URNotAlone Journal for Melissa S, Genetic Male (Prefer Not to Say) Crossdresser 0, 0, 0 in Waipahu, Hawaii (United States)

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Yet another crossdressers story
Alexa January 4th, 2009 2:20 am MST
Let me tell you how it all started.

I remember being attracted to female clothing and elegant yet sexy specimen of the female gender since I was in my early teens.

When I first dressed in female underwear I could hardly stand the experience. It just felt so good, so right. Why aren't boys allowed to wear those beautiful garments?

But as so many did before me, I pushed these feelings aside and tried to live my male self in profession and relationship. However I sometimes wore skin-tight female bodywear and second hand clothing from female relatives.

After breaking up a long relationship with a woman, I started meeting men and discovered my female self. I am very happy that my husband is supporting and encouraging my crossdressing and he has a very good hand to pick the right outfit.

Take care

Alexa
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Happy New Year!
Cammy January 3rd, 2009 2:03 pm MST
Aloha,

So I've been a bad gurl! Haven't been corresponding much the past year. It's been soo busy and I've had very little time to be me. Such a drag being in drab and not able to be en femme. This has also left me very....... "h*^#y"! I hope next year will allow for more opportunities!

XOXO

Cammy
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Happy New Year
Alexa January 1st, 2009 7:21 am MST
We spent new years eve in a nice gay restaurant in Munich. I admit I was the prettiest lady among all the guys. I wore a new red, skin tight and very revealing evening dress. Important for me to tell that my darling spent 4 hours sewing on that dress. I wish all of you a happy new Year.
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2008 in Review
Dan™ & Erin™ December 31st, 2008 2:28 pm MST
Well, it's definitely been an interesting year. A lot has happened. I ended a relationship with the best girlfriend I've ever had (though she still wasn't right), I've watched my prosperity complete dry up, I've almost completely stopped smoking and my drinking is almost not even noticeable at this point. I've fallen in love with the most incredible woman and I'm slowly figuring things out.

When the year began, I was worried about money. My company stopped producing and selling adult content which resulted in a massive drop of revenue. Around the same time, I broke my primary revenue producing website preventing people with IE 6 from accessing it, so I spent most of the year working on a new design which finally went online in August.

I really thought most of my financial problems were my fault. The result of changes in my companies business model and my own failing's running the web sites. In fact, I was so busy trying to figure out what I was doing wrong that I didn't notice the world collapsing slowly outside my window.

I had to cash in my kids college funds to pay bills. I had to cancel my life insurance to pay bills. When my car died, I decided to sell it for scrap rather than repair it. Fewer bills again. My house is usually a bit chilly and dark to save on utilities. I've reduced my monthly budget by around 2,000. I've been selling furniture to buy groceries.

For everything that had gone wrong, I'm optimistic. Not because I see an end in sight, but because I feel like I'm getting a handle on things. I have the best friends of my life. I'm in love for the first time in my life. I'm relatively healthy and my kids are healthy and seem well adjusted.

I think things are going to get worse. A lot worse, but I'm confident that we'll all get through this. As a planet, we need to step back and assess what's important. We need to focus on the things that need to be done, and we need to start working towards a better future.

I think we'll do it.

I hope.
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First Journal Posting 28 Dec 2008
Teri Ray December 28th, 2008 2:18 pm MST
First time at posting a journal comment. I havent dressed in ages. I miss it. Hope to have a chance to dress soon. Huggs Teri
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Merry xMas!
Dan™ & Erin™ December 25th, 2008 7:35 am MST
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Randon thoughts on dress size
Kathleen Monroe December 18th, 2008 11:13 pm MST
Well I imagine I will try this again, apparently I am not the only one having problems with it. I will let loose some random thoughts, and see what happens.

My latest obsession is now dress size, which is ridiculous, but nonetheless is bothering the hell out of me. I finally broke my personal goal of a size 10, but now I am eyeing a size 8. At what point do I call this silly, and just go with it? Hours and hours of spinning later, only to convince myself to do more. The way we are made to believe size really means something is a little sadistic, I mean nobody likes the fat girl, right? I have been up and down with this weight thing my entire life, and everytime I start to be satisfied with where I am, I take it a little bit further. The holidays usually make me nuts with this, and now I have a cookie baking party to go to this weekend; which will be great fun, but I will probably gain ten pounds. I would be interested to know how other girls feel about the whole size/weight thing and what their keys to success are.

Also, finally found a great outfit for the holidays! A little retro, a little glamour, ought to be great! I am going to try these fabulous boots i found with it, so we will see.
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Journal Part Deux
Kathleen Monroe December 5th, 2008 9:52 pm MST
Just trying to do the journal thing again, I somehow always manage to mess it up somehow. Anyway, in need of a little superficial girl talk. I am seriously considering a new hairstyle and color for the holidays, maybe just highlights, I don't know. I have been trying new eye makeup techniques too, a little heavier than I usually go, but it seems festive, you know? I can usually get away without a ton of makeup, and I never wear false eyelashes, but I really want to look good for a couple parties I will be going to. MAC is good stuff, but I always end up looking a little too drag queen if that makes any sense. And no, I am NOT hating on drag queens! I love 'em. Maybe I should have said "entertainer", hell I probably just made somebody mad, so I will just give that line of thinking up! This time of year always makes me gain weight. I know it's the time of year and not all the cookies right? Haha. I have been in a size 12 all year, and know I will probably ruin it in a month. Then I get to start the New Year trying to go straight to size 10, which I haven't seen for awhile. Sometimes a girl just has to vent and be a little silly you know? I'd be interested to know if any of you other girls out there have any thoughts on the eye makeup thing, and swap notes if possible. Anyhow, I must run, I will post later. Hopefully my journal will work this time.
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Wig Shopping
Christine Young November 16th, 2008 9:43 am MST
Wow - I went up to Ann's wig shop (www.annswigs.com) take a look around after hearing about the place from Marsha. Joe was a sweetheart and boy, does he have an eye for what looks good! I went up in guy mode - no problem. I did call in advance to tell him I heard about Ann's on URNA. After trying things on I wanted to buy about 6 wigs, lol, but finally settled on a sexy auburn number that fit my budget.

I'd highly recommend Ann's to anyone who's looking. Great prices, wonderful service, and, in today's economy, I sure wouldn't want to see THIS place struggle so I plan to go back for those other five as soon as my budget catches up!
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Test Entry
Linda Lewis November 16th, 2008 7:57 am MSTThis is a test to see it this working. Please do not respond to it.
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Purple America
Dan™ & Erin™ November 7th, 2008 3:03 pm MST
For those of you who still think that the election was close, take a look at these two maps. One shows the counties in their actual size shaded blue or red based on what the population voted.

This map shows each county with a size set by the population. It looks a lot less red.

This is far more of the mandate the George W Bush claimed four years ago, this is a landslide. For those of you that fear a socialist government, let me just state the following:

1. Socialist nations like Denmark, Normay, Sweden and Holland have:
1. Highest quality of living
2. Highest per capita income
3. Highest literacy rates
4. Lowest crime rates
5. Lowest infant mortality rates
6. Things like HRT and SRS are covered by the national health
I've heard a lot of people claim that Obama was a socialist. He's not. I wish he was, but I would have been no more enthusiastic of his candidacy.

Be that as it may, why would socialism be so scary anyway?

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Where have you been Dianne (not Jimmy Dean)
Dianne Elizabeth October 29th, 2008 2:20 pm MDT
Ok, so perhaps like many of you, it's such a rush when we 1st get here. Like that 1st pair of "perfect" pumps that lift you up in so many ways. We get breathless (for some it's the altitude, I mean really 12" heels...?) For others, we just try to do to much to quickly.

Writing has always been a means for me to catch my breath. Take a moment and reflect. I know I'm more at peace now. More comfortable in my skin so to speak. Are there times I think more about further changes? Yes, but then I realize that I have changed. The physicality of being trans is still a huge part of my psyche (word?, yes but not in the way you may think) In Roman mythology, Psyche was a beautiful young woman who was loved by Cupid and ultimately made immortal by Jupiter. Cupid visited her secretly at night, forbidding her ever to look at him. When she did, he abandoned her, but they were eventually reunited.

So, what does it mean. It means, I love being Dianne physically of course. I like looking at her(me)...still confused by that, but more and more I just like feeling like her (being a feminine soul). I can and am Dianne, even when I'm not dressed.

I hope to be around more and able to expand my contact with those who have reached out to me already. I'm sorry if it seems one minute I'm there, then I'm not. I promise to put more of me into our future meetings, whether there by letter or by IM (I'm going to figure that out I promise that too!)

For now, enough already. Hugs and Kisses to all my sisters! Hope you'll accept my mea culpa and give me a hug back!

Love, Dianne
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Halloween has always been my favorite holiday
Dan™ & Erin™ October 20th, 2008 1:50 pm MDT
Halloween has always been my favorite Holiday. Godless heathen that I am, there aren't many holidays that don't have the flavor of one of more gods tainting them. That's all right. I love Solstice decorations, and even some Christmas decorations (I usually have angels on my tree). Easter is fun because of coloring eggs and candy. I guess you could say that I enjoy some holidays that have been co-opted by religions in spite of that. Halloween though has always had a special place in my heart. There isn't a related religious holiday to be seen. It's all about dressing up and having fun. A final harvest festival to usher in the cold snowy months. I just got news that is going to make Halloween even better for me. I just got a notice from the Clerk of the Court of Common Please, Franklin County Ohio, Domestic Division. After six long irritating years of playing silly buggers in the court system, the judge has finally lost patience and is going to grant me an uncontested divorce! My children and I haven't even SEEN their mother is eight years! I always celebrated Halloween in Boston with the drag queens and transvestites. It's always a really fun time. I've been planning a "Bachelor Party" to coincide with my divorce. I think this is going to be an annual event! Anyway, I'm excited. The only fly in the ointment is that I am supposed to be in court at 9 am and my flight for Boston is scheduled for 1:20 pm the same day, so I may have to see about pushing it back. Either way, I'm pretty excited!
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Test entry
Linda Lewis October 16th, 2008 10:19 am MDT
This is a test entry to see if I can add entries to my journal. please do not reply to this. Thenks.
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Are They......?
Linda Lewis October 14th, 2008 9:14 am MDT
This journal entry is for all of you who have been asking about, wondering if, or curious to know, if my breasts, seen in my latest pics, are real. They're not. What I have is an expensive prosthetic that I purchased from a manufacturer called Pro-Active Prosthetics located in the UK. What I have is called a Cleavage Croptop. Here's the URL for their website: www.proactiveprosthetics.com The best way to find out about the Cleavage Croptop is to visit their site and click on the "Cleavage Range" button in the navigation panel on the left side of their Home Page. Everything is explaine there about the Croptop. It is expensive, but it is well worth the money invested. I have the full "D" cup size Croptop. It takes about 6 months from ordering to delivery. I love my Croptop. It's the next best thing to having implants.
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The Candidates, simplified
Dan™ & Erin™ October 9th, 2008 11:12 pm MDT
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Back again
Linda Lewis September 6th, 2008 9:49 am MDT
Those of you who have been following the problems I had with my neighbors at the apartment complex I live in, the two guys who were giving me the most problems moved out finally. I hope that they have to put up with the crap I had to deal with from them, from their new neighbors. What goes around comes around. After 9 months, I'm free to be Linda again. I will be adding new pics here soon, so stay tuned for those.

As for the moving situation that I had on my profile page earlier, that situation will be reversed shortly. The new neighbors who have moved in below me have been doing a good job in keeping their puppy quiet for most of the time. I will be talking with the apartment manager about renewing my lease when it comes time to do that again.

One last thing before I end this entry, I have been asked by my dear friend FoxyKaren if I would like to re-join SSofNE. Karen honey, YES!!!! I would love to re-join. If you are reading this sometime soon, please send me an invite. Thank you love. I've missed you all very much. *Kisses*
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Open Casting Call for Gothcoming 2k8 (Chas Ray Krider)
Dan™ & Erin™ August 29th, 2008 12:37 pm MDT
Chas Ray Krider (http://www.motelfetish.com) and Daniel Goode (http://www. retrokitten.com) will be holding open casting call interviews at The Invisible Studio for Gothcoming 2k8 (Friday Oct 3rd, 2008).

Chas will be interviewing for assistants and performers for an installation piece the night of Gothcoming.

Daniel is interviewing for Box Dancers and general assistants.

Wednesday August 3rd
2PM - 5PM
7PM - 9PM

The Invisible Studio
219 King Ave
Columbus OH, 43201
http://maps.google.com/maps?f=q&hl=en&geocode=&q=219+King+Ave+Columbus+OH&sll=37.0625,-95.677068&sspn=44.069599,68.203125&ie=UTF8&ll=39.990454,-83.012202&spn=0.010456,0.016651&z=16&iwloc=addr

If you are unable to attend the open casting call, you can contact Chas or Daniel directly to set up and interview.

Chas Ray Krider 614 327-2793
Daniel Goode 614 546-9117

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Darlene still looking for her galpal
Darlene Gizelle Renee Broussard August 18th, 2008 8:32 pm MDThey ladies out there in so cal im still looking for a galpal to hang out with share company time at your place or mine and go out and enjoy each other company too lets be carefree and enjoy life for all its worth hugs to all the tran lezzz out ther hugs Darlene
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Say Hello to Roxy
Dan™ & Erin™ August 17th, 2008 6:44 pm MDT
Today, Lynne and I bought the most adorable Chihuahua. We found her through http://petfinder.com. She was from a mother that was rescued from a puppy mill.

She is quite possibly the most adorable animal that we've ever seen. I'm really glad we are able to give her a good home. Our cats of course don't seem really thrilled yet, but I'm sure they will come around.

It's been a good weekend. Things aren't turning around yet, but progress is being made in all of the right directions.

http://gallery.me.com/dan.frederick/100169

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