Nicole Colette
"is looking for work in Toronto"
Journal Entries for Nicole Colette
job hunting
September 25th, 2008 9:14 am MDT
Well its been awhile, I'm currently job hunting in Toronto and I have to say its been pretty trying so far. Today I have my first group interveiw and I'm just so frazzled trying to decide what to wear and how i should act. I wish it was over already so I would know if i Have the job or not. In other news I now only wear girl clothes all the time minus my breastforms, so I look like a flat chested First Nations Indian lol. At some point I plan on redoing my pics to reflect what I actually wear out and about. Also right now I'm applying for a apartment in Toronto. I hope I get it, right now I'm staying at my best friends place but i really need my own space. My thanks to anyone who takes the time to read this, and wish me luck I think I'm gonna need it. Hugs & Kisses Nicole.
i'm still alive!!!
January 12th, 2008 2:02 am MST
hoe wha, I've been gone forever and I day. All right lots of the things to tell, first I've been having a blast living in my new place, my roommate is great, She actually walked in one day when i was dressed as Nicole and was totally fine with it. Second thing is that on Oct 24th i got to see Rob Zombie and Ozzy Osbourne play live in my hometown, Zack Wylde was here playing guitar for Ozzy during the show which was awesome. It was my first time seeing Ozzy and Zack and my second time seeing Rob Zombie all in all a kick ass show. Third thing my best friend came to visit from toronto for holloween, we got crazy on holloween I'll just say one thing about that night "Cocaine is hell of a drug", another cool thing that happened that week is my friend from toronto asked me straight up if i was gay, which made it a hell of a lot easier to talk to him about it Ha Ha Ha.Oh yes, 2 weeks before Christmas I totaled off my car. I wasn't hurt but my car was written off now I'm cruising around in an 07 Dodge Caliber R/T, It's got everything even heated seats hehehe. I also just purchased a new laptop so I'm hoping to get connected at my new place soon. I've also now noticed i need to take some new pictures, my pics don't quite match my look nowadays lol. Oh yeah another thing is I have gel nails now, I got them at first because a friend was taking a course and needed a hand model so I volunteered afterwards i just got used to them so i got the redone from white tips to black tips to match my new car.I've still been thinking of getting a tattoo or 2 on my body, if anyone has any suggestions on what or where i'd love to hear them. My ideas are a lizard just above my right ankle crawling up my leg, and on my lower back three circles arranged in a triangle with fire coming off them so the look like fireballs swirling, in the circles i wanted the three chinese symbols for 4, 2 and 0. Let me know what you think, I'm also considering getting my ears peirced as well. We'll Have to see how this goes.Well I guess thats enough for today. Thank you for reading this I'm off tonight to see my friends band play hope everyone has a safe and happy weekend.Peace & Love.Nicole.
my first poem
May 24th, 2007 1:05 am MDT
Ok so i've been writing a poem and i thought i would post it to get some feed back on it. Just to let you know its not finished and its my first attempt at writing peotry. Please be gentle. When I am on mushrooms alone in my room, I sit in the dark and trip out to tunes, I'm not alone in my room you see I'm tripping out with myself, I and me. I sat my body down to rest, my spirit chose to roam instead, To roam the mountains, valleys, and plains, to bring back knowledge to feed my brain, Hurtling through space in a cosmic tomb, I know not where it is I zoom, I have hope for the destination ahead, but i can't shake this feeling of dread, My body goes rigid, my mind screams out, for quiet, for calm, for sanity to come, to come and silence the screaming inside and dry the tears from my eyes. Thank you for reading this and please leave a comment. Peace, Nicole
Happy 4:20 Day!!!
April 20th, 2007 8:09 pm MDT
i copied this from my myspace blog you can find it on my myspace page www.myspace.com/arwynn420 , enjoy.Good day everyone, I hope you all have plans for today i know i do .Anyway a few things new in my life, My best Friend Kwas is the bass player in the band 7 Levels, right now their in the process of recording their cd and I happend to get the first 6 songs of it from him, in my humble opinion its just fucking awesome. Anyway their myspace page is www.myspace.com/the7levels. Ok next is that last night i went and checked out the roxy band wars final(not as a girl) anyway the one band I thought rocked the place the hardest was a band called GO their myspace is www.myspace.com/gonation.I seriously reccommend you check both of them out and support the local music coming out of Saskatchewan and see that we are not all hicks listening to country music, WE DO ROCK OUT DAMN IT!!!!!Ok now on to personal stuff, my god damn roommate is such a dog (if you didn't reed my last blog entry i suggest you do it explains somethings there) after everything that happens i thought he got back together with his old g/f (she is a nice girl so this pisses me off to think she being cheated on again by him), last night he had some other girl over at the house. At this point i think i'm just going to cut my losses in this friendship and move on. Speaking of which my Indian Reserve(The Muskeg Lake Cree Nation for those that care) has some housing development thing, the company is like cress housing you can apply and they either pay for housing or help pay for it. Anyway thats a secondary option if i can't find my own place to rent on my paycheques. Whew more on my mind then i thought lol. Anyways i hope everyone has a safe and fun 4:20 day today.
i'm back
August 21st, 2006 8:08 pm MDT
Well it's been three months since i wrote in my journal so I thought I should update. Well been living with my 2 roommates for over a year now and sometimes i can't beleive we've been here on our own for a whole year. I'm still in the xloset about my dressing not sure when or if I'll come out but nothing is set in stone. Scary thing happened last week, I swear one of roommates came home and saw me in my room dressed en femme, he didn't say anything to me about it nor has he flipped out so i take that as a good sign. Let me see what else... oh yea been shopping on ebay lately(my name is Nicole and I'm still a shopaholic) hope to get some new pics up in the new clothes i bought. Thanks for reading if you did, Hugs & Kisses Nicole:)
Update May 5
May 5th, 2006 7:14 pm MDT
Well it's been a while since i last updated my profile and made a journal entry so I thought today was as good a time as ever. Did some shopping today, bought myself a new bra and a few pairs of panties also a nightgown to sleep in. I just got my iPod back from being repaired and am very excited about that (I love music, not having my music with me at all times was driving me nuts). I quit my old job at a gas station, but was offered a new job at another gas station working the graveyard shift(11pm-7Am). I enjoy the hours since I'm a bit of a nightowl anyway. With all the recent changes in my life today is my first day in a while I am able to relax and be me. I Guess I had better go because I'm starting to ramble, Hugs & Kisses, Nicole
Travails of a young CD
March 1st, 2006 11:30 pm MST
Well Feb. has finally ended i don't know about everyone but personally Feb. is like the monday of months to me. Maybe I'm just feeling depressed, I think I should probaly start seeing a therapist since I've been starting to get emotional over things that never used to affect me. Music recently has been moving me to cry while I'm en femme. Also I have been thinking of stepping out of the closet and telling my 2 best friends(who are also my roomates) the whole truth about me. On a lighter note I updated my profile pic I hope its approved by now, It's a change from my the last 2 pics I have used, maybe now I'll get a little less unwanted attention. In closing I'd like to leave you with the lyrics to a song that I have been enjoying recently, the last paragraph seems to articulate how I'm feeling(-> = new verse, ***-> = how i'm feeling). ->Artist: Terry Reid ->Song Title: To Be Treated (Rite) ->Oh we are what we are when in danger And we are as we stand head in hand When a friend brings to light On a cold silver knife You can stare your fate right into his hands ->Oh we are what we are when we'll name toBe the soul-owning guardians of lands And there's always advice On a cold winter's night That your dreams are just an island in the sand Way out in the sand ->Don't it seem so strange How it just don't change Things just stay the same As they've always been Some of us are out to win And some others are out just to aim ***->Oh we are what we are when we're praying In our own way of seeking some light May the mission bell still ring Of the colourful dreams In the faith that everyone will be treated rite Thank You so much if you read this far.Hugs&KissesNicole
Tears of Joy
February 22nd, 2006 9:46 pm MST
I thought I'd post this now while i still feel this way. Tonight I was chatting with someone I met online(i won't name names they know who they are), we were just chattin over some of my pics when they asked what was my favourite pic. I've never really went thru and picked a favourite before, so i picked one of me in an outfit i love to wear and showed them. As I was telling them what i like about me in the pic it just hit me, I actually felt as pretty as i looked in the picture. I started to cry i was so happy, i can't really explain it something just clicked(this has been the first time i have gotten emotional in years). I think my life is about to change drasticaly beacause of what i feel now in my heart. I want to be me and I'm scared of what I must do next....Peace and Love to all,Nicole P.S. If you want too see the pic its in my URNA galleries "gallery 1" fourth pic down or here http://ca.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/arwynn420/detail?.dir=85c0&.dnm=4022re2.jpg&.src=ph
