Journal Entries for Steffie Michaels
Fun filled weekend
September 10th, 2006 5:30 pm MDT
Hi girls, In a two day span I went out both nights to a club and also went to a party. Pics and video links are below. On Sunday though, I think I'll rest, stay male and watch some football. This last week and a half, Steffie has really taken over [:)] but maybe she needs to let go of the reins for a while and let her male alter ego take control. I'm sure she'll be back though. :)Steffie Pics http://i74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/IMG_0758forforum.jpg http://i74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/IMG_0741forforum.jpg http://i74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/IMG_0738forforum.jpg http://i74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/IMG_0710forforum.jpg http://i74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/IMG_0669forforum.jpg Videos http://s74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/?action=view¤t=MVI_0708forforum.flv http://s74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/?action=view¤t=MVI_0704forforum.flv http://s74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/?action=view¤t=MVI_0760forforum.flv
Second time in Atlantic City
August 12th, 2006 3:10 pm MDT
Hi girls,I went to Atlantic City on Thursday and and this time got some pics and videos. below are some videos I wanted to share.Video 1http://s74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/?action=view¤t=Casinovideo2Higirls.flvVideo 2http://s74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/?action=view¤t=Casinovideo.flvVideo 3http://s74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/?action=view¤t=Walkingonbeach.flvVideo 4http://s74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/?action=view¤t=Togirls.flvBasically I had a fun day. I walked the beach (but the wind blew my wig around and the pics showed this lol), browsed the mall they had there (they had a Coach and Gucci store as well as Mac), went inside the casinos and gambled. My wife had a comp on her card. I went alone but used it and got a free meal too as well as some cash to play with. I just signed my wife's name and there was no problem. If they had said anything I would just have showed them my driver's license with my last name and said as her husband I should get too. lol I broke even by gambling which means I didn't lose the money they gave me which is really winning.I wore a white skirt during the day on the beach but at night switched to Capri pants. A couple of different people offered to take my picture during the times I had the camera timer on. That was nice of them. It's good to meet nice people when you're en-femme. It negates the effect of the bad people you sometimes run across.After eating, I walked the boardwalk at night. I did this so I wouldn't gain any weight from the meal I had. After all a girl has to watch her figure. I left AC after midnight. I got a little tired while driving home an stopped at an exit to rest for a few minutes. However I slept for like 2 hrs until I felt better. I then got home by 4:00 A.M.I was lucky I got pics inside the casino because later an employee said cameras were not allowed in there. But I had already gotten he photos and didn't know. At least I was able to post them.Anyway, thanks for reading. I just wanted to share my happy day with all my online friends.Steffie
My first anniversary
August 6th, 2006 4:06 pm MDT
Hi girls,I posted this elsewhere too but alo here:Iwas just reflecting:It's hard to believe but it's been one year now since I've first gone out in the real world as Steffie. I remember, the first time I ever went out was to a Renaissance meeting (which meets the first Saturday of every month). My first meeting was in August, 2005. I remember going to a motel and changing. I then snuck to the car to go to the meeting. I remember worrying whether people would see me in the car dressed. I was so nervous. I wore a pink dress with 4 inch pumps and pantyhose. At first I just went to meetings. Then I worked my way up to going to a far-away mall shopping en-femme. Then earlier this year it was dinner and a movie (with some other CD's). Then I got the courage to go to night clubs in NY and NJ wit other GG's. One time I even rode the train into NY and the subway as Steffie. I then recently even went out of state to places like Las Vegas and DC, walking the streets and even seeing historical sights as Steffie. Plus now I have learned to dress more mainstream (unlike that first time when I wore 4 inch heels and pantyhose that last summer lol). I never would have ever believed that I could have gotten to this point in only a year. I'm not sure quite how I did it but I know now that it has gotten a lot easier and I am at peace with myself. I used to resist the Steffie inside me but now I let her come out more. The important thing, though, is I'm also happy with my male self (which should be comforting to my wife) and I've tried to keep a balance between the two. The ironic thing is today I didn't even dress for my anniversary. lol Hopefully in the coming year Steffie will continue to explore new things and go to new places. Reading about other people on the forum venturing out has given me courage though. So I want to thank all the girls on various forums for support as without you, Steffie may still be in the closet. Steffie
My trip to DC
August 1st, 2006 8:38 pm MDT
Hi girls, I went to DC, dressed as Stefie and got some great pics and even mande a short video. Here it is:http://s74.photobucket.com/albums/i269/SteffieNJ/?action=view¤t=MVI_0400.flv Steffie
En-femme in Atlantic City
July 16th, 2006 1:07 pm MDT
Hi girls,I finally accomplished another one of my goals for this year: to dress en-femme in an Atlantic City casino. The only other time I was en-femme was in a Las Vegas casino a few months ago but that was on the other side of the country. I've been wanting to do this in my own backyard though for some time and finally did. Plus I hadn't dressed in two weeks so today was a good day to break that spell.My wife and I drove down to AC for the day. I was male when with her. I worked out an arrangement with her which is fair to the both of us. She doesn't want to be seen with me en-femme. Usually we separate anyway when we go as she loves to gamble and I usually walk the boardwalk or go swimming in the ocean as male. However, now we agreed that if we go and we each do our own thing, my thing can include Steffie as long as she doesn't see. She says that I should not to tell her the details; so I don't Thus it's more of a "ask me no questions and I tell you no lies" kind of thing.Getting back to my story though, after I dropped her off, I parked the car. There weren't any cars around where I parked. I was thus able to put on my makeup and change there and I became Steffie. I didn't go to the casino my wife was at as I didn't want her to see me there. Instead I walked to another casino. I went to the third floor and used the ladies room without any incident (hardly anyone there unlike on the casino floor). I played the slots and shot dice for a little while and had a good time (and didn't loose too much. ) I didn't notice any people staring at all. Even when I shot the dice no one really seem to notice or care. I then walked back to the casino my wife was at and went to the car and changed back to male and then met my wife. We had dinner, gambled a little while longer and then went home. Steffie didn't loose as much as her wife. Seriously though, my wife didn't loose too much of her money either. The important thing, though, is we both had a good time and we each got to do our own thing. I either walk the boards as male or now at least if I gamble, I can do as Steffie. It's not as much fun to gamble as male though. Sorry, but I didn't get any pics as I was only dressed a short time (part of compromise with my wife). Next time I'll try and get a pic or two. Hopefully my wife can gradually get used to Steffie being in public and within a mile of her. Usually I just go out and she either stays home or goes out with her friends. Deep down I would still love her to be in the same room as Steffie (i.e. a big room like a casino) but for now this is at least a start and I won't push it. Thanks for reading.Steffie
Out with my wife
June 25th, 2006 3:39 am MDT
Hi girls,My wife is pretty much accepting of my CDing in that she lets me go out as Steffie but she does not want to go out with me to pulic place when I am dressed (which I can understand). She had gone to a couple of CDing meetings with me in the past but she has never really had a good time. Last night however, she did go with me to another meeting (a picnic we had). This was only her 4th meeting since I have come out in the last year. It rained and we moved the picnic indoors. We talked with some nice couples there though. It gave my wife a chance to talk to other wives of CD's. I could tell this time my wife had a great time and later on she confirmed this to me. It is good, I think, when other wives can bond. Then they can talk about the issues that most wives face; even the ones that ae most accepting need to do this I think. My wife definitely wants to go back and is even considering going out with Steffie a few months down the road when there is an event (in Novemer) in Deleware where crossdressers and crossdressing couples can go for a few days. She says I can be Steffie the whole time there an she will not be embarassed to be seen with me. :)It seems (I hope and pray) that last night my wife and I may have grown a little closer in this crossdressing journey; we weren't too bad before but it's always nice when understanding can continue to grow in a relationship. :)
