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Damn

December 27th, 2008 10:19 pm MST

 Well I know it's been some time since posting but I did try durning URNA's rebuilding.

 So here we go,

 OK as most everyone know Tammie and I have been together now going on 3 yrs yes 3 yrs and this past September we had our Commitment ceremony (like marriage) and had to kinda rush it together as I had gotten a new job in Seattle Washington and had my start date like the 6th of October. So for all that didn't know about Tammie and I ya do know LOL.

 Well this is just an update and to also say and tell others that just because your a TS doesn't mean you can't get a good job and that the job needs to be only a "T: friendly place. Look at me......I got a good job and I am a Preop TS not even Postop so there is really truth in that just cause your TS you can't find a good job. Yes I had to struggle and also work bad jobs but I kept plugging away and landed this job. I had to fly from Ohio to WA for the interview and go through an interview with 7 people in the room (talk about feeling like a gold fish in a bowl at feeding time) and answer all kinds of questions coming from everywhere. So yes I was the one being stared at by all of the men in the room and trying to get a job in a male dominated industry. Well DAMN I got the job offer like a week after we went out there and it made us look at things in a different light.

 Tammie and I when we were in Cincinnati Ohio were very involved in the LGBT community and trying progress our community even when we were called traitors by our own side of the community because we were on HRC's diversity committee but yet we worked ahead to try and prove the Trans community is a very valuable part of the LGB community. Well we thought we could just jump back in and go to work with the orgs out here but DAMN we still needed to get our own affairs in order here before we could get back to it and then blam the Prop8 issue in Ca was a big deal here too. They had 10,000 + people attend a march out here and DAMN it was unbelievable to see all the support.

 Ok enough of that, we are super SUPER I mean SUPER happy that we moved out here. Yes we miss our friends in Ohio that have become part of our FAMILY but this move was the best thing for Tammie as she is now FULLTIME yeah. Thats another story that she call tell ya.

 But to everyone......Yes Tammie and I are DAMN happy and are proud to be TS women.

Hugssss

 Well now that we are here it is h

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Is it true

June 4th, 2008 2:40 pm MDT

Is it true,

Is it true that my life has changed and has changed in such a positive and different way.

 Yes my life has changed in so many ways from what it was before. Not only the obvious but also in such a way that I never would have imagined. I have not only changed physically and emotionally but also my perspectives have changed too.

 I am talking about not just sitting in the background and waiting for legal changes for us to have rights. Tammie and I have gotten so into the Advocacy part of being TS. Yes both of us have.  I'm tired of hearing all the winning about not having protections and support from others. I know that taking this road leaves not only me but also Tammie open for being Fired,loss of our home, no medical insurance and having to do things that others are to afraid of doing. But if we don't stand up and help fight who in here will.

 We as a group need to stand together and fight for our rights not just a few of us. Tammie and I have been to some speeches and Lobby events and have noticed the LACK of TS people showing up but yet we here all the time all of the excuses of why not. We can never get ahead if all of us don't stand up together and show our strength and also how many there really is of us. Us as a minority yes minority (TS) have been refused any type of Job,Housing,Medical and Basic human rights. TS people get treated as the lowest of the low in reguards to rights. But yet there is only a very small handfull of us who are willing to fight for our basic human rights. I know what I am about to say is or will piss and upset some people in here but at this point tuff. I do apologise in advance if you are on that end of what I am about to say. This is about how the TS group of us.

 Ok we as Transexual people keep getting lumped in with all these others that fall under the TG umbrella. The rights that are being asked for are for TS people in the housing and workplace not CD's or TV's. But yet all the reasons for us being denied these rights are because our Government and others in society belive that this opens doors for CD's and others to use public areas. We as the whole TG group know that this is not true. CD people will not go to work in Fem they don;t want they're family and friends to find out. They have to much to lose if someone finds out but yet we don;t move ahead because of this and also because they don't have a true sense of whta the TS community is all about.

Yes I know i'm just ranting about all of this. But I see it at some of the things I attend. Tammie and I have really gotten involved with activisium and plan on doing this until whenever. So please try and understand where my thoughts are coming from. I am in NOWAY putting anyone down. I am just venting my displeasure of how things trully work.

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How i'm happy

January 5th, 2008 8:34 pm MST

 Just would like to let everyone know that Tammie and I have like fallen even more on Love and have gotten even closer over the time we have lived together. This still seems as though it's a dream.

  4 yrs ago I was so deeply depressed and had actually given up on life and even tried to end it to stop the hurting. I never though it was at all possible for me to ever find true happiness or evne Love, but it all has changed since I met Tammie.

 We started out just as friends in here (yes URNA) trying to just give each other simple support that we could give each other since we lived so far apart, me in SoCal and her in Ohio and thats all it was... a true friendship nothing more and we also were not looking to meet anyone for any other reason. But it happened and it happened in such a manner where both of us were to damn afraid to say anything to the other about the feelings we were having for each other afraid we might ruin our friendship we have. But on one day Tammie actually came out with her feelings and then I did also after listening to her and a sof that day we have been a couple. Then I had a an idiot idea and moved to Texas in hopes of transitioning and getting all of the things ready for tammie to move there with me and as most of you know that was a wash and scary ordeal being there alone and NO job and wanting to transititon. But that isn't the worst thing about moving to Texas....the worst was trying to find this bar out in Austin called Bout time and stopped to get some gas around 9 pm and there I was almost raped and knocked out. I still say the attendant is my hero for scarying them off. 

 Tammie came out there and told me that I am moving you out of here and your coming home with me and she had gotten us an Apt and so we packed the stuff up and she moved me out to Ohio with her and guess what people it is true...it's not where yu live but who your with and I can honestly say there is NO PLACE I would rather be then right here by her side.

 To everyone out there this can trully happen and it did to us.

For those of you who don't know us we are the 2 happy Love birds sittintg on cloud nine and will lend a helping hand to all.

 Tammie you not only made me fall so deeply and madly in Love with you you also stole my heart and soul. I am forever yours and will always be right here next to you standing by yourside . I Love you Tammie

 01/05/2007

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moved from Profile

November 25th, 2007 11:31 am MST

7/09/07  Just an update for everyone. Tammie and I are getting even closer and wow I never thought this could ever be possible, to fall in Love with someone and have not just your Love and Feelings for them grow but also be in a place of total Happiness. I wish I could explain to everyone how this really feels but I just cannot put this into words so I will just use 1 word -- PERFECT--  it's the only one I can think of.
 I know alot of you are saying to your selves that this just cannot be how can 2 people be so in Love, well guess what it has and this is for real. So until the update.

 Wow it's been a Year for Tammie and I as of 5/01/07 boy how time flies.
 I wish everyone could feel how I do and to be in a real Loving relationship. I am trully on cloud 9 and guess what this relationship has only began to bloom.
 
 I am a pre op male to female.I am 45 yrs old and love to cook,music,watch movies and long conversations.
I also do not Cyber or do phone so don't ask Thank you.

 I want to thank all of those for all of there support and love you all.

 I have met the most Wonderfull,sweet,sincer and beautiful Woman and we have just started our relationship and I so Addore her. I am so very much commited to her and our new life journey together.I am so looking foward to us spending the rest of our lives togehter.And I know some of you know her and I bet those who do feel the same as I do on how sweet she is. TammieLynn I Love you.

 Just an update for everyone...As of 8/31/06 TammieLynn and myself are starting our lives together as one and I am moving to Ohio to be with her. We are like so very Happy and in Love with each other and we know deep in our Hearts that this was meant to be.
 Hugss to everyone.

 TammieLynn I Love you....                                                

 ** Update for everyone....as of 9/5/06 Tammielynn and I are now in our own apt. and starting our lives together forever. And yes she got me to move to Ohio (giggles).

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Cali trip

January 27th, 2007 7:51 am MST

 Hi all just wanted to update all of you. Well Tammie and I went out to Cali on the 16th of January and to let all of you know that flying enfemm is not very hard to do at all even without your legal name change. We went out there so I could get my name change done and to also see my Doc. It all went very well and as of January 19 2007 my name on my DL says it and also has the big (F) on it. We also did some shopping ( of course ), sight seeing, visit Family members and took some cool pics.  That week to be Honest was the best week of my life so far all because I got to spend it with the Love of my life Tammie Lynn who not only made it great for me but she also had a lot of First's for herself ( she will have to tell ya ).  So all of you who a scared, unsure of airports and their policies, or just unsure it was easy (granted I am fulltime but it still was simple. With all that happened in Cali now I am even closer to getting to that Final stage ( SRS ) which will hopefully be in January or Febuary of next yr. Boy how things have changed since going fulltime 6 months ago. It's hard to explain how much alive I feel now,  no depression at all ( got to love the hormones ) , and to have found the Love of my Life with out her I don't know where I would be. Hugss Debra Anne Johnson

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The Best Weekend of My Life

August 7th, 2006 8:06 pm MDT

I have just had the most magical and amazing weekend with the Love of my life.It really all started on May 1st , 2006 when Tammie asked me to be her Girl friend and of course I said yes. Since that date we have gotten so very close and so in love but we had yet to meet in person. Yes we talked daily and even in some cases all night on the phone and also watched movies together while on the phone together. Last month we had some very bad things happen in our lives which yes brought us closer and that’s when she told me she was going to come out here and so we set a date ( Aug 4th 2006 ) for us to finally meet in person. Yes I know how can 2 people actually fall in love just from talking online or on the phone. It did happen and it can happen. Well we both where scared and had our concerns on how true our feelings really were and also how serious this is actually. Well we found out it is very serious and real.On Friday August 4th 2006 I went to the Airport to pick up Tammie. I got there early and sat down at the Baggage claim area to wait for her as we discussed on the phone. I sat there for an hour or so waiting when she called and said she had landed and was coming in so I told her where I was so we would not need to look around for each other. I got up and was waiting by the Escalators when all these people where coming down and she wasn’t with them so I sat back down in the chair and waited when I noticed someone walking towards me and realized it was her so I jumped up and went to her and all we did was kiss and hug each other for a few minutes. We than sat down to wait for her Luggage and yes just hugged and kissed some more. We got her luggage and then drove back to my place and yes more hugging and kissing. Well when we got back here all we wanted to do was be together with no interruptions or having to go out with all the noise ( I had all ready had dinner cooking ). We went to the store and bought some groceries so we could cook dinner together the next night. We got back and just stayed in and watched some of the X games and talked about what we had started 4 months ago and also how serious we really were about each other.  Day 2 we woke up next to each other and talked some more. We than decided to go for a drive around Austin so she can see some of the sites which I still don’t know much about since I just moved here. We stopped at a Jack in the box for lunch since she has never been to one before and sat down inside and talked some more about us and what we will do tonight. We decided on going to a club called Bout time. So we got ourselves ready and drove over to the club and arrived around 9 pm. We shot pool and talked and met some very nice people there but while we were there we got so much closer and for me I was so very proud to be there with her as her Girl friend I mean we hugged and kissed there as well. Well we closed the place down and then went to get something to eat since it was very late and we were both kind of hungry so we ended up at an IHOP and sat down and of course talked more. Tammie drove us home and I sat there right next to her talking and kissing her. We got home about 3 am and went to bed where we didn’t go to sleep until around 6 am. Ok this is where the most amazing things happened, we talked about how everything in the past few hours and the day before felt so perfect and so true we both just gave each other everything we have to give, I mean I have never in my life ever wanted to give someone my complete self I mean all of me and I did as did she. This night we not only became more in love but now we are engaged. I am not kidding to any of you this is so real.  Day 3 We woke up in each others arms again and just totally wanted to just sit in and be together. We did say we were going to go shopping and get some pictures of us but we just stayed in and wanted to not let any of our time be wasted. We watched yes more of the X games and just held each other and also watched the rain come down. We talked about how everything has totally changed in our relationship from where it was just a few days ago and how much we want this.I hope I am not making to many of you just sick and going yea right this don’t happen in real life but guess what it did and it is so very real. Hey I also had those same thoughts that nothing like this really happens, well boy was I so wrong.Well I hope I didn’t bore a lot of you with this. I know that the ones who know Tammie and me would want to know about it. Well here it is in a short story without all of the Details.Hugssss to everyone………Tammie I Love youDebbi

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The most amazing Woman.

July 23rd, 2006 11:03 am MDT

 Well hi there everyone,I had the most wonderfull evening last night with the Love of my life (even though we were still apart but on the Phone). Tammie was planning on going out to meet up with some friends but first she asked me if she could go and of course I said yes,but then she was having trouble making up her mind to go for some reason. Together we came up with a plan to stay home and watch a movie together. So we came up with a movie to watch together (remember she is in another state) and talk. Well here is the cool part we did this while on the phone and talked,laughed and cried together. Last night in my opinion has brought us even closer together and more in love with each other. So to go on we are now so much more closer and just wanting to be with each other that if there is any I mean anyone having issues with a long distance relationship we both highly recomend at least trying this if you have unlimited mins. our free Long distance cause it really does help.As some of you know there has been some major Termoil that has happened for us and this did help. I am letting everyone in here know how Happy and in Love I am with her and how serious I am about our Relationship. Also I want to Thank everyone for there kindness,Love and support for her and I in this past week with all that has happend.Hugsss to all .Debbi(ps I Love you Tammielynn )

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Untitled Post

May 7th, 2006 11:02 am MDT

Well I neede to give all of you a wonderfull update. I am in a wonderfull longterm relationship with the most amazing woman I have ever met.She is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I am looking so foward to spending the rest of my life with her.I Love you Tammie.

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