URNotAlone

look in the mirror

December 23rd, 2007 11:14 am MST

Hi my name is chrissy bits in the chat room.I feel very lucky i look the way i do.Ive tried totreat thouse presenting thanselfs as female as female.And a few are my friends.And this dosent pretain to them.I love my body and myself.I grew up in a phobic household,and a phobic era.Iwent to grat leanghts to hide my true self from a early age.religious belieafs were very harmful part of the damage done.As a teen i dressed in private athough my sister aways seemed to catch me.In general public i was the bad boy,i fought at the drop of a hat.I partied my brain out than joined the corps that didnt stop it.I rode and party w/bikers.Even marriied trying to be quote normal.My ex wife knew about me but durring all this wasnt happy.I bcme a welder in oil industry to support my familly.Than i lost all except my trade . duringe 96 i faceed myself.If it wasnt for the gblt community i would not be here.I tend to be a bit of an exhibitionist that dont make me a whore or slut.IT MAKES ME A HUMAN.Some come in here spoutin off how good they are and what they see as moral.Yet the very same come here dressed as female and spout off that if we dont conform to there thinking we are evil.Look in a mirror how do you think society looks upon you.And dont blame me i go out 24/7 and am acceptted.Its a battle we all face and thouse of us who are out there as well as thoughs that came before me are why things are changin.this is a vast community from the fettish to the post op ts.no one is better than the other.But when you spout of how lilly white u are you realy need to take a deep look inside your self.Its my exsperiance your hiding a monster.And i can give numerous exsamples.One is the one urna just delt with in the past month that dan spoke of.So if u think u are so rightious join the preist hood.