URNotAlone

Just falling

November 2nd, 2009 12:25 pm MST

Ok well things are just sort of troubled now.The hope of October is gone and winter is lurking at the door.  I am trying to build a plan for friends in person again but not sure how it happens  with time and money and oh yeh the whole closely watched closeted thing. Confidentially the dreams are getting weirder and the things I think of are way out of reasonable nature. As an artist expresion for passion and forfulment are slim  or just hard to focus on, and need to try and get something created from within consistently. But  I am not sure if I can in the pent up scared state I am in ,I have to ask if I am afraid of myself or something else. Well I am sure the boot straps are some where, just have to find them and pull hard before the snow gets deep. Nothing morta,l nothing that cannot be survived but taking some bruises here and there. Love you all the  many colored leaves of fall. Tina