaving I went to a couple more shoe stores and then went to a kiosk to pay for parking.Again I was kindly tended by a guy and walked to my car.I then drove back home with my confidence all charged up.I so needed this because it had been too long since I had been out in the wild at my own pace.One more confidence booster was that I was wearing more flashy clothes and even then I did not receive any suspicious looks from anyone that I noticed.
Being out in the real world is the ultimate experience for a cross-dresser and once you taste the sweet nectar you just can’t live without it.Dressing for staying in the confines of four walls is no longer as thrilling as it used to be.I’d rather wait for a long period to dress and go out than dress often and remain caged.
I am really looking forward to this Thursday and the idea of going to the therapist office to pay for my session last Monday.If you were able to get this far, I commend you for your perseverance and promise not to torture you with something like this again :-)
Coming soon to a theater near you: The Boondock Saints II- All Saints Day The Boondock Saints II: All Saints Day is the much-anticipated sequel to the indie cult classic, The Boondock Saints. The film is the continuation of writer/director Troy Duffy’s tough, stylized cutting edge saga of the MacManus brothers (Norman Reedus, Sean Patrick Flanery). The two have been in deep hiding with their father, Il Duce (Billy Connolly), in the quiet valleys of Ireland, far removed from their former vigilante lives. When word comes that a beloved priest has been killed by sinister forces from deep within the mob, the brothers return to Boston to mount a violent and bloody crusade to bring justice to those responsible. With a new partner in crime (Clifton Collins Jr., Star Trek) and a sexy FBI operative (Julie Benz, TV's “Dexter”) hot on their trail…the Saints are back! Scheduled to open October 30...
Killer plucks at judge’s heartstrings Still roots for taxpayer-funded hair removal How can we miss you if you won't go away? I've opined on that individual before. While I realize it may get me kicked out of the Sisterhood I have no sympathy for that individual, for that person's plight. Kosilek states the “painful truth . . . that I am essentially alone when those in control decide that money or political expedience are more important than my suffering.” No, you are "essentially alone" and not in control and are "suffering" because you committed murder, you strangled your wife. There are many transgender women (not to mention GGs) in Massachusetts who might like hair removal on the commonwealth's dime who haven't committed murder, yet that clown has the nerve to demand the taxpayers pony up for theirs?! (And it's also worth asking just who is footing the bill for Kosiliek's hormone therapy? I know I pay for my own... ah, our tax dollars at work.) Folks such as Kosilek- and her supporters- do transgender individuals no favors; they create the fodder others use to scorn us. Hopefully Judge Mark L. Wolf will deny this motion as he did Kosilek's previous one...
New medical marijuana policy issued The Obama administration will not seek to arrest medical marijuana users and suppliers as long as they conform to state laws, under new policy guidelines to be sent to federal prosecutors Monday. A small step- but a step nevertheless- forward in creating some sanity in our drug laws. I've stated before; while I'm not a recreational illicit drug user- my substance of choice comes in a bottle; smoking, snorting, or shooting aren't my things- government has no right to proscribe which substances adults may choose to ingest, whether medicinally or recreationally. (Of course, concomitant with that, individuals who run into trouble as a result of the substances they choose to ingest have no right to expect that their fellow citizens, via government, must care for them due to their choice. With rights come responsibilites.) But on this one- being the fair and balanced kinda gal that I am!- an 'attaboy to the Obama Administration.
Govt.-Run Health Care Isn't the Answer Sen. Tom Coburn, M.D., and GOProud's Christopher R. Barron say that the inefficiencies of the Ryan White CARE Act suggest that a government-run program is not the key to quality health care. Worth considering for the open-minded...
Nippy run this am- brrrrrrrr! And a good workout @ the gym a lil while ago, felt good...
This one's been rattling around in my head the last few days (wish it were Stairway To Heaven that was rattling around, but... ;) One, U2 Is it getting better, or do you feel the same? Will it make it easier on you, now you got someone to blame? You say one love, one life, when it's one need in the night. One love, we get to share it Leaves you baby if you don't care for it.
Did I disappoint you or leave a bad taste in your mouth? You act like you never had love and you want me to go without. Well, it's too late tonight to drag the past out into the light. We're one, but we're not the same. We get to carry each other, carry each other... one
Have you come here for forgiveness, Have you come to raise the dead Have you come here to play Jesus to the lepers in your head Did I ask too much, more than a lot You gave me nothing, now it's all I got. We're one, but we're not the same. Well, we hurt each other, then we do it again.
You say love is a temple, love a higher law Love is a temple, love the higher law. You ask me to enter, but then you make me crawl And I can't be holding on to what you got, when all you got is hurt.
One love, one blood, one life, you got to do what you should. One life with each other: sisters, brothers. One life, but we're not the same. We get to carry each other, carry each other. One...
This journal enty is the first since all my computer problems, and the problems URNA had with the old format for their site. It seems that everything is working as it should be.
The neighbors who moved in the apartment below mine have come and gone in the past year. They were almost as bad as the two guys living there before. I had to put up with hearing two dogs barking at everything as well as their owners yelling at them. I actually had more peace and quiet when I was at work than I did at home. I now have another set of new neighbors who moved in downstairs. These seem to be a little better than the last, so I'll wait and see if they become loud and obnoxious like the last.
My computer seems to be running as it did before. I have upgraded it's RAM memory to 2.4Gigs. I was never able to recover the pictures I lost, but luckily I have most of them posted on my websites and in my Flickr account. I have been dressing more lately and even bought some new clothes from Victoria's Secret. I also have an even bigger "E" cup version of my Cleavage Croptop. Check out my Newest Pics gallery to view pics of them. My profile pic shows my "E" cup "girls". The Yellow dress pics are of my "D" cup "girls".
I did attend my first convention in nearly 9 years back in June this year. It was wonderful seeing my friends from years past, as well as meeting new girls who have only seen me via the Net. I also was reinstated as a member of Vanity Club, and I thank all those ladies who helped me back into the group. I love you girls!
I hope the next several months ahead will be enjoyable with the holidays soon upon us. Take care and I hope to be around more often. *Hugs*
Sippin' on a Sam Adams Cream Stout (or two!) on a raw, rainy/snowy Sunday evening... and it's been cold this past week! I don't mind it in the fall, it can be kinda nice, a nip in the air (tho' not the rain- yuck.) It's January... and February... and March... and on into April and it's still cold and raw here that sucks! If someone wants to invite me for a weekend getaway to Florida this winter, I'm listening! ;)
If anyone still wants to check out my website you have maybe a week left to do so! Geocities is ending their free web site hosting later this week, meaning my site will no longer be accessible. (Yes, I'm cheap.) I never did as much with it as I would have preferred (I don't believe I've even updated it in months) time constraints- and laziness- being the primary reasons. But it was a good service they offered, for several years. I'll open a Flickr account for any and all pics, past, present, and future, and keep profiles on Yahoo, Facebook, URNA, perhaps a few others... as well as my blog (here!)
A few folks have remarked that I've been sparing in much political commentary recently. This is true, for a few reasons. As anyone who knows me (or has read this blog) knows, I didn't support nor vote for President Obama- his politics are not mine. (This was the first Presidential election that I didn't vote Republican, tho'- I voted Libertarian.) But I've been willing to give Obama time, give him some benefit of doubt, even as I've had differences with his policies and proposals already; I refuse to be like the knee-jerk (emphasis upon jerk) critics of President Bush, who seemingly criticized his every waking breath, blamed almost every ill in the world upon him, almost from the minute he won (yes, won!) the tight Florida vote to win the Presidency back in 2000. Also, while his politics are not mine, I find Obama- as I found Bush- to be a fairly likable, amiable sort. I want to support my President (and unlike the extreme anti-Bush nutjobs, I do consider Obama to be my President, even tho' I didn't vote for him) as best I can. And he did inherit some problems (as every President does.) But it is his baby now, and he will be deserving of criticism as warranted.
A truly dominating performance by my Pats in the snow of Foxboro this afternoon! (It wasn't snowing in Boston, nor @ my mom's, just a few towns away from Foxboro.) 59-0, 600+ yards of offense, obviously a shutout defensively. Nice to see- go Pats! And for any fellow degenerates out here; a so-so week ATS, been grinding out enuf to make a steady profit so far this season, continue to pay some bills, and put a small amount back in my bankroll (need a bigger win, tho'!) College plays: winners Cincinnati -2.5, Pitt -3, Miami -14, UConn -10, Northwestern +14; losers Ohio St. -13, Minnesota +17.5, Va. Tech -3. Pro plays were lackluster: winners NE -9, Carolina -3, GB -14; losers Cincinnati -4.5, NYG +3.5, Seattle -2.5... I hope yours went well!
Sometimes I fear people take what I say too seriously. There are many things in this world that I do take seriously but I'm seldom one of them.
I hadn't done any creative writing in a l-o-n-g time but I've recently started working on a short story, a semi-noirish thriller; still have a ways to go before I'll feel comfortable sharing it, but...
In a recent post I wrote: I'm usually a pretty patient, understanding, caring, and willing-to-give-benefit-of-doubt kinda gal; I just hope that no one confuses my kindness with weakness... A sentiment that bears repeating.
"I used her, she used me/But neither one cared/We were gettin' our share..."
Baby, why am I worried now, Did someone make a fool of me 'Fore I could show 'em how it's done?
Can't give up actin' tough, It's all that I'm made of. Can't scrape together quite enough To ride the bus to the outskirts Of the fact that I need love.
There were times that I tried, One for every glass of water That I spilled next to the bed, Wretching pennies in a boiling well In a dream that it once becomes A foundry of mute and heavy bells. They shake me deaf and dumb Say, "Someone made a fool of me 'Fore I could show 'em how it's done."
It was so clear to me That it was almost invisible. I lie across the path waiting, Just for a chance to be a spiderweb Trapped in your lashes. For that, I would trade you my empire for ashes. But I choke it back, how much I need love...
Don't need a whore I don't need no booze Don't need a virgin priest But I need someone I can cry to I need someone to protect... Waiting On A Friend- Rolling Stones
Most everyone wants some luvin', some romance, in their lives- it can be great! But it's even better when it can be something more, something deeper, when there's some shared, mutual affection, care, and respect- call it friendship!- in addition to the luvin'.
That's it on a rainy Wednesday morning (soggy run, too!)
"I'm not waiting on a lady/I'm just waiting on a friend..."
But after the feel-good emotional wave had dissipated itself upon the shores of Practical Reality, I felt sort of miffed. I asked myself "Does anybody really know what actually helped make a thing like this happen - especially after going through what I and a few other concerned Coloradans had to go through on the grassroots level?"
The obvious answer to that one is a resounding "NO!" - especially if you’re not part of the "In Crowd" of wealthy or otherwise privileged people who (for whatever reason) have a great big media presence and therefore have become virtual household words in the greater LGBT Community. The fact that this hierarchy exists in any community often causes the valuable efforts of many "average" folks to go overlooked - which, in turn, leaves them thinking that they do not have what it takes to be real Agents of Change in society.
My goal in sharing this story is to dispel that myth, give concerned LGBT constituents hope, and let everyone know that the only way to affect truly progressive change in the political landscape of America is for them to care enough to at least hold their Representatives accountable on issues that really matter.
It All Started at a Town Hall Meeting
Colorado Springs happens to have the distinction of being the veritable Mecca of Conservative Evangelical "Christendom". At last report, there were about 100 such organizations of all sizes headquartered here, the largest of which is Focus on the Family. Because of this fact, those of us in the local LGBT Community who dare to openly defy their discriminatory, anti-LGBT Dominionist agenda tend to be few in number - and wear many hats whilst "fighting the good fight". So although I am the current Co-Chair Incumbent of the El Paso County Stonewall Democrats, I was already obligated to be away at some other LGBT-related function when LisaJo Laptad (member of the EPCSD and Precinct Chair, Colorado Springs Pct264) reminded me about a special Town Hall Meeting to be held on Saturday, July 11 at the East Library - which featured our state’s freshman senator, Michael Bennet.
This rising political star who had been appointed by Governor Ritter to fill the vacancy left when Senator Ken Salazar was elevated to a Cabinet position in the fledgling Obama Administration, was utilizing this event to build rapport with local Democrats so that he could both do his job better and to also help bolster his campaign efforts towards solidifying his seat in the US Senate, come the next state Elections. An article about him in the Colorado Springs Independent which was entitled "Who is this guy?"- Jan 15, 2009 (see
http://www.csindy.com/colorado/who-is-this-guy/Content?oid=1146307 ) shows his photo bearing the caption "Michael Bennet says he’ll learn quickly". Gauging by the interesting sequence of events I’m about to elucidate here, that indeed turned out to be an almost prophetic understatement.
Although we knew the general populace there would be more preoccupied with going after the sizzling Healthcare Reform debate ignited by President Obama’s promises of positive change across the board; and that other initial contacts had told me this Senator was already favorable towards LGBT issues; LisaJo wanted to hear it directly from the source, when it came down to if Mr. Bennet actually was in our corner. So she went to publicly get his take on whether he’d vote to repeal both the bigoted Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA) and the heinous "Don’t Ask Don’t Tell" policy towards LGBT folks in the Military; whilst going on record to support the Matthew Shepard Hate Crimes Legislation and the Trans-Inclusive Employment Non-Discrimination Act (ENDA) of 2009. Since I serve in varying official capacities the Gender Equality Coalition, the World Gender Coalition and also network with UnitedENDA, I asked her to report her findings to me immediately after she left that Town Hall Meeting, so that I could forward that info to those who needed to be kept apprised of such matters.
According to LisaJo, it wasn’t until the very end of the gathering that she was able to get the floor long enough to pose our LGBT-related questions to Senator Bennet. She said he answered them all exactly the way we’d hoped he would - He’d vote to repeal DOMA and DADT; plus he’d cast a "Yes" vote on Hate Crimes and ENDA. I was understandably pleased with that news. So I gladly sent that data upline as soon as I returned home - and then spent the rest of that evening in Manitou Springs at the 30th Anniversary Celebration Banquet of the LGBT-affirming Pikes Peak Metropolitan Community Church of Colorado Springs.
An Unfortunate Revelation
Despite the current state of this badly wounded economy, Sunday, July 19 in Colorado Springs brought along with it one of the most successful Pridefests the local LGBT Community had ever seen. Even on the political and social fronts, hugely positive gains were made which are so numerous, they would have to be the subject of some other story. But then August came - and when the 7th of that month rolled around, I got another call from LisaJo about an online political report that instantly sent troubling feelings of possible political betrayal through both of us. The subject at hand was the Federal ENDA; and the spreadsheet which she directed me to via an online link revealed that when it came down to where the Senators in Washington DC really stood on this all-important piece of LGBT-Inclusive legislation, our very own Senator Bennet of Colorado was listed as "Undecided". From what I could tell, the tally was compiled by the Inclusive ENDA Facebook Campaign, and was based upon findings gathered from data in Washington DC and verified by reliable activist sources. At LisaJo’s suggestion, I printed out two hardcopies of what I saw there, just in case we needed to prove a point with this information later on.
Why It Mattered
Let me say at this point that some people participate in politics just because they like it; some may do it for a power trip; whilst others may actually do it for more philosophically "righteous" reasons. But when you find Transgender people involved in it, it’s mostly because it’s a matter of sheer survival for us. Because if the laws go bad (even ones that seem innocuous to the typical person), the day-to-day running of our very lives could get exceedingly far worse than any other people group could ever imagine. For example - what other law-abiding segment of society do you know of, that actually gets harassed or dictated to by policies and ordinances, regarding things as personal and essential as where they might relieve themselves whilst out in the Public Square? (In some odious cases, no tenable "Bathroom Option" have even "allowed" for Transgender people!)
It was LisaJo who had the courage around 13 years ago to establish SCIRTS (Southern Colorado Inter-Regional Transgender Society) here in Ultra-Conservative Colorado Springs; which eventually evolved into the group I now lead, called PAGE (Peak Area Gender Expressions). This is the largest and longest continuously-existing Transgender support group in all of Southern Colorado. We do what we do for our Constituents because history shows that no one else will ever look after the safety and well-being of the Transgender Community better than other Transgender people. Nothing is more fundamentally important than being assured of getting the fairest opportunity when it comes to securing suitable Employment Therefore, we felt it was our duty to assist in seeing to it that this Trans-Inclusive version of the Federal ENDA that is now before Congress gets a good shot at passing - and becoming the Law of the Land in every state across this Nation.
Having that in mind, it should be pretty obvious why both LisaJo ant I swung into action, when it appeared that Senator Bennet had told the public one thing in Colorado Springs - but did something entirely different regarding ENDA, whilst in Washington DC.
From Showing Concern to Real Shoe Leather Action
By August 13, I had received an e-mail from the Colorado Stonewall Democrats in Denver that reiterated the fact that Senator Bennet was still listed on ENDA support spreadsheets as being "Undecided"; and I was also getting calls from Transgender Activists and other out-of-state Allies asking me why I reported that both our Senators were already in our corner on this issue when that apparently was not the case. Since this discrepancy was now cutting into my personal reputation for being known as a trustworthy informational source in the Trans Community, it was definitely time to get to the bottom of this. So when LisaJo called and asked if I wanted to accompany her down to Senator Bennet’s local office here in Colorado Springs, I was more than ready to go there.
The link to the Official Invitation data LisaJo referred me to, initially gave the public erroneous address information because if you took it literally, it would have had you looking for the Senator somewhere in Acacia Park (209 N. Tejon Street) as opposed to it’s actual location two blocks to the north at 409 N. Tejon. We discovered that error on the way over, and ended up calling the staffers at the Office to redirect our course correctly. When we got there, we discovered a short line of people ahead of us, though the message we’d gotten had led us to believe this was a special appointment time just for us and the Senator’s Staff alone. Whatever the case, we waited out the situation until we got our turn to address the staff personnel on duty at the time.
The next few moments were so disappointing full of ineptitude that at one point, LisaJo actually left the room to keep from losing her composure, her temper - or both. The people we interfaced with were properly pleasant and politically correct - but they didn’t even know what ENDA was at first mentioning. After we produced papers with all the pertinent information upon them in an effort to make our point clear about the contradiction we saw in how Senator Bennet said he would deal with it; they somehow still couldn’t find the official text of the Bill, its sponsors, nor its current status on their office computer. (I thought it odd that a Senator’s staffers weren’t able to do something I routinely do online via State and Federal Congressional websites). When we asked if Senator Bennet would ever return to Colorado Springs during this Congressional Recess period, we were told "No" - because he was on an all-county tour of the State. The Senior Staff Representative then apologized for all the frustrating confusion, saw to it that our contact information was obtained - and promised to get back to us as soon as the Senator had rightly dealt with the matter. LisaJo at that point openly predicted that it would never happen, just as we were leaving; and true to her words, neither of us ever got that promised follow-up phone call.
All that experience did was strengthen our determination to find a viable fix for this unresolved issue.
Close Encounters at The Junction
On Saturday of that weekend (August 15th), President Obama was scheduled to hold a Town Hall Meeting on the subject of Healthcare Reform, out in Grand Junction, Colorado. Just plain logic and a couple of contacts I had told me that Governor Ritter and every major State politico who possibly could get there would be there, too - including Senator Bennet. Since I was already in communication with representatives of the local Change That Works Colorado group that was rounding up a bunch of pro-Obama supporters to drive up to Denver and help fill a chartered bus to Grand Junction; I now had an extra incentive to join in with them. I figured that sometime during our effort to offset the rancor of the opposition expected to show up out there, I just might also get to run into Senator Bennet - and possibly have time to voice in his presence the concerns I and LisaJo brought up about his lack of lending true support for a Federal all-inclusive ENDA at his office in Colorado Springs the other day.
Unfortunately, however, my designs on this day were at best a near miss. Our bus arrived at the Town Hall Meeting site so late that those who had official passes into the Central High School Gymnasium where it all was happening did not have time to clear Security in order to be allowed inside. The place already was totally maxed out anyway. So we all added ourselves to the huge throng of people outside which was lining both sides of the road (appropriately named "Warrior Way") that led into the Campus - for one side of the street was full of "Tea Party" Conservatives who were vehemently against President Obama; whilst our side was totally for his proposed plans for Healthcare Reform. There were a few times where the pandemonium on the Front Lines in that street almost hit a flash point that could have went violent - but then the local Sheriff’s crew moved in to separate the loud opposing factions. Not that this mattered - but from what I could tell, I was the only Transgender person out there in that near-melee of a scene.
When it appeared that things had calmed to an almost boring lull, I left the Front to see what was going on in the dusty field of a parking area farther back behind me. I then discovered that Senator Bennet was inside the very bus I had rode in on - exhorting the people who were already seated in there. He was just wrapping his speech up, when I came to the door of that vehicle (where a young girl whom I believe was his daughter was standing); and the best that I got out of him after that was just a handshake - because he and some other officials had to rush off to more rarified environs while the folks on our side of Warrior Way packed things up and called it a day. By this time, the President was already gone from the scene - and the opposition forces had all but dispersed. Therefore, I and the progressive amalgamation of people I was with also left - and ended up returning to Colorado Springs sometime way in the middle of the night.
What did I take away from all this? Although this close encounter Function at Grand Junction was historic and full of Activist "adventure"; it netted me nothing when it came to my goal of possibly getting Senator Bennet to dispel the confusion over where he was regarding ENDA by promising to go on record as being definitely in support of it in Washington DC.
Finally - The Day of Reckoning
I shared what I experienced out in Grand Junction with friends and constituents in several Internet groups and websites; then also dealt with a situation where I thought possible anti-Trans bias was at work (relative to certain other reports of the whole thing), before taking action on issues that were more close to home. But a little over one month later, I got yet another call from LisaJo where she asked me had I gotten an invitation to an up-coming event in Denver sponsored by the Human Rights Campaign (HRC) called the "No Excuses Community Meeting with Senator Michael Bennet", which was to be held on Saturday, September 19th at 3:30 pm. The short answer to her question was "No".
I had stopped getting direct e-mails from HRC back in 2007 when I halted my support for them, after they acquiesced to the heinous, "incrementalistic" sacrificial selling out of the Transgender Community through celebrating the forward progress of that version of the Federal ENDA which had been shorn of its original Trans-inclusive language. Although LisaJo’s sentiments about that divisive fiasco were the same as mine, somehow she was privy to this special HRC arranged Town Hall Meeting set for the LGBT Community to voice their concerns to Senator Bennet - and wanted to know if I’d go up to Denver with her to attend it. "Absolutely!" was my reply. Something inside told me that it was very likely that the Trans Community of Denver just might NOT show up for this all-important thing, though it was in their very own city. So we from Colorado Springs endeavored to at least try to make sure Colorado’s greater Transgender Community was rightly represented. Because this would finally prove to be the real Day of Reckoning where the Senator’s inconsistencies on the Trans-Inclusive ENDA would indeed be brought to light - and hopefully corrected.
I made sure to get LisaJo and I RSVPed in for the gathering up in Denver; and kept abreast of the situation, when the venue for it suddenly was changed from the Gill Action Building to the Park Avenue Lofts a day before it was to happen. I also printed a couple more copies of that online spreadsheet that showed where all the Senators stood in Washington DC, regarding the all-inclusive Federal Employment Non-Discrimination Act. So when that Saturday did arrive, we were ready - and all set - to go!!
We found the location of the Community Meeting after some minor detours amongst Denver’s sometimes difficult one-way Downtown streets; and got parked there 10 minutes prior to its appointed beginning. And because a certain elevator wasn’t working, a lovely onsite staffer had to lead us along a winding route that eventually had us on the top floor of that complex of expensive Lofts at 19th and Clarkson. The actual site of the event up there was the Club Room, a place that appeared to be normally devoted to the recreational interests of those who lived in that complex.
LisaJo and I met and chatted with one other Trans-woman just before the meeting commenced. Her name was Nicole - and she was from a local LGBT-affirming ELCA Lutheran church. When asked where all the other Transgender people were, she said she had just come from a function at the Gender Identity Center where a lot of girls were - but they did not seem interested, when she told them about this opportunity to meet with the Senator. I didn’t see anyone representing The Center there, either. But I could be wrong about that, because other people were still filtering in by the time Senator Bennet arrived - and things really got underway
Speaking of the Senator, he began just prior to the official part of things by shaking hands and graciously greeting those of us who were at the front of the room. Most everyone was smiling whilst this was going on - but when Mr. Bennet got to LisaJo, her serious-looking expression caused him to say out loud "You’re not smiling...", to which she simply retorted "You waffled!" - and quickly let him know what she was referring to. The Senator then just as swiftly spoke forth a promise to explain and clarify the matter during the course of the meeting. After the preliminaries and pleasantries were out of the way, other people in the assemblage brought up all the key concerns of the LGBT Community at large. Like getting rid of the "Don’t Ask Don’t Tell" policy towards LGBT folks in the Military; supporting the Matthew Shepard Hate Crimes Legislation, Not letting the Ryan White Act that helps people living with AIDS via special funding expire; supporting the Trans-Inclusive Employment Non-Discrimination Act (ENDA) of 2009; and repealing the Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA).
Before the gathering ended, Senator Bennet quickly affirmed that he would properly address and handle every LGBT issue to our liking when he returned to Washington DC and his staff were way interested in getting a copy of that ENDA tally spreadsheet I brought forth, which proved the Senator’s words in Colorado weren’t matching what he was actually doing at the Capitol. A short lady who was with the team Mr. Bennet brought promised that they’d get this discrepancy fixed - and that it will soon be seen that the Senator is indeed in support of the all-inclusive ENDA. We were finally satisfied with this response. But why Senator Bennet tried to make excuse for initially admitting that he would not vote to repeal the Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA) is another issue worthy of a totally separate blog...
In Conclusion
Although this was a very long and detailed account of just exactly what I witnessed and went through, when it came to resolving the inconsistencies and discrepancies which created static in the communication lines between Senator Michael Bennet and his LGBT Constituents in Colorado, I do not apologized for its huge size. Again - I posted this story to let others know how they might go about bringing change where apparent misunderstandings and communication glitches might be the only sticking points. I also want to make it clear that I in no way am alleging that the Senator had knowingly done anything nefarious. I am just bringing to light a process whereby common grassroots-level people can know that they hold the key, are empowered - and must hold their representatives accountable when what is said back home doesn’t match what’s actually done in Washington DC.
FemmeFever Holiday PARTY:TGals & Admirers
Karen Leigh November 15th, 2009 5:18 pm MST12/9
8pm - Midnight (yes, YOU CAN get there earlier....plus after - parties....) FemmeFever HOLIDAY PARTY (read below)Welcomes YOU! The ONLY TG party closed to the public & Open Exclusively for all CD's, TG's, TS's, Friends of the TG Community, Significant Others & Approved Admirers (email me). NOT open to the general public - very DISCREET and safe ..and.. SO MUCH FUN!! In addition to Great People, DJ, Hot Food , Dancing, Contests/Prizes, Karaoke, New DJ, New Very Private, Very Friendly , lovely location, Always a GREAT turnout, Full Bar Service w Drink Specials for the Night! Pre-party reduced professional makeovers at the nearby hotel room. Party drab/dressed or share a get ready or stay over room at the nearby motel (email me for info on that OR post a message to share at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/femmefever ).
Holiday Party: Please wear something Green, Red, Blue or White! Optional but appreciated! Also optional but VERY appreciated: Bring an UNWRAPPED TOY which I will be collecting and donating to John Theissen Children's Foundation (Help Sick And Underprivileged Children; http://www.jtcf.org/).
PARTY @ Kelli's Bar (alternative Lifestyle Bar) : 2955 Merrick Road - Bellmore, NY 11554. (516-765-3892) See http://www.kellisbar.net/ for directions! Private parking lot in FRONT and Plenty of Street Parking. Kelli’s
is the ONLY place open at that hour– so very discreet! Park any side street or ON Sunrise Hwy. DO NOT PARK in Lot on SIDE OF BAR (obey parking signs!) (For more Party Information or to RSVP: EMAIL Karen@femmefever.com or Call: 516-520-0380. Join Us; We always have a GREAT time! $20 At The Door. SEE WHO We Are at www.FemmeFever .com
RSVP is not required to show up but PLEASE RSVP if you can attend, it helps to know how much food to get!!!!!
Share a room, Book a room or stay over nearby?
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516-378-7100 $99 per room or $89 per room with AARP or AAA). You can ask the desk what room Karen FemmeFever is in - they have my permission to tell you.
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More Info: Call me 516 520 0380 or email me at Karen@FemmeFever.com
Professional MakeUp Applications $50 by Karen FemmeFever BY Appointment being done at Gateway Inn Hotel. Contact me to book one! Or, ask them for my room (Karen FemmeFever)
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I've been immortalized! (Well, sort of...)
Nancy-josephine Leah Morris November 14th, 2009 7:55 am MSTHey Girlfriends!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSdz0Z8c12Y
NEWS FLASH!
The Civilians are set to return to Colorado Springs to perform the more refined and polished-up edition of "This Beautiful City" on December 4, 5, & 6. A promotional ad regarding that fact follows this message.
Love y'all!
Nancy-Jo Morris
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Mega Beaucoup Cool
Rachelle Dineen November 10th, 2009 10:57 pm MSTLove this song by Gram Rabbit -- Land of Jail
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11.09.09
Kellie November 9th, 2009 7:01 pm MSTBeen battling what has been a nasty cold (I hope) I've had for a few days now; my mom had had the flu and between doing for her I hope I didn't catch that. This has been a mostly lotta snuffling, sneezing, coughing, drippy nose kinda deal. Annoying, and certainly not attractive, but hopefully nothing more. What sucks is that I almost never get sick; this is the first anything I've had in I can't even remember how long, a few years at least (all my good, clean living... shure, Kel.) Missed a few runs and workouts, too :( The weather here has been really up-and-down the last several days, from blustery and cold a few days ago to sunny, mild almost 70 degrees yesterday and today ("You know, this is the cold and flu season!") I did get a nice offer of some TLC :) Feelin' a lil better; hoping one more early night will knock it out.
The change of weather also had/has me going thru my wardrobe a lil bit, putting away what won't be- too- practical for the next several months and pulling out what is. It's also put me in a serious shopping frame of mind again- I have a few items on my radar screen...
But I hope I can afford 'em- a good week ATS on the collegiate side was all-but wiped out by my worst week of the season on the professional side. My own fault; for the last two weeks I really haven't had as much time to do my homework as I usually do, I should have pulled back the throttle a bit. For any other degenerates reading this: college wins Va. Tech -11.5, Northwestern +17.5, Pitt -21, Miami -12.5 (went heavier on that one!), Clemson -8; losses Michigan -3.5, Penn St. -3.5. Pro wins Seattle -10, Tennessee +4; losses Jax -6.5, Baltimore -2.5, Indy -9, NE -10 (missed the push by a 1/2 pt) Green Bay -10, NYG -3 (fell in the last minute), Phila -2.5. Ugh. Still well up for the season, tho'...
But things are, on balance, going pretty well for this gal of late... but no one needs to know right now ;)
In the midst of senseless violence, heroism shines through: Her courage makes us all proud
What I'm Reading Now: Outliers: The Story of Success, Malcolm Gladwell.
10 on shuffle...
Wear Your Love Like Heaven, Donovan
Unchained, Van Halen
Sleep Warm, Stacey Kent
Surf Boogie, Aqua Velvets
Ordinary Average Guy, Joe Walsh
Colorado Girl, Steve Earle
Tusk, Fleetwood Mac
Red Blooded Woman, Kylie Minogue
Born On The Bayou, CCR
Wild Rover, Dropkick Murphys
"And it's no, nay, never/No nay never no more/Will I play the wild rover/No never, no more..."
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Visiting Dearborn Michigan area Tuesday Nov 10th
Jayne Willard November 8th, 2009 8:58 pm MSTI have an all day meeting that let's out at 4PM and then I have a little time to be Jayne.
Anybody wanna play dress up or undress? I love being a woman and was over at a ggg friends house this weekend and she caught me smeling her used panties. She make me lick and suck her until she had cum three times and needed to rest. Then she had her boy friend stop by and had me suck him dry and then make him hard again and the he used my rear entry. That was my Saturday. I am looking for fun on Tuesday, but i can't spend the night as i need to be back home for an early meeting on Wednesday morning.
Anybody available Tuesday, November 10th late afternoon?
Jayne Willard
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TG/Admirer PARTY NY
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TG/Admirer PARTY LI,NY 11/11
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Little Lies
Kellie November 4th, 2009 3:13 pm MSTLittle Lies, Fleetwood Mac
If I could turn the page
In time then I'd rearrange just a day or two
Close my, close my, close my eyes
But I couldn't find a way
So I'll settle for one day to believe in you
Tell me, tell me, tell me lies
Tell me lies
Tell me sweet little lies
Tell me lies, tell me, tell me lies
Oh, no, no you can't disguise
You can't disguise, no you can't disguise
Tell me lies
Tell me sweet little lies
Although I'm not making plans
I hope that you understand there's a reason why
Close your, close your, close your eyes
No more broken hearts
We're better off apart let's give it a try
Tell me, tell me, tell me lies
Tell me lies
Tell me sweet little lies
Tell me lies, tell me, tell me lies
Oh, no, no you can't disguise
You can't disguise, no you can't disguise
Tell me lies
Tell me sweet little lies
If I could turn the page
In time then I'd rearrange just a day or two
Close my, close my, close my eyes
But I couldn't find a way
So I'll settle for one day to believe in you
Tell me, tell me, tell me lies
Tell me lies
Tell me sweet little lies...
http://kellie021ma.blogspot.com/
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11.01.09
Kellie November 1st, 2009 7:07 pm MSTHoping everyone had a fun and enjoyable Halloween (I worked, ugh... or should I say boo?)
Slowly catching up on calls, email, messages, etc... still have a ways to go. Just been a superbusy week for me, time has been at an absolute premium... I saw these when I was at CVS earlier today; Christmas is coming! (Yes, I'm a geek... but they're less risque than this!)
Speaking of football, a decent week ATS; not my best, but a winning week, and I'll take it, given that I didn't have as much time to spend on it as I usually do. College picks: winners Cincinnati -15, BC -4, Wisconsin -6.5, Ga. Tech -11.5, Penn St. -13.5 (I went heavier on Wisconsin and Ga. Tech, yay!) losers West Va. -3, Miami -7, Michigan -7, Michigan St. -3.5. Pro picks: winners Chicago -13, Houston -3, Tenn -3, Oakland +17.5, Minnesota +3; losers Indy -11.5, NYJ -3. Still mulling if I want to get down on the NO-Atlanta game tomorrow night...
Some more news you can lose...
Right-wing women rock: Come for the culture war ... stay for the chicks!
Works for me! (Easy lefties, it's just satire... :)
The healthiest places for women
New England cities fare pretty well (#12. Boston-Quincy, MA)
And not necessarily news but an item I found thoughtful:
What Works: Baggage Letting go of our burdens
I'm looking at a lil down time later this week... for some reason this one has been rattlin' 'round in my head a lil bit...
No One Needs To Know, Shania Twain
Am I dreamin' or stupid?
I think I've been hit by Cupid
But no one needs to know right now
I met a tall, dark and handsome man
And I've been busy makin' big plans
But no one needs to know right now
I got my heart set, my feet wet
And he don't even know it yet
But no one needs to know right now
I'll tell him someday some way somehow
But I'm gonna keep it a secret for now
I want bells to ring, a choir to sing
The white dress the guests the cake the car the whold darn thing
But no one needs to know right now
I'll tell him someday some way somehow
But I'm gonna keep it a secret for now
We'll have a little girl a little boy
A little Benji we call Leroy
But no one needs to know right now
And I'm not lonely anymore at night
And he don't know only only he can make it right
I'm not dreamin' or stupid
But boy have I been hit by Cupid
But no one needs to know right now
No one needs to know right now...
(Hey- it beats Don't Fear The Reaper! ;)
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Brunch~a~palooza with Bri & Crystal 10.24.09 Yahoo serious!...lol
Brielle Echo Whitney November 1st, 2009 11:53 am MSTDateline Monday ( I think…lol) Report to the Surgeon General from the bat cave…;p :
WOO F***ing HOO!
Your Foo fighter (against the seriously mundane) is spent…and my legs actually feel weak today…lol
I seriously doubt that my fellow bat girl, (and team leader of the day (the inimitable Miss Crystal Frost) went to work…If she did, I’m pretty certain that the phone is in “we’ll get back to ya” mode…lol
What a truly heroic VIKING tale yesterday was, and you couldn’t have asked for a more beautiful day to be at your finest, looking like a movie star & REPRESENT! …to the general inmate population out there!
Let’s just say that the TWO of us were on a “take no prisoners” ransack of the Left Village…HA!
Here’s what you missed (you can kick yourselves later for being dumb ass lazy!...;p)
It was a beautiful start to the race with Crystal & her assembled entourage of contestants lounging on the red carpet outside of the Cowgirl Hall Of Fame…looking like the cast of Sex In the City being regaled by the Press Gang & paparazzi crushed behind the velvet ropes…;))… ;D The sky was bright & clear, and the sun shone brightly… this was brunch with the ladies who meal, and
it’s one of the last days of Indian Summer in NYC…just perfect!
I made my way across the street as the crowd parted like the red sea to join the cast of what would prove to be a production of epic proportions…lol
After an appropriate amount of time for the staff to prepare a central feasting table for us inside the totally cute Cowgirl themed jalapeneo popper…lol we were regaled with a superfine protein & carb fuel up while being treated like stars with super sized smiles & service, with seemingly every satellite table giggling at the comedy coming from our banter… ;D
The Bloody Mary's were en eye opener, or closer, depending on your resistance to hot stuff...lol
The Echidna was seriously bruised…lol
…then…. With all jets a go we launched headfirst into the sun, heading due north. A pedal cabbie was seriously smitten & offered us a free ride wherever we wanted to go…which we declined, as a spectacle such as ours needed be circumcised with much more pomp & circumstance…lol (although I was seriously considering the ramifications of what would come of a modern Judah Ben Hur chariot ride through the streets of the Old West…lol ART! is what we are, and such Dandy Warhol’s need to be seen up close to be truly appreciated for our individuality & quality of execution…lol…best appreciated by the serious connoisseur, culture jammers or blatantly inappropriate lesbians…lol
The pedal pusher gave us cards though with his cell number saying “anytime, anyplace”…lolol hmm…;p
Our first stop would be Planet Cubbyhole, for a circle jerk under the twinkling mélange of holidaze rotating overhead, taking in the heady vapors of females in heat…lol and being offered complimentary clam chowder…(how appropriate!)…lol The Cubby’s apparently are wanting to give us brunch-ability with them soon too! Excellent!
Next, it was back out for a stroll through the cobblestone streets heading due East to Johnny’s, where the totally friendly low key atmosphere found us in rare form…I haven’t laughed so hard in ages…did I mention the pie? There was pie…lol it came along with us for the laughs somewhere along the way…in a box. There were cruel jokes, but no one got hurt…lol
Tess, resplendent behind the bar was beautiful, and her top was quite revealing. It was a cool night and the door was open…lol…I think it moved…;p Crystal’s friend Melissa was really sweet. I explored the inside of her oral cavity looking for answers, but only found more questions the deeper I probed…lolol
We picked up a hitchhiker who didn’t care for darts, golf or curling, I was to find out…lol
He was called Robert, and Crystal & I decided he must have been Chinese, as he ping-ponged with serpentarian aplomb between us…lol men are such dogs, you know, not being able to decide which shit smells better, but wanting to take it all in the ass run…lol
THEN!...(got your score cards out?) we continued the flight out of Egypt with the rainbow warrior in tow & headed East & took a hard right straight into Babylon…lol
Making the scene at Boots & Saddles was easy, where the serious grinding of the evening now started, as we danced around a plethora of urgently pressing issues…lol, got our freak on…and with a toss of our curls, schwing! we left…always leave ‘em begging for more I say, right…lol
Now it was time to cross the street, past the crowd singing show tunes at street level & down into the bowels of the Monster, for some over exposure under the disco ball’s shimmer & the call of the dance floor. ;D Crystal shook it like a white girl, Trish fell hard for a Latino pixie with a 6 pack, and I went into a tail spin with a hungry wolf…lol
We were all having lots of fun, when Trish asked me to sing her a song of desire. I decided that she would be able to hear it much more clearly if I sang it directly into her mouth…lol This particular song is tricky… I make it up on the fly of course, but it wound up having several verses, a repeated chorus…and an encore…lol
At this point we lost the hitchhiker, who, had become like peau de soie,… a medium to heavy, drapeable fabric with a soft satin weave and dull finish….lol
There had been, by this point a serious amount of mead drained out of various tanks, and into ours…lol, and we decided to come up for air…and away we went….
…straight back again into the deep house 4/4 at Greenhouse….I love that space, the raw tune-age is fine, the crowd is terribly sexy, and the toilets come with breath mints…lolol
We slid across the waxed dance floor under a canopy of foliage back lit & throbbing with a seemingly full room spectrum of wall to wall sound...it comes from everywhere, but you can’t see how…very cool, kinda like being inside a fuzzy navel or ear canal…radical & tubular!…;)) we danced till breathless, and I got mad props for knowing HOW to move my junk flash dance style in 4+ inch heels…Get your bad self down beatch! lol I wanted the Redheaded Emma Peel Doll in a skin tight black body stocking & boots…yummy… ;)) but she kept disappearing … was it live or was it girls on film?… must have been Memorex, but I can never really be sure…lol
Trish is a real trooper, she’s only just above the level of my business, which means it was easy for her to play with my garters…I told her the pleasure was all mine, but I’m not so sure about that…lolol
By now I have no fricking clue what time it was, I think it had been called on account of hedonism… too much fun is just enough ya know…;))
The upstairs was in overdrive, and I had serious fear for the safety of my toes, as the room was like a beehive with a fire lit from below… so we decided to fly before getting our wings clipped. ;D
To the surprise of both Crystal & myself, Trish then jumped into a cab with three beautiful strangers, and headed to Amanda Lepore’s party at the Hiro Ballroom.
Crystal assured me that she’d be fine as she always lands on her feet.
I was a bit concerned as the poor kitten’s frame seemed seriously bent by now…lol
She called us later and I THINK anyway, was back in the game & on the prowl in another part of the jungle…lol
We weren’t done yet, as it turned out…ummm…did I mention the word VIKING…lol
Now we were headed back north, passing Caliente Cab Company. Crystal suggested that we should get a dozen girls with temporary water weight gain to go in there & flash mob the bathroom…lol I said I’ll drink to that!...lol (if you don’t get it, do some homework…lol)
Flying a bit farther a field found your trusty heroine’s on a strafing run through Duplex & Stonewall when it occurred to us that the Pie had been having such a good time singing “ I will Survive” at Boots & Saddles, that it had fallen behind with the swaggering Cocks & Hens (and Chickens…lol). SO, we decided to go rescue it, as Pies aren’t especially known for carrying loose cab fare…lol
Upon entering, the Pie, which by now had done a costume change and had come fully out of it’s shell joined us for a short rendition of Naughty Marietta, and with a stage left, and a deliberately liberal sprinkling of air kisses, we shuffled off into the gaping mouth of the night, giggling like schoolgirls…lol
Where to go where to go!...NEXT!
The not so obvious choice to me anyway, was the Hanger. Along the way I noted that practically every shop had in some form included the execution of tattoos in their business model… tattoos & heavy lifting, tattoos & French Polishing, tattoos & antique sushi bowling, tattoos & sea foam bubble tea for you & a matching mole, half off on Tuesdays! Tattoos AND body art…I suppose that’s like the Big Mac…. Double your signage & brand recognition with excessive fat…lol…comes with a fork with seating for 6 at the table of the elements, with no reservations required!…lol I thought we should get matching Gummi’s glued screwed or tattooed where the sun don’t shine…lol… so much virgin canvas & so little time! Tsk!...lol
The Hanger was really loud, with big muscular tribal beats that make you want to throttle your knuffle bunny’s best assets or at least, the most open targets…lol…Let’s just say it was DEFINITELY NOT ladies nite…lol but who cares, we were out to shake things up & get our goddess worship on anyway…lol I’m ready for my scene now Mr. DeMille…lol
Crystal knew a guy in there who begged for us to stay, meanwhile, she gave me a look that said “hockey puck”…lol later explaining that this one follows her around like a puppy…lol I didn’t think a jury could possibly convict…lol Crystal’s certainly got that Big Fish Story appeal…lol I did mention dogs earlier didn’t I?...lol Well, enough of the Locker Room so she, me, and the Pie Rushed out the door flaming…lol Paris isn’t the only thing burning…lol We left burnout patches in the street as we careened a hard right down Bedford…lol
Which way did they go which way did they go! Run rabbit’s run!
Well, I have been trying for months to find out what’s going on with Chumley’s, as the phone’s ringing, but no one’s home…Chumley’s is the Doyenne of NYC Speakeasy’s, having successfully been playing Hide & Seek now for almost a century. It’s like a pair of favorite slippers. The Restaurant at the End of the Universe…;D
If you don’t know where it is, you probably won’t find it, there’s no sign, no lamp post & the door is forgettable…lol Once inside the door, you are transported into what is most certainly a Dickensian Era British pub. The dark wooded walls are covered with the manuscripts of Lost generation & Beat Generation writers & poets., men of letters, some chicks too…lol …people like EE Cummings , William Faulkner, John Steinbeck, Ring Lardner & Edna St. Vincent Millay…
There is also a ghost in there as well, usually, apparently, over by the bar. The floor is covered in sawdust, and there is a huge working fireplace. There are a trio of Hounds of the Baskervilles, ancient beasts that I think came with the property…lol They usually lie in front to the fireplace like stuffed sacks of peanuts roasting slowly in the dry heat…lol
The bar has hand pulled ales with curious names of Firemen who fell in the way back, dirty Vicars & other social anomalies & activists. The walls & benches are carved with the names of lovers & spirits past… There’s a juke box with a permanent collection of 78’s…songs from the distant haze, but you can’t expect to hear what you attempt to play. The ghost get’s to work, and the box has a mind on playing what you SHOULD hear…lol and it’s all good…;)) My favorite meal is a lobster tail, with corn on the cob, salad & a biscuit…all for 12 bucks! You just can’t beat that!
Anyway, away we went, and looked with intent, but it’s disappeared, vanished! I could cry a river into my beer if I could just get one!...lol Things that old don’t die, or fade away. I asked a migrant beaner in the corner restaurant. He looked at me balefully, and said “It’s gone”. FAK! I’ve been going there for 30 years, and I have to hear it from someone who fell off the turnip truck yesterday morning… it’s just not fair! I’ve done a google search, and found out the truth, and there is hope alive! ;D
ANYWAY, that wasn’t gonna’ work, so us girls held hands with the Pie & skipped town, err, rather around the corner DOWN town…lol
We had almost come full circle from where we started, but couldn’t see the finish line just yet…lol
Henrietta Hudson’s looked promising. We were back in our element, with the girls…ok, I’m speaking for myself here…lol Our little mini marathon had at this point seen us girls in heels for at least 15 hours, and me the night before as well…I was smart enough to bring a bag big enough to keep a pair of flats in, but Crystal’s combat boots were now barking…lol and we both wanted to sit down somewhere that wasn’t all whistles & gongs…the belles in HH’s sounded like a good landing strip… and so we were let inside the halls of the sisterhood… ;D Unfortunately, there was no seating available, so now we decided to keep the marathon going…lol
Crystal suggested that we entertain the sailors in the “straight” bar across the street, but warned that it could be a bad move…
I looked at my shoes. I like may shoes. I looked at the Shamrocks in the window. I looked at Crystal. I looked at her throbbing boots. We had the Pie’s well being to think of, so we walked on by…lol
Now, we were back at the Cowgirl where we started, but ya know, every good effort takes 110 percent, and the RL Lounge (nee Rubyfruit) was at the far end of the block…we can do this!!!...lol
The RL is a place where a girl can get something good & stiff from another girl, at a fair price!...lol
The upstairs has been beautifully renovated. It’s clean & cheerful with good lighting & it’s choc’ full of cute women… just my kind of place! Even the butch bunnies are hunni’s…lol
There are stylish salon pedestal stools which make you just want a makeover!...lol
We got comfy, and then we got engaged…lol no silly, I love Crystal, but I had my little eyes on Diana. She had a killer dancer’s bod, spike heeled boots & a wicked grin… I kept singing in my head “… but you can leave your hat on…lol”
She wiggled over to us, and pulled up to the bumper… fun fun FUN! Well, let me tell you…back off she’s mine!...lol
Well, maybe ours… but seeing as Crystal is waiting for Selma Hayak, I think I’ll be building a bridge between my island & her brick house starting this week! What a fine ass pect of the Midnight hour!...lol whew!
We exchanged cards, and I needed to scratch an itch…it was on her, of course…lol and well, Bob’s your uncle, as the Bishop said to the Actress…lol
Well, as happens when two fine T Gals walk into any room, shit happens…lol and Diana HAD to leave with her friend who pretty much dragged her down the stairs…lol
Sympathy for the Devil, and all that…lol We will meet again soon , me thinx… ;D
Anyway, with one girl down, and more to go, I found a comfy place at the bar next to yet another lovely La Femme Nikita… and decided to get busy…lol I can actually pin point the exact moment when the fire lit in her eyes, when I explained that my brain actually worked exactly like hers, and that I had no genuine interest in boys at all, and that I guess that would make me lesbian too! Granted, it’s possibly Vampyros Lesbos that we’re talking about here, but hey, I can’t help it, I was just born to really suck at some things in life…lolol
Crystal as well was having her own petting party, and we were definitely a hit… so much so, that the girl that I was chatting with’s girlfriend dragged her off down the stairs & out as well!...lol Doh! She wanted to stay, and I could have caused the earth to move, but I thought better for her & said that she should leave with her friend… ;D
Ok, time to add a bit of new lipstick before trying for the hat trick…lol SO! I va va voomed my way over to the powder room.
Once inside, I marveled at the most excellent design of the large well planned space. There was a niche at the far end lit softly with ambient lighting with a vase of Bird’s Of Paradise, which perfumed the air. The walls & floor were of a hewn bluestone, giving the space the feel of a Zen Garden…The Queen Mary..(There just can’t be a John in there, was a sleek curvilinear design which would echo the anatomy of she who would be born from above…;)) The sink, with it’s pedestal of stone and ovular bowl-like stainless steel nest resting on top with a single pistil-like faucet were in harmony with the somewhat oblique trapezoidal shape of the room. It’s not a box…lol As I sat there with my panties between my ankles, the sound of my own fluidity echoed like a stream flowing through a temple in a hidden cave, somewhat like a womb, actually…. Quite reflective all this, for just taking a pee…lol
I lifted myself up, and well, you know, tucked in my panties…lol then washed my hands…. Upon turning around, I saw no towels, and no basket… this, made perfect sense for such a Shinto space. The Fung Sui would be utterly ruined if you could possibly mess it up with random intrusions like misfired rimshots on the floor…lol
I then spied the hand dryer, which again, made perfect sense… I glided over, ran my hands beneath it & was immediately blasted by hyper-sonics crashing off the walls, creating standing waves that made harmonic dead spots, as the super heated turbo forced air thundered out of the short, cone shaped expeller. Finally, after what seemed far too long after my hands were already dry, it stopped. I fell back, collected the pieces of my shattered psyche, adjusted my garters & combed my hair. THAT, I’m quite sure, was designed by a man…lol
There are 3 things I found interesting at the RL, besides the company, that is…
1) I decided to have a quick peek into the men’s head…lol It was nothing like the women’s, Firstly, it was about half as big…lol the walls didn’t have the same treatment as in the ladies, quite Spartan by comparison. The sink was the same, but the head was most definitely a John…and the place was brightly lit. This, I assume, was an un-verbalized sign saying look before you get your pee shooter out…lol and oh, it was a box, quite boringly predictably rectangular…
2) Of all the places that we went in that catered to the occasional sporting life, the RL was the only place that didn’t put the Tube De Boob behind or above the bar, but rather placed it in a discretionary position in the room which favored social interaction over mindless hypnosis…lol
3) Of all the bars we were in, every one which catered to the more hirsute patrons had their boxes switched on to football. The RL had on the final ALC championship baseball game. Being a Yankee town, and that night being the last crucial game of the series, combined with the fact that baseball is played as much in the head as on the field, it made again, a lot of sense…lol after all, as we know…Diamonds are a girls best friend…lol
By now it was really getting late, and Crystal needed to get home in time to call in sick…lol so, we gathered our things, said our goodbyes to all of the lovelies, and again, hit the pavement…. Tap tap tap, click click click…and now we’re hugging each other at 7th Avenue. I hail a cab, and she’s away to the train with the Pie, (pumpkin, that’s one well traveled vegetable!)…Goddess speed sister, I hope you got home in a jiff… ;D
SO, what can we gain from this run on stream of consciousness? Get a good night’s sleep Saturday night, empty your bank account, expect the unexpected and have a working medical plan in place …lol
My legs have felt like rubber and weak still some 24 hours later, and my ribs still hurt a little from laughing so hard… but these are pains that I’d welcome anytime… ;))
It’s that time of year again, and amateur night is just around the corner… trust me, If you talk the talk, you need to come out & walk the walk with C & B Music Factory when the risk Vs. reward factor is a toss up…lol… we make what you want to do right now…lol
Brunch with the ladies who DO lunch is now a part of the weekly social, so come out with us in NYC & have a gas yas yas… ;))
Love ya Crystal, let’s turn this pig over & roast the other side soon!
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10.30.09
Kellie October 30th, 2009 6:23 pm MDTI have several calls, emails, messages, etc... to catch up on- just been flat out most of this week. Besides all of the usual my mom has come down with a touch of the flu, so between everything else and travelling to and from to see/get what she may need there time has been at an extreme premium this week. Not complainin', just explainin'...
Be patient with me- I'll catch up soon :)
"Sometimes I feel/Like I been tied to the whipping post/Good Lord, I feel like I'm dyin'..."
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10.25.09
Kellie October 25th, 2009 6:16 pm MDTSunday evening sipping on an Ipswich Oatmeal Stout and wondering how many times I'll hear Monster Mash this week...
My newest good/bad snack: Ostrim sticks! I like the pepper ones best: 80 calories, 14g of protein, 2g of carbs. You can find 'em at your local GNC...
I found this one: HOW TO SNOOP INTO A PERSONALITY kinda interesting. I'm not sure what my "stuff" says about me- hopefully something good! I often wish I could read others' agendas, intentions, motivations, etc... better. Sometimes I don't know if I'm too jaded or too naive regarding others- I'm pretty much a WYSIWYG kinda gal...
drinkboston.com is a good website for bars, bartenders, & imbibing in beantown as they put it... Another website I recommend: The Frisky... This isn't good: The Boston Police Department is investigating a report of a sexual assault on a female victim early this morning in the Fenway. Some will ask what was she doing alone in the Fens at that hour, and yes, everyone should always be cognizant of their surroundings. But people ought to be able to come and go as they wish, at any hour they wish. Hopefully the perps will be apprehended.
Another good win by the Pats today, 35-7 over Tampa Bay, in London... A very good week ATS: on the collegiate side, winners Fla. St. +3, Rutgers -10, Syracuse -10, Ga. Tech -5, Penn St. -4, Pitt -6.5, Iowa +2 (hadda sweat that one out!); losers West Va. -7, Northwestern -4.5. On the professional side, winners Green Bay -7 and -9, Indy -13, San Diego -5, NYJ -6, NO -6.5; losers Chicago +1, Carolina -7, and SF on the push at +3, with NYG -7 and Phila. -7 yet to play. I had someone who was a lil surprised at the effort I put into this, as well as the fact that it's not simply a hobby but a part of my income stream- sometimes I feel like I spend time here like other spend following the stock ticker; not all that different when you think about it... College hoops will be starting up next month, too.
Whaddya gonna do...
"Well don't skip romance 'cause you're old enough to/Dance the night away..."
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Halloween is coming, out and about still.
Lauren Jayne McCarthy October 21st, 2009 12:01 pm MDTWell Here we are, late into 2009, its almost Halloween, planning on attending the Halloween party at Randolph Country Club, last year we only had about 35 girls there, down from 65 the previous Halloween. Hope there are more there this year. I've still been getting out to RCC and my usual group at Natick, MA, Crown Plaza Hotel Lounge. We have usually from 15 to 25 Girls there every Tuesday. I recently bough a nice new purple dress for semi formal nights out, low neckline, wore it Tuesday with a black lacey camisole showing below, black heels, it looked nice, bough both a new black camisole and also a white one recently for other outfits. Last couple weeks was out shopping a few times. Another Birthday has passed, was out with a few of the girls to at least enjoy myself, which i did. Hope to see a few of You soon. Love Lauren
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An Unscheduled Visit to the Therapist
Ana Cristina GarcÃa October 20th, 2009 8:42 pm MDTFrom the critically acclaimed blog writer Ana Cristina Garcia and after a very long hiatus, here her new blog entry that will make you fall asleep in boredom. Here are some of the media’s reactions to this literary accident:
“Same old, same old” The Cross-dresser Times
“Not the same story again” Drag Magazine
“If I read one more story like this from her I will commit suicide” The TG Herald
But why take their word for it when you can verify yourself? Take the plunge…
An Unscheduled Visit to the Therapist
The last time I had been out to the therapist was on December of 2008 and since then I had only been out one more time, last week, with my sister-in-law. That outing was cut short and did not get to do all we had planned. Therefore, I was left a bit anxious to be out again and luckily I got to go out, on my own, just a few days later (Monday, October 19). Following are the accounts of this unexpected but satisfying time out and about as Cristy.
On Sundays temperature dropped down dramatically (for tropical standards) and I decided that if it continued on Monday I would dress and try to go out. The reason I would prefer a cold day is that I can wear clothes that cover up my legs and chest without having to shave. I had dreamed about going out in one of the warm mini-dresses that I had worn, with tights and high heels, for a photo session last January. I was undecided between the gray and the brown sweater-mini-dresses seen on the links below (from January):
Brown:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cristy98girl/3292401559/
Gray:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cristy98girl/3270000780/
My wife was out of town so I could not ask for her opinion so I emailed a couple of photos in each outfit to my sister-in-law and she recommended the brown. I was all made up and ready to put on the dress when I got her response and took her advice. I wore it exactly as I did in January except that I wore a brown top underneath to cover the white corset since the dress has a see-through knit in the middle, as you can see in the photo above. I also wore a different watch and styled my hair a bit different, without the bangs. One thing that made a big difference in my appearance was a piece of advice I got from my s-i-l regarding how to put on makeup base by pressing the sponge against the face rather than rubbing it. I totally recommend that, as the coverage is more even and the pores are less evident. I could not help to think that the first time we went out with her it was me giving makeup advice to her and now, after paying more attention to her appearance (which she says was motivated by seeing how her brother-in-law could make himself into a convincing woman). I guess that there is always something to learn, even for a veteran.
This is how I looked after returning from my long-awaited little adventure into the real world:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cristy98girl/4030933986/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cristy98girl/4030177723/
Notice the different hairstyle and wristwatch. Other than that it is all the same as in January.
Once all was in place I put plenty of Ralph perfume on me and I was ready to head out at around 5 p.m. My plans were to drive to the mall and wonder about for a while but then it occurred to me that I could stop by the therapist’s office and say hello to the secretary with the excuse that I had lost my cell phone and their number with it. Remember that to her, I do not live in town and come every so often to visit family and when that happens I try to schedule and appointment.
As is usually the case when I go out, I always have someone on call in case I run into trouble. That person is usually my wife but since she was out of town, I called my sister-in-law and she was up to it.
I got there and took a final check on my makeup and hair before getting off the car. Once I was ready I got off the car, walked to the doctors office and rang the bell. It was about 5:10 and I knew the doctor would be seeing his last patient of the day. To my surprise, the door was opened not by the secretary but by a female psychologist that works there too. I said hello and noticed that the secretary was on the phone as we smiled at each other. She seemed pleased to see me and after hanging the phone up we greeted with the traditional kiss on the cheek.
I sat down and she said that it had been a long time. I replied that I had lost their telephone number and therefore had not been able to set appointments on previous visits to town. She then gave me a card with the numbers and I put it in my purse as I commented that maybe I would call before I returned home (in Miami) to set an appointment. She said that the last patient of the day had canceled and that the doctor could see me right then. I replied that it would be fantastic but I did not have any cash on me to pay for the session. She said that she would go upstairs and ask the doctor if I could pay later and he said that he would see me in five minutes. As you can imagine, this is not what I had planned but I thought it would give me the chance to interact a bit more as Cristy only this time with someone who knew who I really was. The secretary offered me something to drink and I declined her offer arguing that I had just met for coffee with some girlfriends. She then asked if I had cut my hair and I replied that I had only styled it differently. As a matter of fact, since it is a wig, I guess that I have always had it the exact same length up to a micron. We chatted about this and that and then the doctor called for me so I got up and went up the stairs. He came out to greet me and said that it was a pleasant an unexpected surprise.
Conversation with the doctor was very casual an informal, this time. We talked about what I was wearing and I told him that I was a bit self-conscious given that I was wearing a mini-dress but he said that I looked very good in it and that my legs looked ok in tights and a little thin if anything. He also mentioned that the only thing that looked a bit suspicious were my hands but that for a tall woman that would border on the big side. Keep in mind that for our culture, at 5’ 6” without heels, I am a tall girl. If you add, at least 4” heels then I am much taller than the average female here and even those who are as tall or taller then I, are a lot thinner, most of the time. All in all, I am lucky to still able to pass for a taller than usual woman.
We talked about many topics including his family, specially his grandchildren. I felt right in character all the time and the only odd thing was a call that my male side had to made to the secretary to cancel the appointment “he” had for Wednesday. I could not afford two appointments so close to each other and since the issues of my male side are under control there was not much need for that. For those who are not aware from previous postings, Cristy does not go to therapy to be treated on cross-dressing or anything else. It is just a mere excuse that her male side cooked up along with the doctor so that she could have a safe environment in which to interact and where everybody else thinks of her as a genetic female (or so it seems so far after 13 visits over a 3 year period).
When discussing how would we handle payment for the session he said that my male side could bring it or that Cristy could send payment with someone else but that would be difficult. It occurred to me that if I had a chance to dress the following Thursday (my dressing window would end on Friday) Cristy would drop by to pay herself. I am hoping for this last option, as you can imagine.
Before the session came to an end, I told the doctor that I had plans to go to the mall and that I needed him to check if there was anything suspicious. Again, all of the times I have been to the mall on my own I have worn pants and not dresses and this dress was short. He did not see anything out of order, I greeted him goodbye and came down the stairs. As I came down the secretary was still there but was on the phone again. I just waved her goodbye and as she put the phone aside to say bye I told her that I might stop by on Thursday to pay for the session. There was a guy in the waiting room and I just smiled, greeted him and went out the door.
I walked to my car and started driving to the mall. I arrived at the mall at around 6:30 and it was already dark. The mall was more crowded than I expected, and I had trouble finding a parking place. I finally found one and walked towards the escalators. My first stop was at a drugstore to get me some throat pills. A guy who treated me like any other customer tended me. He always used the female form and did not give any unusual or strange looks. After paying I put the pills and change in my bag and went on my usual shoe store “pilgrimage”. It is amazing how once you have attained self-confidence; the stomach butterflies are a thing of the past. I do miss them but enjoy my outings more now that it is second nature.
I went in almost all the shoe stores in the mall and in all of them interacted with the clerks, who were usually female. Again, there were no signs of anyone noticing I was not a woman. Even though it was cold outside it was warm inside the mall and I got thirsty. I walked to the food court to get me something to drink at a Burger King. This time it was a man who tended me and all went smoothly. While I was at the cashier a lady stood next to me and we smiled at each other. She then said “Wow, you really look elegant” I thanked her and told her that I had dressed like that because it was cold but it was too hot inside and that why I was getting something to drink. Once I got my soda I said goodbye to the lady and looked for a table to sit. I sat for about 5 minutes while I finished my soda and then got up, dropped the cup in the trash and walked towards the lady’s room.
When I got in the lady’s room there were two other women grooming themselves up. I stood next to the long mirror and placed my bag on the vanity top to get my makeup out. You have no idea how I felt when I saw my reflection and I was these two other ladies and I was one of them. I was just another girl touching her makeup up before heading back home. The reflection in the mirror was that of a confident woman and one that was at ease with her appearance. I thought to myself, I look every bit as feminine as any of those other ladies. I touched up my lips, as I did not need powder or eyeliner and headed out feeling more confident and womanly than never before.
Before leaving I went to a couple more shoe stores and then went to a kiosk to pay for parking. Again I was kindly tended by a guy and walked to my car. I then drove back home with my confidence all charged up. I so needed this because it had been too long since I had been out in the wild at my own pace. One more confidence booster was that I was wearing more flashy clothes and even then I did not receive any suspicious looks from anyone that I noticed.
Being out in the real world is the ultimate experience for a cross-dresser and once you taste the sweet nectar you just can’t live without it. Dressing for staying in the confines of four walls is no longer as thrilling as it used to be. I’d rather wait for a long period to dress and go out than dress often and remain caged.
I am really looking forward to this Thursday and the idea of going to the therapist office to pay for my session last Monday. If you were able to get this far, I commend you for your perseverance and promise not to torture you with something like this again :-)
With my deepest respect and gratitude,
Cristy
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News you can lose...
Kellie October 20th, 2009 1:01 pm MDTComing soon to a theater near you: The Boondock Saints II- All Saints Day
The Boondock Saints II: All Saints Day is the much-anticipated sequel to the indie cult classic, The Boondock Saints. The film is the continuation of writer/director Troy Duffy’s tough, stylized cutting edge saga of the MacManus brothers (Norman Reedus, Sean Patrick Flanery). The two have been in deep hiding with their father, Il Duce (Billy Connolly), in the quiet valleys of Ireland, far removed from their former vigilante lives. When word comes that a beloved priest has been killed by sinister forces from deep within the mob, the brothers return to Boston to mount a violent and bloody crusade to bring justice to those responsible. With a new partner in crime (Clifton Collins Jr., Star Trek) and a sexy FBI operative (Julie Benz, TV's “Dexter”) hot on their trail…the Saints are back!
Scheduled to open October 30...
Killer plucks at judge’s heartstrings
Still roots for taxpayer-funded hair removal
How can we miss you if you won't go away?
I've opined on that individual before. While I realize it may get me kicked out of the Sisterhood I have no sympathy for that individual, for that person's plight. Kosilek states the “painful truth . . . that I am essentially alone when those in control decide that money or political expedience are more important than my suffering.” No, you are "essentially alone" and not in control and are "suffering" because you committed murder, you strangled your wife. There are many transgender women (not to mention GGs) in Massachusetts who might like hair removal on the commonwealth's dime who haven't committed murder, yet that clown has the nerve to demand the taxpayers pony up for theirs?! (And it's also worth asking just who is footing the bill for Kosiliek's hormone therapy? I know I pay for my own... ah, our tax dollars at work.) Folks such as Kosilek- and her supporters- do transgender individuals no favors; they create the fodder others use to scorn us. Hopefully Judge Mark L. Wolf will deny this motion as he did Kosilek's previous one...
New medical marijuana policy issued
The Obama administration will not seek to arrest medical marijuana users and suppliers as long as they conform to state laws, under new policy guidelines to be sent to federal prosecutors Monday.
A small step- but a step nevertheless- forward in creating some sanity in our drug laws. I've stated before; while I'm not a recreational illicit drug user- my substance of choice comes in a bottle; smoking, snorting, or shooting aren't my things- government has no right to proscribe which substances adults may choose to ingest, whether medicinally or recreationally. (Of course, concomitant with that, individuals who run into trouble as a result of the substances they choose to ingest have no right to expect that their fellow citizens, via government, must care for them due to their choice. With rights come responsibilites.) But on this one- being the fair and balanced kinda gal that I am!- an 'attaboy to the Obama Administration.
Govt.-Run Health Care Isn't the Answer
Sen. Tom Coburn, M.D., and GOProud's Christopher R. Barron say that the inefficiencies of the Ryan White CARE Act suggest that a government-run program is not the key to quality health care.
Worth considering for the open-minded...
Nippy run this am- brrrrrrrr! And a good workout @ the gym a lil while ago, felt good...
What I'm Reading Now: Southland, Nina Revoyr
This one's been rattling around in my head the last few days (wish it were Stairway To Heaven that was rattling around, but... ;)
One, U2
Is it getting better, or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you, now you got someone to blame?
You say one love, one life, when it's one need in the night.
One love, we get to share it
Leaves you baby if you don't care for it.
Did I disappoint you or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love and you want me to go without.
Well, it's too late tonight to drag the past out into the light.
We're one, but we're not the same.
We get to carry each other, carry each other... one
Have you come here for forgiveness,
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus to the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much, more than a lot
You gave me nothing, now it's all I got.
We're one, but we're not the same.
Well, we hurt each other, then we do it again.
You say love is a temple, love a higher law
Love is a temple, love the higher law.
You ask me to enter, but then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on to what you got, when all you got is hurt.
One love, one blood, one life, you got to do what you should.
One life with each other: sisters, brothers.
One life, but we're not the same.
We get to carry each other, carry each other.
One...
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Since my last entry....
Linda Lewis October 19th, 2009 4:23 pm MDTThis journal enty is the first since all my computer problems, and the problems URNA had with the old format for their site. It seems that everything is working as it should be.
The neighbors who moved in the apartment below mine have come and gone in the past year. They were almost as bad as the two guys living there before. I had to put up with hearing two dogs barking at everything as well as their owners yelling at them. I actually had more peace and quiet when I was at work than I did at home. I now have another set of new neighbors who moved in downstairs. These seem to be a little better than the last, so I'll wait and see if they become loud and obnoxious like the last.
My computer seems to be running as it did before. I have upgraded it's RAM memory to 2.4Gigs. I was never able to recover the pictures I lost, but luckily I have most of them posted on my websites and in my Flickr account. I have been dressing more lately and even bought some new clothes from Victoria's Secret. I also have an even bigger "E" cup version of my Cleavage Croptop. Check out my Newest Pics gallery to view pics of them. My profile pic shows my "E" cup "girls". The Yellow dress pics are of my "D" cup "girls".
I did attend my first convention in nearly 9 years back in June this year. It was wonderful seeing my friends from years past, as well as meeting new girls who have only seen me via the Net. I also was reinstated as a member of Vanity Club, and I thank all those ladies who helped me back into the group. I love you girls!
I hope the next several months ahead will be enjoyable with the holidays soon upon us. Take care and I hope to be around more often. *Hugs*
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10.18.09
Kellie October 18th, 2009 6:08 pm MDTSippin' on a Sam Adams Cream Stout (or two!) on a raw, rainy/snowy Sunday evening... and it's been cold this past week! I don't mind it in the fall, it can be kinda nice, a nip in the air (tho' not the rain- yuck.) It's January... and February... and March... and on into April and it's still cold and raw here that sucks! If someone wants to invite me for a weekend getaway to Florida this winter, I'm listening! ;)
If anyone still wants to check out my website you have maybe a week left to do so! Geocities is ending their free web site hosting later this week, meaning my site will no longer be accessible. (Yes, I'm cheap.) I never did as much with it as I would have preferred (I don't believe I've even updated it in months) time constraints- and laziness- being the primary reasons. But it was a good service they offered, for several years. I'll open a Flickr account for any and all pics, past, present, and future, and keep profiles on Yahoo, Facebook, URNA, perhaps a few others... as well as my blog (here!)
A few folks have remarked that I've been sparing in much political commentary recently. This is true, for a few reasons. As anyone who knows me (or has read this blog) knows, I didn't support nor vote for President Obama- his politics are not mine. (This was the first Presidential election that I didn't vote Republican, tho'- I voted Libertarian.) But I've been willing to give Obama time, give him some benefit of doubt, even as I've had differences with his policies and proposals already; I refuse to be like the knee-jerk (emphasis upon jerk) critics of President Bush, who seemingly criticized his every waking breath, blamed almost every ill in the world upon him, almost from the minute he won (yes, won!) the tight Florida vote to win the Presidency back in 2000. Also, while his politics are not mine, I find Obama- as I found Bush- to be a fairly likable, amiable sort. I want to support my President (and unlike the extreme anti-Bush nutjobs, I do consider Obama to be my President, even tho' I didn't vote for him) as best I can. And he did inherit some problems (as every President does.) But it is his baby now, and he will be deserving of criticism as warranted.
A truly dominating performance by my Pats in the snow of Foxboro this afternoon! (It wasn't snowing in Boston, nor @ my mom's, just a few towns away from Foxboro.) 59-0, 600+ yards of offense, obviously a shutout defensively. Nice to see- go Pats! And for any fellow degenerates out here; a so-so week ATS, been grinding out enuf to make a steady profit so far this season, continue to pay some bills, and put a small amount back in my bankroll (need a bigger win, tho'!) College plays: winners Cincinnati -2.5, Pitt -3, Miami -14, UConn -10, Northwestern +14; losers Ohio St. -13, Minnesota +17.5, Va. Tech -3. Pro plays were lackluster: winners NE -9, Carolina -3, GB -14; losers Cincinnati -4.5, NYG +3.5, Seattle -2.5... I hope yours went well!
Sometimes I fear people take what I say too seriously. There are many things in this world that I do take seriously but I'm seldom one of them.
I hadn't done any creative writing in a l-o-n-g time but I've recently started working on a short story, a semi-noirish thriller; still have a ways to go before I'll feel comfortable sharing it, but...
In a recent post I wrote: I'm usually a pretty patient, understanding, caring, and willing-to-give-benefit-of-doubt kinda gal; I just hope that no one confuses my kindness with weakness... A sentiment that bears repeating.
"I used her, she used me/But neither one cared/We were gettin' our share..."
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Middle Cyclone
Kellie October 11th, 2009 6:06 pm MDTMiddle Cyclone, Neko Case
Baby, why am I worried now,
Did someone make a fool of me
'Fore I could show 'em how it's done?
Can't give up actin' tough,
It's all that I'm made of.
Can't scrape together quite enough
To ride the bus to the outskirts
Of the fact that I need love.
There were times that I tried,
One for every glass of water
That I spilled next to the bed,
Wretching pennies in a boiling well
In a dream that it once becomes
A foundry of mute and heavy bells.
They shake me deaf and dumb
Say, "Someone made a fool of me
'Fore I could show 'em how it's done."
It was so clear to me
That it was almost invisible.
I lie across the path waiting,
Just for a chance to be a spiderweb
Trapped in your lashes.
For that, I would trade you my empire for ashes.
But I choke it back, how much I need love...
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Waiting On A Friend
Kellie October 7th, 2009 6:48 am MDTDon't need a whore
I don't need no booze
Don't need a virgin priest
But I need someone
I can cry to
I need someone to protect...
Waiting On A Friend- Rolling Stones
Most everyone wants some luvin', some romance, in their lives- it can be great! But it's even better when it can be something more, something deeper, when there's some shared, mutual affection, care, and respect- call it friendship!- in addition to the luvin'.
That's it on a rainy Wednesday morning (soggy run, too!)
"I'm not waiting on a lady/I'm just waiting on a friend..."
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Senator Bennet of Colorado Confirms Support on Inclusive ENDA 2009 - The Inside Story
Nancy-josephine Leah Morris October 6th, 2009 5:09 am MDTSenator Bennet of Colorado Confirms Support on Inclusive ENDA 2009 - The Inside Story
One account you’ll never hear of in the Big Blogs which tells what really happened in the field...
By Nancy-Jo Morris
Colorado Springs, USA
Like many of you LGBT (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual & Transgender) Activists out there striving for True Equality in America, I was extremely grateful to be treated to a headline back on September 25 in "The Bilerico Project" which read: Thank You, Senator Michael Bennet: Senate Movement on ENDA (by: Dr. Jillian T. Weiss).
But after the feel-good emotional wave had dissipated itself upon the shores of Practical Reality, I felt sort of miffed. I asked myself "Does anybody really know what actually helped make a thing like this happen - especially after going through what I and a few other concerned Coloradans had to go through on the grassroots level?"
The obvious answer to that one is a resounding "NO!" - especially if you’re not part of the "In Crowd" of wealthy or otherwise privileged people who (for whatever reason) have a great big media presence and therefore have become virtual household words in the greater LGBT Community. The fact that this hierarchy exists in any community often causes the valuable efforts of many "average" folks to go overlooked - which, in turn, leaves them thinking that they do not have what it takes to be real Agents of Change in society.
My goal in sharing this story is to dispel that myth, give concerned LGBT constituents hope, and let everyone know that the only way to affect truly progressive change in the political landscape of America is for them to care enough to at least hold their Representatives accountable on issues that really matter.
It All Started at a Town Hall Meeting
Colorado Springs happens to have the distinction of being the veritable Mecca of Conservative Evangelical "Christendom". At last report, there were about 100 such organizations of all sizes headquartered here, the largest of which is Focus on the Family. Because of this fact, those of us in the local LGBT Community who dare to openly defy their discriminatory, anti-LGBT Dominionist agenda tend to be few in number - and wear many hats whilst "fighting the good fight". So although I am the current Co-Chair Incumbent of the El Paso County Stonewall Democrats, I was already obligated to be away at some other LGBT-related function when LisaJo Laptad (member of the EPCSD and Precinct Chair, Colorado Springs Pct264) reminded me about a special Town Hall Meeting to be held on Saturday, July 11 at the East Library - which featured our state’s freshman senator, Michael Bennet.
This rising political star who had been appointed by Governor Ritter to fill the vacancy left when Senator Ken Salazar was elevated to a Cabinet position in the fledgling Obama Administration, was utilizing this event to build rapport with local Democrats so that he could both do his job better and to also help bolster his campaign efforts towards solidifying his seat in the US Senate, come the next state Elections. An article about him in the Colorado Springs Independent which was entitled "Who is this guy?"- Jan 15, 2009 (see
http://www.csindy.com/colorado/who-is-this-guy/Content?oid=1146307 ) shows his photo bearing the caption "Michael Bennet says he’ll learn quickly". Gauging by the interesting sequence of events I’m about to elucidate here, that indeed turned out to be an almost prophetic understatement.
Although we knew the general populace there would be more preoccupied with going after the sizzling Healthcare Reform debate ignited by President Obama’s promises of positive change across the board; and that other initial contacts had told me this Senator was already favorable towards LGBT issues; LisaJo wanted to hear it directly from the source, when it came down to if Mr. Bennet actually was in our corner. So she went to publicly get his take on whether he’d vote to repeal both the bigoted Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA) and the heinous "Don’t Ask Don’t Tell" policy towards LGBT folks in the Military; whilst going on record to support the Matthew Shepard Hate Crimes Legislation and the Trans-Inclusive Employment Non-Discrimination Act (ENDA) of 2009. Since I serve in varying official capacities the Gender Equality Coalition, the World Gender Coalition and also network with UnitedENDA, I asked her to report her findings to me immediately after she left that Town Hall Meeting, so that I could forward that info to those who needed to be kept apprised of such matters.
According to LisaJo, it wasn’t until the very end of the gathering that she was able to get the floor long enough to pose our LGBT-related questions to Senator Bennet. She said he answered them all exactly the way we’d hoped he would - He’d vote to repeal DOMA and DADT; plus he’d cast a "Yes" vote on Hate Crimes and ENDA. I was understandably pleased with that news. So I gladly sent that data upline as soon as I returned home - and then spent the rest of that evening in Manitou Springs at the 30th Anniversary Celebration Banquet of the LGBT-affirming Pikes Peak Metropolitan Community Church of Colorado Springs.
An Unfortunate Revelation
Despite the current state of this badly wounded economy, Sunday, July 19 in Colorado Springs brought along with it one of the most successful Pridefests the local LGBT Community had ever seen. Even on the political and social fronts, hugely positive gains were made which are so numerous, they would have to be the subject of some other story. But then August came - and when the 7th of that month rolled around, I got another call from LisaJo about an online political report that instantly sent troubling feelings of possible political betrayal through both of us. The subject at hand was the Federal ENDA; and the spreadsheet which she directed me to via an online link revealed that when it came down to where the Senators in Washington DC really stood on this all-important piece of LGBT-Inclusive legislation, our very own Senator Bennet of Colorado was listed as "Undecided". From what I could tell, the tally was compiled by the Inclusive ENDA Facebook Campaign, and was based upon findings gathered from data in Washington DC and verified by reliable activist sources. At LisaJo’s suggestion, I printed out two hardcopies of what I saw there, just in case we needed to prove a point with this information later on.
Why It Mattered
Let me say at this point that some people participate in politics just because they like it; some may do it for a power trip; whilst others may actually do it for more philosophically "righteous" reasons. But when you find Transgender people involved in it, it’s mostly because it’s a matter of sheer survival for us. Because if the laws go bad (even ones that seem innocuous to the typical person), the day-to-day running of our very lives could get exceedingly far worse than any other people group could ever imagine. For example - what other law-abiding segment of society do you know of, that actually gets harassed or dictated to by policies and ordinances, regarding things as personal and essential as where they might relieve themselves whilst out in the Public Square? (In some odious cases, no tenable "Bathroom Option" have even "allowed" for Transgender people!)
It was LisaJo who had the courage around 13 years ago to establish SCIRTS (Southern Colorado Inter-Regional Transgender Society) here in Ultra-Conservative Colorado Springs; which eventually evolved into the group I now lead, called PAGE (Peak Area Gender Expressions). This is the largest and longest continuously-existing Transgender support group in all of Southern Colorado. We do what we do for our Constituents because history shows that no one else will ever look after the safety and well-being of the Transgender Community better than other Transgender people. Nothing is more fundamentally important than being assured of getting the fairest opportunity when it comes to securing suitable Employment Therefore, we felt it was our duty to assist in seeing to it that this Trans-Inclusive version of the Federal ENDA that is now before Congress gets a good shot at passing - and becoming the Law of the Land in every state across this Nation.
Having that in mind, it should be pretty obvious why both LisaJo ant I swung into action, when it appeared that Senator Bennet had told the public one thing in Colorado Springs - but did something entirely different regarding ENDA, whilst in Washington DC.
From Showing Concern to Real Shoe Leather Action
By August 13, I had received an e-mail from the Colorado Stonewall Democrats in Denver that reiterated the fact that Senator Bennet was still listed on ENDA support spreadsheets as being "Undecided"; and I was also getting calls from Transgender Activists and other out-of-state Allies asking me why I reported that both our Senators were already in our corner on this issue when that apparently was not the case. Since this discrepancy was now cutting into my personal reputation for being known as a trustworthy informational source in the Trans Community, it was definitely time to get to the bottom of this. So when LisaJo called and asked if I wanted to accompany her down to Senator Bennet’s local office here in Colorado Springs, I was more than ready to go there.
The link to the Official Invitation data LisaJo referred me to, initially gave the public erroneous address information because if you took it literally, it would have had you looking for the Senator somewhere in Acacia Park (209 N. Tejon Street) as opposed to it’s actual location two blocks to the north at 409 N. Tejon. We discovered that error on the way over, and ended up calling the staffers at the Office to redirect our course correctly. When we got there, we discovered a short line of people ahead of us, though the message we’d gotten had led us to believe this was a special appointment time just for us and the Senator’s Staff alone. Whatever the case, we waited out the situation until we got our turn to address the staff personnel on duty at the time.
The next few moments were so disappointing full of ineptitude that at one point, LisaJo actually left the room to keep from losing her composure, her temper - or both. The people we interfaced with were properly pleasant and politically correct - but they didn’t even know what ENDA was at first mentioning. After we produced papers with all the pertinent information upon them in an effort to make our point clear about the contradiction we saw in how Senator Bennet said he would deal with it; they somehow still couldn’t find the official text of the Bill, its sponsors, nor its current status on their office computer. (I thought it odd that a Senator’s staffers weren’t able to do something I routinely do online via State and Federal Congressional websites). When we asked if Senator Bennet would ever return to Colorado Springs during this Congressional Recess period, we were told "No" - because he was on an all-county tour of the State. The Senior Staff Representative then apologized for all the frustrating confusion, saw to it that our contact information was obtained - and promised to get back to us as soon as the Senator had rightly dealt with the matter. LisaJo at that point openly predicted that it would never happen, just as we were leaving; and true to her words, neither of us ever got that promised follow-up phone call.
All that experience did was strengthen our determination to find a viable fix for this unresolved issue.
Close Encounters at The Junction
On Saturday of that weekend (August 15th), President Obama was scheduled to hold a Town Hall Meeting on the subject of Healthcare Reform, out in Grand Junction, Colorado. Just plain logic and a couple of contacts I had told me that Governor Ritter and every major State politico who possibly could get there would be there, too - including Senator Bennet. Since I was already in communication with representatives of the local Change That Works Colorado group that was rounding up a bunch of pro-Obama supporters to drive up to Denver and help fill a chartered bus to Grand Junction; I now had an extra incentive to join in with them. I figured that sometime during our effort to offset the rancor of the opposition expected to show up out there, I just might also get to run into Senator Bennet - and possibly have time to voice in his presence the concerns I and LisaJo brought up about his lack of lending true support for a Federal all-inclusive ENDA at his office in Colorado Springs the other day.
Unfortunately, however, my designs on this day were at best a near miss. Our bus arrived at the Town Hall Meeting site so late that those who had official passes into the Central High School Gymnasium where it all was happening did not have time to clear Security in order to be allowed inside. The place already was totally maxed out anyway. So we all added ourselves to the huge throng of people outside which was lining both sides of the road (appropriately named "Warrior Way") that led into the Campus - for one side of the street was full of "Tea Party" Conservatives who were vehemently against President Obama; whilst our side was totally for his proposed plans for Healthcare Reform. There were a few times where the pandemonium on the Front Lines in that street almost hit a flash point that could have went violent - but then the local Sheriff’s crew moved in to separate the loud opposing factions. Not that this mattered - but from what I could tell, I was the only Transgender person out there in that near-melee of a scene.
When it appeared that things had calmed to an almost boring lull, I left the Front to see what was going on in the dusty field of a parking area farther back behind me. I then discovered that Senator Bennet was inside the very bus I had rode in on - exhorting the people who were already seated in there. He was just wrapping his speech up, when I came to the door of that vehicle (where a young girl whom I believe was his daughter was standing); and the best that I got out of him after that was just a handshake - because he and some other officials had to rush off to more rarified environs while the folks on our side of Warrior Way packed things up and called it a day. By this time, the President was already gone from the scene - and the opposition forces had all but dispersed. Therefore, I and the progressive amalgamation of people I was with also left - and ended up returning to Colorado Springs sometime way in the middle of the night.
What did I take away from all this? Although this close encounter Function at Grand Junction was historic and full of Activist "adventure"; it netted me nothing when it came to my goal of possibly getting Senator Bennet to dispel the confusion over where he was regarding ENDA by promising to go on record as being definitely in support of it in Washington DC.
Finally - The Day of Reckoning
I shared what I experienced out in Grand Junction with friends and constituents in several Internet groups and websites; then also dealt with a situation where I thought possible anti-Trans bias was at work (relative to certain other reports of the whole thing), before taking action on issues that were more close to home. But a little over one month later, I got yet another call from LisaJo where she asked me had I gotten an invitation to an up-coming event in Denver sponsored by the Human Rights Campaign (HRC) called the "No Excuses Community Meeting with Senator Michael Bennet", which was to be held on Saturday, September 19th at 3:30 pm. The short answer to her question was "No".
I had stopped getting direct e-mails from HRC back in 2007 when I halted my support for them, after they acquiesced to the heinous, "incrementalistic" sacrificial selling out of the Transgender Community through celebrating the forward progress of that version of the Federal ENDA which had been shorn of its original Trans-inclusive language. Although LisaJo’s sentiments about that divisive fiasco were the same as mine, somehow she was privy to this special HRC arranged Town Hall Meeting set for the LGBT Community to voice their concerns to Senator Bennet - and wanted to know if I’d go up to Denver with her to attend it. "Absolutely!" was my reply. Something inside told me that it was very likely that the Trans Community of Denver just might NOT show up for this all-important thing, though it was in their very own city. So we from Colorado Springs endeavored to at least try to make sure Colorado’s greater Transgender Community was rightly represented. Because this would finally prove to be the real Day of Reckoning where the Senator’s inconsistencies on the Trans-Inclusive ENDA would indeed be brought to light - and hopefully corrected.
I made sure to get LisaJo and I RSVPed in for the gathering up in Denver; and kept abreast of the situation, when the venue for it suddenly was changed from the Gill Action Building to the Park Avenue Lofts a day before it was to happen. I also printed a couple more copies of that online spreadsheet that showed where all the Senators stood in Washington DC, regarding the all-inclusive Federal Employment Non-Discrimination Act. So when that Saturday did arrive, we were ready - and all set - to go!!
We found the location of the Community Meeting after some minor detours amongst Denver’s sometimes difficult one-way Downtown streets; and got parked there 10 minutes prior to its appointed beginning. And because a certain elevator wasn’t working, a lovely onsite staffer had to lead us along a winding route that eventually had us on the top floor of that complex of expensive Lofts at 19th and Clarkson. The actual site of the event up there was the Club Room, a place that appeared to be normally devoted to the recreational interests of those who lived in that complex.
LisaJo and I met and chatted with one other Trans-woman just before the meeting commenced. Her name was Nicole - and she was from a local LGBT-affirming ELCA Lutheran church. When asked where all the other Transgender people were, she said she had just come from a function at the Gender Identity Center where a lot of girls were - but they did not seem interested, when she told them about this opportunity to meet with the Senator. I didn’t see anyone representing The Center there, either. But I could be wrong about that, because other people were still filtering in by the time Senator Bennet arrived - and things really got underway
Speaking of the Senator, he began just prior to the official part of things by shaking hands and graciously greeting those of us who were at the front of the room. Most everyone was smiling whilst this was going on - but when Mr. Bennet got to LisaJo, her serious-looking expression caused him to say out loud "You’re not smiling...", to which she simply retorted "You waffled!" - and quickly let him know what she was referring to. The Senator then just as swiftly spoke forth a promise to explain and clarify the matter during the course of the meeting. After the preliminaries and pleasantries were out of the way, other people in the assemblage brought up all the key concerns of the LGBT Community at large. Like getting rid of the "Don’t Ask Don’t Tell" policy towards LGBT folks in the Military; supporting the Matthew Shepard Hate Crimes Legislation, Not letting the Ryan White Act that helps people living with AIDS via special funding expire; supporting the Trans-Inclusive Employment Non-Discrimination Act (ENDA) of 2009; and repealing the Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA).
Before the gathering ended, Senator Bennet quickly affirmed that he would properly address and handle every LGBT issue to our liking when he returned to Washington DC and his staff were way interested in getting a copy of that ENDA tally spreadsheet I brought forth, which proved the Senator’s words in Colorado weren’t matching what he was actually doing at the Capitol. A short lady who was with the team Mr. Bennet brought promised that they’d get this discrepancy fixed - and that it will soon be seen that the Senator is indeed in support of the all-inclusive ENDA. We were finally satisfied with this response. But why Senator Bennet tried to make excuse for initially admitting that he would not vote to repeal the Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA) is another issue worthy of a totally separate blog...
In Conclusion
Although this was a very long and detailed account of just exactly what I witnessed and went through, when it came to resolving the inconsistencies and discrepancies which created static in the communication lines between Senator Michael Bennet and his LGBT Constituents in Colorado, I do not apologized for its huge size. Again - I posted this story to let others know how they might go about bringing change where apparent misunderstandings and communication glitches might be the only sticking points. I also want to make it clear that I in no way am alleging that the Senator had knowingly done anything nefarious. I am just bringing to light a process whereby common grassroots-level people can know that they hold the key, are empowered - and must hold their representatives accountable when what is said back home doesn’t match what’s actually done in Washington DC.
Sincerely,
Nancy-Jo Morris
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