Journal Entries for Mikenna
My first post anywhere
July 27th, 2006 6:20 pm MDT
I suppose this should be titled more of a "Thank You" to the URNotAlone websites of the world, enabling each of us who thought we were alone to find others like ourselves. As diverse as I have found this community, I am still able to find others more like myself.Myself? Yes, a history like most every other crossdresser. So, let's skip to today. I am happily married to a woman who still, as she pushes the big five-o, is incredibly beautiful, a hard worker, and great mother. Although always drawn to femininity, I put away my fem side for most of my married life and truly didn't think it existed at all. I still boarded planes as a single male with a Cosmopolitan Mag instead of a Wall Street Journal or a Sports Illustrated. Then it just seemed to creep up on me and I've grown to enbrace it more and more. Just not sure what to do with it now. Even though my wife is semi-supportive, I know she wishes Mikenna would have stayed away. She has worked hard to accept what she has, and I am thankful for that. Putting on thigh highs and pumps and practicing runway walks with my wife (she has done some modelling and is still requested by one photographer for occasional magazine shoots) was the start of letting things start to come out. Didn't know what to tell her, because I wasn't sure what was happening myself. When I did come most all the way out to her, there were the same questions everyone else posts. It took a long time for her to realize I was just a crossdresser and not transexual. Dressing all the way with wig and make-up is just so much fun, becomming someone else that can let go of all the pressures for that period of time feels incredible. I wish I knew how to explain it better to her. My wife took the photos in my gallery on a simple local canoe trip. It was awesome fun. She has promised an "at home" set soon. Anyway, I love to go dancing, but would like to do so in "normal" bars. I'm not located in the most progressive city for CD/TVs, but the few times I have been out, there haven't been any issues. Just need to get a little bolder I guess. I thank those who have been complimentary and kind with their words. Perhaps we will meet someday and the world won't care. I suppose this journal might be a good start for me. Thank you
