Jeanette H. Riley
"is being herself"
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Finally we are together where we are happy
Anna and Racheal January 6th, 2009 10:33 pm MSTWe made it
Wow I can't believe that after 6+ months of planning that Racheal and I are really here. The drive was so long, the truck and trailer was over loaded and made driving very slow. on average we managed about 55 miles per hour except going up hills which might slow us down to 40+
The scenery was so beautiful literally breath taking! I felt such a sense of belonging.
Racheal and I, have meet some really cool people since getting here.
Of course we left behind things we thought we had brought that sucks as it's a really long drive to storage so we will have to make do!
Last evening we started venturing out around town to see some of the area and learn where some things are. "of course we did this at Midnight so traffic would not be so bad for us to drive slowly.
Tomorrow I go into my new office and meet my new boss, I'm looking forward to getting back to work.
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A walk in a special park in Austin
Anna and Racheal January 6th, 2009 10:32 pm MSTA walk in a special park
Racheal took me on a walk to a special park that means a lot to her. We had a wonderful time walking around the winding streams and viewing the hillside how it's been carved out of the surrounding stone.
We took pictures from my phone and I am hoping she will post them to my computer so I can post them on this site.
I love her so much and it is such a honor to have her show me places that mean so much to her.
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transexuals and the creator
Anna and Racheal December 24th, 2008 3:51 pm MSTtranssexual and the creator
I did something I rarely do anymore, I stopped by a church and went inside mainly to dodge the rain and use the bathroom. But I did stop in the chapel area for a few minutes.
I have always considered myself to be a fairly spiritual person and I know I have thought of this before but feel moved to express it to best of my ability.
"God made each and every one of us in his image and by his own hand, yes he even made us transsexual people, he made the gays, lesbians, bisexuals. He made us for a reason and with a purpose upon this earth. But yet it is the christian s who persecute us and prevent us from being who we are and from receiving the same rights as those who conform to the church standards of the "man made laws" of what is right and wrong. because of this we can't marry and we do not receive the same rights as others. As I sat their looking up at that cross at our savior I could not help but think this is not the church he created. It is mans creation and not the divines creation".
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Dork Much?
Anna and Racheal December 24th, 2008 9:21 am MSTSo we grabbed some Chinese tonight for dinner - after working in storage and packing and running errands and disposing of stuff and just being busy getting things ready to go. And what is Chinese without a fortune cookie? Well for Anna it would be a lot less papery.
What? You might ask.
I would answer by saying - I asked her what her fortune said. She looked at me, stopped chewing, pulled the chewed fortune out of the cookie mess in her mouth and read it to me - 'You have the wisdom of the ages'
Anyone know the definition of irony?
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CGS Christmas Party
Lisa Elizabeth Smythe December 11th, 2008 7:02 am MSTUnepectedly, I attended the Chicago Gender Society Christmas Party on december 6th.
Originally, I was to go out with 4 other girls to the Kit Kat Klub and then party in 'Boystown'. But life and family and the wonderful Chicago Weather conspired against that!
I decided that I had enough time to go to Transformations and look for another wig, Which I did buy!!! So I have a new wig!
I found out there was a cancellation for the party and decided to take a chance and see if they would sell me the canscelled seat. They did!! I had a wonderful time, met some new people, saw some girls I haven't seen in a couple years, danced a littlewith Janna of Janna's Place and generally had a good time.
It is amazing how things worked out!!
Happy Holidays!!
Lisa ELizabeth
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auto accident
Anna and Racheal November 21st, 2008 11:02 am MSTLast evening when we where coming from Peru IN coming home. ( my job entails me working as a canvasser going into small towns and talking to people) Anyhow we where in the company Suburban (I am a feild manager and this was my crew all 6 of us). It was snowing and roads (Hwy 24) was very slick. My driver was being cautious but we hit a slick spot on the hwy and lost control of the vehicle.We shot across the medium and across a dual lane Hwy slamming into two ditches and nearly rolling the burb over several times. Luckfully no one was hurt other than bruising and body aches. Beefcake our nick name for our burb is not in as good of shape but kept us safe.
The first thing I thought of was "NO not now I can't die yet I'm not a girl yet" and my second thought as we where about to crash was. God how much I love Racheal and we are just getting started in our lives together. Would I be able to tell her I love her?
Anna
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Haloween
Lisa Elizabeth Smythe November 8th, 2008 10:39 pm MSTThis was my outfit for Halloween.
It was a lot of fun and the corset underneath wasn't too bad!!
Lisa E
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Living in pink Mae Vie in Rose
Anna and Racheal November 8th, 2008 8:33 am MSTThis past week Racheal and I watched a French film that I will call living in pink. It was about this little boy who dreamed of being a girl and all the hardships he had to indure as well as his family. It really hit home on so very many levels for me, expecially how he felt he was different and in the wrong body. His desire to dress and play as a girl, until the parents took him for therapy. This part did not happen to me as I did as he did later in the movie. I just became who my parents wanted me to be a boy! I often wished I had the courage to transition earlier in life instead of waiting until now.
At this point in my life it is difficult to undo all the stuff we pretended to be for so long all the manorisms, body posturing, even mental thinking. I am feeling more and more like who I am suppose to be everyday. most of that is a thanks to my wife Racheal who is trying to help me live and be myself.
My parents are just like that boys parents, they can't or will not try to understand. I have now been labled a drug user by my own father. Because he is certain that is why I am not acting and responding to his demands and ideas of who I am suppose to be, a carbon copy of himself.
I am me!
Anna
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Austin here we come
Anna and Racheal November 1st, 2008 6:32 pm MDTWow my new job I took back in September even though I do not get paid very well has an office in Austin Texas. Now at long last Racheal and I get to move to the place we want to live. This past weekend I went to a national conference and talked with the Austin crew. I am excited to be able in a couple months to move, knowing that we have a job when I get thier. Then all we have to do is find Racheal something work wise. I have hopes that I can go to college but will need to enter the community college to take a few courses first. Wish us luck!![1 comment]
Halloween party October 25th
Lisa Elizabeth Smythe October 29th, 2008 7:39 pm MDTWell, My lovely wife and I attended the Transformations / Skyscraper Heels/ Rachael's Wig / llusions halloween party on Oct 25th!! Had a wonderful time!! Saw a few old friends and met some new people too!! a good meal a lot of dancing!!! My wife went as my 'Bard' and I his Lady Faire.... Even let her lead during some of the dances!! (Just couldn't during the 'swing' numbers..... we never learned the opposite steps, they are totally different for male and female side.) Otherwise the night was fun, the costumes were wonderful!!! I liked mine but was no where near as cute as some of the 'sexy pirates' or the 2 'Showgirls'!!!Maybe if I lose another 60-70 pounds..... Next year!! Right? Hugs to all, Lisa Elzabeth[Comment on this post]
My trip to Ohio
Vicki September 28th, 2008 12:00 am MDTI was so lucky to be able to go to Ohio and witness the commitment ceremony of my Cousin Debi to Tammie. It was one of the most beautiful and heatwarming ceremonies I have ever been to. I met alot of wonderful people and I hope to keep in touch with you all. Debi and Tammie I love you both and wish you all the best in your future.[1 comment]
A realization and happy conclusion
Carrie Alexis Michaels September 14th, 2008 10:23 pm MDTIn the past I have writtien about six journal entries. Each one of substantial length but with each one written and not saved the next became shorter. This is a short one to test out the new journal entry. I am becoming more and more convince of my love of men is outweighing my love for women. I am truly in love with the lovely men who are crossdressing and even better transgendered. Ok I promse I will type more and be more elaborate next time.
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together
Anna and Racheal September 8th, 2008 7:30 am MDTwow it is hard to believe that almost one year ago Racheal made the heart felt decision to come into my office for that fateful massage. All I had to do was look into those beautiful Hazel blue eyes and we new we both new! how awesome is that.. I truely believe that some divine providence brought us together that Fate was working seriously overtime on this one. This has been one of the hardest years of my life I can't speak for her but I can say this I have never been happier or more in love and every moment of this past year good and bad has been worth seeing our love blossom and grow. I love you baby with all my heart and spirit! Anna[Comment on this post]
Unraveling Michelle Screening
Jenna Elizabeth Taylor September 7th, 2008 10:47 pm MDTLocal film maker Michelle Farrell will be screening her homegrown documentary at the Local film maker Michelle Farrell will be screening her homegrown documentary at theNew York International Independent Film and Video Festival OPENING NIGHT THURSDAY SEPTEMBER 18th - Unraveling Michelle Screening Saturday 4pm. The OPENING NIGHT PARTY and art/film market at MANSION ON THURSDAY, SEPTEMBER 18TH brings participating filmmakers, producers and artists together. Designed as an "open-air" market, the whole spectrum of the film, art and entertainment industry will be invited to attend thus creating a valuable opportunity for NYIIFVF and NYIAF participants to promote their projects and network with relevant industry professionals. Details: MANSION 530 W. 28TH STREET BETWEEN 10TH AND 11TH AVENUE 6PM-MIDNIGHT, Strict dress code: NO T-SHIRTS, JERSEYS, SWEATS, SNEAKERS AND BASEBALL HATS 21 and over only. No Exceptions http://www.nyfilmvideo.com/2008/ny-fall-2008/presrelease/opening-night.htm AFTER-PARTIES: Each night the festival will host after-parties at some of the best venues in New York. A list of our after-parties will be posted on www.nyfilmvideo.com and will also be listed in the program. We are doing our very best to get everyone in for free but venues marked with *** in the program schedule do have a reputation for being very trendy and upscale. We are also guests of the club. You must dress appropriately. NO T-SHIRTS, SNEAKERS, JERSEYS, BASEBALL HATS, BAGGY JEANS, SWEATS, ETC. ALL AFTER-PARTIES ARE FOR 21 AND OVER ONLY. NO EXCEPTIONS. PLEASE KEEP YOUR VIP PASS ON YOU AT ALL TIMES AT THE AFTER-PARTIES. Please email Annalisa San Juan at annalisa@itndistribution.com if you have any questions regarding the after-parties. REMEMBER, for 12 dollars(advance ticket) you get a movie and a party. Unraveling Michelle will be screened on Saturday 9/20 at 4pm. I hope that you can come up to support our documentary.[Comment on this post]
public
Anna and Racheal August 29th, 2008 9:15 pm MDTMan you could almost write a country song on this one. Last Friday 8-22-08 Racheal and i had to put my best friend down my son Jax ok so he is a dog but to me he was like a child. I remember going to the barn and sitting on the floor and jax who was barely able to keep his eyes open waddled over to me and layed his little head in my lap. Well nearly 9 and 3/4 years later I found myself on the floor of the vets office holding Jax head in my lap as the vet gave him the shot to help him sleep. Jax just laid thier and looked at me eyes half open just as I remembered him doing 9 3/4 quarter years ealier. My buddy and best friend closed his eyes for the last time Then 8-29-08 I went back into court expecting the judge to throw my ass in jail at the request of my soon to be ex-wife attorney request for contempt of court particularly failure to pay the skanky wrinkly old bitch a $1,000 dollar figure that the judge seem to think she was intitled to. Anna was so scared I was afraid of being in jail and being seperated from Racheal. I fired my attorney two minutes prior to the court hearing do to his negligence and uncaring attitude towards doing his job. plus the ass thinks I can just pay him for his imcompetence. Every time I have been in court all I do is answer stupid questions from her stupid attorney and my attorney does nothing![Comment on this post]
Costumes are ordered....
Lisa Elizabeth Smythe August 20th, 2008 9:10 am MDTWe are awaiting our Halloween costumes. My wife's will be here in 2-3 weeks, mine in 2 weeks, although my very first crinoline will arrive sooner!!! Now we just need to put together the rest of the accessories and all will be ready!! So far it is exciting to put togehter the two outfits for us!! Huggs, Lisa ELizabeth[Comment on this post]
Our trip to new Orleans
Anna and Racheal July 14th, 2008 8:47 am MDTWell we had quite an eventful and eye opening time in New Orleans along with a very nice surprise. First the vacation portion, I have to admit I was a bit turned off by the dirtyness of New Orleans. You would think a city who is so famous would be cleaner and that its resturants would be open later in the evening. I was amazed at how bad the road conditions are! my guess is they never heard of a street paver. Maybe this is done so the auto mechanics can become rich doing alignments and replacing shocks and tires and rims on the cars. I am also suprise in the Buorbon Street area of the city that they have not been sued by people falling and slipping on the sidewalks. I was amazed at how you could drive one or two city blocks and how drastic the environment would change. I love architecture and this city has it! but on the same time when your buildings are over grown with sticky vines from bottom to top and no windows its time to have the city buy a bulldozer and take down the house and building a empty lot is better than one that looks like crap! one of my favorite things was going into the voodoo stores and the art galleries in Bourbon Street areas. And of course the main high light was when Racheal proposed to me. I was very happy and did not hesitate to say yes![Comment on this post]
Coming this fall...
Lisa Elizabeth Smythe July 9th, 2008 6:04 am MDTWell, the thoughts for a halloween costume are still rattling around.... I believe I am going as a Medieval Fairy/ Lord of the Rings type character, Some reality, some fantasy!! My wife is going to join me and she now thinks going as a Mintrel/ Troubadour would work well since she has a short hair style. What I have found is that her outfit will be harder to put together than mine!! I only need a 2 hoop slip for under the skirt portion of the dress and possibly a different wig, mine is a little modern for medieval times. but it is an excuse to go wig shopping!!! We will have to put together an entire outfit for her though!!! Although I think it will be fun to accomplish!! Hopefully we will have pictures when all is ready! Huggs to all, Lisa Elizabeth[Comment on this post]
Testing
Carrie Alexis Michaels July 4th, 2008 10:49 am MDTtesting this out
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Feeling fine
Carrie Alexis Michaels July 4th, 2008 10:46 am MDTA great many days have I tried to type a journal express what and how I feel about my femme side. Well today I just want to say: Curse 5 O'Clock shadow.
There all done.
Later
Carrie A. Michael
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