Kristen Loretta Kelly
"Taken the next step doing just the everyday things as Kristen dressing most of the time"
Journal Entries for Kristen Loretta Kelly
A New Year.... New Direction
January 8th, 2010 9:31 am MST
The New Year, will see me make many changes, some I had started last year. I plan on kicking up my transition, electrolysis and the return to hormones is in the plan. My transition is something that had taken a seat on the back burner due to fears of work. Those fears have not changed but the feelings I do have, have changed. The past 2 years has seen my hair grow to the point it is well past my shoulders. My hair is not the only thing growing; I have curves in the right places, and naturally not just padding. I am presenting more feminine all the time; it is no longer just the clothes that give me my feminine look. Even at work I have become lax at how they see me, my nails are the latest thing I have stopped caring if they as seen as feminine. I enjoy being seen as just one of the girls and have made new accepting GG friends, I get out with them shopping, to dinner and dancing. I don’t plan on ditching my old friends for my new ones, each have a place in my heart. I have been out just a short 4 years now on a regular basis, never would I have thought I would be where I am today; even my non-op title is under fire as I want to take things farther, GRS is still not planned, but just the thought of considering it is now not foreign. Many take the road of matching the body to the mind; I am taking the path of finding a happy medium that I can live my life and be happy with how I see myself and how others see me.
This is My Time
December 13th, 2007 9:54 pm MST
Little has changed since my last entry, my hair is getting even longer and it feels great. I dress more now in women's jeans and gender neutral tops all the time. I just have to add a little make-up change the earings and "HERE'S Kristen." I get out as often as I can, go anywhere do anything. Have enjoyed the simpler things as Kristen, a Icecrean cone in the park on a hot afternoon, grocery shopping, mainsteam restaurants, even went to a comedy club expecting to be the point of a joke, but sat just far enough from the stage not to be a target and nothing happened. That is how I can describe my reaction of people to my being out......nothing happened. Funny I love being able to blend and go anywhere but I miss seeing the reaction of people to my being there. I have realized I love being noticed, in the spotlight, trying to find time to do Amateur theater in drab, as well as drag shows, but never enough time and if I start will want to do little else. I have travelled as Kristen driving more than 90 miles and stayed enfem for 4 days....not planning on going 24/7 yet but the taste of it was nice and I realized how easy it would be for me to do it. I am living in the best of both worlds, and loving it, but the gap has closed alot between them, I don't change who I am when my clothes change other than my voice. Im being me and loving it.
Never thought it would come to this
November 13th, 2007 8:03 pm MST
Well it finally happen, after Halloween I came out myself to a few of my friends, my GF's family, planning on telling my own family if they don't already know, feels great. I can't keep it to myself any more the hair getting long, love the way it feels many have thought it was a wig don't know if that's good or bad. Does it look like a cheap wig or really that good. I have been getting called miss alot, well between the hair earrings and the way I dress I'm 2 steps from being fulltime and the thought has crossed my mind, but not ready yet. Don't know if I'm out to work officially but taking alot of ribbing, if they dont know, I wish I could tell them how on the point their comments are. Harder to hide everthing under baggy shirts, come summer not going to be able to hide them any more. Diet is comming around very slowly, fighting the holidays, going out to dinner to often and the hormones. It will happen in time. This is my time and feels like a dream, afraid I'm going to wake up and see that guy in the mirror !
