Jan
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sad morning thoughts
February 13th, 2008 5:26 pm MST
As I laid in bed this morning, some thoughts rolled through my head. They always do when I try to sleep. This morning I though about the pictures that have been taken of me sence I start to get out "dressed". And how some people call me cutie (I just don't see it, I think people are just being kind to me). That got me thinking about a friend who keeps calling herself a whale. This pains me as she is a beautiful person both in body and heart. Then I had an OMG moment, what about her other half. If it pains me to hear her say these things about herself then it must tear up her signifagent other. At this point I was getting very sad and upset. It hurts me to see my friends hurting and not be able to do anything for them. My thoughts then turn inward. I thought about how powerless I really was. How I can't really help anyone. How useless a person I really was. I just take from the people around me, not able to give anything back. I started to cry. I got up and started doing anything that would pull my thoughts out of where they were going.
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Hi Jan, please never think that you are useless. You are very much right on most of your thoughts, except the ones about yourself. I will say this, no you are not drop dead gorgeous, most of us are not, but you really are very pretty and when you gain the confidence that you will someday, you will make an extremely beautiful woman.
Maybe we should help you more to bring that out of you, there are a few tips we can give you, but I find it a little difficult giving advice, because one never knows if they might hurt some one's feelings. When you gain confidence you will carry yourself better and then be proud of yourself.
Jan, no one is useless, we all have something to offer, You have to figure out what it is, no one can do that for you.
Your friend
Tammie
Jan you do do a lot for others. Look what your doing for your family, without you helping them where would they be?
Jan you are my friend and Tammie's friend and we both don't want you to feel or think that you are useless cause your NOT! You are a terrific person inside and out and I/we know it.
Hugss.............Debi