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  • lusciousleggs

    Told the Wife

    lusciousleggs November 1st, 2008 4:40 pm MDTWell, I told the wife that I wanted to dress up like a woman for Halloween, she invited me to meet her at the shoe store, to try on some heels. I thought that she was going to say "NO! We looked around and found a nice pair of sexy black high heels. I told her no to mention this to anyone. Well, the night came and she was to meet me at the party, thinking I was going to be dressed up. I told her that I chickened out, and that I shaved myself smooth and tried everything on but just could not do it. I think now, she knows I dress, but is not wanting to deal with it. I asked her if she wanted to see me all dressed up and she said no. So I guess I'm still in the closet, but I think she knows I do this.

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  • lusciousleggs

    Why do we do this

    lusciousleggs October 11th, 2008 7:38 pm MDTI wake up feeling alright, then all the sudden, I want to dress like a sexy woman? What is it that make us do this. For the longest time, I thought it was just me, that I had stumbled on the greatest thing that none ever had ever thought of. I'm fine for weeks, months, then all the sudden, WHAM!!! I'm sliding on stockings, fastening my garterbelt, putting on make up, a wig, high heels, short skirt, lacy bra and panties, silk blouse, trying to look my best. I take pictures to see how I will transform from year to year. I was about 10 or 11 years old when these feelings came apon me. My mom always wore sexy things, she was a very attractive woman, but when you're growing up you don't think those kind of things, they don't even enter your mind.

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  • Doris

    becoming

    Doris September 26th, 2008 11:16 am MDTI want to be more andmore. I can't be enough. I want help!

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  • Meghan Chavalier

    Stopping The Hate

    Meghan Chavalier September 13th, 2008 5:34 am MDTI recently started a new LGBT Organization called Stopping The Hate.  Please visit the website for more information.   http://www.stoppingthehate.com   xoxo Meghan

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  • Nicole Morgin

    The busiest summer ever!

    Nicole Morgin July 27th, 2008 7:49 pm MDTOk, sooo!  I have been the busiest little bee ever.  I had forgotten how much goes into my little ole lifestyle.  Not to mention some modeling shoots, and building content for my upcoming site! But Im so happy and having fun, things are calming a bit and Im going to have some time to get back out and enjoy the rest of summer. I opened a flickr account for some photos and you guys and gals that have written me there, thank you! Let see:  So far I've done some work now with Elle at Spell Cosmetics--She continues to be awesome and Im going to be working to get the word out in our community, but she's already like the major ROCKSTAR of gg's in Cleveland.  I told her Id drop a little note on some stuff on her site and I can vouch for a couple awesome products.  The Beard cover kit (Rocks) and is not expensive--the nail colors are beyond killer and she has tons of shadows and lip colors.  I even gave permission for her to use a few of my images! ok, for now back to my little grind!!!  Luv Ya  

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  • Meghan Chavalier

    Sorry it's been so long

    Meghan Chavalier July 6th, 2008 1:14 am MDTHey Ladies and Gents, Sorry I haven't posted in such a long time I've just been really busy working on things.  I'm sure alot of you have heard my music or seen the music videos by now, but if not you can check them out at http://www.youtube.com/meghanchavalier or http://www.meghansmusic.com.  Well, let's see what's going on. Summer is finally here, but it's been unusually cold out lately. Not sure why I guess that just happens sometimes. Global warming?  Who knows...maybe Mother Nature is taking valium lol. Anyway, I have a new forum on my Official Meghan Chavalier website and would love for you to come over and say hello and discuss with me and all the other members (Okay it just went up like 3 days ago so you might be one of the first ten members lol)  But, it's free and hopefully we can start some good conversations. The addie is http://meghanchavalier.adultforumhost.com/ So drop me a note, I go there at least 3 times a day to talk shop or just reply to questions and such.  Have a great week ahead and hope your 4th Of July was Fantabulous!   xoxo Meghan

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  • Nicole Morgin

    Ohhh Models

    Nicole Morgin June 7th, 2008 4:01 pm MDTOk everyone.  Ive been working diligently on my website.  Im going to use a URNA member tyo host it.  Ive been working with ELLE at www.spellcosmetics.com  who has provided my makeovers etc.  She rocks!!!!  We have been collaborating as I am becoming her fashion editor.  We are planning some summer makeover parties, so let me know if you have an interest!!!!!

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  • Tiffany Leigh

    Beach Blanket Bingo-Triangles July 19th!

    Tiffany Leigh May 12th, 2008 8:03 am MDTBeach Blanket Bingo! at Triangles Café on Saturday, July 19th... Dress code (strongly encouraged): Beach Bunnies & Sun Goddesses, Havana Nights, Hawaiian Tropic, Sarongs & Wild Bikinis, Flower & Jungle Prints, Bo Derek's Bolero, Carmen Miranda, or Frankie & Annette!.... Shot specials all night!, NO cover before 9PM! Live DJ from 10P-close!... More info (including hotel discount) = http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FriendsOfTriangles http://www.myspace.com/friendsoftriangles http://www.trianglescafe.com

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  • Meghan Chavalier

    April 24, 2008

    Meghan Chavalier April 23rd, 2008 10:01 pm MDTHello gorgeous guys and gals,   I haven't posted an entry in a minute so just thought I'd drop by and let you know what's going on in my world as of late.  I've been working on music alot lately and have my Official My Space Music Page up and running if you'd like to check it out the addie is www.myspace.com/meghanchavaliermusic.  I became a member of ASCAP for songwriters so I guess I'm onto the next adventure in my life.  I guess I'm just trying to do everything I always wanted to do and just keep pushing forward in life. I think it's important to try everything, until you find your true niche and that's what I'm doing at this time in my life. Have a great week! Huggs M

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  • Nicole Morgin

    Oh its on!!!

    Nicole Morgin April 23rd, 2008 8:38 am MDTSo, I prep for spring weather for like six months, and I start it with a cold the last couple weeks---YUK!  But Im better and back at work with my site.  Im thinking June 1 I launch it.  I want it to be rockin, fun and most of all inetresting and different.  Any ideas will be so greatly appreciated.

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  • Tiffany Leigh

    Next Triangles Party May 3rd - Last One Until Summer!

    Tiffany Leigh April 19th, 2008 9:05 am MDTHey everyone! My next Triangles party in Danbury, CT is Sat. May 3rd! This will be the last one until at least mid-July, which is a hiatus of up to 10 weeks! So if you can make it and don't think you can wait until the summer, join us in May at Triangles. Link=http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FriendsOfTriangles

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  • Nicole Morgin

    New Gallery

    Nicole Morgin April 7th, 2008 4:55 pm MDTSome new pics, New fashion looks, new makeup, new attitude--I think..lol

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  • Nicole Morgin

    TG Friendly

    Nicole Morgin April 5th, 2008 8:15 am MDTTG Friendly!!! The term has bothered me for years!!  I've often wondered what TG Friendly really means. First, we all use it, and that includes me.  But it serves as a reminder and a big caution to all of us, that its implication exists.  There remains a non Tg friendly world out there.  For the most part, we have the whole internet to shop our little hearts out, but we do not however enjoy that luxury when it comes to the big bad world of retail sales. How we are treated on the world wide web is radically different then how we are treated in the local mall.  Now bear in mind that there are some big box stores that are accepting of us, BUT, this may only be because of a tendancy to blend with hundreds of shoppers.  I wish you the best however if you have to walk up to the counter of a mall store or boutique and receive positive open service.  Don't get me wrong, Im not going to write reviews and point out the bad places, what I will do however is point out the good.  I am a critic, because I shop.  I am fortunate enough to properly budget to spend a bit of money on this habit. When I do shop, I pay particular attention to my treatment, and when it is done in a caring, professional, comfortable and businesslike way, I'm on it and loyal. I have layed out in some of my blogs, comments in different places on the net my pleasurable experiences.  Those stores/sites/owners, I will stand up for and promote.  As I have been working to build my new website, I have come across different web pages while doing research and or intermittantly shopping.  One thing is starting to bother me because I've noticed it recently and I'm going to give my two cents in a heads up.  Im a shoe shopper (more than I should be), but there are a ton of shoe sites out there ready to sell to the world.  Recently I have discovered that there are almost an equal number of shoe stores catering specifically to the transgender world.  Here comes the problem:  I have seen the same shoe on a standard woman's shoe site for $19.00 and the exatc same shoe (same picture, same name) on a transgender shoe store for $39.00.  I've often thought "this shoe must be TG Friendly, because it costs so much more!)    NO....  NO....NO....  Bad Shoe Store.  I can't buy it from you.  I guess I must have clicked the button that said transgendered, because my price seems to be a lot higher than a genetic female is paying for the same one.  I think we are getting the drift.  Now, I'm all about businesses and companies making profit, but profit off of me because you have set demand, profit off of me because you have free gifts with my shoe order, profit off of me because you can get them wholesale cheaper than others or because you sell obscure sizes, but DO NOT profit off of me just because I am who I am. Know your business, know your clients.  If you want to sell to us, we are very glad to buy, but treat us equally and care about how we feel when shopping with you.  Make us comfortable and be welcoming and yes, we will even pay the higher price for that treatment.  I know I do.    So when you have a good shopping experience, drop me a line and I'll check it out.  I believe those stores/sites get our attention first.  

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  • Nicole Morgin

    Just the basics

    Nicole Morgin April 5th, 2008 3:15 am MDTI have such issues.  Im trying to put together a website, but then at the same time feel compelled to write some fashion reviews.  Now, I will lump this on top of making and more importantly (keeping in contact with) new friends. Well, if I"ve been a bit distant--oops---Hit me up--get my attention. I put up a new google group to chat in...   http://groups.google.com/group/nicole-morgins-tgirl-club Of course ..all welcome..

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  • Nicole Morgin

    Warmth

    Nicole Morgin April 1st, 2008 4:29 pm MDTIt was 55 at some point today--its coming!!!!!

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  • Nicole Morgin

    Thank you

    Nicole Morgin March 31st, 2008 5:27 pm MDTI just received a really nice thank you from Elle at Spell Cosmetics, she appreciated being able to assist some of us.  I want to pass that along, hope you enjoy it.  Now, we will get her to hire all of us to sell!!!!!!!!!   Big photoshoot update for me this coming weekend.  Luv it!

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  • Nicole Morgin

    What we need!!

    Nicole Morgin March 29th, 2008 10:50 am MDTThings we need: 1.  A stepford community for Tgirls! 2.  An island resort getaway of our own. 3.  Removable Implants...lol

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  • Ms Jenna Clarke

    A nightmare that I dont want to come true:

    Ms Jenna Clarke March 25th, 2008 9:08 pm MDT

    I usually post 'serious' things. Thats because Im a serious kind of person. I joke and tease a lot but when it comes right down to it...Im really scared and sad deep down inside. Usually when I am my MOST beautiful - THAT is an indication that I am 'over compensateing'... for what you may wonder? I have already told you. Strange how we as people (all Humans) cover our insecurities with 'things'. Some use drugs, smokeing, eating, sex, alchohol, Bullying others, laughter, torment and shopaholicism (I know Ive misspelled some words but that dosent consern me a bit) to name a few. I use my B-E-A-U-T-Y and my ability to stop trafic and make others stumble over themselves (men and women alike) with my natural beauty... It makes ME feel not so inferior. It makes me feel HAPPY that I am being treated with such kindness and careing - even if its because I am such a 'Pretty little thang'. I take comfort in knowing that I am seen with longing eyes for just one moment in others eyes... In person, I smile a lot and laugh with others and try my BEST to be warm, inviting, positive and THANKFUL for and to others. It comes naturally to me to want to please others - pleasing others pleases ME... because I try SO HARD to make others happy. My nightmare 'is not uncommon' within our group of 'Ladies' ... being alone. I have lived alone for YEARS. I have not had relationships for YEARS. I have not ALLOWED the touch of a man to me for YEARS because of their seeming nature alltogether: Men want sex. If they dont get it from YOU than they will get it from 'someone elce'. I have noticed that on and on again. Thats sad. I do NOT allow myself to fall into mens arms for their reason of nature alone. Id RATHER be by my self for YEARS and without any attatchments than to be bothered with 'wondering' if my Boyfriend is going to stray - as most do from time to time. You cant hold a man...only he can hold himself to you - this I have understood from EARLY on in my struggles of relationships. My fear is to be PERMANENTLY alone. You may ask, "Why do you turn ALL of these men away if you do not want to be alone?" Easy, I have already stated that to you. One may ask me, "Since you do not trust them, WHY do you persist in the persuit of them?" What I have to say to that is this, "I dont. I dont INITIATE the persuit. I only respond when I feel or think that one has found me that is of 'suitable' nature to my likeing. THEN and ONLY THEN do they mostly run off because the Chaser becomes the Chased!" Men can not seem to feel in comfort when they meet someone who turns the tables on them. I, for one am EXTREMELY dominant. Dominant in the way of: AGRESSIVE in my modes. Most men COWER under my ability to 'seemingly crush them' with my gase, stance and overall power of dominance. There has NOT been a one who has succeded me. Not a one ! Lately I have come to an understanding and acceptance of being the way I am (in my Dominant and unyeilding nature - dont get me wrong, I am HIGHLY understanding and compromising. I by ALL means aim to please - BUT - if I sence one thread of weakness or uncertainty - THATS when I pounce!) may be my downfall to a life of lonelyness. Only time will tell if I shall meet one who will be able to fit me like a glove... that takes a rare man indeed. Oh, so true.

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  • Michelle Hart

    The RMS Titanic

    Michelle Hart March 24th, 2008 7:26 pm MDT

    On Sunday, 14 April 1912 at 11:40 p.m. The RMS Titanic struck an iceberg and in just 2 hours, and 40 minutes it was gone forever. That in itself is quite profound. Construction on Titanic started on 22 March 1909 with the riveting together of the first of the Ship’s steel plates. A little over two years later, the Titanic was launched on 31 May 1911. Titanic was delivered to the White Star Line in early April, and on 10 April 1912, the Titanic left Southampton, England, for her first trip to New York City. Four days later she was gone.

    That's a rather profound little bit of history. So what ladies does this have to do with the price of high heels and miniskirts in china. Follow along if you dare for another adventure in womanhood.

    Everything mentioned about the Titanic is true and accurate, Check it if you must. It is from the original records maintained at the time of it's sinking. So how does this relate to the pink fog?

    I'm sure you are wondering. It's education, a little slice of the puzzle. A simple timeline explaining a catastrophe. And that sisters is the rub. Are you an idiot, clueless, uniformed, uneducated, or just to lazy to look it up. It took me a whopping five minutes to find out that time line. I read three pages on one website and viola. On the scale of pain and suffering I rate it a -7. No difficulty, no real hardship, not very confusing or even overly verbose. I just took a few minutes to do a little research before I wrote my latest column.

    So with that we embark on our newest voyage of discovery.

    when I meet someone I like to get to know them a little. I ask questions, share ideas, flirt a little, don't we all. Usually you can tell a lot about someone just by what they wear and how they interact with those around them. When you sit there with your date and intently gaze at him what do you see? The rude and callous way he talks to the staff or the quiet confidence he has when he orders the meal.

    Is he attentive to you or does he spend his time looking at other women. Was he polite to the staff, or did he leave a tip? How does he speak to you? Is he crude or boisterous? Are his silly jokes actually funny or does he regale you with poetry. Does he know what you like to eat or the movies you like to watch? Was his effort to seduce you worthwhile or just painful. Did he do his homework?

    For all of you who are curious, primarily for you lazy ones. Do your own dam homework! I am not your personal dictionary nor an encyclopedia of the Trans gendered. I don't know everything and if I did I wouldn't be here. It wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't the same questions a thousand times a week. Get off your duff girls. Open up a search page and start reading. I swear if one more of you tarts asks me what I wear to work I'm going to explode. Get a bloody clue, read my journals, read my profile, use the internet, go to the library. Quit being so utterly incensed when I lose interest because of your dumb questions.

    If I did have all the answers I would be in New York wearing a fabulous silver gown attending a gala with my rich husband. Wouldn't that be nice..... oh well, back to waiting tables...

    Recently while chatting away with a girl I was really getting tired of it. The oh so feminine name, the attempted girlie comments, jammed between the male ones and the overall confusion she displayed. The internet is not new. It has been around a long time, there are thousands of sites that can recommend a counselor, or a corset. The number of Makeup books on Amazon alone could sink the Titanic. Quit asking me this stuff. I wear heels to work everyday, I pin my hair up most of the time, and yes I even wear a dress to the office on occasion. I AM A WOMAN!! That's what we do. When I go out I'm a girl when I sit at home I'm a girl. OK!

    With that in mind I am not a doctor, I'm not a therapist or a marriage counselor. If your having problems at home with your wife or girlfriend or whatever quit asking my opinion. I have no idea what you should tell her or him. I barley know you. I'm not going to call you and NO you can't call me. However if I do know you and I have a bond with you that is entirely different. I will help you wonderful ladies out in any way that I can. They are a VERY select group of girls on this site, and they know who they are. Do you see the difference, I have done my homework, I have talked to them. I read what they had to say and LISTENED to it. These incredible women have my gratitude, respect and my love. No I'm not a waitress, but I play one here.

    With each column I try to impart that diamond in the rough, that elusive pearl of wisdom. Ladies I am on a very long and often painful road. I have had to endure more pain and suffering than I want to think about or remember. When I began this I was ugly and fat and had no clue what I was doing. Over the years I have LEARNED, I have READ, and I have LISTENED to what other girls said. I looked everywhere. I wrote emails to women I didn't know and hoped they would respond. Most did not but I kept searching and reading anyway.

    You see what men find attractive is feminine mannerisms, attitudes and behaviors. The boys want to see short skirts and stockings, but that is not what being feminine or female is about. If you are a girl and you approach a woman you need to knock off the childish and not so subtle pandering. I like to talk about all kinds of things. I am more than happy to share my experiences with you. I will answer most questions if you have an earnest point. Keep that in mind when you ask me something. There are things about me that are strictly off limits. Think about how I might feel when you ramble on about how you wish you were me. Honey trust me, YOU do not want to be in my heels.

    If you have no clue what you are or where you fit in, how the hell should I know. Get out there and live it. Don't tell me you want to be like me if your to dam scared to walk out your front door. All that does is insult me and all the women like me who have done it. Every one of us started out fat, dumb, and ugly including me your humble hostess. We BECAME what we are through hard work and shear force of will. We have been abused and lied to. We have been laughed at and fired. So quit asking us what it's like. Honestly it's pretty boring most days. The luster and glamour have long since passed.

    Sure every once in a while I go down to the promenade deck for a smoke and a drink or two. The rest of the time I go to work and try to live my life. For most of you it's a passing fancy, for me it's the real world. We live it and so can you if you really want to. I will try to recommend places you can go, books to read or even a technique or two I have learned. things like that are just fine, as your stewardess it's my job to help you.

    One thing I am not going to do is put your life jacket on you, I'm not going to tell you where to sit in the lifeboat either. You need to figure some of this out on your own. I stopped acting like a girl and started acting like a woman a long time ago. I stopped with the juvenile come on's and asked about hair and shoes. When I was pretending to be a woman in the beginning, I acted like one and now I am one. That girls it what it is really about.

    So girls there it is. There's your bon bon of wisdom. If your playing dress up that's fine with me I actually think some of you are way better looking than I am. It's a woman thing with our catty pecking order and stuff you understand. If you are serious and want to stop being a little girl though and grow up to be a woman then crack a book or two. Asking questions is fine but asking the wrong questions shows foolishness. Waiting until the water is flooding your room is the wrong time to put your life jacket on. If you don't even know what a life jacket is that's even worse.

    So that's it girls, take this seriously because it is for many of us. Show a little deference to our moods and condescension. We may have already answered your question fifty times today. It's not that we are mean we are just tired. Believe me, I would much rather talk about shoes and when Macy's is having a sale than weather or not YOU should be on hormones. I became what I am now. I practiced and practiced it until is was natural and so can you. Honey I know you can do it!

    The random silliness of "gee your so fine" is laborious. Don't misunderstand when I get a PM or a simple note telling me I am beautiful I love it. Like all women I love to be complimented, and for all of you who stop by my page or PM me and say a kind word I am eternally grateful. I really am. I love it when a random stranger just says "hey you look really nice today". My heart melts, and I get all warm and fuzzy inside but if you think that's the way to get the scoop on being a woman you are way wrong.

    So ask yourself girls are you the Titanic? The girl who is to big and to lazy to do your own research while heading for the iceberg? Are you ignoring all the things women are telling you because you don't like how it sounds and are to arrogant to heed the warnings. Or are you the Lusitania, the lone ship in the night going at full steam to aide others? I know which one I am, Do you?

    It's sink or swim time....

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