Journal Entries for Nicole
Nrw years eve?
December 28th, 2010 2:14 pm MST
Anyone know of ant new years eve parties that is in my area?
Nicole
So lonely
November 12th, 2010 9:15 pm MST
So lonely, yet getting to know me more slowly yet surely.
Nicole
Parties?
October 27th, 2010 2:50 pm MDT
Anyone know of any private parties in the michigan/ohio border area, I would love to get out this weekend and hope I can. Let me know if anyone knows of any parties pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee :).
Nicole
Weird on the subscription
October 18th, 2010 3:24 pm MDT
I have to admit it's kinda of embarrassing with the subscription with this site and kinda dissappointing to be honest and hope this enbarrasses urnotalone site, first i went resignup for this site and it said online atleast it did not recocognize my ID very abvious what what my ID was btw, So as I said went to resign up for another month and it did not register my ID so I did on the phone and they said i would have to wait till my subscribscription expirated before I reinstated my subscription which id tommorrow, I gave it a month before I pretty much killed myself as Nicole anotherwords buried Nicole and carried on with my life as my male self which I just cannot do, hoping this site would bring me together with friends and maybe more and I guess still hoping for that since I am more then likely to resubscribe, yet I am dissappointed that I had to call and be embarrassed by this fact, yes I wint to live ft as nicole yet find society is unwilling to accept me for who I am , so to be put through thisI am hurt by it but will give it another 30 days to hopefully find friends and possibley more, so look for me as a regular member then a gold member.
I believe this site is very good but definately needs improvement.
Warmly,
Nicole
Still Looking for friends and more
October 14th, 2010 10:18 pm MDT
So here I am posting again, I have been ill , working , and had a family energency over the last couple of weeks. So if I responded slowly I apologize.
I am still looking for friends , and friends with benefits ( dont be scared by the friends with benefits comment) I really am also looking for people i think are compatable as either friends or more.
I am very open minded caring person. I think atleast I am sane and have a clear thinking in what and who i am looking for as friends or if you want maybe more.
If your looking for someone like myself open, honest, caring, more of a mindset as female yet i do have those male tendacies because I live most of my life as male :(.
Please send me a response and I will get back to you as soon as I can.
Warmly,
Nicole
Untitled Post
September 21st, 2010 3:04 am MDT
Well I finally edited my myspace account into well nothing lol, I hated that site the viruses and how slow that site is, it really amazes me it's still up.
Lonely and looking
September 20th, 2010 6:30 pm MDT
We all have heard that statement a million times, and I never thought i would but here i am.
I am really taking it pretty serious on building support, and hopefully finding someone I can be intimite with.
I really want to build new friendships and a support system , people I can be open and honest with, this is kinda my last ditch effort I have tried other sites and gone out to the bars, they just are not for me.
I hope i can find friends here and more, hopefully with a good attitude and smile on my face it will happen.
Nicole
Me
September 19th, 2010 1:35 pm MDT
Hi and thanks for looking at my profile, I am going to try and let you know about myself and what I am looking for.
I am 46 years old, caring , honest, ddf.
I live part time as a transgender girl, on the outside most of the time I am this caring guy who loves his job and the people he works around. On the inside I am dieing a little bit at a time because I live a lie to everyone around me and I am not true to myself or the world around me, I know true to my heart and my soul that I am, and have always been a woman with the same desires as any other woman wants or desires.
I know I am abit different as my genitally tells me so, I know I have listed myself as non-op and I feel comfortable with that as I have been growing up I have grown to be comfortable with my genitally, yet I have grown to be uncomfortable in what and how I look like ( A Man ).
I find woman attractive (whether they are genetic or not) to me a woman is woman and love the way woman look, smell, and feel. What makes a woman to me is whats between their ears not between their legs.
I have been on hrt for many years now and like the results, yet wish their was a magic pill and boom it was all fixed but I will take whatever I can hehe.
As far as what I am looking for is a woman and please read above what I think a woman is, and I am searching for someone out their who will accept me for me no matter what.
When it comes to relationships of anykind you will find I am extremely caring, and extremely patient and I do not wish to have a whole lot of drama when it comes to this.
I wish to find someone out their that I can express ALL my feelings, desires, and dreams.
I am hoping if I ever get into a serious relationship again as I am getting out of one right now, that this person will build a life WITH ME together and grow old.
What I wish in life is this atleast being with someone is that I am accepted for me, to build a future financially and emotionally, to wake up in the morning and knowing I am truley blessed to be with YOU and for you to know you are blessed to be with me, I want to feel this way no matter what age, no matter what happens in life. For you to know you are truely loved, and to feel I am truely loved by YOU as well. This is what I wish and pray for and yes to wake up one day and poof I am a goddess would be nice as well hehe but who knows hehe.
You have to know this is kinda my last effort here to find this, and to find someone who is ok with my transition and support, I have just about given up because of my recent breakup.
If I cannot find the soulmate love and all.
On a side note lol looking for that special friend and special nsa friend as well to fill the void that is their now.
Hope I don't sound to desperate lol, I just wanted to express really how I feel inside, and if honesty doesn't work I guess I will have to change this all sigh.
I hope you enjoyed reading this atleast hehe.
I hope this was refreshing as well from all the different profiles out their as well.
And I hope I find all the special people out their it be a friend, a lover, or the partner in life I am searching for as well the support I am looking for as well.
I wish everyone who reads this peace in your life, and love in your life.
Humbley yours,
Nicole
