URNotAlone

I feel good, very good,...

February 26th, 2008 5:47 pm MST

  Anyone that has read my profile or joural post knows I have a supportive, very supportive spouse.  But I think this weekend has really shown me just how supportive she is of my,...  lets call it, situation.  On Saturaday night I would have liked to have gone out with a girl friend (that is "friend") for one of the usual evenings, drinks, dinner, dancing at some clubs, etc,..  But my wife had a minor medical procedure during the week and is using some pain medication, so there is no way I felt I could leave her home alone while taking the meds.  My GF called to see if I was coming out and I told no and why.  However my wife was beside me and told me I should go ahead and go out, that she would be fine.  I told her I couldn't do that and would stay home with her.  This discussion went back and forth for a while until I explained that I just wouldn't feel comfortable, I couldn't relax, and I wouldn't enjoy myself since I would be concerned about her being home alone.  Although my GF <grin> did earlier suggest we strap her in a wheelchair and take her with us,....  So even though I was tempted,... I still didn't go out.   More,..    My wife is involved in several organizations which have various events thoughout the year, I even have a Tuxedo which gets used quite often.  We're always checking with each other before making weekend plans because I never know when I'll be needed to wear that Tux,..   So I asked her if nothing is happing next weekend maybe I'll go out then if it would be ok with her.  She tells me that would be fine, and I could either spend the night at a hotel, or she would come and pick me up downtown after the clubs close. ( I still have to make arrangements for next weekend).     I suspect that last line go some attention, but that is the way it works. For an explanation I love to have my glasses of wine, or a martini or two which means,.. NO DRIVING.  A twenty plus mile ride in a taxi is rather expensive, so once or twice a month I split a room at the downtown Clarion Hotel with my GF.   Or,...  my wife will drive me downtown, drop me off at one of the clubs or hotel, and come back at 2 or 3 am to collect my rather tipsy ass (no, she doesn't go out with me locally).  I am still in awe of my wife, driving me downtown to go dancing in a gay club (in a dress),..   And my GF,..  her wife does the same,..  I feel good,...  ready to dance,... Hugs,   -Emma,