Journal Entries for Paige Ellen Von Lapis
Day to day changes
March 28th, 2006 7:48 am MST
it's funny how things change. There used to be such excitement any day I could find time for Paige. What to wear, how much time to take, how to safeguard against being caught, those sorts of things. My situation has changed so much now that I dress every day and it is just a normal thing. I find myself amused when I talk on line to someone who is still hidden and still finds such a sexual charge in dressing. it stopped being sexual for me fairly quickly. I realized it was much more a part of me than just a sexual turn on. It was about feeling that I was being true to myself. Paige does have very sexual feelings, but just being dressed as Paige does not bring them out. It feels good to care for my body and to dress, it can be very sensual. I like that. But, sexual, no, not really, unless I have chosen an outfit that is particularly erotic in nature, but that is for private moments. I am curious as to how others feel about this sort of shift in self-perception, self-experience.
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Re: Day to day changes Alisha Marie March 28th, 2006 10:11 am MST I agree whole heartedly with your post. The thrill (and oh how it was one) of seeing my inner sister in the reflection of the mirror and in photos quickly faded. Might have lasted about 3-4 years. I would take advantage of every opportunity that came along to put on a lil makeup, the wig of the era and some nice frillies and just get so arroused and worked-up that the "WACKARANA" was beyond belief!.....Now days its not even much of a factor in the routien of femminity. I can't hardly remember the last time I wasted away a day, getting all gussied up and taking photos solo. Thats just such a dull and uneventful existence.... Whats fun and important now is spending time out in femme with my wife and our "sisters". We are co-owners of a yahoo group for the TG community here in south Texas, actually a splinter group or chapter so to speak of a state wide network of TG groups here in the great state of Texas. We always pick places where we believe everything will be ok and cater to both the experianced and firsttimers. Its all about pulling the ole fradie ladies outta that dark closeted existence and into the spotlight of sisterhood. Over the last year we have seen so many "seeds germanate, grow and blossom" into beautiful, confidant and funloving souls its hard to count.....Lastly; I agree that taking care of ourselves, for me in preparation for the next GNO is first and paramount. The shaving, grooming and facepainting is the foreplay and the climax comes when we arrive at the nights venue! Ready to show the world that the sisters of SAATG's are here for good, not afraid and in my case, ready willing and able to enforce good manners from the crowd. Nobody gets messed with with the AGT on duty.....thats Amazon Granny Tranny for those of you that were wondering.
