URNotAlone

its getting good

February 10th, 2009 2:09 am MST

OK, its been sometime since i posted on here. I have been really busy with working and school. I am so ready to finish school, and sometimes it get me frustrated cause i can't get finished as fast as i want. I have been making big strides in my life as a woman. Looking like going fullltime is getting more of a possibility and maybe sooner than i thought. I have been dressing ona more regular schedule and getting better with makeup and clothing. I lost 35 lbs so far since summer and i am proud as i can be over it, but the biggest change has got to be the feelings i have. I talk it over with a GG frined i have online and tell her how i am thinkning about different situations on my life and goals i plan on moving on. I know i am thinkng more like a woman everyday. To me thats passing, well i don't think the goal is to pass anymore. The goal is to blend in, blend in with all the other women out there in the world. I want to be like them in every way, not just wearing the clothes. 2008 has been a wondeful year and great learning experience for me. I have learned being a woman or being my true self has brought confidence i have never known, i was huge talking those first steps outside as myself and meet someone I feared would run at first sight. I am so happy i did it. No regrets, NOW THATS A FIRST. I can't wait for more.