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Finally we are together where we are happy
Anna and Racheal January 6th, 2009 10:33 pm MSTWe made it
Wow I can't believe that after 6+ months of planning that Racheal and I are really here. The drive was so long, the truck and trailer was over loaded and made driving very slow. on average we managed about 55 miles per hour except going up hills which might slow us down to 40+
The scenery was so beautiful literally breath taking! I felt such a sense of belonging.
Racheal and I, have meet some really cool people since getting here.
Of course we left behind things we thought we had brought that sucks as it's a really long drive to storage so we will have to make do!
Last evening we started venturing out around town to see some of the area and learn where some things are. "of course we did this at Midnight so traffic would not be so bad for us to drive slowly.
Tomorrow I go into my new office and meet my new boss, I'm looking forward to getting back to work.
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A walk in a special park in Austin
Anna and Racheal January 6th, 2009 10:32 pm MSTA walk in a special park
Racheal took me on a walk to a special park that means a lot to her. We had a wonderful time walking around the winding streams and viewing the hillside how it's been carved out of the surrounding stone.
We took pictures from my phone and I am hoping she will post them to my computer so I can post them on this site.
I love her so much and it is such a honor to have her show me places that mean so much to her.
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New Photos Coming
Kimberly Elise January 6th, 2009 6:30 am MSTI had a formal makeover and photo session on Sunday, January 4th. Later this week I should have some new photos, my first big group of new photos since last May. They will include some casual "bare leg" looks with denim and flip flops, as well as some more dressed up office lady looks. Some of the photos will show off the pedicure I had (vivid pink nail polish). Also, my hair is in a longer style now, well below my shoulders. Kim :-)
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Another Day of Questioning
Ashley Lynn January 1st, 2009 8:53 pm MSTHere I am again today questioning my innate desire to dress. I replied to a post online and it turned out to be another old friend who is a dresser. Well the thing is, she's purging because of a child'd discovery of her things and due to the living situation. She's offered me Hormones, a six month supply. I'm questioning wether I should take them or not?
I've considered taking hornones for some time now. The idea of having real breast (even an A or B cup) is very exciting. My concern is, if I end up changing my mind, would I be stuck for life with breast? I know I've read about men that have grown them and then actually had a surgery to have them removed, which is something I don't think i want to experience. Has anyone ever experienced the use of hormones, even for a short time?
I know that my best bet is it see a counselor and discuss the issue with them. I'm making an appointment to see if a counselor can help. I'm a little nervous in that I could be going down a road that I might not be able to return on. It's like a fork and you have to choose a path. I hope that I make the right decision.
I'm curious to know what other girls have experienced around this topic. Do any of you have some real life experience you'd be willing to share?
Ashley
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We are Evil?
Tammie Lynn Huber January 1st, 2009 6:45 pm MSTSo now, at age 51, because I chose happiness instead of sadness, life instead of suicide and although I am a good person, I love all people, regardless of any differences...as I have always, I am honest, I have never taken drugs, never been drunk, never committed theft, have always reached out to help anyone that I could...now, some people, the Catholic church and others consider me evil and a lessor human?
Even though I am still a hard working individual and pay taxes, I am not aloud to marry my one true love, another male to female transsexual?
I can be fired from my job in most states, denied medical care, and the federal government and anti-LGBT Churches, condones the violence against us.
Is that the actions of a good government and a righteous church?
The pope says if we are aloud to marry that the human race will eventually die out because humans will cease to propagate, what?
Two things, first; we are going to overpopulate this planet into ruin or kill it by other means, second; LGBT have been here since the beginning of man like I said and look how the we have grown in the past 4000 years.
We are no threat to any one's existence, we only want the same rights that every human being deserves, and yes, I fight for everyone who needs help gaining equal rights, not just our community.
Would they practice some type of genocide if given the chance?
Do they condone the violence perpetrated against the LGBT community?
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My Story
Ashley Lynn December 31st, 2008 12:25 pm MSTI've started this journal to explore my understanding of my passion for dressing. It's consumed me for decades now and I'm finally confronting this issues and ramificaitons of it. Despite being in many hetero relationshihps, both long-term and short-term, I keep finding myself coming back to Ashley. My experiences with feeling shame, guilt and anxiety for the social, economical and religious ramifications have plagued my developing Ashley into an accepted part of my internal self.
For me, this all started some 30 years ago. It's sounds crazy to say that, but it's the truth. I was 6 years old and my mother told me to play somewhere. Not knowing what to do, I went to the attic to explore in the old boxes and suitcases. Finding boxes of womens clothing, I decided to try some on. I'm not quite sure why, but something inside told me to do so. The feeling was amazing. I believe it was a satin night gown, the kind you're grandmother would have worn, that hooked me. The feeling against my skin was almost overwhelming. That moment cemented my desires to dress as a woman. I know I was envious of women from that day forward. Along with the decades of envy, I also adapted the feeling of shame.
As I stood in the mirro and fantasized about what I was and could be, my brother bursted up the stairs. Upon seeing me in womens clothing, he laughed and ran downstairs to tell our mother. I can't remember a time where I felt more embarassed or ashamed of my actions. I took the clothing off and proceeded down stairs to make up some reason why I was dressed in a womans cloththing. I don't remember much of what happened after that night, except that my mother had said something about it being normal to explore. She is a good Christian, that to this day, I still wonder if she could accept my dressing. My brothers remarks and my desire has become my darkest skeleton.
My perceeding memory is that of walking through some yards and seeing womans clothing hanging on a line to dry. I'm not sure if I continued to dress in the attic, my gut tells me I did, but I'm sure my memory has faded and I can only recall the more memorable moments, like this clothes line. As I walked by, I noticed a pink pair of panties. They were the most beautiful panties I had ever seen. To this day, I wish I could find a pair. They were pink satin with a lace butterfly in the front. I remember how much I wanted to touch them, but I couldn't. Every day from then on, I'd walk by that house just to see the panties on the line.
One day, I got the nerve to walk in between the lines and I actually took those panties. ***I appoligize to whom ever they belong too. Please forgive me**** I rushed home to put them on. The feeling was overwhelming. I think I was about 12-13 years old at this time. Needless-to-say, I took more from other lines too. Again, I'm sorry to any whom I stole from at the time. From that day on, I would rush home to put them one and feel very fem.
I was entering my teens, I believe it was 8th grade. Shopping for clothing for school, my mother told me to go get some underwear. I went down the isle and saw the varying kinds. To my delight, I learned that men (it was the 80's) had some options with jockey and bikini. I wanted so much to buy these, but being 13-14, I knew my mother wouldn't. I left the store that day to only return and buy them. This was the begining of my desire to have clothing. It would later progress into the bravery to purchase womens clothing and lingerie. They made me feel a little like I was fem, but it was never the same feeling as those butterfly panties.It did bridge the gap between dressing fem and keeping within the social context of being a young man. I could always use the excuse that they were mens underwear, which would help to keep my secret safe. Secret is was, because I continued to keep if decades.
Later on, my compulsion grew. My wardrobe grew with the compulsion. As my collection grew, it became increasing difficult to hide. One day my mother found sever pairs of my panties. She was so nice. She washed them and left them folded with my male clothing on my bed with a note, "Who's are these?" Luckily, I was about 16 and I could use the excuse, "a girlfriends" and it would be plausable. Of course, I had to listen to the sex talk.
Shortly after that I believe I had my 1st purge. My girlfriend was very nice and I didn't want this secret to come out, so out everything went. In fact, I went on to marry that woman. I was able to surpress the desires for a few year anyways.
On thing that has made me feel some shame is that while I was married, I found my desire to dress was manifesting itself within my wife. At first, I would subtly suggest that she buy this, wear that, and dress this way; obiously the way I wanted to. I would purchase her lingerie and sexy outfits for her birthday, anniver., and Xmas with hopes of feeling it against me. She was a conservative woman, who I actually conviced to view porn and explore the more sexual side of our relationship. It wasn't until I found myself dressing in her things while she was gone that I realized that what I was doing was more than wrong. I would continue to try to over compensate the desire with being excessively masculine, but it didn't help.
Things didn't work out between her and I. We broke up for a variety of reasons. But now that I look back on it, I'm finding that my desire to dress (although I was never caught), was corupting my marriage. It was a plethora of little things that contributed to the unions decline, namely my decreased sexual desire toward her and my increasing desire to explore my bisexuality with her toys. She never caught me, but it was clear through my daily interaction that I was becomming less and less attracted.
For many years after this marriage and throughout my twenties and to date I would compulsively dress inbetween relationships. Sometimes, I would partially purge my things, but as the year went on, I learned to save those things I relished most. When dating a woman, I would seal up and store away my treasure chest of womanly things. Of couse, one a relationship went sour, I would quickly run back my desire to dress. I've never really blended that two. It's always been one or the other; dating a woman and being masculine or being single and dresssing. To this day, my wardobe had grown to fill a large closet. It takes many boxes to to pack everything for storage. My intimates alone fill two drawers and hang upon a 3-foot hanging rod. If I were to guess, I would have to say, I've spent thousands of dollars on women's clothing. You could say, this is a compulsion.
As my compulsion grew, so did my shame, which my brother instilled. I often wonder, if I had never been caught that day in the attic, would I have changed? Would I have developed into an open Transgendered person? Would my sexuality have changed. You'll often read about the trama of one event and it's changing someones direction. Although you often hear about the positive changes, I have to wonder, can there be negative changes too? Could my supression of these desires all stem from that one day in the attic? I'm using this journal to try to help me understand why I've made the choices I have and to help me decide what my next path will be. I would appreciate any thoughtful comments. If you're experienced something similar, I'd love to hear.
Till next time, Happy New Year! Everyone!
Ashley
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New Years' Resolution
Ellie Ferch Amser December 31st, 2008 10:26 am MSTWill be to do more entries, comments elsewhere and take another stab at chat. I won't make a "going out" resolution though. That will happen when it's ready to happen. There's no lack of opportunity around here.
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New Year Message
Sonia Kiss December 31st, 2008 7:10 am MSTHello friends, each of you is more dear to me than you know. I wish I could send direct emails like I have the last two years, but I've been so slow on the computer lately that I know I would never finish that project this year.
2008 has been a dark year for me. I've made little progress at resolving my legal problems, and consequently I've spent time in jail, time under house arrest, and I've lost my right to have a bank account, a job, health care, a driver's license, or a passport. I'm wanted in two states. I haven't checked, but in one of those states, I suspect my photo is on a "ten most wanted" poster. I've been essentially homeless for all of 2008. No, I haven't been living on the street or in shelters, but have been totally dependent on friends and family for whatever roof I've had over my head.
I learned early this year that I have cancer. I was near to dropping dead in my tracks by the time it was finally diagnosed, the diagnoses being delayed by six months or so by my legal problems. Obviously, I survived that close call. I got radiation treatments that treated the cancer very well and gave me a new lease on life. Only a lease though; I should have started chemotherapy by now, but that is delayed for the moment as I'm focusing on resolving my legal problems.
Most of you know me as a transsexual. (Apologies to those of you not exactly in the transgender community. This paragraph may sound a little strange to you.) 2008 was my first full calendar year to live as a woman, and I'm happy to report that being a woman has continued to be wonderful for me. Due to both legal and health problems, I haven't been able to make much progress in "physical" transition, but if you've got to pause somewhere, "full time" is a great place to pause. My "mood" status on one of my social networking sites currently says "Peaceful" and that really sums up how I feel about my current place in my transition. Yes, there is much, much more I would like to do. It can wait. I'm not suffering terribly from "birth defects."
One happy diversion I found this year was photography. After being away from Sisters of Boston for months, I was badly missing weekly photos of myself from Ashley's omnipresent camera. I fussed and delayed for months more before finally buying a pocket digital camera, in July of this year. I took a few of the vanity photos of myself I had been missing, then realized what an amazing instrument I had for creating art. A pocket digital camera, vintage 2008, is incredible for its capabilities. I began taking *lots* of photos, learning creative photography by just doing it, and also learning from studying the ocean of spectacular examples on Flickr, and before long, from meeting a few of Boston's most enthusiastic amateur photographers, watching them work, and listening to them talk about what they do.
I'll end with an invitation to everyone to write to me, just to say hello. But I have to also end with an apology to so, so many of you for not writing to you this year. I've failed to return emails to a vast number of my friends this year. My only explanation is that I've been just overwhelmed by my problems, my situation, and haven't had the mental energy to...to just return friendship, awful as that sounds. I do love you, each and every one of you.
Best wishes, love, and peace to all in 2009,
Sonia
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URNA DETECTIVES NEWS FLASH! DAN, JON & THE CASE OF THE MISSING JOURNAL ENTRIES!
Karen Reeves December 27th, 2008 8:54 pm MSTHi Everyone!
It appears that the case of the missing journal entry postings has been SOLVED!
I can see from my own list of the number of journal entries posted on my site that last June 4th was a busy day. I know I have posted quite a few journal entries over the years but not 53 of them!!! I can talk and write alot but . . . . .
Trying to repair the site the guys posted over 30 test entries on my site in just a few hours! When the site recently got repaired these disappearing journal entries suddenly reappeared. I just noticied this and have spent time deleting the test items.
I would suggest that everyone go delete repetative journal/test items to cut down on the clutter.
Thanks Dan & Jon for the great work in making Urnotalone such an awesome place!!! You have proved yourselves again!
*Smiles*
~Karen~
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transexuals and the creator
Anna and Racheal December 24th, 2008 3:51 pm MSTtranssexual and the creator
I did something I rarely do anymore, I stopped by a church and went inside mainly to dodge the rain and use the bathroom. But I did stop in the chapel area for a few minutes.
I have always considered myself to be a fairly spiritual person and I know I have thought of this before but feel moved to express it to best of my ability.
"God made each and every one of us in his image and by his own hand, yes he even made us transsexual people, he made the gays, lesbians, bisexuals. He made us for a reason and with a purpose upon this earth. But yet it is the christian s who persecute us and prevent us from being who we are and from receiving the same rights as those who conform to the church standards of the "man made laws" of what is right and wrong. because of this we can't marry and we do not receive the same rights as others. As I sat their looking up at that cross at our savior I could not help but think this is not the church he created. It is mans creation and not the divines creation".
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Dork Much?
Anna and Racheal December 24th, 2008 9:21 am MSTSo we grabbed some Chinese tonight for dinner - after working in storage and packing and running errands and disposing of stuff and just being busy getting things ready to go. And what is Chinese without a fortune cookie? Well for Anna it would be a lot less papery.
What? You might ask.
I would answer by saying - I asked her what her fortune said. She looked at me, stopped chewing, pulled the chewed fortune out of the cookie mess in her mouth and read it to me - 'You have the wisdom of the ages'
Anyone know the definition of irony?
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Growing With Age
Lana Poulson December 23rd, 2008 6:51 pm MSTSo over the past little wile iv been changing growing up you could say. Iv become more reserved. Iv quit smoking yay me. And i have mcut out alot of people from my life that i just don't need to be around anymore. I don't really care for men at this point in my life i don't need a man. Nore want what comes with them LOL.
Anyways thought id write something and i did LOL.
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Merr Christmas/Happu Hanukkah/Happy New Year
Princess Lilly December 22nd, 2008 11:12 pm MSTMy wishes to all..I wish for your thoughts to be positive ones,
that you never quit, that you never give up,
and that you continue to learn.
I wish for the love, peace, and joy
of Christmas be yours always..
Remember to spread the real message of christmas.. LOVE..
to the people who need it most..
the under privileged, the sick.. the poor..
and you will get the blessings of the babe in the manger..
coz you would have known the purpose for which he came
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Merry Christmas !!
Frank Disalle December 21st, 2008 9:41 pm MSTHiya, everybody!
Have the Merriest of Christmases and the Happiest of New Years !!
Nativity Prayer of St. Augustine
Let the just rejoice,
for their justifier is born.
Let the sick and infirm rejoice,
For their saviour is born.
Let the captives rejoice,
For their Redeemer is born.
Let slaves rejoice,
for their Master is born.
Let free men rejoice,
For their Liberator is born.
Let All Christians rejoice,
For Jesus Christ is born.
St. Augustine of Hippo (AD 354-440)
Loveya,
Frank and the DiSalle Crew
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Curing the Incurable - Is HIV treatable???
Suzi December 21st, 2008 3:03 pm MSTRead the second article in the first newsletter and the second and third articles in newsletter that follows. I left the newsletters in so you had a better idea on where then came from - Suzi
ACCESS TO ENERGY
A Pro-Science, Pro-Technology, Pro-Free Enterprise Monthly Newsletter
NOVEMBER 2007 (Vol. 35 no. 4), Box 1250, Cave Junction, Oregon 97523
Copyright 2007 by Access to Energy
Adaptation
Empirical evidence supporting the hypothesis of biological "evolution" is meager at best This hypothesized phenomenon is experi-mentally unobservable and. therefore, not validated. Many of the outstanding scientists I have known - from atheists to Christians -quietly subscribe to some form of "intelligent design." "Quietly" is the operative word here because American academia has become increasingly uninhabitable for those who do not appear to conform to current politically correct trends.
"Adaptation." however, is easily observable and constantly in evidence. Each living species contains very great variation within its genes - biological variability between individuals of the same species. This allows species to adapt to changing'conditions.
A remarkable example of this is found in bacteria that require the essential amino acid tryptophan in their diets. If tryptophan is eliminated from their diet, the entire colony of bacteria quickly gains the ability to make it. If tryptophan is returned to the growth medium, then the bacteria colony loses the ability to make it.
Without dietary tryptophan or the ability to make tryptophan, the colony would die. If tryptophan is supplied, however, there is a competitive advantage in not using resources to make tryptophan. In each case, a few bacteria with the opposite talent remain in the colony. If their particular ability becomes advantageous, their progeny quickly dominate the colony.
Evolutionists like to describe such phenomena as micro-evolution - the colony evolving back and forth driven by survival of the fittest. Survival is driving this process, but it has nothing to do with evolution. Biological variation - or "diversity," to use a popular politically correct word - is present in all living species. This assures that the species survive under widely varied conditions. This diversity can take the form of individuals of different abilities or of biochemical systems that measure the environment and change individual biochemistry to adapt to conditions as needed
The United States Constitutional Republic was constructed in such a way as to take advantage of a similar phenomenon. With many separate semi-autonomous states, errors made by one state government were unlikely to be made simultaneously by the others. People and resources- flowed back- and forth between these largely independent states in accordance with the wisdom of their policies.
For example, if one state debased its currency and another maintained honest money, market competition would have soon ended the debasement. With, however, the vast growth of centralized power in Washington, this advantage has been substantially lost. An error in Washington affects the whole.
Still, the process of adaptation is nevertheless at work. Through excessive governmental taxation, regulation, and litigation, the United States has been rendered a poor environment for energy and manufacturing industries. So, these activities have flowed to other nations that have not been as unwise. In this way the community of nations - the political species - has gained survival capabilities through adaptive survival of the fittest. The human race has an abundance of energy and manufacturing even though it is increasingly no longer located in the United States. Survival of the fittest is therefore diminishing American prosperity and power.
Now, however, international elitists want to impose tyrannical control over the entire community of nations. The human-caused global warming propaganda drive is an effort to transfer power to tax and ration energy into an international body that will thereby control the energy and technology of all nations. Aside from its immoral and unethical aspects, this diminution of the independence of nation states contains great peril for the human race.
While Al Gore and retainers regale the public with fear of global warming, NASA scientist David Hathaway is predicting the opposite. John Casey, Director of the NASA Space Science Research Center, has confirmed that their research indicates an impending return to Earth temperatures as low or lower than prevailed during the Little Ice Age that occurred about 200 to 300 years ago. See http://science.nasa.gov/headlines/y2006/10may_longrange.htm and also www.spaceandscience.net.
These NASA studies indicate that the solar cycle beginning between 2015 and 2020 may have unusually low activity - similar to that which contributed to the Little Ice Age. Accurate predictions of future weather are not yet possible. The actual temperature could rise or fall - no one knows this future.
If, however, a member of the current crop of political opportunists running for U. S. President is elected - rather than Ron Paul, the energy deficit in the United States will seriously worsen. All of these people have endorsed the human-caused global warming. United Nations agenda. So, if NASA is right, Americans are going to be very cold and miserable beginning about 10 years from now. While we could easily cool the Earth with the Penner-Teller procedures, we have no means with which to warm it.
Should the fears of misinformed and over-governed Americans be allowed to drag Asia and Africa into the same disaster? If energy production is unregulated - controlled by free enterprise or at least by separate nation states, then some of the world's people will not be energy poor if colder weather comes.
Without an immediate revival of the American hydrocarbon and nuclear energy industries - made possible by government withdrawal of the oppressive taxes, regulations, and litigation that currently prevent this, Americans will be very short of energy 10 years from now. Energy for heat and for mitigating technology is the only human response available to lower temperatures.
It has always been thus. The man who hikes into the winter mountains without warm clothing may freeze to death. He has, however, no moral right to demand that everyone else also leave their cold weather gear behind. Freedom to be different is an inherent human right. Freedom also confers important adaptive survival characteristics for the entire human race.
CURING THE INCURABLE
Thomas E. Levy's book, Curing the Incurable, Livon Books, 2002, is largely a review of the work of Frederick R. Klenner, M.D., and other related discoveries. Dr. Klenner began medical practice in 1940. He soon became interested in research carried out in the 1930s, which showed that vitamin C could kill viruses "in vitro," outside of living things.
Frederick Klenner discovered two things. First, vitamin C can be given to humans in enormous oral and intravenous doses over short to medium time intervals without serious harm - long-term very high doses may be an exception. Second, very high doses of vitamin C, especially given intravenously, are remarkably effective in curing serious viral and bacterial infections, and even poisonous snake bite. Klenner reported that he cured 60 out of 60 polio patients during the polio epidemic of 1948 with vitamin C.
Klenner's work found its way into the alternative medicine industry in the 1950s and 1960's. Nutrition gurus such as Adele Davis and Carlton Fredricks advertised Klenner's findings to their followers. This led to the ingestion of supplementary doses of vitamin C by many Americans.
When Irwin Stone - on the basis of Klenner's work - first convinced Linus Pauling in 1967 to personally take 3 grams of vitamin C per day, Linus began to read the literature on vitamin C and to write summary articles and books about it. Klenner was delighted, thinking that Pauling's entrance into the field would lead to much greater recognition of his own, pioneering work. In this, Klenner was to be disappointed.
Pauling was willing to work closely with people whose work did not predate his own, but Klenner had 25 years of precedence in the field - which would overshadow Pauling. He referenced Klenner, but had very little interest in working with him.
This historical and personal interplay was unfortunate because Klenner's most important discoveries received too little attention, and Pauling's claims that "75% of all cancer can be prevented or cured by vitamin C alone" distorted the field away from some of the true merits of vitamin C.
Initially in the 1970s, I had little interest in Klenner's work. Working closely with Pauling, I tended to be influenced by his interests. Then, students working in my laboratory at UCSD discovered that vitamin C, in the presence of air, quickly destroys peptide and protein molecules. As a result, I asked Stanford graduate student Steve Richeimer to investigate the mechanism of this process.
Richeimer found that aerobic oxidation of vitamin C leads to free radicals and peroxides, which destroy peptides and proteins. We also found earlier published work showing a similar result, wherein vitamin C plus oxygen destroyed the integrity of DNA molecules. Later studies showed that these reactions also occur "in vivo," in living things. These findings were personally unfortunate for Richeimer, whose work was quickly terminated by Pauling in actions that seriously damaged his career.
In any case, Richeimer and I published a short paper suggesting that the oxidation products of vitamin C may have a significant positive value in biological systems - and Fredrick Klenner's work began to interest me more.
Klenner used doses of vitamin C very far beyond those found in ordinary biological systems. Moreover, his results were startling. Poisonous snake bite? Snake venoms are peptides. Peptides are chemically destroyed by the oxidation products of vitamin C. Viruses? Viruses are simple packages of DNA and protein, both of which are chemically destroyed by these same oxidation products. Bacteria could be similarly affected. Human cells and molecules would, of course, also be affected, but these are easily replaced within human tissues.
Did we now understand the mechanism of action that led to Klenner's results? Possibly, but by no means certainly. It is often the case, especially in fields as complex as biochemistry, that a hypothesis leads to experiments and procedures that turn out to be useful -even though the hypothesis turns out to be wrong.
It is also the case that outstanding empirical medical results are frequently ignored because they are not understood within the framework of ordinary medical training and orthodoxy.
Klenner's empirical results, however, stand on their own. They need not be understood to be of value. They have the potential to save many, many lives.
I strongly recommend that each reader of Access to Energy obtain a copy of Curing the Incurable by Thomas Levy - even if you just put the book on a shelf without reading it. Then, if you or someone for whom you are responsible is afflicted with a dangerous viral or bacterial infection - such as the infections that often kill elderly people, take the book from your shelf and read it. Klenner's procedures, especially those involving very high intravenous administration of vitamin C, might very well save a life. In any case, Klenner's discoveries provide an additional reason for hope.
Read the second and third articles
ACCESS TO ENERGY
A Pro-Science, Pro-Technology, Pro-Free Enterprise Monthly Newsletter
MARCH 2008 (Vol. 35 no. 8) Box 1250, Cave Junction, Oregon 97523
Copyright 2008 by Access to Energy
Clathrate Hydrates
Contrary to many popular accounts, there is absolutely no shortage of hydrocarbon resources in the United States. Besides large amounts of undrilled oil, the U.S. has enormous reserves of natural gas and essentially unlimited quantities of coal - 25% of the world supply. Oil shale is also abundant. Moreover, these resources can be converted into one another with ease.
For example, the liquefaction of American coal into oil could produce more oil per year than Saudi Arabia - for at least 200 years. Coal liquefaction, used by Germany to fuel its military during World War 11 and now used in South Africa, might be best done today with nuclear power. In any case, this is relatively simple to do with well-developed technology. Similarly, natural gas can be converted to oil, as is now being done on an industrial scale in the Middle East.
The shortage of hydrocarbon energy in the U.S. today - leading to high prices and a debilitating trade deficit - has been entirely caused by the paper-shuffling mob in Washington. Politicians have created a nightmare of taxation, regulation, and litigation that has prevented sufficient free-enterprise development of American hydrocarbon resources. If freedom were returned to our industrial environment, inexpensive and abundant domestic hydrocarbon energy would be available to Americans for several centuries.
Moreover, that "several centuries" is actually "several millennia" when methane clathrate hydrates are considered. In the authoritative book, Clathrate Hydrates of Natural Gases - Third Edition by E. Dendy Sloan and Carolyn A Koh, CRC Press, 2008, a review of estimates of U.S. and world methane clathrate hydrates is provided.
The current total annual energy consumption of the United States in methane, CH4, equivalents is estimated to be about 1 x 1012 cubic meters, m3, at standard temperature and pressure. The best current estimate of U.S. reserves of methane in clathrate hydrates - 1% in permafrost and 99% in the coastal oceans - is 9 x 1015 m3. This is enough methane to power the United States at its present energy use for 9,000 years. The 95% confidence limits of this estimate lie be-tween 3,000 and 19,000 years.
So, with already-developed technology, the U.S. can be self-sufficient in hydrocarbons for several centuries. By developing methane recovery methods for use with clathrates, this can be extended to several thousand years. Commercial methods for recovery of methane from clathrate deposits are already significantly along the way to practicality - both in the U.S. and in India and China..
Moreover, it is clear already that - if technological freedom is restored and maintained in the U.S. - conversion of most energy production to nuclear processes should occur during the 21st Century. Nuclear fuel resources are sufficient for tens of thousands of years.
At or beyond defined temperature and pressure, water freezes into ice - the usual form with which we are familiar. If, however, easily polarizable molecules of appropriate sizes are dissolved in the water, a different ice forms. This "clathrate" ice contains special cavities into which are fitted the solute molecules. Bonding of the solute molecules to the water increases the stability of the ice, so that it melts at a higher temperature than ordinary ice. Dissolved ionic substances such as ordinary salt interfere with ice formation. Also the shapes of the solute molecules affect stabilization, so there is much theoretical and empirical science associated with this subject.
As methane from biological and geological sources percolates into cold permafrost and oceanic regions, very large deposits of methane clathrate ices are formed.
The clathrate ices were discovered in the early 19th Century by Davy and Faraday and were fairly well understood before the beginning of the 20th Century. As natural gas transmission lines were built in the early 20th Century, it was found that formation of clathrate ices frequently caused plugging in these pipes, so clathrate chemistry became a standard component of pipeline engineering.
An interesting classroom demonstration can be constructed - featuring a piece of methane clathrate ice that burns like a candle.
Since living things are largely composed of water, clathrate structures are also important in biochemistry. Already at Caltech in the 1960s, clathrate structures in biochemical systems were under study. See, for example, Robinson, A.B., Manly, K.F., Anthony, M.P., Catchpool, J.F., and Pauling, L., Anesthesis of Artemia Larvae: Method for Quantitative Study, Science 149 (1965) 1255.
The Miller-Pauling hypothesis of general anesthesia holds that general anesthetics function by organizing the water in living things into clathrate structures. All living things from swimming one-celled algae to human beings can be anesthetized by general anesthetics such as xenon, which fits clathrate cavities well and is an excellent anesthetic, or methane, which fits less well so is a poorer anesthetic.
The extra stabilization provided to clathrate ices and clathrate solvent structures arises from van der Waals dispersion forces between the included compounds and water. These forces are proportional to the polarizability of the included compound and also to the geometrical fit of that compound in the clathrate cavities.
The structure of water around protein molecules and other biological structures probably involves extensive clathrate structures, which play an essential part in biochemical processes. This field of specialization has, however, never been of much interest to the paper-shufflers who control tax-funded research grants - to which most academic scientists are addicted. So, research on biochemical clathrates has progressed very slowly.
Your body is filled with beautiful clathrate-like water structures similar to those which, as fully-formed ice, contain vast deposits of permafrost and oceanic methane.
Clathrate methane will likely not be used enough to appreciably diminish the supply - especially since we should change to abun-dant, inexpensive nuclear power in the near future. Its presence, however, is one more reason to ignore the misguided priests of "peak oil." The real issue is "peak hydrocarbons." This peak is at least thousands of years in the future - probably never.
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FEEDING CANCER
"Vitamin C Megadoses Hamper Cancer Treatments in Mice" by Randy Dotinga in The Washington Post, October 1, 2008, reports research published by Mark L. Heaney of the Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center in New York City and his colleagues in which they found that vitamin C interferes with cancer chemo-
therapy in mice. The mice were given the human equivalent of 2 grams of vitamin C per day. This reduced the effectiveness of chemotherapy by between 30% and 70%.
Medical "science" progresses very slowly. Part of the reason for this is that it is dominated by people trained in the application of current medical procedures to individual patients.
To be sure, hundreds of thousands of men and women trained in current medical procedures are necessary. Their skills and educations as MDs are extensive and essential, so they well deserve to be highly respected and generously rewarded.
People who are best able to discover and develop new knowledge require, however, markedly different talents and educations.
A research physical scientist carries, in his brain, a model of the systems in which he specializes. Each and every relevant experimental discovery must be consistent with his model. If an inconsistency arises, the model must change to accommodate it. Everything must conform to experimental reality.
In physics, if an experimental observation is made and is found to be rigorously repeatable, then it is considered a fact of nature. Physical theory must accommodate it. It cannot be ignored.
In medical research, however, most work is not rigorous in this way. If an observation is unusual or not in accord with currently accepted dogma, it is often rejected - for that reason alone.
In 1978, my coworkers and I made the discoveries summarized in Figure 1. See, Robinson, A.B, Hunsberger, A., and Westall, F.C., Mechanisms of Ageing and Development 76 (1994) 201-214. The graph shows the number of squamous cell carcinoma lesions in mice as a function of vitamin C intake. Cancer - pathologically identical to that found in humans - was induced in these mice by means of UV light, just as it is induced in humans. Humans eat about one kilogram of food per day, so the human equivalent dose is numerically the same as grams per kilogram in the mouse food.
The number of lesions at one point in the experiment shown in Figure 1, as delineated in greater detail in our research publication, measures the rate of growth of the cancer.
The cancer growth rate was found to be about 100% higher in 100 mice receiving the human equivalent of 3 grams of vitamin C per day, as compared with mice that did not receive a supplement. At, however, true megadoses of 50 grams per day or higher, vitamin C reduces the cancer growth rate. A diet of raw fruits and vegetables also markedly reduces it. The dietary reduction has an advantage, since doses of vitamin C of 200 grams or greater are fatal to some of the mice. It is better not to be so close to a lethal limit - but, for seriously ill patients, this is justified.
The reported Sloan-Kettering work is almost certainly just a repeat of our finding that the human equivalent of 3 grams of vitamin C per day increases the growth rate of cancer. They used a 2 gram human equivalent and found that the cancer grew faster than expected during their chemotherapy.
We published this result 14 years ago. In physical science, discoveries are not ordinarily forgotten for 14 years and then rediscov-ered. The Journal in which we published was Mechanisms of Ageing and Development - an old and very respected publication. Better, however, would have been the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences, PNAS. Our paper was actually reviewed and submitted to PNAS by Martin Kamen, R. B. Merrifield, and B. Strehler. By the ordinary rules, that submission and recommendation should have meant automatic publication.
PNAS has, however, a special procedure in which any paper with potential medical implications must also pass a designated board of MDs. These MDs rejected the paper - nutrition and cancer not being a mainstream part of current ordinary medicine.
Our publication reported that the rate of growth of squamous cell carcinoma in mice can be varied over a 20-fold range by means of diet alone! Ho-hum. Medicine might become interested if the same thing is rediscovered several times over a period of 50 years.
In an age of ascendency of science and engineering, fields of specialization that depend upon this progress can advance very rapidly -but only if the people in these fields accept this advance. It is not this way in medicine. This is the reason I write medical "science" - with quotation marks. Sometimes it is a science and sometimes it isn't. When it isn't, unnecessary human suffering and death is the result.
HEALTH PROFILING
In the review article "Revolutionizing 21st Century Medicine with Consumer-based Diagnostics and the Internet," J. American Physicians and Surgeons 12, 1, Spring 2007, which was sent to all Access to Energy subscribers, we discussed the advantages of application of modern technology to the quantitative measurement of human health. This work involves extracting quantitative information from human tissues and fluids and computationally analyzing it. This review article gives 21 references to the scientific literature that chronicle our work in this field.
Useful information can be extracted from whole body scans, biopsies, compilations of symptoms, blood analysis, urine analysis, and other sources. All of these are used in one form or another by "modern" medicine - but most of their techniques are technologically far out of date. Constrained by the medical monopoly and stifling government control of most health research, diagnostic medicine has fallen many decades behind technological advance.
This is going to change - although, unless the government-caused de-industrialization and de-capitalization of the United States is reversed, these advances will more likely be made in other countries.
As analytical apparatus is miniaturized and reduced in price, and as research using this apparatus advances, some people living now may well see a time when the air in the rooms in which they live is continuously monitored - with the information obtained used to extend their lives by many years and to markedly reduce their suffering due to ill health. The technology to do this exists now, but it is expensive, and it has not been applied to this problem.
In the nearer term and with the capital still available to Americans, the best substitute is regular urine analysis - by methods that are not now and are not likely in the future to be available from the American medical monopoly, without outside intervention.
Our work on this problem has inched forward to the point that we expect to be ready - by early 2009 - to test new techniques of urine analysis that we have developed.
Usually such tests involve sample sets that are impractical for widespread use. The samples are gathered in specialized ways from unusual groups of people. The end products of the laboratory work are research papers - published in the research literature, but rarely utilized in a practical way. We prefer to avoid this trap.
So, we have decided to ask the readers of Access to Energy to participate. Participation will require that the individual send to us - at regular 3-month intervals - a few drops of his urine. We will provide small vials and shipping containers for this purpose.
In addition to the urine samples, we will need to know the individual's sex and age and to know about specific serious illnesses that he has experienced in the past and illnesses that he experiences during his participation in the experiments. This will involve a health questionnaire similar to that ordinarily filled out in a doctor's office.
Everything - the questionnaire and the analyses - will, of course, be kept rigorously confidential.
In return, the participant can expect nothing other than the satisfaction of having helped with this research. We do not suggest that we will find information in his samples that will benefit him.
We are still refining our analytical and computational procedures. A few months from now, we will send out sample containers.
If you or someone you know would like to participate in this study, please send a note to the Oregon Institute of Science and Medicine, 2251 Dick George Road, Cave Junction, OR 97523. You will not hear from us immediately. Eventually, however, each per-son who volunteers will receive a sampling kit along with the necessary Questionnaire.
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Winter holiday
Dana Love Satin December 21st, 2008 5:16 am MSTI was reading lately that many men prefer tgirls to girls because of their clasically feminine appearence and behaviour. No wonder. A lot of women today want so much equality with men that they started to loose their feminity and become emotionally unattractive.
That's exactly what my boyfriend told me once. He likes me because I'm the girl of his life. He would never find the way I dress, behave and talk at another girl. I agreed with him completely and I realised that I was the girl I've always wanted to date myself (I'm bi). In turn, my boyfriend prooved to be the cute, sensible, loving man I needed as a tgirl. We're trying to keep it that way every day and night and as a result we've never had a fight.
This winter holiday we're going to spend the Christmas and New Year in Vienna, Austria. The place is absolutely beautiful and charming. I've decided that I'm going to be a full time girl for the entire trip (except the plane and customs). I'm very nervous about it, but I feel that I must try it, I NEED to! My boyfriend is very supportive as always and we've picked some very sexy confortable clothes for the period. Classy satin dresses and lingerie couldn't miss, of course:)
It will be an interesting experience so I can't wait to arrive there.
Dana.
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Merry Christmas 2008 To You All!
Karen Reeves December 20th, 2008 11:51 pm MSTHi Everyone!
It is that time of year and yesterday's/today's snowstorm just seems to add to the festive mood of Christmas. I know that getting ready for the holidays can be stressful and painful.
I enjoy all the bright lights, good cheer, parties, the presents, and Xmas dinner. But let us remember the true meaning of Xmas. It is the day that we celeberate the life of one person and the meaning of what it is to strive and have a better planet to live on.
Enjoy your holidays no matter your belief system!!!!!
*Kisses*
~Karen~
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Ellie Ferch Amser December 18th, 2008 6:12 pm MSTtest as requested. Which is my moment to comment that I'm trying to decide whether that white wig is worth keeping.
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Sara Lynn December 18th, 2008 9:54 am MSTThis is a TEST!
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A day to dress.....?
Sakura The Cutie December 11th, 2008 12:35 pm MSTHey gurls. So have something that I want to tell you all about. So two days ago (Tuesday) I didnt have school so I was home alone all morning long. This was the perfect chance for me to dress, so that morning I went into my moms room to find what I wanted to wear but I stopped and frozed before reaching my moms room. I started not feeling like dressing. Then I just went back in my room and started thinking how like its now so boring to dress alone. I've only dressed by myself since I only can do it when no one is home. Its so boring now to dress alone since I can't really share it with someone else in the room with me. I've always wanted to dress with another tgurl or a gg, but that hasn't happened yet and probably won't happen for a long time. So to all of you gurls reading this, should I be feeling and thinking this way? I don't know if its a bad thing to do?
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