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going out in a birthday party
Judit Roura November 17th, 2009 2:24 am MSTGoing out this Saturday, in Barcelona. Some friends and I got invited in a Birthday party of a GG friend. I'm excited!
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Go Ask Teresa-FEAR!
Teresa Bowers November 15th, 2009 6:18 am MSTB: I really, really want to order your Beauty School CD Miss Teresa, but I cant risk having it sent to my house! I am so afraid of my wife finding out! I only go to your website when she's not home, and then I clear all the history! Now she's been asking me why I'm doing this! I have to have it-its my complete fantasy! What can I do?
B: I'll be 47 next month.
B: Oh, I didn't realize that. But my wife!
Now the first thing ya wanna do is download Firefox. You can have it clear your history every time you sign off, it even asks ya?
B: But...
Now you're gonna get an email in another name see? They're all free, just pick a name and remember it. If ya want, ya can write the name and password in a book that nobody reads, get it?
B: Yes Miss Teresa.
B: Wow you're really good at this.
B: But what about downloading and saving the file? How can I hide it?
B: But what if she finds it and listens?
B: Not bad, you're very sneaky.
B: My wife actually.
Just one more thing. Yer not gonna do anything illegal are ya? Anything strange or sick?
B: Oh Lord no Miss Teresa, I just want to wear pretty things and act like a beautiful girl.
B: Thank you Miss Teresa, but I don't want to grow a pair because...
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Disclaimer: I do not normally talk like this. I am in no way encouraging anyone to do anything illegal or immoral. Its just that in my experience many crossdressers do not want their friends and family discovering their little fetish. Right Mr. Madoff?
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Makeup Lesson at MAC
Christine Young November 14th, 2009 9:53 pm MSTI had a wonderful experience today at MAC Cosmetics. MAC has always been known for being friendly to the community and their store at Crocker Park on the west side of Cleveland is certainly no exception. I was treated wonderfully by everyone and thoroughly enjoyed myself.
By the way, for any of you new or shy gals out there who are thinking that this took a lot of courage on my part - it turns out that it really didn't. I'm pretty timid and even *I* felt comfy after a few minutes - and it's amazing what a phonecall in advance to break the ice did for everyone involved.
The key to my "courage" was being very up-front so they (and I) had no surprises. I called them beforehand and asked 1) if they did makeovers and 2) whether they were accepting of the transgendered community. I was pretty sure I already knew the answer to both questions but this gave the woman on the phone a chance to mentally adjust to the fact that a guy was on the phone with her making an appointment for a makeover.
Once that was out of the way, I set up an appointment with her for a private back room. That was another question I asked beforehand...I'm SOOOO not ready to be transformed in front of an audience!
I got there a little early, en-drab, and asked for Diana. As far as the rest of the world knew I was just a salesman/husband/etc. I brought an exercise bag with a couple of wigs that I thought would help her get a feel for how I look, help pick colors, etc. I also brought a camera - although I was careful NOT to be an imposition with it. When Diana brought me back to get started, I just asked if I could take a few photos along the way to help me remember. She sais 'No problem.'
As we got rolling she asked lots of questions about colors I liked, gave me tips for getting foundation to look natural, etc. I was still a little nervous but she was very outgoing and professional. At each step, she'd do the right side and then have me do the left while she watched and gave feedback. By the end of the session we were both very comfortable. She was suggesting colors and 'hey, how about if we try this.' I even forgot to take pictures until she reminded me and we snapped off a few. I'd worn a light halter dress under my guy-stuff so a quick unbuttoning of the shirt (with advance warning - don't scare the natives girls!) let us do couple waist-up photos of me "fully" en-femme.
All-in-all, this was the best $100 I've spent in a long time. 90 minutes of undistracted fun. I'll definitely go back and I hope next time that I can go out afterwards instead of having to clean everything off at the end & leave all that hard work in a pile of wipes :(
If any of you local gals are thinking about this, I'd encourage you to give the Crocker Park store a call and ask for Diana. Tell her I sent you - maybe I'll get some free lipstick on my next visit for the referal, LOL
Hugs! - Christine
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Progress
Toni November 9th, 2009 10:52 pm MSTI came here to try and meet some like minded girls and to lose the feeling that I am alone as well as to make some new friends and learn more about how and why I do what I do. Well it hasnt been long and I think I might have met a new friend here that just might get the ball rolling. I hope so and I hope the ball is a snow ball. I'll let you all know how it all goes, right here in my journal. Stay tuned!!!
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Visiting Dearborn Michigan area Tuesday Nov 10th
Jayne Willard November 8th, 2009 8:58 pm MSTI have an all day meeting that let's out at 4PM and then I have a little time to be Jayne.
Anybody wanna play dress up or undress? I love being a woman and was over at a ggg friends house this weekend and she caught me smeling her used panties. She make me lick and suck her until she had cum three times and needed to rest. Then she had her boy friend stop by and had me suck him dry and then make him hard again and the he used my rear entry. That was my Saturday. I am looking for fun on Tuesday, but i can't spend the night as i need to be back home for an early meeting on Wednesday morning.
Anybody available Tuesday, November 10th late afternoon?
Jayne Willard
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Untitled Post
Lacy Inheels November 6th, 2009 5:44 pm MSTI have new roomates, but I am still not in a place where I can dress. Anyway, I have been putting my life back together, and in a few weeks, I might have some time to be Lacy! :-)
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Going to gender therapy
michelle winter connolly November 4th, 2009 2:01 pm MSTI have recently been appointed a Gender Therapist. I will be going to my first session on November 12th. The following week I will have my 40 min physical and bloodwork done. This is to speed up the process of getting approved hormones, I hope everything works out for me.
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First Outing
Toni November 3rd, 2009 3:02 am MSTAfter 10yrs. of talking about it I finaly did it. The first week end of Oct. 09 I made the trip to Vegas and the glamour boutique where Stephanie did a full tilt makeover with instructions on me. The entire process was great fun and I purchased several outfits and several pictures were taken ( the ones you see here). I cant thank everybody at the boutique enough for the way they put me at ease and the great results of thier talents.
Afterwards I was picked up by my best friend and another friend in a limo and the adventure began. I had felt that the experience of going out in public would be a terrifying and also sexualy exciting event that would give me some feeling of being a woman but the resulting emotions were much different. It was terrifying but because of the fact that I now found myself in a packed In n out restraunt escorted by my two GG friends and having summoned the courage to do so I found myself feeling more of a man than ever before. I was 10' tall and bullit proof and 100% sober. There were no problems and if anyone noticed I wasnt female they hid it well. Being normaly submissive I found this feeling of manlyness strange.
Now it was back to the hotel, the Stratosphere, for more pics then off to dinner at Roxy's. This also went well and we had a great time. I noticed I was pegged a few times there but nothing that was demeaning or insulting. From there we played in the casino for a while till my companions decided it was time for me to take my submissive role back to our room.
A big success with surprising results. Not what I expected but much better. The ballsiest thing I've ever done lol.
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Making Marissa
Teresa Bowers November 1st, 2009 1:10 pm MSTI've just added a new 30 minute audio about a special experiment that changes Jims life forever!
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Something to wear
Sherri T October 31st, 2009 12:23 am MDTI just had to do it. Feeling like i wanted to just go freestyle for the day, I went out shopping (in guy mode) wearing a 14 inch denim kilt, a pair of semi-opaque black pantyhose over my fishnets, while wearing my Miz Mooz 2 inch heel boots. It was cold and rainy out, so I had a plain jacket as well. I did some shopping, but bought nothing, then got my hair trimmed. My stylist loved the look. I might have to do it again this weekend.
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i love the avatar for hotamateurshemales
Spirit October 26th, 2009 11:03 am MDTI just do! Omg she's adorable i wish i had her bodhi lol!! :p
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I love the fall!
Geena Beth White October 25th, 2009 11:10 am MDTI just love the fall, with the seasonal changes going full tilt! Nothing like taking a walk on a sunny, blustery day, with my skirt swishing in the breeze and my heels clicking on the pavement!
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My wife is leaving me...
Lauren October 22nd, 2009 2:03 pm MDTWell the inevitable has finnaly happened. My wife just could not get over some of my issues and has a few of her own. Well I gave it my all. I am a bit relived that I get to be again.
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Halloween is coming, out and about still.
Lauren Jayne McCarthy October 21st, 2009 12:01 pm MDTWell Here we are, late into 2009, its almost Halloween, planning on attending the Halloween party at Randolph Country Club, last year we only had about 35 girls there, down from 65 the previous Halloween. Hope there are more there this year. I've still been getting out to RCC and my usual group at Natick, MA, Crown Plaza Hotel Lounge. We have usually from 15 to 25 Girls there every Tuesday. I recently bough a nice new purple dress for semi formal nights out, low neckline, wore it Tuesday with a black lacey camisole showing below, black heels, it looked nice, bough both a new black camisole and also a white one recently for other outfits. Last couple weeks was out shopping a few times. Another Birthday has passed, was out with a few of the girls to at least enjoy myself, which i did. Hope to see a few of You soon. Love Lauren
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An Unscheduled Visit to the Therapist
Ana Cristina García October 20th, 2009 8:42 pm MDTFrom the critically acclaimed blog writer Ana Cristina Garcia and after a very long hiatus, here her new blog entry that will make you fall asleep in boredom. Here are some of the media’s reactions to this literary accident:
“Same old, same old” The Cross-dresser Times
“Not the same story again” Drag Magazine
“If I read one more story like this from her I will commit suicide” The TG Herald
But why take their word for it when you can verify yourself? Take the plunge…
An Unscheduled Visit to the Therapist
The last time I had been out to the therapist was on December of 2008 and since then I had only been out one more time, last week, with my sister-in-law. That outing was cut short and did not get to do all we had planned. Therefore, I was left a bit anxious to be out again and luckily I got to go out, on my own, just a few days later (Monday, October 19). Following are the accounts of this unexpected but satisfying time out and about as Cristy.
On Sundays temperature dropped down dramatically (for tropical standards) and I decided that if it continued on Monday I would dress and try to go out. The reason I would prefer a cold day is that I can wear clothes that cover up my legs and chest without having to shave. I had dreamed about going out in one of the warm mini-dresses that I had worn, with tights and high heels, for a photo session last January. I was undecided between the gray and the brown sweater-mini-dresses seen on the links below (from January):
Brown:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cristy98girl/3292401559/
Gray:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cristy98girl/3270000780/
My wife was out of town so I could not ask for her opinion so I emailed a couple of photos in each outfit to my sister-in-law and she recommended the brown. I was all made up and ready to put on the dress when I got her response and took her advice. I wore it exactly as I did in January except that I wore a brown top underneath to cover the white corset since the dress has a see-through knit in the middle, as you can see in the photo above. I also wore a different watch and styled my hair a bit different, without the bangs. One thing that made a big difference in my appearance was a piece of advice I got from my s-i-l regarding how to put on makeup base by pressing the sponge against the face rather than rubbing it. I totally recommend that, as the coverage is more even and the pores are less evident. I could not help to think that the first time we went out with her it was me giving makeup advice to her and now, after paying more attention to her appearance (which she says was motivated by seeing how her brother-in-law could make himself into a convincing woman). I guess that there is always something to learn, even for a veteran.
This is how I looked after returning from my long-awaited little adventure into the real world:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cristy98girl/4030933986/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cristy98girl/4030177723/
Notice the different hairstyle and wristwatch. Other than that it is all the same as in January.
Once all was in place I put plenty of Ralph perfume on me and I was ready to head out at around 5 p.m. My plans were to drive to the mall and wonder about for a while but then it occurred to me that I could stop by the therapist’s office and say hello to the secretary with the excuse that I had lost my cell phone and their number with it. Remember that to her, I do not live in town and come every so often to visit family and when that happens I try to schedule and appointment.
As is usually the case when I go out, I always have someone on call in case I run into trouble. That person is usually my wife but since she was out of town, I called my sister-in-law and she was up to it.
I got there and took a final check on my makeup and hair before getting off the car. Once I was ready I got off the car, walked to the doctors office and rang the bell. It was about 5:10 and I knew the doctor would be seeing his last patient of the day. To my surprise, the door was opened not by the secretary but by a female psychologist that works there too. I said hello and noticed that the secretary was on the phone as we smiled at each other. She seemed pleased to see me and after hanging the phone up we greeted with the traditional kiss on the cheek.
I sat down and she said that it had been a long time. I replied that I had lost their telephone number and therefore had not been able to set appointments on previous visits to town. She then gave me a card with the numbers and I put it in my purse as I commented that maybe I would call before I returned home (in Miami) to set an appointment. She said that the last patient of the day had canceled and that the doctor could see me right then. I replied that it would be fantastic but I did not have any cash on me to pay for the session. She said that she would go upstairs and ask the doctor if I could pay later and he said that he would see me in five minutes. As you can imagine, this is not what I had planned but I thought it would give me the chance to interact a bit more as Cristy only this time with someone who knew who I really was. The secretary offered me something to drink and I declined her offer arguing that I had just met for coffee with some girlfriends. She then asked if I had cut my hair and I replied that I had only styled it differently. As a matter of fact, since it is a wig, I guess that I have always had it the exact same length up to a micron. We chatted about this and that and then the doctor called for me so I got up and went up the stairs. He came out to greet me and said that it was a pleasant an unexpected surprise.
Conversation with the doctor was very casual an informal, this time. We talked about what I was wearing and I told him that I was a bit self-conscious given that I was wearing a mini-dress but he said that I looked very good in it and that my legs looked ok in tights and a little thin if anything. He also mentioned that the only thing that looked a bit suspicious were my hands but that for a tall woman that would border on the big side. Keep in mind that for our culture, at 5’ 6” without heels, I am a tall girl. If you add, at least 4” heels then I am much taller than the average female here and even those who are as tall or taller then I, are a lot thinner, most of the time. All in all, I am lucky to still able to pass for a taller than usual woman.
We talked about many topics including his family, specially his grandchildren. I felt right in character all the time and the only odd thing was a call that my male side had to made to the secretary to cancel the appointment “he” had for Wednesday. I could not afford two appointments so close to each other and since the issues of my male side are under control there was not much need for that. For those who are not aware from previous postings, Cristy does not go to therapy to be treated on cross-dressing or anything else. It is just a mere excuse that her male side cooked up along with the doctor so that she could have a safe environment in which to interact and where everybody else thinks of her as a genetic female (or so it seems so far after 13 visits over a 3 year period).
When discussing how would we handle payment for the session he said that my male side could bring it or that Cristy could send payment with someone else but that would be difficult. It occurred to me that if I had a chance to dress the following Thursday (my dressing window would end on Friday) Cristy would drop by to pay herself. I am hoping for this last option, as you can imagine.
Before the session came to an end, I told the doctor that I had plans to go to the mall and that I needed him to check if there was anything suspicious. Again, all of the times I have been to the mall on my own I have worn pants and not dresses and this dress was short. He did not see anything out of order, I greeted him goodbye and came down the stairs. As I came down the secretary was still there but was on the phone again. I just waved her goodbye and as she put the phone aside to say bye I told her that I might stop by on Thursday to pay for the session. There was a guy in the waiting room and I just smiled, greeted him and went out the door.
I walked to my car and started driving to the mall. I arrived at the mall at around 6:30 and it was already dark. The mall was more crowded than I expected, and I had trouble finding a parking place. I finally found one and walked towards the escalators. My first stop was at a drugstore to get me some throat pills. A guy who treated me like any other customer tended me. He always used the female form and did not give any unusual or strange looks. After paying I put the pills and change in my bag and went on my usual shoe store “pilgrimage”. It is amazing how once you have attained self-confidence; the stomach butterflies are a thing of the past. I do miss them but enjoy my outings more now that it is second nature.
I went in almost all the shoe stores in the mall and in all of them interacted with the clerks, who were usually female. Again, there were no signs of anyone noticing I was not a woman. Even though it was cold outside it was warm inside the mall and I got thirsty. I walked to the food court to get me something to drink at a Burger King. This time it was a man who tended me and all went smoothly. While I was at the cashier a lady stood next to me and we smiled at each other. She then said “Wow, you really look elegant” I thanked her and told her that I had dressed like that because it was cold but it was too hot inside and that why I was getting something to drink. Once I got my soda I said goodbye to the lady and looked for a table to sit. I sat for about 5 minutes while I finished my soda and then got up, dropped the cup in the trash and walked towards the lady’s room.
When I got in the lady’s room there were two other women grooming themselves up. I stood next to the long mirror and placed my bag on the vanity top to get my makeup out. You have no idea how I felt when I saw my reflection and I was these two other ladies and I was one of them. I was just another girl touching her makeup up before heading back home. The reflection in the mirror was that of a confident woman and one that was at ease with her appearance. I thought to myself, I look every bit as feminine as any of those other ladies. I touched up my lips, as I did not need powder or eyeliner and headed out feeling more confident and womanly than never before.
Before leaving I went to a couple more shoe stores and then went to a kiosk to pay for parking. Again I was kindly tended by a guy and walked to my car. I then drove back home with my confidence all charged up. I so needed this because it had been too long since I had been out in the wild at my own pace. One more confidence booster was that I was wearing more flashy clothes and even then I did not receive any suspicious looks from anyone that I noticed.
Being out in the real world is the ultimate experience for a cross-dresser and once you taste the sweet nectar you just can’t live without it. Dressing for staying in the confines of four walls is no longer as thrilling as it used to be. I’d rather wait for a long period to dress and go out than dress often and remain caged.
I am really looking forward to this Thursday and the idea of going to the therapist office to pay for my session last Monday. If you were able to get this far, I commend you for your perseverance and promise not to torture you with something like this again :-)
With my deepest respect and gratitude,
Cristy
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Since my last entry....
Linda Lewis October 19th, 2009 4:23 pm MDTThis journal enty is the first since all my computer problems, and the problems URNA had with the old format for their site. It seems that everything is working as it should be.
The neighbors who moved in the apartment below mine have come and gone in the past year. They were almost as bad as the two guys living there before. I had to put up with hearing two dogs barking at everything as well as their owners yelling at them. I actually had more peace and quiet when I was at work than I did at home. I now have another set of new neighbors who moved in downstairs. These seem to be a little better than the last, so I'll wait and see if they become loud and obnoxious like the last.
My computer seems to be running as it did before. I have upgraded it's RAM memory to 2.4Gigs. I was never able to recover the pictures I lost, but luckily I have most of them posted on my websites and in my Flickr account. I have been dressing more lately and even bought some new clothes from Victoria's Secret. I also have an even bigger "E" cup version of my Cleavage Croptop. Check out my Newest Pics gallery to view pics of them. My profile pic shows my "E" cup "girls". The Yellow dress pics are of my "D" cup "girls".
I did attend my first convention in nearly 9 years back in June this year. It was wonderful seeing my friends from years past, as well as meeting new girls who have only seen me via the Net. I also was reinstated as a member of Vanity Club, and I thank all those ladies who helped me back into the group. I love you girls!
I hope the next several months ahead will be enjoyable with the holidays soon upon us. Take care and I hope to be around more often. *Hugs*
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Updates on this thing call life...
Chryssa October 17th, 2009 7:59 pm MDTSo sometimes I feel like the only crossdresser in my country...
Of course I know that isn't true, but it feels like that. In college there are so many openly gay and lesbian people these days... I don't know how it is elsewhere, but where I go to study it's almost a perfectly normal thing now. So normal in fact that if you saw two guys on the street who were clearly gay and YOU raised an eyebrow at them, you would be the one people would stare at!
Yet crossdressing...where do I begin? Harmlessly trying on the guise of feminity is just so foreign to people...so alien. Sometimes I think it would be easier to be gay. You see a pretty boy in a dress with his boyfriend, he's just a homosexual expressing himself. You see a heterosexual boy in a dress and suddenly there's shock and horror!
Of course I could bang on about social trends and how they're slowly advancing (yady, yady yada...), and how people catagorise the world and its inhabitants and therefore when a boy in a dress comes along, it screws up their nice neat organised lines...I know all this! But still...I like to vent sometimes...
I also feel like one of the youngest crossdressers in the world because so few people my age have come to terms with it (not that I fully have, but I've made leaps and bounds in the last year). I don't really know what I'd do if I met a fellow crossdresser. I don't know if I would feel comfortable sharing this hobbie with another boy. I think it's because I relate so much to girls...that I like to reserve 'boys' for pissing about, having a laugh and playing some video games.
Having said that my roomate knows about me and one of my best friends does too. Both straight, football-watchin dudes... Dunno if I feel comfortable dressed up around them though. I have done it and they didn't seem to mind. Personally I was more curious about how I'd take it. When I was less comfortable with my crossdressing, I always thought if only the world accepted males wearing what they want like females do. Then I would dress up all the time, right?
That's today's question for me. Now that I've found people who seem comfortable around me dressed as a girl...can I take it? Is it because I am too uncomfortable with myself or is it because it is too personal and private a thing?
It requires some more thought, I think...
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New Primary Photo Finally!
Alyssa Allure October 17th, 2009 12:38 am MDTIt took me long enough to get a new primary photo but I did it! yay! lol all it took was me borrowing my sister's camera. I would buy a camera but I'm too busy buying clothes :)
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Untitled Post
Jayne Jolene Schmidt October 13th, 2009 12:59 am MDTToday, as they say, is the first day of my Life as Jayne. Iam starting my journey with the set goals to attain the the best Presentation of the woman i am. How far this journey will take me is as far as the mind and body allow, but the end result will be a more beautiful person inwardly and outwardly.
Happiness will be mine and brother, if at they end there is anything left that is him, will be a memory of how I have waited and strived to set myself free. As a younger person the world was not in anyway I could see ready to accept me as who I am. This I regret, but although not perfect by any means, it has reached a level of acceptance that the only thing I really fear about transistion is my ability to make complete. The physical and mental consequences are the and I am aware of them, as are the financial and logistical. These are I hope not going to hinder my journey to greatly. I have read of the extremes that some have gone to inorder to attain the financial backing. Advertising for donations, sugar daddys and the like. I have hopes that I will not have to go that way.
I will try to make regular entries to show what progress I am making. I have made some contacts and feel that these will become lasting friendships with mutual Love and support all around.
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Go Ask Teresa-Dressing my ex
Teresa Bowers October 8th, 2009 3:31 pm MDTMy Ex
L: I read your post about your first boyfriend and was really touched, that was beautiful! I was wondering if your ex husband used to cross dress, and did you help him explore his fetish? I can't imagine why he would possibly leave you Miss Teresa.
When I thought about your question I started to laugh, but it really was very far from a funny situation. The answer is no-never-not in a million years.
When I first started dating, I would look for a person who was honest with himself and with others. Someone who wasn't caught up in trying to be a tough guy, or a player, or something he thought he should be, either because of his upbringing or society. At the same time I was fighting my attraction to women because I felt that that it wasn't the way I should be. So it was wrong from the beginning.
I ended up doing what a lot of confused people do, and chose someone that was actually the opposite of what I was really looking for and needed. My ex husband is an former marine, a body builder, and a scumbag. O0ps, I told myself I wasn't going to go there, but the hell with it. Yes, it was my fault for marrying someone that I knew wasn't right for me in so many ways, but as time went by I saw sides of him that I never could have imagined.
I think I was attracted to my first boyfriend because he was a wonderful person. Caring, considerate, loyal, and he just happened to like to crossdress. That was his fetish, and at the time I thought it was, lets say-unusual. But that wasn't who he was. He wasn't just a man in women's clothes. He was my friend and lover and confidant. Looking back on those days I realize that he taught me the most valuable thing that anyone ever has. That a person is more than the sum of their parts. A person is not only their body, job, career, car, and all the other things we associate someone with, but a complete human being, made up of emotions, feelings, and attitudes towards other people and the world.
Now that I'm divorced and live with my girlfriend, I see how true this is every day. I love someone for who they are and not what they are. Sure, she's incredibly attractive, smart, wealthy, and an animal in bed, but that's just a coincidence. (Isn't is honey?)
Dress my ex? Surely you jest!
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